OLIVIA
THIS ISย the kind of house you see in magazines, the kind you spend your life dreaming of. Where the idea that something like this could one day be yours isnโt so far-fetched.
Nestled back in a gated community in North Vancouver, with a driveway that I swear spans the length of my high school, the sprawling two-story house sits at the base of Mount Fromme. Large gray stone, slate blue siding, and wooden pillars work together to make this home the masterpiece it is, and the backdrop behind itโthe sea of dark green forest capped with snow, the peaks of the mountaintop, the trillions of stars you canโt see anywhere elseโmakes it utterly breathtaking.
โYou gonna stand out here all night or come in?โ
I drag my gaze off the backdrop and try to ignore the butterflies that erupt in my belly when I find Carter on the front porch, leaning against a pillar, his hands tucked in his pockets, and an easy smile on his face as he watches me.
Iโm not sure Iโve ever been so attracted to him as I am in this moment. Dark, fitted denim, and deep green and blue plaid button-up, untucked and with the sleeves rolled. His warm chestnut waves lay in a tousled mess atop his head, and heโs so effortlessly handsome it nearly hurts.
He tips his head in the direction of the front door. โCara and Em left you out here to fend for yourself.โ
โSo you thought youโd save me?โ
His grin grows as I take a few steps toward him, and he straightens off the pillar. โNah. Iโm the one you need saving from.โ
โAh, right. Big, bad Carter.โ
He lifts an arm, flexing his bicep, and right after he kisses it, he pumps his brows. โI am big.โ
I climb the two steps to the porch and enjoy the way his eyes gleam when I step into him. โBut youโre not all that bad, are you?โ
โSo bad,โ he murmurs.
โReally?โ I run the tip of my finger along the collar of his shirt. โBecause thereโs a picture of you with Olaf painted on your cheek that says differently.โ
His gaze darkens. โDonโt remind me you had my number painted on you last week.โ
My fingers curl around his shirt, bringing him closer as I whisper, โThe first thing I did when I got home was scrub that bad boy right off.โ
A feral sound rumbles deep in his throat as his eyes narrow, and with a snicker, I back away, peering around the covered porch.
โThis house is insane.โ
โI know.โ He zeroes in on my dress beneath my open coat. โSo is that dress.โ He holds his sleeve up to my stomach. โWe match.โ
โLooks like we do.โ I wonโt tell him I slipped on this dress tonight because the color reminded me of his eyes.
โCome on.โ He slings an arm around my shoulder and leads me toward the door. โBefore you freeze and we have to strip down and rely on body heat and cuddling to warm you back up.โ
โCarter Beckett doesnโt cuddle,โ I reply, looking with wonder around the expansive front foyer. Itโs as grand inside as it is outside, and everything feelsโฆright. Homey and warm, like the only place youโd be content to be during a snowstorm, snuggled up on the couch in your pjโs with your hot chocolate, a classic Disney movie, and the people who matter most.
โIโd cuddle with you.โ
I prop a fist on my hip. โYouโre pulling out all the stops, arenโt you?โ Carter drops his face as he chuckles, one hand on the back of his head.
Instead of responding, he starts peeling my coat from my body, and I shift the container in my left hand to my right when he requires that arm.
โWhatโs this?โ he asks, taking it from me once he hangs my coat.
โItโs nothing special. Theyโre bacon-wrapped water chestnuts with a sweet and spicy glaze. Theyโreโโ I stop midsentence, watching as he tosses one in his mouth, humming.
โSo good,โ he mumbles, tongue running along his lower lip to catch the lingering sauce.
โYou are a never-ending pit, arenโt you?โ
The lopsided smile he gives me brews a fire in my belly, and his next words stoke it. โI can go all night, baby.โ
I clear the lump of desire in my throat. โTheyโre for the host. Cara said all the foodโs been catered in, but I thought Iโd bring something anyway as a thank-you for having me.โ
โOh. Well, thank you. And youโre welcome.โ He takes my hand and makes to drag me down the hallway.
โWhat?โ My eyes move around the foyer once more, and this time I focus on the faces in the photos. Though heโs many years younger in most of them, Iโd recognize that face anywhere. โThis is your house?โ
โUh-huh. As dazzling as I am, donโt ya think?โ
โItโsโฆitโs beautiful. Why didnโt you tell me it was your house when you invited me?โ
โDidnโt I?โ He shrugs and takes my hand again, tugging. โOh well.
Letโsโโ
โWait a second.โ
Carterโs body stills and he looks at the ground. The expression he wears is cautious and nervous as he slowly swivels my way, like he knows exactly where this is going.
