Richie was dead.
All that was left of him was a scorched, beaten corpse. I heaved until there was nothing left.
โMia,โ I heard Colt call as I shuddered and wiped my mouth. A hand went to my back, and I jerked away.
โDonโt,โ I said.
โLook at me,โ Colt commanded.
His face was stoic and unyielding. Something inside of me broke; I threw myself at him and he caught me, hauling me to him, his strong arms wrapping around me.
โI got you,โ he whispered against my hair. Shaking, I refused to cry. I wouldnโt break down, despite the sight of my former bossโs body.
โWe were looking for him, babe,โ Colt murmured. โYou were? Why?โ I asked into his chest.
โTo get some answers. We wanted to know what he had gotten himself into and why Dev sent his boys to grab you in the middle of the night.โ
โColt,โ Zip called.
I turned my head to see the Blue Angels had roused themselves from sleep and were now standing on the porch of the clubhouse. There was no evidence in any of their postures that there had been a raging party the night
before. They all looked fierce and ready for battle. I thought of the women who had spent the night. They would see Richie if they came outside.
Colt gestured with his chin. Reap and Boxer came down off the porch and went to Richieโs body. โGo back inside, darlinโ,โ Colt said, still holding onto me. โIโll be there in a bit.โ To Reap and Boxer he said, โThis could be a trap. Get this body out of here now before the cops show up.โ
He let me down and I bolted for the clubhouse, wanting to forget what Iโd just seen.
Women from the party had finally begun to stir. They were too hungover to peer at me with much interest as they began slithering into their microscopic clothes. There was no chatter or greetings. They grabbed their belongings and stumbled toward the exit. When the clubhouse was finally quiet, I looked around at the mess, hating the disorder. I sprung into action immediately and began to clean up.
When the living room was spotless, I tackled the kitchen. After an hour, Colt and his brothers walked into the clubhouse. They looked around the living room and into the open kitchen, their faces shifting from subdued to confused.
โItโs clean in here,โ Reap said. โIt wasnโt clean when we left.โ โI needed something to do,โ I said with a shrug.
โAnd now youโre cooking?โ Boxer asked, his face slack in amazement. โBacon and fried eggs. Is that okay with everyone? Itโs all I can really
manage with my wrist.โ
There was a round of nods and murmurs.
Boxer looked at Colt. โIf you donโt officially make her your Old Lady, I call dibs.โ
Colt glared at him.
Boxer held up his hands. โNever mind. I donโt want to get my ass pistol whipped.โ
The oven timer dinged and I removed the bacon. Before long, everyone had a plate and they were devouring their food.
โHave you eaten yet?โ Colt asked me, his hand reaching out to push a strand of hair behind my ear.
โJust coffee. Iโm not hungry.โ
His hand slid down my body to rest on my hip. โYouโre too thin as it
is.โ
I raised an eyebrow. โToo thin? I thought men liked thin.โ Colt leaned in and said, โMen like tits and ass.โ
โYou wouldnโt be trying to distract me from the Richie thing, would
you?โ
โIs it working?โ
I picked up my cup of coffee and didnโt answer. I didnโt want to know what theyโd done with him or how they were handling it.
His brown gaze was steady. โLetโs go for a drive.โ
Thanks were called out as Colt and I left. I stepped out into the sunshine. I looked around, expecting to find danger at my back, but there was nothing except the clubhouse on a stretch of wide-open land.
Colt opened the passenger door of his truck for me and I scrambled inside. He shut the door and then went around to the driverโs side. He started the engine and then we were driving through the open gate, past the guarding prospects who were now awake and on duty.
โGive it to me straight, Colt,โ I said, looking out the window. โSure you can handle it?โ
โNo.โ
He was quiet and then, โYou saw the burns on Richieโs chest, yeah? It was the Iron Horsemen logo.โ
A surge of bile swam in my belly. โHe was torturedโbefore they killed him?โ
โYes,โ he said with a sigh. โAnd they dumped him on Blue Angel territory. Itโs a message for usโฆand for you.โ
โSo they know, then? Dev knows I came to you?
