FOR THREE SOLID DAYS, thereโs been this gnawing thought inside my brain, this incessant drumming beat thatโs given me a headache. It may be ridiculous, but Iโve been wanting to kiss the shit out of Jade.
I know the idea is messed up, convoluted in a way.
Why did she have to throw that curveball at me in the library? It was mostly a joke. A comeback to my own proposition or some weird kind of โcongratulations kiss.โ Whatever the hell that means. But did she have to smile like that when she said it?
โIf you want something from me, then why donโt you just ask for it?โ
The girl knows how to use my own words against me, twisting them just to screw with my head.
Truthfully, I only said all that because I was feeling guilty. She called me out on my shady tactics, and she was fucking right about them. Iโve been manipulating the situation, tricking her into getting what I want.
And now, this Trade bullshit is grinding on my nerves, especially because Iโm not sure if itโs what I want anymore.
I mean, all this to win some silly competition? Yeah, sure, itโs tradition. I remember, in painstaking detail, those long nights spent cleaning the seniorsโ sweaty practice gear. And I would love nothing more than to reap that reward for myself.
But whatโs the true cost-benefit analysis of this scenario? The costs: acting like a dick and keeping my distance from Jade. The benefits: free labor next season and a potential night spent with Shannon.
Is that what I really want?
Yeah, Shannonโs smoking hot. Beautiful face, amazing body, and a personality thatโs just as sweet as she is pretty. Plus, Iโve been lusting after her ever since my first football game here at Dayton U.
I was running on an adrenaline high, and there she wasโwith her perfectly curled, honey-red hair, those faint little freckles, and that emerald- green cheer uniform. She was a breath of fresh air in a sea of unfamiliar faces. So, that night, I made it my mission to talk to her.
But then, in what would be the first of many drunken mistakes, I ended up with some random jersey chaser in my bed. Yeah, Iโve been a lust-driven fool since freshman year. Iโm well aware.
But before now, if Iโm being brutally honest, I didnโt really care who got my dick wet. I was solely focused on getting drafted and finally going pro. Now, I want to get drafted, and I want to kiss the shit out of Jade.
So much so that Iโve spent the last few days avoiding her.
Iโve dropped off her coffee each morning but never stuck around to chat. I think she could tell something was up, especially when I stopped firing off snarky comments and downright ignored her attempts to rile me up.
โThank you so much, Teddy,โ she said this morning, her last-ditch effort to get me to crack. I mean, seriously? Fucking Teddy? Of all the convoluted nicknames to call me, Teddy is what she comes up with.
I much prefer Theo.
But I simply flashed her a fleeting grin, handed over her iced latte, and turned on my heel. Today was the last day of our deal anyway, so I guess things just got easier for me.
Except . . . she and Shan are coming to our house tomorrow night. Because, like the clown I am, I invited them over to watch the UFC fight. And now, I have to spend my time setting up my roommate with the girl I canโt stop thinking about.
Thereโs something seriously wrong with me, isnโt there?
THE NEXT NIGHT, Iโm running on a live wire by the time Jade and Shannon finally arrive. The fight is already cued up on the flat-screen while a dozen of my teammates cram around our living room couch.
Thankfully, the ratio is somewhat evened out by a few of their girlfriends who came along. Not perfect, but itโll do.
โLadies, come on in.โ Camโs booming voice greets them at the front door.
โHey, Cam!โ Shannon bounces back. โThis is my roommate, Jade.โ
I force myself up from the couch, making my way toward them at the entryway. As they turn to greet me, my heart stumbles, my throat tightens, and my words lock up.
โHey, Shan.โ I manage to force out a casual nod. Then, I swallow, tasting dust as I turn my attention to her roommate. โHey, Jade.โ
Oh, fucking hell. Her low-cut shirt does nothing to hide her curves, and those skintight jeans might as well be painted on. Her dark hair cascades over her shoulders in a waterfall of chocolate curls and soft waves. I want to reach out, to touch her, toโno.
Snap the fuck out of it, West.
Suppressing the urge to let my eyes wander, I clear my throat, forcing my gaze to a neutral spot between the two girls. โThanks for coming.โ
Jade gives me an appraising look, lips pressed into a thin line. Her gaze travels over my tensed posture, that knowing look piercing into my obvious discomfort.
โCan I get you girls something to drink?โ Cam interrupts, his offer a welcome distraction.
Shannon politely declines, stating sheโs driving, while Jade opts for a beer.
As the girls join Cam in the kitchen, I retreat into the living room, mentally berating myself for acting like such a fucking dweeb. New mission for tonightโavoid Jade at all costs or risk making a complete fool out of myself.
Unfortunately, I fail my own mission within half an hour, finding some half-assed excuse to approach her. โHey, you want another drink?โ I ask, the words tumbling out before I can stop them.
โIโm all good,โ she says, flashing me a tight smile. She gestures to her beer, swishing it around in the bottle to show me that itโs still nearly full. Itโs a polite dismissal, and itโs certainly a blow to my ego.
โAlright.โ I manage to keep the disappointment out of my voice, giving her a curt nod as I retreat to the other side of the room, aiming for the cooler
with a heavy heart. Despite my efforts to the contrary, Iโve somehow messed this all up, havenโt I?
Remington Miller, one of our teamโs wide receivers, is rifling through the drinks as I approach. He lifts his head at my arrival. โNeed another beer?โ
โYeah, man.โ
He pulls out a bottle and a can, flipping the latter over to me with ease. With a lean against the wall behind us, he rummages in his pocket, pulls out a key ring, and pops his cap off.
โSo, how does Shan know that chick?โ he asks between gulps.
โJadeโs her roommate.โ I keep my response short, taking a sip of my own beer.
