THE DOWNFALLย to international winter travel is 100 percent the brutal shock to your system when you return home to British Columbia in the middle of December after coasting through Florida and North Carolina for a couple of days.
Weโre bordering on the edge of a deep freeze, straddling that 0 degrees Fahrenheit line. Despite the fact that itโs highly unusual for the west coast, itโs also technically not even winter yet. I live in North Vancouver where it tends to beย just slightlyย more reminiscent of a typical Canadian winter, but nothing like this. It feels kinda like a bad omen, but I typically choose to ignore obvious signs.
Still, itโs cold as fucking balls, Iโm recovering from a hangover, I spent five-and-a-half hours on a plane today playing euchre with my teammates, and I lost every goddamn game except one. Todayโs one of those rare Saturdays where hockey doesnโt exist for our team, and instead of spending it at home in my sweats while I deep dive into a Disney marathon and an XL pizza, Iโm walking through a blustery night, heading to a fucking surprise birthday party.
โIโm fucking pooched, man.โ I groan, stuffing my hands a little farther into the pockets of my wool coat as I stroll down the sidewalk, using my teeth to tug my scarf up to my chin.
โFuckinโ same,โ Garrett Andersen, my right-winger drawls, east coast twang slipping in like it does when heโs tired or drunk. Right now, itโs the former. โNearly bailed but thought better of it.โ He grabs at his crotch. โI like my balls right where they are, thank you very much.โ
His worry isnโt lost on me. The birthday girl has threatened to castrate us on several occasions for much tamer offenses. On her bad side is the last
place I want to be on Caraโs twenty-fifth birthday. Sheโs scary enough as it is, and now weโve missed that part where you jump out and yellย โSurprise!โย Iโm banking on her already being three drinks deep by now and happy enough with the glittery pink gift bag hanging off my forearm to forget sheโs mad at us.
โAnd we all know you donโt miss a chance to dip your stick,โ Garrett adds, tipping his head across the road toward the bar weโre heading to.
Not normally, but Iโm fucking tired as hell. Iโve already decided on bailing early to head home to sleep in the bed Iโve missed for the last four nights, sans somewhere warm to bury my dick. The idea of sleeping in my own bed is too good an idea to pass up. Call me crazy, but no s*x is worth a good nightโs sleep when you really need it.
โMaybe Iโm gonna be a good boy tonight,โ is the response I give Garrett, the corner of my mouth pulling up when he rolls his eyes. โI can keep it in my pants for one night.โ
He jogs ahead of me, crossing the street when a gap appears between traffic. โDoubt it!โ
โOops,โ I murmur when Iย accidentallyย jam my elbow into his side as I push past him, reaching for the door. With a grin, I hold it open, gesturing for him to go on ahead of me.
The bar looks as I expected it to: a fuckton pink and a shitload packed. I usually thrive on chaos, which is maybe why my spine straightens at the boisterous laughter, the loud music, but I just want to post up in the corner of the bar with my teammates and sip a cold beer or two.
In addition to the pink, thereโs a whole lot of gold and floral. Thank fuck for Caraโs best friend, because we were nearly on dรฉcor duty until Emmett told us she had it handled. I havenโt met her, but sheโs gotta be pretty brave to willingly take on party dรฉcor when the birthday girl runs her own event planning business. Disappointing Cara is never something I want to be responsible for; see the aforementioned castrating.
โGare-Bear! Carter!โ
Immediately following the screech, a body hurls itself into my arms, knocking the air straight from my lungs as long limbs wrap around me.
โHappy birthday, Care,โ I singsong as the toasted birthday girl slithers down my body before crushing Garrett in a hug.
Cara eyes the little pink bag in my hands, bouncing on her toes in her sky-high heels. โOooh, gimme-gimme!โ
โAh-ah,โ I tsk, holding the bag away from her. โWhere are your manners?โ
Her blue eyes roll as she pops a hip. โGimme my fucking present,
please.โ
I snort a laugh, shoving it into her greedy hands. โFrom Gare-Bear and
I.โ
I hit Garrett with a wink, because the unimpressed face he makes,
pulled-down brows, and deep frown tell me what I already know: the only people who get away with that nickname are his little sisters and Cara.