โHe knows,โ he said. โYour truck has been parked at the Blue Angels garage for the past week.โ
โYou lied to me this whole time? You told me it was still at my houseโฆโ
โYes.โ
โWhy?โ
โBecause I knew youโd want to leave town the moment you got your truck back.โ
โDamn right.โ
Coltโs face was grim. โWhy is Dev after you even though you know nothing about what Richie was up to? Any way you cut it, Dev thinks youโre involved.โ
I cleared my throat. โIt might be more than thatโฆโ When I paused, Colt said, โGo on.โ
โHe made no secret about wanting me in his bed.โ
His jaw clenched. โNot shocked by that at all, but I donโt think Dev would do this for that reason. Thereโs more to it. Iโm telling you, he thinks Richie clued you in.โ
โI overheard them talking,โ I said slowly, remembering the night Iโd first met Dev. โDev asked Richie if I knew anything about their arrangement, and Richie said no. They were talking business, something about a shipment. Richie disappeared for a few nights and then resurfaced and asked me to take him to the bus depot.โ
โAh, fuck. You definitely canโt leave town now. Not until all this shit is sorted. Heโll just come after you.โ
โYou had my truck this whole time,โ I murmured. โI couldโve gotten out. I couldโve started a new life.โ
โTell yourself that if you want,โ he rumbled. โBut you donโt know Dev like I know Dev.โ
โYouย knowย Dev?โ
โYeah.โ He paused, like he wanted to say more. โGo on. You can tell me.โ
He shot me a look of dark amusement. โYouโre already mad at me. Like I want to give you more ammo?โ
โIโm not mad,โ I said slowly. โLiar.โ
โFine. Iโm mad. You couldโve helped me get out of town as soon as you got my truck. Why didnโt you?โ
โDev wouldโve found you. Just like he found Richie, but this is deeper than you running from Dev. The Iron Horsemen came for you in the middle of the night. When you told me that, I realized somethingโs been going on in my own backyard. Iโm gonna find out what it is.โ
I looked out the window to get away from his intense stare. โYou still didnโt tell me about you knowing Dev.โ
โWeโve had sit downs in the past. Hashing out territory disputes, that sort of thing. But we avoid each other. Our clubs donโt get involved in each otherโs shit. Until you.โ
โUntil me? Why?โ
He was silent for a long moment, long enough for us to drive into a restaurant parking lot.
Colt looked at me, his hands resting on the steering wheel. โBecause you made it personal.โ
โAm I supposed to be flattered?โ
โTake it however you want. The Blue Angels and the Iron Horsemen werenโt enemies. Not until now. But if Richieโs ass isnโt enough and they come after youโฆthen theyโll start a war. I told you Iโd keep you safe, and I meant it.โ
โEven if that means never letting me go?โ
His gaze softened. โYeah, darlinโ. Even if that means never letting you go.โ
When I turned away from him, his hand gently reached out to grasp my chin and forced my gaze to his.
โIf you really wanted to leave Waco, you wouldโve demanded it. You wouldโve kicked and screamed, you wouldโve begged. You wouldโve offered to trade in your piece of shit truck for a fucking Hondaโsomething you can drive with a busted wrist. But you didnโt, did you? You put up the bare minimum fight. You know why?โ
Mutely, I shook my head.
He leaned forward and brushed his lips against mine. โBecause you donโt really want to run. And I make you feel something. Just like you make me feel something. So blame me if you want, but I know the truth. I know you want to stay. I know you want a home.โ
His eyes bored into mine, daring me to dispute his statement. But the truth was, Colt saw past my words, past my weak arguments, and deep down he knew what I really needed.
He was giving me a way out. Heโd shoulder the burden and say heโd made the choice for me.
But I was done hiding from life.
I was done living inside a box that constrained me and held nothing but misery. I reached out to stroke his cheek. He needed a shave. Colt always needed a shave.
โWhy are we stopping here?โ I asked.
