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Chapter no 6

Not in Love

A SHORTCUT HIS BRAIN DID NOT

NEED

 

ELI

After the scene Hark had witnessed earlier today, it was no surpriseย that the first thing he asked when Eli let himself inside Harkโ€™s Old Enfield home was: โ€œWhat the fuck is up with the girl?โ€

โ€œWoman,โ€ Minami corrected him distractedly. She was on Harkโ€™s couch, feet in Sulโ€™s lap, frantically pressing buttons on the PlayStation controller. Eli checked the screen, wondering whom she was shooting dead.

Bafflingly, the game appeared to be about cake decorating.

โ€œRight. Sure.โ€ Hark rolled his eyes. โ€œWhat the fuck is up with the

woman?โ€

Eli ducked into the kitchen, which was spotless in a way only never- been-used steel surfaces could manage. He helped himself to a bottle of Harkโ€™s imported beer and returned to the living room. โ€œJust checking: If my answer were to be โ€˜What woman?โ€™ then . . .โ€

โ€œI would lose all my respect for you.โ€

โ€œI think I can handle that.โ€ He sat next to Hark with a grin. This was their routine when they all happened to be in Austinโ€”increasingly less common as Harkness expanded. Minami and Sul on one half of the sectional, being disgustingly in love, and Eli and Hark on the other, being . .

.ย Disgustingly in love in your own manly, grunting way, Minami had once said. She was probably right.

โ€œHer name is Dr. Rue Siebert,โ€ Sul volunteered.

Eli lifted an eyebrow. โ€œDude, you have a budget of fifty words per day, and you use six of them to give me shit?โ€

Sul smiled, pleased with a job well done, and went back to massaging Minamiโ€™s feet like the whipped traitor he was.

โ€œWhatโ€™s up with Rue Siebert, Eli?โ€ Hark asked, with the tone of someone who wanted an answer ten minutes ago. Eli saw no particular reason not to give him one.

โ€œWe matched online. An app. And met up last night.โ€

Minami paused her game so forcefully, her thumb might need X-rays. โ€œTo . . . ?โ€

โ€œFuck.โ€

โ€œActually, I knew that. I just wanted to hear you say it.โ€ โ€œJesus, Eli. You rode her?โ€ Hark asked, and Minami laughed.

โ€œGood to see that after fifteen years in the US, Hark is still a living, breathing Irishism.โ€

โ€œShut your bake, Minami.โ€

Eli bit back a smile. โ€œNo oneย rodeย anyone, because she was having a rough night. But.โ€

I wanted to.

Iโ€™ve been thinking about her nonstop for the past twenty-four hours.

Iโ€™ve been distracted, irritable, and horny, and I wanted to text her first thing in the morning. I decided it was best to wait since her phone looked busted and she might need to get another, and fuck, I shouldnโ€™t have hesitated.

Eli couldnโ€™t remember ever overthinking an interaction with a woman this much. And heโ€™d been engaged.

โ€œBut?โ€

โ€œNo buts, actually. Sheโ€™s pissed because she thinks weโ€™re trying to take over Kline.โ€

Minami gasped and clutched her throat. โ€œUs? Noย way.โ€

This time Eli couldnโ€™t hide his smile. Until Hark asked pointedly, โ€œIs she going to be a distraction?โ€

โ€œI donโ€™t know.โ€ Eli leaned forward, elbows on his knees, and stared at Hark with a hint of a challenge. โ€œDo Iย everย get distracted, Hark?โ€

Harkโ€™s gaze narrowed. Thick, fat tension rose between the two of them

โ€”and then everyone burst into laughter. Even Sulโ€™s shoulders shook silently.

โ€œIย justย remembered!โ€ Minami clapped her hands. โ€œThat one time Eli fell asleep whileย riding his bike?โ€

โ€œAnd the Semper deal?โ€ Hark spoke as if Eli wasnโ€™t there. โ€œHe got so sucked up in it that he forgot to pick up Maya from overnight campโ€”way to traumatize her, asshole.โ€

โ€œThe bike thing was at three a.m., after a forty-eight-hour experiment, and we all know that ninety percent of Mayaโ€™s trauma was already there.โ€ He took another swig of his beer. Then, zeroing in on Minami, he drawled, โ€œAlso, if we want to talk about unfortunate driving mishaps, letโ€™s discuss that Missouri fair where you got a DUI on the bumper car rink.โ€

โ€œIt was thrown out in court!โ€

โ€œOrโ€โ€”he pointed his finger at Harkโ€”โ€œthat time someone sent the entire Harkness mailing list a message aboutย pubicย liability insurance.โ€

โ€œEmbarrassing,โ€ Hark acknowledged, โ€œbut not driving related.โ€ โ€œOrโ€โ€”Eli circled to Sulโ€”โ€œthe guy who forgot his vows in the middle of

his wedding ceremony.โ€

โ€œI would like to be excluded from this narrative,โ€ Sul requested. โ€œRein in your wife, then. If the marriage is evenย legal.โ€

โ€œOh, it is.โ€ Minami beamed, tapping Sulโ€™s cheek with her socked toe. Some might have felt self-conscious about this level of PDA in their exโ€™s house, but Minami had been reassured, over and over, that Hark didnโ€™t mind. Only Eli knew how much of a lie that was.