Cara wastes no time tearing the bag apart, ditching the tissue paper over her shoulder. Opening the small velvet box inside, she squeals. She pulls out the platinum chain, the diamond-encrusted letterย Cย hanging from it, and shakes it in my face. โPut it on, put it on!โ
I watch her twirl, sweeping her silky waist-length golden locks off her back and over her shoulder. My brows inch up my forehead as my eyes follow the curve of her spine down to her round ass.ย Backless dress. Nice.
Look, sheโs one of my best friendโs girls. Iโd never, ever touch her, but Iโm a man with two eyes on my face. I can appreciate a good-looking woman without a desire to act on it.
Garrett lands an elbow in my rib cage, making me keel over with anย oof. He snatches the necklace from Caraโs outstretched hand, fastening it around her neck.
Sheโs still squealing, hands clasped together as she bounces forward with a peck on the cheek for both of us. Hooking her arms through ours, she guides us into the bar.
โYou guys are gonna have the best time, I just know it. My friends are amazeballs, โspecially my bestie. I canโt wait for you to meet her!โ She levels me with a look that tells me to cut the shit before Iโve even started. โI need you to be on your best behavior tonight.โ
I throw my hands in the air. โWhat the fuck does that mean?โ
โYou know what it means. Donโt try any funny business with Liv.โ โWhoโs Liv?โ
She scoffs. โOlivia! My best friend!โ
โOhhh, right, right. Her.โ Iโve somehow managed to avoid meeting her for a year, which is probably for the best and definitely at the hands of Emmett. Heโs mentioned something along the lines of me fucking her once and breaking her heart, which somehow ultimately winds up with Cara
dumping him and it being all my fault. So I guess Iโm not allowed to touch her or whatever.
Itโs fine by me, at least for tonight. Iโve got a handful of message requests in my Instagram inbox from Lacey reminding me exactly why I should take a week or two off from women. Hard to forget her name when she sends thirteen goddamn messages in a single hour, the exact amount of times she mentioned being on the cover ofย Maxim. Coincidence? I think the fuck not.
The more I think about it, the more exhausted I am with the idea of entertaining someone else tonight. It only further cements the idea of going the fuck home and passing the fuck out face-first in a package of Oreos.
Cara leaves us with the promise of catching up later, dancing across the floor toward a group of girls, and Garrett and I find the rest of our unruly teammates huddled in the corner. By the looks of it, theyโre at least halfway in the bag already, drinks sloshing over the floor as they slam their glasses around, howling with laughter. Thereโs nothing like a Saturday off for my boys.
โHow did you two manage to miss the surprise?โ Adam Lockwood, our goalie, claps my hand before tipping his beer to his lips. โLucky bastards.โ
I catch the bartenderโs eye and mouthย Mill Street. With a nod, he starts filling a pint glass. โGot stuck at my momโs,โ I explain, peeling off my coat. โNot sure thatโs any better.โ
I made the mistake of stopping off at my momโs immediately after landing. Sheโs one of those people that suddenly remembers everything she forgot to tell me when itโs time for me to leave, and it canย neverย wait until a next-day phone call. She never stops talking. It was seven when I finally left, and I still had to go home and shower.
โEh, Woody.โ I nudge Adamโs arm. โWhereโs your girl?โ I swipe my beer off the bar top, noticing heโs missing the redhead whoโs normally hanging off his arm. Except she hasnโt been doing that so much lately. Canโt remember the last time Iโve seen her, come to think of it.
He runs a hand through his dark curls and clears his throat. โAh, Court had other plans. Caraโs being a good sport, but I can tell sheโs not too happy.โ
I donโt have time to comment on his girlfriend being a no-show again, and to an event thatโs been in the works for at least two months, because a
heavy hand claps my shoulder, and my beer sloshes over the side of my glass.
I know itโs Emmett the moment he wraps me in one of his suffocating bear hugs. And I know heโs drunk the moment his slurred words, hot and smelling strongly of bourbon, fan across my cheek. โYouโre late.โ
โSorry, dude.โ I give his hair a quick ruffle, mostly because itโs fun to rile up such a big, burly guy. โLittle drunk, big guy?โ
He slaps my hand away, turning his attention to the party. โDid Cara already tell you youโre not allowed to sleep with any of her friends?โ
A groan rumbles in my chest as my head rolls backward. โYes,โ I moan. My gaze roams the expansive bar, through the sea of people moving together on the dance floor. โItโs a moot point. Iโm not feeling itโฆuh, Iโm notโฆโ The words die on the tip of my tongue as a shot of desire dips down my stomach when my eyes settle onย her. โUh, not, umโฆtonight.โ The pads of my fingers lift from my glass as I gesture haphazardly with it. โThe thing.โ
โPardon?โ
I look to Emmett, then back to her. I forget what weโre talking about, but nothing can be as important as the petite, drop-dead gorgeous brunette dancing with Cara.