Millerโs gaze follows mine, landing on the couches where Jadeโs currently standing. โDamn,โ he murmurs appreciatively, eyes glazing over. โSheโs pretty hot.โ
โShe is,โ I echo, my voice more strained than Iโd like.
โThose jeans really do wonders for her ass, donโt they?โ His offhand comment rubs me the wrong way, but I keep quiet, unwilling to answer him. He may be acting like a degenerate, but heโs not necessarily wrong in his claims.
I allow myself another quick glance at Jade. Sheโs leaning against the armrest of the couch now, that perky round ass of hers on full display. Her laughter bubbles up from a joke Cam mustโve just told, and it feels like a sucker punch straight to the gut.
My gaze slides across her frame, from the cute crinkle in her nose down to the sweet curve of her hips. Then itโs back up to her face, and Iโm no longer just looking; Iโm full-on fantasizing.
She presses those perfect pouty lips to her beer bottle, tipping her head back for a long drink, and I canโt help but picture that same mouth wrapped around the length of me.
The muscles in her throat tense as she swallows the beer, her tongue darting out to catch a little dribble on the rim. But itโs not the neck of the bottle sheโs licking. No, now itโs her tongue licking from the base of my dick all the way to the tip.
Oh man, this is not the fucking time or place for this shit.
As I shift on my feet, my focus turns to subtly adjusting the hard-on straining against my jeans. Thankfully, Millerโs attention has already
wandered elsewhere.
A few hours pass, and Iโve somehow managed not to make a complete fool of myself. In fact, Iโve barely even glanced in Jadeโs direction the entire night. She seems to have cozied up to Cam well enough, which just kind of pisses me off.
So, when the moment finally comes for the girls to head out, my heart kicks into high gear. I hadnโt planned on saying goodbyeโdidnโt want to risk getting sucked back into her orbitโbut, as if on autopilot, I find myself joining them at the door.
โThanks for having us,โ Shannon gushes, her words blanketed in her typical enthusiasm.
โYeah, it was fun,โ Jade chimes in, her smile so genuine it fully shatters my resolve.
โAnytime,โ I say, my eyes fixed on the contours of her face. As she turns to follow behind her roommate, my hand extends almost of its own volition, gently swiping the side of her arm. โHave a safe drive.โ
Her eyes widen before she gives me a tight nod, lips curling into a subdued smile. โWill do.โ
Once the final echoes of the night have faded and the last of the guests have cleared out, I beeline to my roommate. My mouth opens, and I blurt out the first thing that crosses my mind. โTradeโs off.โ
โWhat?โ His tone is shocked, confusion pulling at his brows as he stares up at me.
โThe Tradeโs off the fucking table, as in, Iโm not trading Jade. Sheโs officially off-limits,โ I say, my tone brooking no argument. โAnd you can repeat that to anyone who might give a shit.โ
He flashes me a dubious look. โAre you joking?โ โDoes it look like Iโm joking?โ
โAlright, dude.โ He holds up both hands in a pacifying gesture. โI got it, okay? Jadeโs off-limits.โ
My nostrils flare in triumph. โGood. Iโm glad weโre clear.โ
โYou do realize that pretty much destroys any hope I had of pulling off a trade, right?โ He folds his arms across his broad chest. โShan wouldnโt willingly go home with anyone other than you. Sheโd feel too guilty.โ
โYouโre right, she wouldnโt,โ I concede. โAnd thatโs not my problem.โ His sigh is almost painful, a gravelly groan rumbling deep in his throat.
โFine, but youโre cleaning my gear for at least two weeks next season.โ
โFine. Whatever you want.โ
He shoves me lightly with one hand. โSo, you like her, huh?โ โWhat?โ I play ignorant, rubbing my shoulder dramatically.
โYou like Jade . . . enough to call dibs on her,โ he reiterates. โYou planning on asking her out?โ
โI donโt fucking know, man.โ A sigh slips past my lips. โEven if I wanted to, I barely have time to breathe right now. My grades are in the fucking toilet, thereโs training camp this summer, and next season is gonna be hell before the draft.โ
โYour call. But remember, if you donโt make a move, someone else will. And thatโs not even considering the banquet,โ he adds, a crease forming between his brows. โYou werenโt the only one checking her out tonight.โ
A tight knot forms in my stomach, a dark cloud of dread casting a shadow over me. โWho?โ
โMiller was asking around, trying to find out if sheโs single.โ
โThat little fucker. He was running his mouth about how hot she is earlier.โ
โCan you blame him?โ He lets out a disbelieving laugh. โShe is hot.โ โIโm well aware,โ I snap, the heat rising in my voice.
โDude, cool down.โ He claps me on the shoulder, but his attempt to soothe does little to calm the frustration bubbling inside me. โJust think about what you really want.โ
โAlright.โ I manage to swallow past the knot in my throat. โI will.โ
Later that night, as Iโm lying in my bedโrestless, unsettledโCamโs words continue to echo in my mind. Heโs got a point. If I donโt make a move on Jade, itโs only a matter of time before someone else does.
But would it even make a difference if I did? Whoโs to say sheโd be interested in a screw-up like me? A jock with subpar grades, a guy whoโs got no business being with someone like her.
Despite my doubts, I grab my phone and fire off a quick text, truly testing the limits of my mental stability.
WEST
hey, so miller thinks ur hot
JADE
nice
WEST
what do u think?
JADE
I guess I’m pretty hot, ya
WEST
. . .
JADE
which one was he again?
WEST
green hat
JADE
yeah, he’s cute
WEST
cool.
should I give him ur # then?
JADE
if u want
WEST
alright
JADE
goodnight theo
WEST
goodnight