Silence dropped, comfortable, familiar, the product of years of being together in the same room, tireless and stubborn, always after the same goal. โ€œToday went well,โ€ Hark said eventually. โ€œNot like Iโ€™d imagined.โ€

โ€œHow so?โ€ Eli asked.

He shrugged a single shoulder, which meant that heย didย know, but wasnโ€™t ready to put it into words.

He would soon enough. He was the angriest out of all of them, and the one most likely to let his rage coalesce into something sharp and focused. Nine years ago, Eli had been drowning in student debt while epically failing at taking care of a tween, and Minami had been drowning in something else, something that made her struggle to get out of bed to brush her teeth in the morning. Hark had been the one to drag them out of their wallow, to go

to the father he despised and askโ€”begโ€”for the firmโ€™s starting capital. โ€œThis is how we get even,โ€ heโ€™d insisted, and heโ€™d been right.

โ€œWe should name the firm Harkness,โ€ Eli had suggested a week before signing the paperwork, sitting at a table lined with his sisterโ€™s homework sheets, wondering why she could solve collegelevel math but not spellย spaghettiย for her fucking life, wondering what the hell he should be doing about it.

โ€œItโ€™s a shit name,โ€ Hark had grunted.

โ€œItโ€™s not. Itโ€™s just your fatherโ€™s name,โ€ Minami had said, not without compassion. โ€œI think it has the sophisticated supervillain flair weโ€™re going for. Plus, whatโ€™s the alternative?ย Killgore?ย Too on the nose.โ€

Eli had given her the finger. Nearly a decade later, and look at them: still giving each other the finger on a daily basis.

โ€œDr. Florence Kline,โ€ Hark said now, like the words tasted bad in his mouth. โ€œHave any of you talked to her yet? In private?โ€

โ€œSul did, for some minor logistical stuff. And the lawyers, of course,โ€ Minami added.

โ€œNot you or Eli?โ€

She shook her head. And then, after a beat, โ€œShe reached out to me via email.โ€

โ€œAnd?โ€

โ€œJust asked if we could talk. Alone. Outside of Kline.โ€ She rolled her lips. โ€œI bet she thinks Iโ€™m the weak link.โ€

โ€œShe clearly hasnโ€™t seen you open a jar of pickles,โ€ Eli muttered, and she smiled.

โ€œRight? Kind of amusing, given that Iโ€™m the one most likely to push someone under a lawn mower.โ€

โ€œDid you reply?โ€ Hark asked.

โ€œNope. Iโ€™d rather drink battery acid, thank you very much. Why? Do you think I should?โ€

Hark glanced at Eli. โ€œAny benefits you can think of in Minami having a one-on-one with her?โ€

Eli mulled it over. โ€œMaybe in the future. For now, let Florence sweat it a bit.โ€

Minami nodded. โ€œSheโ€™s properly freaked out, I can tell. Despite her bullshit speech today, she must be hiding something.โ€

โ€œI, for one, really appreciate the collaborative environment sheโ€™s trying to foster,โ€ Eli said dryly, which had Minami sniggering and Sul snorting.

โ€œYou know what it means, right?โ€ Hark asked. โ€œIf sheโ€™s hiding shit, itโ€™s not just from us, but also from the board. And sheโ€™s dead certain that we wonโ€™t find out.โ€

โ€œThatโ€™s fine.โ€ Eli drained what was left of his beer. โ€œI donโ€™t mind proving her wrong.โ€ The biofuel tech was as good as theirs. That was all that mattered.

โ€œTomorrow Iโ€™ll meet with the core research and development team,โ€ Hark said. โ€œReassure them that theyโ€™re not going to get caught in the cross fire.โ€

โ€œYeah. Theyโ€™re not the ones who should be worried.โ€ Eli stood to leave. โ€œI gotta get to Tiny. Iโ€™ll see youโ€”โ€

โ€œWait,โ€ Minami interrupted, eyes on her phone. โ€œAbout Rue Siebert.โ€ Eli halted.

It was a problem, knowing her name. It made conjuring her image that much easierโ€”a shortcut his brain did not need. โ€œWeโ€™re still talking about her, arenโ€™t we?โ€

โ€œWell, I googled her. Just to know what your type looks like these days.โ€ Eli sighed.