He smiled as he turned his head to kiss my palm. โBest Mexican food in the city.โ
โIโm not hungry.โ
โBest margaritas in the city too. Trust me, youโll need tequila for this conversation.โ
It was just past noon and all Iโd had was coffee. Coffee and fear.
The adrenaline dump and stress had drained me, and it took all of my willpower to climb out of Coltโs truck. It felt safe there, and I knew the moment we sat down at the restaurant Colt wasnโt going to hold anything back.
He took my hand and led me inside. I salivated immediately at the smell of tortillas and sizzling meat. A wave of hunger hit me hard and I wondered how I could possibly want to eat after what Iโd just seen.
We followed the hostess to a booth and Colt took the seat across from me. โIโll have a Dos Equis,โ he said with a smile, refusing the menu from the waitress. โSheโll have a margarita on the rocks with salt and the cheese enchiladas.โ
I glared at him, but didnโt protest.
The cute, curvy waitress eyed Colt one last time before disappearing. Maybe at another time I wouldโve felt a spark of jealousy, but Iโd had his fingers inside of me not even two hours ago. Not to mention Colt didnโt even spare her a glance.
It was the little things, I realized, that proved someone wasnโt full of shit. Colt told me I didnโt need to worry about him and other women, and I believed him. Not just because heโd told me to trust him, but because of that small action. It was like he didnโt even see her.
A few minutes later, the waitress returned with our drinks and a bowl of chips and salsa. I took a sip of the margarita. It was the perfect blend of tart and sweet and I couldnโt taste the tequila.
โWow, yeah, this is dangerous,โ I said to him. โYup.โ
I set it aside and took a chip but didnโt eat it.
A glimpse of Richieโs burned corpse flashed before my eyes. โI donโt understand something,โ I began.
He took a sip from his beer and waited for me to continue.
โWhy did you come to Dive Bar with Zip that night? Iโve never seen bikers at Dive Bar. Did you have a hunch that Richie was into shady shit? Were you there to see if Dev showed up?โ
โNo. Like I said before: it was coincidence. You think Iโd be beating the fuck out of some guy in the alley if I was there for Dev?โ
โWhat do you think Richie got involved in?โ I asked. โMeth.โ
โWhy do you think itโs meth?โ
โLook, biker clubs donโt get donations from church ladies and PTA moms. But they have to make money. Thatโs how their members take care of their families and the clubs keep operating. Itโs complicated, but meth can be made in a homemade lab. You donโt need land in Columbia to grow crops or the cartels in Mexico to traffic shit from other countries through South America for you, and meth is highly addictive, so itโs an obvious thing for clubs to get involved in. You cook enough of that shit up in a lab with the muscle to protect it, and once it hits the street itโs an almost immediate return of pallets of cold, hard cash.โ
I quickly downed the rest of my margarita, feeling my head grow buzzy. But it also gave me courage to ask him point blank, โWhat do the Blue Angels do for money?โ
He stared at me long and hard. โI canโt tell you that. Itโs for your own protection.โ
โFrom the law, you mean?โ I asked.
He nodded. โWe donโt involve our women in our business. If cops get wind of something and question our women, they donโt know shit. None of them, and I mean that. Not one. Itโs as much for their protection as it is ours. But make no mistake, the Blue Angels donโt live within the confines of the law.โ
My breath hitched. I knew they were criminalsโI knew I was falling for a criminal, but for Colt to admit it outright had me spinning.
The waitress sailed by with my steaming plate of enchiladas. Despite what we were discussing, my stomach rumbled in anticipation. She set the plate down in front of me.
โAnother marg?โ she asked me. I shook my head.
โAnother beer, sugar?โ she asked Colt.
His eyes remained on me when he replied, โIโm fine, thanks.โ
She wasnโt able to hold in her remorseful sigh. โEnjoy.โ She left again, leaving us alone.
I picked up my fork and cut into the blue corn enchiladas. They were too hot to eat, so I waited.