โI thought you had a condo downtown. You said you could carry me there on your back in eight minutes.โ
โRight. I did, uh, say that.โ โOr am I mistaken?โ
โNo, youโre not, uhโฆโ His arm lifts, palm scrubbing the back of his neck. โI do have a condo downtown. I just donโt live there. I live here.โ
My nose scrunches. โThen why would you have a condo?โ
I can tell he doesnโt want to answer. Or maybe he just doesnโt know what to say. The man looks like a deer caught in headlights.
I lift my brows, waiting, and my gaze flickers to Garrett as he comes trotting down the staircase. โCarter? Why do you have a condo if you donโt live there?โ
โCondo?โ Garrett repeats, quickly wrapping me in a hug and clapping Carter on the back as he moves by us. โYou mean Carterโs Palace ofโโ He slams his jaw shut, bright eyes wide as his gaze ricochets between us.
โCarterโs Palace of what?โ I urge.
โDonโt,โ Carter warns him lowly. โDonโt you dare.โ
A beat of silence stretches between us, the tension palpable.
โLove,โ Garrett barely whispers. โCarterโs Palace of Love.โ He cowers from Carterโs menacing stare before dashing down the hallway, calling his apology over his shoulder. โIโm sorry, okay? I donโt lie well under pressure!ย Donโt hurt me!โ
With my arms pinned across my chest, I hold Carterโs stare. His is a mixture of afraid and amused. He shouldnโt be amused. He should be 100 percent terrified, because right now Iโm thinking of kicking his ass.
โOut of curiosity, what line were you going to feed me if Garrett hadnโt accidentally outed you for having a Palace of Love, where you take all your special friends?โ
โTheyโre not my special friends. Theyโre not even my friends.ย Youโreย my friend. And youโre special.โ
Oh for the love ofโย โCarter.โ
He cringes. โMaybe I wouldโve told you I sold it?โ โOh, so you wouldโve lied?โ
โWhat? Ugh.โ He sighs, slumping. โNo, I wouldnโt have lied.โ
โSo youโd have told me the truth, that you have a condo downtown for easy access to fuck after your games?โ
โNo, Iโahhh.โ He claps both hands to his face, rubbing them up, then dragging them down in slow motion. โThis feels like a trap. You wouldnโt have liked either of those answers.โ His chest inflates with his deep breath, and he lets it out with a lowย whoosh. โI wouldโve told you that youโre the first woman Iโve ever had to my house who hasnโt been a family member or a friendโs girlfriend. That Iโm happy to have you here, not there, and to spend some time getting to know you better tonight.โ
I know what heโs doing. Heโs trying to deflect from the negative, to turn his fuckpad into a positive because Iโm the special one whoโs made it here instead. He seems good at that, seeing the positives, even if right now itโs to talk himself out of a corner. But the truth is Iโve never been very good at being an optimist. Iโm not a pessimist, either, or at least I donโt think so. I think Iโm just a realist. I see both sides, or I normally try to.
He tucks my container under his arm and takes my hands in his, stepping into me. โCan you forget about all the preconceived bullshit for
tonight? One night, Ollie. I know Iโve got a reputation, and I know Iโm not an angel. Letโs pretend none of that exists and enjoy our date.โ
โItโs not a date,โ I remind him.
โAnd weโll pretend that youโre not jealous.โ
Sigh. And he was doing so well.
I flick his collarbone before strutting by him. โGet over yourself, Beckett.โ
His hearty chuckle trails behind me, and of the sentence he mutters to himself, I only catch the wordsย assย andย dress.
I swivel on my heels. โWhat did you say?โ
The grin he flashes has me believing heโs the devil in chiseled marble.
Thereโs not an innocent bone in that muscled body of his.
โI said you look stunning tonight in that dress.โ Thatโs not remotely close to what he said.
Long fingers lacing through mine, he tugs me along behind him. โCโmon, pip-squeak. Letโs go have a drink.โ
I canโt think of a more awful, stupid, deliriously alluring idea. So naturally, I follow him.
I could die a happy woman in this kitchen.
I donโt know if itโs the sprawling midnight blue cabinets, the brick backsplash, the double-wall oven, the shiny marble countertops, or the stone fireplace in the living room thatโs visible from here. All I know is if I took my last breath standing right here, that would be okay.
โYou look like youโre in heaven.โ
A fizzy red drink appears in front of me, cranberries and limes bobbing around, and I waste no time bringing the glass to my lips, humming as I sip the sweet nectar.
โThank you,โ I murmur to Carter as he drops to his elbows beside me at the island. โIโm pretty sure I have this kitchen saved on my dream home Pinterest board.โ
โWhatโs a Pinterest?โ
โWhatโs aโโ Sighing, I shake my head. โNever mind.โ
Before I have time to contemplate the way his grin goes from self- assured to a little wobbly, Carter pulls open a drawer. His hand swallows a small brown package, and he clears his throat.