If Iโm being honest,ย dancingย is entirely too loose of a definition to describe the way those two are moving together. I donโt know what to call it but,ย fuck me.
Cara wraps one protective arm around her tiny friend, tugging her closer, and my jaw sure as fuck unhinges as I watch the two of them move together.
My eyes follow every line of her body, every single movement, as the stunning little thing tosses her dark hair over her shoulder and drags her tongue over her top lip. She throws her arms up in the air, head tipping to the side to hear whatever Caraโs whispering in her ear. I watch with rapt attention as her head lolls backward, her face erupting with laughter.
Iโm entranced, fixated, obsessed. I canโt look away, and when Caraโs hands grip her friendโs waist, slipping in slow motion down to her hips, I fight a groan, โcause I kinda think I wanna do that.
โDonโt even think about it, Carter.โ
I manage to drag my gaze away to eye Emmett. โWhat?โ
โI said, donโt even fucking think about it.โ His head wags. โNo. Not her.โ
Not her? Her who? Who is she? My eyes find her again as a man I donโt recognize tugs her into his chest.
Boyfriend? Fuck.
A triumphant noise vibrates in the back of my throat as I watch her give him a sheepish grin, shaking her head, her mouth telling himย No thank youย before she drops his hand, turning her back on him, and me.
And sweet, holy hell, that backside. Creamy shoulders guiding the way down a milky spine beneath the strobe of the lights above. The dip of her waist softens into the sweet curve of her wide hips. Her black leather skirt is painted on so tight, hugging every edge of her, I have to wonder how the fuck she got it on and how the hell Iโll peel it off her later.
Scissors, I decide. Iโll cut it off her and then throw her a bill for a new one.
Garrett reaches forward, touching his fingers to my chin, closing my mouth. โChrist, Beckett. You good?โ
I flail a hand out in her direction, all loopy. โDude.โ Thatโs all Iโve got.
Arenโt they seeing this?
Garrett follows my gaze and hums appreciatively, but Emmett ruins it with an eye roll thatโs, somehow, audible.
โIโm serious, Carter. Cara will feed you your balls if you touch her.โ โI can handle Cara.โ
Emmett snorts, Garrett chuckles, and Adam hammers a fist into his chest as he chokes out a cough. Nobody can handle Cara. Not even Emmett.ย Caraย canโt even handle Cara half the time.
Clearing my throat, I bring the rim of my glass to my lips. โWhatโs her name?โ
Emmettโs still shaking his head like a jackass. โNo. Not telling you.โ
I watch as she swipes her hair from her damp forehead, sweeping her loose, dark curls over her shoulder. She tugs on Caraโs shoulder and presses up on her toes to whisper in her ear before she turns away, strolling across the floor, hips bouncing back and forth before she hoists herself up on a bar stoolโwith great effortโand grins up at the bartender. When he slides a beer over to her with a wink, she blushes, averting her eyes. Cute.
Iโm oddly captivated by the way she slings one leg over the other and lifts her glass to her mouth, draining nearly half of it in one long pull like
itโs her day job, and I stand a little taller when she starts scanning the room. She skims over me, then past me.
Then bounces back to me.
Crimson heat creeps up her neck and paints her cheeks when she realizes Iโm watching her, so I flash her my signature crooked grin, pulling my dimples all the way in, and laugh when her head whips around. She glues her gaze to the TV screen overhead and promptly begins to pretend like she hasnโt seen me.
โIโll find out myself.โ I clap my friend on the back and wink at my teammates. โExcuse me, boys.โ
โRight. Good luck, Beckett.โ Emmett drowns his exasperated laugh in his drink. โI guarantee she wonโt buy what youโre selling. Youโll never land her.โ
Never land her? Unlikely. Iโm the captain of our hockey team and one of the highest paid players in all of NHL history. I canโt go to the grocery store without getting a phone number or a proposition, which is why I use a grocery delivery service now.
I lay a palm on my chest, walking backward with a grin. โYou know how I feel about challenges.โ
I donโt make out his sentence as I turn my back on him, just the words
funeralย andย balls in a soup, which are definitely scary.
But not scary enough to deter me.