โWhatโs going on in your head,โ Colt asked. โIโm trying to process what you just told me.โ
He looked down at his hands. They were big, scarred, tatted. Theyโd gently cleaned my feet and brought my body to the heights of pleasure. But they were the hands of a delinquent.
โIโm president of the club, right?โ I nodded.
โIโve got responsibilities. I shoulder the burdens. The choices I makeโ some of them are gonna weigh me down. There will be times I come to you. Times in the middle of the night when I gotta sink inside you, to get some of that light in a world of dark. Iโm gonna need to turn to you in a way that a hard as fuck man turns to a woman. You wonโt always understand and you wonโt get answers. But I gotta know if itโs something you think you can handle. For the long haul. Because Iโm in this. And I want to be in this with you. Not just because Dev is on your ass and your boss showed up dead. Iโve wanted you since that first night at Dive Bar and if shit had been different, I wouldโve come back and let you know.โ
โWhy didnโt you?โ I asked, feeling the tequila buzz through my blood, making me heated.
โWas on a run out of town,โ he explained. โI got back a few hours before you showed up on my garage steps. Didnโt like what I saw. Thought someone had put their hands on you.โ
A slight smile appeared on my lips. โI wouldnโt stand for that, Colt.โ โYeah.โ He grinned. โI know that now. Youโre feisty.โ
โDoes it ever get any easier?โ I asked him. โDoes what ever get easier?โ
โKnowing the people you love are in constant danger because of who you are and the life youโve chosen to live?โ
โI grew up this way. Grew up knowing what the Blue Angels were all about. Itโs different for you.โ
The blue corn enchiladas were finally cool enough to eat and my fork fell on them with purpose.
โWomen and children are off limits,โ he said when Iโd put away half the plate and finally had to stop for breath.
โWhat do you mean?โ
โThereโs an honor code of sorts. Clubs donโt go after Old Ladies or kids. The innocents stay innocent. Thatโs how we avoid total war between clubs. Shit can get settled between men, but no one fucks with family.โ
โSo theoretically, if I became your Old Lady, Iโd be off limits?โ
โYup. Becoming an Old Lady is serious shit, Mia. To the brothers, itโs more binding than marriage. Marriage is a piece of paper. Marriage is an institution created by society that can be dissolved. Becoming an Old Lady is a way of life, so you gotta make sure youโre ready for it before you commit.โ
I couldnโt eat another bite. Iโd left a quarter of the enchiladas on the plate, which I pushed away. The moment I signaled I was done, Colt took my fork and ate the rest of my food.
The waitress came by and dropped off the check before flouncing back to the bar where she not so secretly watched Colt. He reached for his wallet and took out a few crisp bills.
It made me wonder if the money had come from his garage or from his criminal enterprises.
Shelly had warned me to stay away from motorcycle clubs. Colt mightโve been a criminal, but what did that say about meโthe woman who was deciding whether or not to be with him?
Iโd directly benefit from Coltโs business. Iโd be taken care of financially, I wouldnโt have to worry about little luxuries, and I knew he wanted to pay for my last semester of college.
Colt could protect me, take care of me.
โShoulda ordered you another margarita,โ he muttered. โI can hear you thinking.โ
โYou canโt hear a person think,โ I said with a dry laugh.
โAll your thoughts are flashing across your face like a movie reel. I know what youโre thinking.โ
โWhat am I thinking right this moment?โ I taunted.
โYouโre thinking about how much you want me inside you.โ My eyes widened.
He grinned wickedly. โHave you ever been on a motorcycle?โ he asked, changing the subject.
โNo.โ
โWhen your wrist is healed, Iโm gonna get you on the back of my bike. Thereโs nothing like it, feels like youโre flying. Feels like freedom. Iโll take you to one of my favorite places. A tiny little town off the Oregon coast. Weโll rent side-by-sides and drive down to the beach and then watch the sunset.โ
He took my hand that rested on the table and traced my ring finger. โIโll take you back to a bed and breakfast I know. Itโs a place that if you leave
the windows open, you can smell the mist from the ocean. Iโll slide into you, Mia, and stay there until dawn.โ
I swallowed at the shot of desire between my thighs. โYouโre not fighting fair,โ I murmured.
