Iย TOOKย a few minutes to look around the guest room. There was no bathroom suite, but when I left the bedroom, I found the bathroom just across the hall. I headed downstairs, pausing briefly to look at the framed photographs hung up along the wall of the staircase. Following the series of a happy couple were photos of a young Joni and Colt. I didnโt know their age difference, but there was one picture of a teenage Colt holding Joni, who mustโve been ten or so. Both of them wore huge smiles and I wondered where the seemingly easygoing Colt had gone.
I walked into the kitchen. Colt was at the counter, making himself a sandwich.
โWant half?โ he asked, slicing it down the center. โItโs turkey and Swiss on rye.โ
It was a thoughtful gesture. One I hadnโt been expecting. โIโm good, thanks. Do you have a cell phone charger? My phone is dead.โ
He took the plate to the kitchen table and sat down. โIโm getting you a new phone,โ he stated.
โWhy? I have a perfectly good phone.โ
โDid you give your cell phone number to Dev?โ โYeahโฆโ
โThen you get a new phone.โ
โYou know I can just block his number, right?โ
โI want another layer of protection.โ โWow.โ
โWhat?โ
โWhen you go into protector mode, you go all in, donโt you?โ โYeah. I do.โ
This was not a battle I was going to win. โFine. Iโll fold on the new phone thing, but I need to call my best friend first.โ
โWhy?โ
โWhy? What do you mean why? Sheโs my best friend. She knew I was leaving town and I told her Iโd call her when I got settled.โ
โBut youโre not settled,โ he pointed out. โYouโre in a shit storm and the best idea is to go underground.โ
โColtโโ
โMia.โ
We stared at each other and finally Colt said, โIโll get a message to her, but you shouldnโt call her.โ
โHow are you going to get a message to her? If you call her and she doesnโt hear my voice, sheโs going to worry. If you send one of your guys to talk to her, sheโs going to worry.โ
He smiled. โI guess Iโll have to convince her that youโre safe and not being held against your will.โ
โShe doesnโt trust bikers,โ I announced. โShe told me I shouldโve chosen someone else to help me get rid of the guy at the bar. That I made a mistake by approaching you.โ
โProbably,โ Colt agreed. โBut youโre in it deep now, darlinโ.โ โIn what, exactly?โ
โYou kissed me.โ โActually,ย youย kissedย me.โ
โDamn right I did. Iโd do it again in a heartbeat, too.โ
โIs this the possessive biker thing Shelly was trying to warn me about?โ
Colt let out a laugh. โWhat did she tell you?โ
โIโm not sure I understand exactly what she was trying to tell me. Did youโwere youย claimingย me? When you kissed me in public?โ
โSweetheart, if a kiss was all it took to claim a woman, Iโd have a damn harem.โ
I glared at him.
โYouโre cute when youโre riled. Grab a beer and stop thinking so much.โ
โJust when I think Iโm about to like you, youโre an ass again.โ He took a bite, chewed, and swallowed. โHow am I an ass?โ
โThe next time youโre stressed, Iโll just tell you to chill out and completely ignore how you feel. See how you like it.โ
โI didnโt tell you to chill out. I told you to stop thinking so much.โ โWhatโs the difference?โ I demanded in a huff.
โMia, grab a beer. Then Iโll give you my phone to use, but only so you can call your bank. Deal?โ
โDeal.โ
Colt jotted down the clubhouse address and said, โHave your shit sent there.โ
He left me alone while I sat at the kitchen table to take care of business. A beer later, I had cancelled all my credit cards and requested new ones. Until then, I was at Coltโs mercy. If I wanted anything, Iโd have to ask him.
My pride prickled at the idea. But I was shit out of luck. Iโd keep a running tally in my head of everything I owed and when I had access to my bank account again, Iโd pay him back.
I didnโt know Colt. And here I was, sitting in his kitchen, my bare feet resting on his wooden floor. It was unsettling, but only because itย wasnโt. I felt comfortable in his home, despite his growly nature.