โHey, um, this is maybe kinda weird, but I got you somโโ โOlivia!โ
Carter slams the drawer, the package disappearing inside, his cheeks igniting as Adam yanks me into his side, and Iโm dying to know whatโs in there.
โCarter said you were coming, but none of us believed it.โ
Garrett raises his hand. โI said youโd be here. Bet everyone a hundred bucks.โ He pulls a wad of hundreds out of his jeans, fanning them at his face. โThanks for showing up.โ
Emmett pulls one bill free and stuffs it in my hand. โOllie gets one of these since she made it happen.โ
Cara steals a bill. โAnd I get one because I brought her.โ
โStupid stipulations,โ Garrett grumbles, tucking his money away before anyone else can claim some.
Cara pats Adamโs shoulder. โDid you know youโre Livโs favorite Viper?โ
His face lights up as he stands a bit taller, running a palm down his proud chest. โReally? Me?โ
โYep.โ I ignore the look of shock and betrayal Carter wears. โYouโre like a brick wall out there.โ Iโm also pretty sure Adamโs the sweetest man in the league. Every time heโs complimented in a postgame interview, he gets all shy and looks away from the camera.
โOllie played hockey for fifteen years,โ Carter tells him.
โReally?โ Adam eyes me up and down. โI want you to tell me you were a goalie, but youโre fucking tiny.โ He folds his lips into his mouth. โIโm sorry. Tinyโs not a bad thing, itโs justโโ
โNot good for a goalie, I get it. I tried for a year when I was eight.โ My nose wrinkles. โIt was the worst. Iโm not built for the guilt that comes with losing. Iโm too sensitive and couldnโt separate myself from the loss. Iโd cry the entire car ride home because Iโd blame myself.โ
Adam nods and gestures all around him, to Carter, Garrett, and Emmett, to the rest of his teammates sprinkled throughout the house. โSome losses are harder than others but itโs always a bit easier when Iโve got these guys to lift me up after.โ
โIs your girlfriend here? I havenโt met her.โ
โOh, uhโฆโ Adam palms his nape. โNo, she wasnโt feeling up to it tonight. Maybe next time. Sheโd love you.โ
Youโll hate her, Cara mouths over his shoulder, and the look nearly everyone else wears, including Carter, tells me the same.
โIโll look forward to meeting her.โ I nudge Garrett. โWhat about you?
Anyone special?โ
โNuh-uh.โ He gives me a lazy grin and a wink. โWhy, you lookinโ for a midnight kiss?โ
Carter scoffs, sweeping his arms out. โYou canโt kiss my date at midnight!โ
โFor Godโs sake, Carter, this isnโt a date.โ
โYou canโt kiss my not-a-real-date-but-actually-is-a-real-date at midnight!โ
Rolling my eyes, I bury my smile behind the hand I drag down my face.
Garrett leans into me, mouth close to my ear. โFull disclosure, Iโve got five hundred bucks riding on you kissing him at midnight.โ
Before I can respond, an eruption of cheer comes from the dining room, and Garrett claps his hands together.
โCโmon, Liv. Letโs play beer pong.โ He tows me toward the crowded room where a gorgeous spalted maple table is covered in red cups and ping- pong balls. โYou can be my partner. Weโll make Carter and Adamย weep.โ
Carter trails in behind us, hands tucked in his pockets, and I follow his glower to Garrettโs hand wrapped around my hip.
Oh my. Mr. Beckett is jealous.
His gaze flips to meet mine, and a smirk tugs at the corner of his mouth. He saunters over to me while Garrett and Adam fill six cups each with beer, arranging them in the shape of a triangle on opposite ends of the table.
His fiery stare burns every place on my body it touches. โCare to make this interesting?โ
My fingers run up the line of his buttons. โWhat did you have in mind?โ His gaze bounces to my mouth. โI win, and I get your midnight kiss.โ My breath snags in my throat and Cara snickers. Itโs been a few years,
mind you, but in university, Cara and I were the queens of the beer pong table. We went entirely undefeated our sophomore and junior year.
โAnd if I win?โ
โYou wonโt. My motivation is too high.โ
I admire his tenacity; Iโll give him that much. Trailing my finger down his torso, I stop just above the waistband of his jeans. My single drink has gone straight to my head, because Iโm seriously considering the possibility of me sticking my hand down there later. โHumor me.โ
His green eyes twinkle with delight. โWhat would you like?โ
Iโd love a foot rub and to be politely railed into the new year if Iโm being honest, but the request that comes out of my mouth is so much tamer. โYou have to take me to seeย Frozen II.โ Iโm dying to see it and I figure heโd rather be caught dead than at a public movie theater with a girl, watching a Disney princess movie.