โWho said anything about fair? You want me, yeah?โ
โYeah. I want you,โ I admitted. โWhat about marriage?โ โWhat about marriage?โ
โYou called it an institution. A piece of paper.โ
โIt is,โ he insisted. โBut Iโd still marry you. If you become my Old Lady you get the protection of my club. Then you become my wife and youโve got the protection of my last name and the fact that you canโt legally be forced to testify against your husband in court if it ever comes to that.โ
Practical as well as decisive. That was Colt. When he knew what he wanted, he went after it. But he thought things through. Wasnโt going to get caught up in emotion and let it rule him.
I was suddenly exhausted. It was like Iโd been constantly swimming upstream, trying to get away from Colt and all that he made me feel. Trying to get away from Dev and the blanket of terror heโd thrown over my life.
I hadnโt even slept with Colt yet. Only this morning had things escalated to a physical levelโand the man had been right. Not arrogant, just right. When I was in his bed, I wanted to stay there and I hadnโt even had him the way I wanted him.
โLetโs get out of here,โ he rasped.
We got back to Coltโs house and it felt like Iโd come home. Pairs of my shoes were by the door, haphazardly strewn like Iโd kicked them off in haste.
My brain went into overdrive. There was a problem with overthinking just like there was a problem with following emotions. Unfortunately that meant I lived in a weird state of limbo.
Colt talked about marriage like it was nothing. He wasnโt gun shy. We hadnโt even slept together yet and he was tossing the word around like it was just a formality, which I guess for men in his world, it was.
Heโd never said he loved me. But he was ready to make me his Old Lady.
โI have to make some calls,โ Colt said, setting down his keys on the table in the front hallway. I placed my keys and phone next to his.
โWill you Saran-wrap my cast? I want to shower.โ
We went into the kitchen and Colt pulled out the plastic wrap and a rubber band. He leaned down to peck me on the lips. โShower in my bathroom.โ
โWhy?โ
โBecause itโs the good bathroom. Trust me.โ
After he wrapped my cast, I left him to his phone calls and headed upstairs. I gathered my toiletries and a clean towel and took them into Coltโs bedroom. The furniture was solid oak, the walls a soft dove gray. The bed was huge, big enough for Coltโand me. I shivered in anticipation. I knew what would happen when we finally got together. It would be explosive and dynamic. It would make me feel everything that Iโd been missing from my life.
It would bind me to him in a way Iโd never been bound to another person. It would make me emotionally vulnerable, something I hadnโt allowed myself since Grammieโs death.
The bathroom had a long white counter with a sink, and there was a separate glass shower from a Jacuzzi tub. I envisioned us in that tub, surrounded by candles and bubbles.
I turned on the water in the shower, waiting for it to heat. It steamed up quickly and the water pressure was strong. I let it rain down on me, closing my eyes and turning my face into it. Halfway through washing my hair, I heard a quick knock on the door, followed by the sound of it opening.
โHowโs it going in there?โ he asked. โGoing,โ I replied.
โWas I right? About my bathroom being better than the guest one?โ โMaybe. I thought you had calls to make,โ I replied.
โI finished them.โ He waited.
I knew what he was waiting for. โYouโre killing me here.โ
I inhaled a shaky breath. โYouโre welcome to join me.โ
I heard the thump of his boots and didnโt bother holding back a smile. A moment later, there was a cold draft of air as Colt stepped inside behind me. I turned around so I could look at him. Ink covered his tan arms, but I hardly noticed the work as my eyes drifted lower, taking in his size and breadth. Though weโd been in bed just this morning and things had happened between us, seeing him in all his nude glory was different.
He could see me, too.
All the teasing and flirting was absent. The desire that been on a simmer was now cranked up to a rolling boil.
But before I could say anything, Colt said, โTurn around.โ
I did as he commanded. His hand skated up my side and the curve of my waist until he got to my neck. He brushed my wet hair off my back and trailed a finger across my shoulder blades and down my spine.