โ€œApparently she was a student athlete just like you, which is interesting. But even more interesting is this fluff article that came up, from theย Austin Chronicle.โ€ She held out her phone, and he read the title aloud.

โ€œโ€˜Industry Mentor Offers Exciting New Opportunities for Women in STEM Whoโ€”โ€™ Is this about Florence?โ€

โ€œYup. She has become a champion of the underclass, clearly.โ€ Minami snorted. โ€œRue Siebert and Tisha Fuli were hired by her a year ago. Your girlfriend has no social media that I could find, so I looked up Tishaโ€”who, by the way, is aย rock star. Summa cum laude at Harvard, scholarships, awards. Sheโ€™s hot shit, and judging by her unlocked Instagram account, she and Rue might be besties. Look at this #tbt pic of them. They canโ€™t have been older than ten.โ€

Eli did look. Rue was angular and gangly, eyes and mouth too big for her face, holding hands with her friend as they skated side by side in the middle of an ice rink. The contrast with the adult she had grown to be, tall and strong andย lush, made Eli lean in for closer inspection, but Minami had already turned the phone away.

โ€œLove Tishaโ€™s bio, by the way. โ€˜No im not looking for a sugar daddy and ur not Keanu reeves stop DMing me.โ€™ Might steal it. Anyway,ย thisย is the biggie.โ€ This time she handed him her phone. It was a picture of three women hugging in front of a rainbowcolored brick wall. The redhead in the center was much shorter, a little older, and very familiar.

 

Since my little sisterย @nyotafuliย STILL wonโ€™t follow me back, Iโ€™m officially swapping her for Florence Kline. Best friend, best boss, and now best sister ever. Ilu, happy birthday!

He glanced back at the picture. Florenceโ€™s and Tishaโ€™s grins were ray-of- sunshine wide. Rueโ€™s was more subdued, closemouthed, like she felt the need to hold back. Eli had to pry his eyes from her face.

โ€œI see.โ€ He did. There was clearly a personal relationship here. Rueโ€™s words today, her hostility, suddenly made much more sense.

Whatย didย she know? What had Florence Kline told her about Harkness?

Aboutย Eli?

โ€œThereโ€™s more. Guess where your future wife got her PhD?โ€ Minami asked.

โ€œDonโ€™t say UT engineering, please.โ€ โ€œOkay. I wonโ€™t.โ€

โ€œWell, shit.โ€ Eli turned to Hark. They exchanged an uneasy look.

โ€œTisha and Rue, they might have better access to Florence than most other people at Kline,โ€ Minami continued. โ€œWe might want to keep an eye on them. See if they know anything.โ€

Eli pinched the bridge of his nose. โ€œLet me guess. โ€˜Weโ€™ means โ€˜meโ€™?โ€ โ€œYou know her already. Just saying.โ€

โ€œGoing by what I walked into earlier today, Iโ€™m not sure itโ€™s an advantage,โ€ Hark pointed out.

Minami only smiled in a curious, secretive way. โ€œWhy donโ€™t you go to her lab tomorrow, Eli? See what sheโ€™s working on. Snoop.โ€

Eliโ€™s โ€œย fuckโ€ was soft. โ€œIs this some abortive attempt at match-making?โ€ โ€œWho? Me?โ€ She slapped her chest. โ€œNever.โ€

โ€œMinami. Her work is not even related to biofuels. Sheโ€™s beyond irrelevant.โ€

โ€œWhat do we have to lose?โ€

Eli opened his mouth to protestโ€”then closed it when he realized how unhinged his response would sound. He couldnโ€™t say it out loud, that he felt

like heโ€™dย alreadyย lost something, or at least the possibility of it. That he needed distance from Rue. It was bullshit, since theyย wereย distant, miles apart on parallel streets, and inserting himself in her life was not going to bring them any closer. โ€œYouโ€™reย soย generous with my time.โ€

โ€œGive it two days, and sheโ€™ll have you sleep with her for info,โ€ Hark muttered. Eliโ€™s hand, which had been patting his pockets in search of car keys, briefly stuttered.

โ€œPoor Eli.โ€ Minami smiled, sly. โ€œHeโ€™s so put off by the idea. What hardship.โ€

Eli flipped them all off half-heartedly and headed home, resigned. Minami always thought she knew best. Unfortunately, she tended to be right.

When he stepped into his kitchen, Maya was sitting at the counter, frowning into her tablet at something that could have been a physics article or Wattpad fan fiction. She wasย thatย eclectic.