The group around us groans, as if they know something I donโt.
The skin around Carterโs eyes crinkles, his wide smile pulling those dimples right in. โDeal.โ His fingers push back the loose curls hanging down the side of my face, tucking them behind my ear, where his hand slips to my nape as he hauls me closer. โJokeโs on you, Ol.โ He touches a tender, barely-there kiss to my jaw, warm breath dusting down my neck, making me tremble. โI love Disney movies and I get to take you on a date.โ As he walks away, bouncing the ping-pong ball off the table, he adds, โNow I win, regardless of the outcome of this game.โ
Carter is good, as expected. So are Adam and Garrett.
But Iโm better.
When Garrett and I win the first game, Carter quickly declares itโs a best of three scenario. And when we win the second game, too, itโs suddenly the best three out of five.
When I sink the first ball during the third round, Garrett lifts me into the air while the crowd weโve gathered around us hollers.
โIโve never seen Carter lose at anything so many times in a row before,โ Garrett whispers when he drops me back to the ground, his hand on my back.
My eyes lift to meet Carterโs dark ones, already locked on us, an almost imperceptible tick in his jaw. I canโt tell if itโs losing thatโs brought on this response, or the way Garrettโs been so blatantly flirting with me the entire time.
Ping-pong balls soar through the air as we trade points back and forth for the next several minutes, sloshing liquid all over the fancy table, until there are only two cups left on each side. With tensions high and Carter up next, Emmett calls out to me.
โEh, Ollie, hold up! You dropped something!โ
Having left everything with my coat, I peer up at him in confusion. His brows quirk, and I follow his pointing finger to a whole shit load of nothing before he hits me with a sneaky wink.
Message received.
Look, Iโm a woman. I may be small, but what I lack in height I make up for in hips and curves. Iโve also been told I have a killer ass, something Cara likes to remind me of often with a gentleย pat-patย whenever she strolls by me.
I tend to be a little self-conscious about the softness of my edges, the roundness of my ass, all things that have come via a healthy obsession with spending endless hours scrolling through desserts on Pinterest, or watching inspirational baking videos on Instagram, and then trying to recreate them. But the truth is most men find all those dips and curves irresistible.
And Carter Beckett? Heโs definitely most men.
I note the way heโs poised over the table, gaze flitting between the cup heโs aiming at and me. When I smile, he smiles back, soft and sweet. I almost feel bad for what Iโm about to do.
Almost.
Turning my back on him, I bend over, right down to the ground, lingering there for a moment, just long enough to hear what I want to hear.
Pingโฆpingโฆping. โFuck!โ
Adam chucks a ping-pong ball off the table. โAre you fucking kidding me, Beckett? You got distracted by anย ass!โ
He drags both hands down his face before gesturing at me. โItโs one banginโ ass!โ
Carterโs wayward ball rolls to my feet and I shoot up, holding it above my head. โGot it!โ
Adam gently bangs his forehead off the wall, groaning, and Carterโs wearing the s*xiest scowl Iโve ever seen. The alcohol in me dares me to kiss it right off.
Emmett claps my hand, howling with laughter, and Garrett grabs my face, kissing my forehead with a loud smack. He sinks his own shot with ease, then proceeds to rub my shoulders while he talks strategy in my ear.
โJust take it slow. Take a deep breath. Donโt rush your shot. Weโve got it in the bag. Any cup, Liv, any cup.โ
He steps away and Cara darts in, slapping a hand to my ass. โLetโs go, baby!โ
I set my eyes on the cup I want and get into position. Iโm confident, and I know itโs warranted.
โOh, Carter?โ I call, and his mouth quirks as he watches me. โI went a hundred and eight games undefeated in university.โ Eyes locked on his, I send the ball soaring, arrogant grin detonating my face when I hear that plop as it sinks into his drink, the crowd around us exploding with cheers.
Adam sinks to the floor, Carter grips the edge of the table, dropping his head with a growl, and Garrett spins me in his arms.
Drunk me realizes whatever Iโm feeling for Carter is much more than an attraction to all his s*xy bits, and I donโt really know what to do with that. Logic tells me to run, to shut it down before it becomes more, because this man will break me.ย Illogic saysย Eh, fuck it, letโs give it a shot.
Iโm not sure which one will win, but the bold part of me swings two arms around his neck and says, โHow does it feel to lose, big boy?โ
Something daunting and feral flashes in his eyes, and his palm slides over my collarbone, fingers wrapping tenderly around the base of my throat.
โTrust me. The last thing Iโve done is lost.โ