I shivered.
A few moments later, I felt him spread bubbles along my skin, working slowly and gently as he cleaned me. I wanted to moan, but I bit my lip to stifle it.
โSelfish,โ he muttered. โWho? Me?โ
โMe. Shoulda let you go. Shoulda gotten you out.โ
โRichie tried to disappear,โ I reminded him. โLook what happened to him.โ
โMightโve been different if heโd had the club to help him out.โ โNone of that matters now.โ
His hands moved from my back down, down, down. He rubbed circles on my thighs, his touch soothing.
โYou donโt owe me anything, darlinโ. You know that, right?โ
I looked at him over my shoulder. His gaze was dark, but I caught the tiniest measure of vulnerability. It made my lip wobble with emotion as I thought of all that Colt had gone through alone.
โI needed you,โ I said softly. โI just didnโt know I needed you.โ
He sighed, taking a step closer to me and wrapping me in his arms. โBabe,โ was all he said.
One day, Colt would need me too. Heโd come to me, needing my touch, needing the embrace of a woman to wash away the heaviness that came with being president of a motorcycle club.
โShe told me,โ I admitted. โJoni.โ
โWhat did she tell you?โ he asked, brushing his lips across my shoulder. โShe told me you were worth it. That if I wanted to be with you, youโd
never make me regret it.โ
โWhen you need a rock, I can be that for you. You wonโt believe me until something happens and youโre forced to lean on me. Richieโs death doesnโt count. He wasnโt someone you loved.โ
โI donโt think Iโd survive losing someone else I loved,โ I murmured. โIโve lost enough.โ
โYeah, darlinโ. We both have.โ He paused. โBut life happens. And you get through it with family.โ
I turned in his arms and pressed my lips to his left pectoral with the dates of his parentsโ deaths. Heโd never told me thatโs what they were for, to honor and remember them, but he didnโt have to say it.
We understood each other without words and that was something that couldnโt be replicated or replaced.
I ran my hands up his wet, naked body, enjoying the droplets of water on his honey colored skin.
โYouโre so beautiful,โ I whispered, reaching for the soap to lather him with bubbles.
โIโve got scars. Youโre the one whoโs beautiful.โ
My fingers traced one long, thin mark that marred his shoulder. โWeโve all got scars, Colt. Itโs justโฆsome of them arenโt visible.โ
โYouโre killing me. You know that, right?โ His hands went to my hair and gently tugged my head back so I was forced to look at him. His lips took mine in a hot and hungry kiss that left me breathless. โI need you. I need to be inside of you. I canโt wait any longer.โ
I gently pushed him back under the spray so that he could rinse off while I stepped out of the shower and quickly dried off.
Colt shut off the water and snatched a towel from the hanging rod. My skin prickled with goosebumps of anticipation.
It was all happening so fast with Colt, and yet it seemed inevitable.
I strode into the bedroom with Colt not far behind me. His damp skin glistened as his hungry gaze raked over me.
โGonna lose the towel?โ
Arching an eyebrow, a grin spread across my face. โYou first.โ
He dropped his towel and my gaze dropped with it. Colt was perfectly made, like a marble statue carved by Michelangelo himself.
And he was mine.
My hands went to my towel and I unfastened it, letting it fall to the floor.
Coltโs stare was hot as he sauntered toward me. He placed his hands on my arms, taking us down onto the bed. My back fell against the comforter
with Colt looming over me. His mouth descended to take my lips in a ravenous kiss and his hands wove their way through my wet hair.
He kissed my mouth and then my neck before moving down to my breasts. His hands caressed and teased my nipples, making them ache, making me want him to lavish me with his mouth.
But he didnโt stop to worship them; he dotted kisses down my flat stomach and belly button. And then he looked up with an arrogant smile, and continued to kiss his way downward.
He spread my legs and just stared for a moment. It made me uncomfortable and I tried to close my thighs, but Coltโs hands prevented me.