โ€œI made dinner,โ€ she said distractedly. โ€œYou hungry?โ€

He dropped his keys on the counter and tilted his head skeptically. โ€œYou

madeย dinner.โ€

She looked up. โ€œI ordered Chinese on Grubhubโ€”with your moneyโ€”and I put it on one of the paper plates I boughtโ€”also with your moneyโ€” because Iโ€™m sick of loading and unloading the dishwasher. Would you like some?โ€

He nodded, smiling faintly while she spooned rice and chicken out of the containers for him. His gaze wandered to the table, where sheโ€™d made a move in their ongoing chess game. He made a mental note to study it later and accepted his plate.

The home where theyโ€™d been raised had been foreclosed a decade earlier, but Eli had bought this one about six years ago, after Harkness had taken off, after heโ€™d paid off his sizable debt, after heโ€™d become financially stable enough to cover Mayaโ€™s undergrad tuition wherever she chose to go. At the time, heโ€™d figured Allandale would be a nice neighborhood to settle down in, with its well-kept parks and quiet atmosphere and good food. He and McKenzie had been talking about marriage, maybe not enthusiastically, but often enough that heโ€™d taken for granted theyโ€™d eventually get around to it. Theyโ€™d live here, and . . . hire a photographer for bucolic family photos, argue over the thermostat, grill every night. Whatever the fuck it was that

happy, well-adjusted people did. Theyโ€™d soak in the peace of the place, since their relationship was all about calm and harmony and restraint.

But here he was, living with his sister. His sister, who used to accuse him of crimes against humanity and couldnโ€™t get away from him soon enough at eighteen, had decided to โ€œcome back homeโ€ for her masterโ€™s, her magnetic poetry stuck on his fridge and the syrupy scent of her candles cozy in the too-hot evening. As for McKenzie . . . Before today, Eli couldnโ€™t remember the last time heโ€™d thought about her.

That was telling enough. โ€œWhereโ€™s Tiny?โ€ he asked.

โ€œNot sure.ย Tiny?ย โ€ Summoned, Tiny barged in through the garden doggy door and threw all of his one hundred and eighty pounds of mutt delight at Eli, who was just as happy to see him. Maya rolled her eyes. โ€œHe was busy pining for his one true love to return from the war. I just walked him, by the way. The ingrate. How was work?โ€

Eli just grunted, vigorously scratching the backs of Tinyโ€™s ears to his exact specifications. The reward was as close to a smile as a canine could physically achieve. โ€œHow was school?โ€

She grunted just the same, and they exchanged an amused look.

Look at us. Related, after all.

โ€œDid you see Hark today?โ€ Mayaโ€™s tone was the personification of casual disinterest. Eli swallowed a snort and sat on the stool next to hers. โ€œHow is he?โ€

โ€œStill not age appropriate for you.โ€ โ€œI think heโ€™s into me.โ€

โ€œI think itโ€™s a felony.โ€

โ€œHasnโ€™t been for a while, since I am almost twenty-two years old.โ€ Tiny whimpered softly at Eliโ€™s feet, as though in agreement. Traitor.

โ€œYes. Fair point. Until you remember that whenย Harkย was twenty-two years old, you had yet to achieve full control of your bowels.โ€

She shot him a baffled look. โ€œDo you think nine-year-olds use diapers?โ€

Yes. No? What the fuck didย heย know? Heโ€™d barely paid attention to her before sheโ€™d been shoved into his life. โ€œThis feels like a trick question, and I donโ€™t plan to engage with it.โ€

โ€œSeems kind of puritanical ofย you, someone whose entire download history is hiking trail maps, solitaire, and sex-forward dating apps.โ€

His eyebrow rose. โ€œHark doesnโ€™t do relationships, either.โ€

โ€œThatโ€™s fine. I donโ€™t want to marry him. I just want toโ€”โ€ โ€œDo not say it.โ€

โ€œโ€”use his beautiful, former rowerโ€™s body.โ€

โ€œShe fucking said it,โ€ he mumbled. โ€œCan you please not put in my head images that a therapist will have me reenact with dolls five years down the line?โ€

โ€œBut itโ€™s soย fun.โ€

โ€œListen, you are legally free to engage in orgies with people four times your age, butโ€”โ€

โ€œโ€˜But donโ€™t expect me to facilitate any of that,โ€™ I know, I know.โ€ She sighed. โ€œHow was the date last night?โ€

โ€œIt was . . .โ€ God, it was so messed up that the only thing he could think of saying was, โ€œGood.โ€

Because it was true. Being with Rue, even just to talk, had been good.

Wasnโ€™t that incredibly fucking pitiful? โ€œWill you see her again?โ€

He thought about the following day. โ€œMaybe.โ€ He bent his head to focus on his food, then on Mayaโ€™s recounting of her computational physics class, then on Tinyโ€™s soft snores rising up from his feet. And told himself that if he couldnโ€™t avoid Rue Siebert, he should at least try to think about her a little less.

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