โThe skeleton is wrapped in a royal blue shawl.โ
I sat in front of the computer with Dean beside me, scrolling from one
picture to the next, my finger feeling heavier with each click.
Thereโs a long-dead flower pressed into the bones of her left hand. The necklace is around her neck, the chain tangled in her rib cage.
Empty sockets stared back at me from a skull devoid of human flesh. I stared at the contours, waiting for a spark of recognition, but all I felt was bile rising in the back of my throat.
You removed the flesh from her bones.ย Forensic analysis suggested the removal had been done post mortem, but that was cold comfort.ย You destroyed her. You eradicated her.
Dean brought his hand to rest on the back of my neck.ย Iโm here.
I swallowed back the wave of nausea that threatened to overwhelm me. Once. Twice. Three timesโand then I scrolled on to the next picture. There were dozens of them: pictures of the dirt road on which sheโd been buried. Pictures of the construction equipment that had uncovered a plain wooden casket.
You wrapped her bones in a blanket. You buried her with flowers. You gave her a coffinโฆ.
I forced myself to breathe and switched from the pictures to reading the official report.
According to the medical examiner, there was a notch on the outside of one of her arm bones, a defensive wound where a knife had literally cut her to the bone. Laboratory results indicated that the bones had been treated with some kind of chemical prior to burial. That made the remains hard to date, but crime scene analysis put the time of burial within days of my motherโs disappearance.
You killed her, then you erased her. No skin on the bones. No hair on her head. Nothing.
Deanโs fingers kneaded gently at the muscles at the back of my neck. I turned my gaze from the computer screen to him. โWhat do you see?โ
โCare.โ Dean paused. โHonor. Remorse.โ
It was on the tip of my tongue to say that I didnโt want to know if the killer had felt remorse. I didnโt care that sheโd mattered enough to him that he hadnโt just flung her body down in some hole.
You donโt get to bury her. You donโt get toย honorย her, you sick son of a bitch.
โDo you think she knew him?โ My voice sounded distant to my own ears. โThatโs one explanation for what weโre seeing, isnโt it? He killed her in a frenzy and regretted it after the fact.โ
The blood-splattered dressing room in my memory spoke of domination and anger, the burial site, as Dean had said, of honor and care. Two sides of the same coinโand taken together, the suggestion was that this wasnโt a random act of violence.
You took her with you.ย Iโd always known that my motherโs killer had removed her from the room. Whether she was alive or dead when heโd done so, the police hadnโt been able to say, though theyโd known from day one that sheโd lost enough blood that her chances of survival were next to nonexistent.ย You took her because you needed her with you. You couldnโt leave her behind for someone else to bury.
โHe might have known her.โ Deanโs voice brought me back to the present. I noticed that this once, with this case, he didnโt use the wordย I. โOr he might have watched her from afar and convinced himself that the interaction went both ways. That she knew he was watching. That he knew her the way no one else ever would.โ
My mom had made her living as a โpsychic.โ Like me, sheโd been good at reading peopleโgood enough to convince them that she had a line to โthe other side.โ
Did she do a reading for you? Did you go to one of her shows?
I racked my memory, but it was a blur of faces in the crowd. My mother had done a lot of readings. Sheโd done a lot of shows. Weโd moved around often enough that there was no point in forming connections. No friends.
No family.
No men in her life.
โCassie, look at this.โ Dean drew my attention back to the screen. He zoomed in on one of the pictures of the coffin. There was a design etched into the surface of the wood: seven small circles, forming a heptagon around what appeared to be a plus sign.
Or,ย I thought, thinking about remorse and burial rituals and the monster whoโd carved that symbol,ย a cross.