โStop,โ he said softly. His eyes lifted to meet mine. โWhy are you embarrassed?โ
โYouโre hanging out down there. Itโsโฆweird.โ
He chuckled. โThis is the prettiest thing Iโve ever seen. I gotta take a minute to enjoy it.โ
I smiled at him. โYouโre not at all how I thought youโd be.โ He arched a brow. โHowโd you think Iโd be?โ
โI donโt know. Rougher. Unable to wait.โ
His fingers inched across my skin to tease my folds. โTold you when I had you in my bed, Iโd take my time. And thatโs what Iโm doing.โ
Coltโs tongue slid across my aching flesh making me shudder and spread my legs wider.
He chuckled against the juncture of my thighs and continued his ministrations. He held nothing back, licking and sucking with abandon. Like a starving animal that had been lying in wait to feast.
Colt was relentless, unyielding. He gripped my hips to keep me stationary while his tongue devoured my essence.
โI knew youโd be sweet,โ he murmured. โI know youโre close. I wanna hear you moan.โ
He gently sucked me into his mouth and when my back bowed toward the ceiling, I came with a cry.
As I shuddered and shivered, Colt slid up my body, taking my lips with his. I tasted myself as he kissed me, and it only made me want him more.
He reached over to the bedside table and fiddled with the drawer. In a few quick motions, Colt was sheathed and his hand was on my knee, bending it so that it rested against the bed.
Colt poised at my entrance, looming over me. Eyes on mine, he slid into my body.
Even though I was slick with want, it still took a moment for me to adjust to him. And then I felt him everywhere. My nerves were on fire.
Coltโs gaze was bright and resolute. โWrap your legs around me,โ he commanded.
He skated his hand underneath me, bringing me closer to him. โOh God,โ I moaned as another spark danced between my legs.
Coltโs thrusts were gentle at first, but then it was nothing but heat and chaos. I felt him in places I didnโt know I had. The pressure and intensity was so overwhelming that my eyes rolled back into my head.
He buried his face in the crook of my neck, increasing his pace. Thoughtful desire gave way to mindless thrusting and our bodies intertwined like we were animals in heat. He growled low in my ear and when I looked down to see where our bodies connected, I saw him sliding in and out of me.
โIโm close,โ he muttered.
I bucked against him and with his pelvis perfectly angled I detonated again, clenching around him hard.
With one final thrust, Colt shouted. He shuddered, his release pumping out of him.
He collapsed on top of me, our breathing ragged, our hearts ready to gallop out of our chests.
I felt like Iโd been broken apart, and was only now beginning to piece myself back together.
Colt lifted his head to stare down at me. His eyes were glazed and his skin was flushed. He pressed his lips to mine and didnโt say anything as he gently pulled out.
I noticed the loss of him immediately, wincing at the tenderness between my legs.
Iโd been ridden hard and fast, but damn if I didnโt feel like a woman.
He went into the bathroom. I heard the sound of him washing his hands and then he came back to bed. Colt lay down, his gaze languid and drowsy, his hand gently tracing the contour of my hip.
โDid I hurt you?โ he asked.
I shook my head, my tangled hair brushing across my shoulders. I leaned over and skimmed my lips over his and then cuddled against his chest.
We were content to stay there for a moment, but then I finally rolled over to get out of bed.
โWhere do you think youโre going?โ he asked with a grin. โTo clean up. And then I plan on making some food.โ
โYouโre ready to eat again? After those enchiladas?โ โI didnโt eat them all,โ I reminded him.
โYeah, good point. What are you making?โ
โI wanted to make pancakes, but I donโt know if I can whisk with my left hand.โ
โIโll whisk them for you.โ โYeah?โ
He nodded.
I went to one of his dresser drawers, rooting around for a T-shirt. I found one and slid it on before heading to the bathroom.
โI like you in my shirt, darlinโ,โ he said gently.
I smiled as I closed the door.
โYouโve been holding out on me,โ Colt said as he pushed away his empty plate.
I grinned. โIโm a decent cook, but I have two specialties: guacamole and pancakes.โ
I finished off the last bite of my own short stack and then got up from the kitchen table to take the plates to the sink.
โWhy are those your specialties?โ Colt asked.
โWhen Grammie got sick, she lost her appetite. Pancakes and guacamole were the only things she could stomach. So I got really good at making them.โ
While I loaded the dishwasher, Colt put away the maple syrup and then wiped down the kitchen table. Iโd noticed he was someone who preferred his space tidy. He didnโt have clutter or a stack of mail by the door or magazines on the coffee table.
If I hadnโt seen the photos on the wall, I wouldโve thought he was renting the house.
โYou any good at laundry? Or cleaning the house?โ Colt asked, reaching into the refrigerator and pulling out two beers. He popped the tops with a bottle opener from the silverware drawer and handed me one.
โWhat are you really asking me, Colt?โ I demanded.
โNothinโ. Just trying to figure out if I should give my housekeeper a raise.โ He winked. โSince there are two of us living here now.โ
โYou have a housekeeper?โ โDamn right I do.โ
โMy, my, arenโt we spoiled?โ
โI hate all that shit. Better off paying someone to handle it for meโand now you. I like cooking, but thatโs because I grill mostly. But itโs nice coming home to a stocked refrigerator and clean sheets.โ
โYeah, I could see how youโd get used to that,โ I agreed with a grin. โBut Iโd like to address something you just said.โ
โCan you do it on the porch?โ
I waved at him to lead the way. He opened the back door to the patio and we sat out in the spring afternoon. It wasnโt even close to sunset yet, but I doubted Iโd be awake for it. I was exhausted; having run the gauntlet of emotions, not to mention the intimacy weโd shared earlier had my eyes drooping.
โWhat is it you wanna talk about?โ He sat down on one of the patio furniture chairs and patted his leg.
I perched on his thigh, feeling like we were a couple that had known each other a lot longer than ten days.
Ten days? How had it only been ten days? โYou saidย now that we both live here.โ
โYeah? So?โ
โColt, I donโt live with you.โ
โYou do right now, donโt you?โ
โWell, yeah, because of whatโs going on. But what happens when all thatโs over.โ
โYou still planning on getting out of dodge? Leaving town?โ He took a sip from his beer, his brown eyes on me.
My gaze fell to the column of his throat and then lower to his bare chest. He was wearing a pair of jeans and no shirt, so his ink was on full display. I was riveted by his artwork. The massive Blue Angels logo on the underside of his left forearm, the modest Scottish flag underneath the dates of his parentsโ deaths.
โNo, Iโm not leaving town,โ I said slowly. โBut I do plan on moving back into my house when the Iron Horsemen are no longer on my ass.โ
His hand stole underneath the shirt I was wearing to rest on the small of my back. โYou scared of tattoos?โ
โWhy are you changing the subject?โ
โDonโt like the idea of you moving out of my place, thatโs all. So, tattoos?โ
โNever really thought they were for me.โ I shook my head. โDoes anyone call you James?โ
โNever,โ he said. โHowโd you know my given name anyway?
I grinned. โJoni told me. What about Jamie? Anyone call you that?โ He snorted. โFuck no.โ
โWhatโs wrong with the nickname Jamie? I think itโs cute.โ
โCute enough to get it inked on you?โ His smile was devilish and just a tad hopeful.
It was my turn to snort. โYeah, right. Like Iโd let you brand me.โ โIโd get your name on me.โ
โBut thatโs permanent!โ โKinda the whole point.โ
I shook my head. โYouโre insane.โ He laughed.
โI wonder if Iโll ever get used to your way of life.โ
Colt leaned over and set his bottle of beer down before standing, lifting me in his arms and carrying me inside.
โWhat are you doing?โ I asked as he made his way to the stairs. โDistracting you from thinking so much,โ he said with a rueful grin.
We entered his bedroom, and he placed me in the center of his bed. The next thing I knew, I had a large bikerโs body covering mine, and for the next few hours he found a way to pleasurably distract me from all my thoughts.