Colt walked into the kitchen and opened the fridge, pulling out another beer. โHowโs it going?โ
โItโs done.โ
โGreat. Iโve got some good news.โ
I perked up. โZip was able to get my truck?โ โNo. Joni is coming over with clothes for you.โ โAh, just call me Charity Case Barbie.โ
Coltโs laughter boomed through the kitchen and I found myself laughing along with him. I was so deep into our moment that I didnโt hear the front door open and I jumped when Joni appeared in the doorway of the kitchen looking shell-shocked.
โWhat the hell is going on here?โ she demanded. โAre you laughing?
Did you actually get my brother to laugh?โ โItโs not the first time,โ I said.
Her gaze went to Colt. โInteresting.โ โItโs not that interesting,โ Colt drawled.
Joni rolled her eyes. โI thought youโd forgotten how to smile. Iโm immensely glad to find it was just in hiding for the past few years.โ
โGreat. Now Iโm saddled with two broads who like to give me shit,โ Colt muttered.
โSaddled?โ I asked. โYouโve been saddled with me?โ He shrugged, but didnโt reply.
โI could stay with Zip. Iโm sure his offer is still good,โ I taunted.
Coltโs face tightened and I looked away to speak to Joni. Her face had gone blank and the color in her cheeks had fled.
I frowned in confusion, wondering about her sudden change in mood. Sheโd obviously come directly from the hospital since she was still in her scrubs. โDo you live here, too?โ
She smiled, but I could tell it was strained. โNo. Thereโs no feminine touch here to speak of. Itโs a dude paradise. Have you seen the giant flat screen in the living room?โ
โYou were the one who told me I had to have it,โ Colt pointed out. โYouโre also the one that has reality TV watch-parties at my place.โ
โThe screen is so high def you can see pores,โ Joni explained.
I laughed, enjoying their banter. Colt was relaxed with her in a way he wasnโt with other people. Even with Zip, his vice president, Colt held himself apart.
โWhere are the clothes you promised?โ Colt asked. โLaura is bringing them.โ
Colt looked at his sister and sighed.
I didnโt like that sigh. โWhoโs Laura?โ
Joni glanced at Colt and raised her eyebrows. โYou going to take this one?โ
โYeah,โ I drawled in Coltโs direction. โYou going to take this one?โ
Colt glared at his sister who walked over to the fridge and pulled out a beer and popped the top off. She took a sip and then said, โWeโre waiting.โ
Understanding registered and I threw a smile with just a little too much teeth at Colt. โGirlfriend?โ
Joni snorted into her beer, but Coltโs glower only made her laugh harder. โColt doesnโt have girlfriends.โ
โFuck buddy, then? Youโre having your fuck buddy come over to clothe your new charity case?โ
โSheโs not my fuck buddy,โ Colt barked. โShe doesnโt belong to me.โ โBelong to you?โ I repeated. โJoni, translate please.โ
โJoni, wait on the porch for Laura,โ Colt countered.
She didnโt push her brother, but instead took her beer and walked out of the room. I watched her leave, and when I was sure we were alone, I turned back to Colt who looked unperturbed by my outburst.
โLaura hangs around the club and fucks the bikers. Whoever she wants.โ
โWell, thanks for not mincing words.โ I frowned. โSo sheโs whatโฆa Blue Angels groupie?โ
โBasically.โ
โBut thatโs so offensive.โ
โTo you maybe. Sheโs not forced into it. Itโs a choice, until someone makes her an Old Lady.โ
โAnd an Old Lady is what, exactly?โ
โA bikerโs woman. A wife or a steady girlfriend of a brother. They have the protection of the club, but it also means sheโs off-limits to any other club member. And when there are parties with other clubs, Old Ladies areย notย fair game.โ
โSo, Laura sleeps with whoever she wants in the club and none of you care?โ
โSome care more than others,โ he stated. โDo you care?โ
โNah, doesnโt bother me.โ
โAre you still sleeping with her?โ I demanded. Coltโs smile was slow but hot. โNo.โ
โDo you want to still be sleeping with her?โ โNo.โ
I hated the relief that blasted through me. I had no right to be jealous.
Colt could sleep with whoever he wanted.
His eyes dipped and I knew he was staring at my mouth. Joniโs return interrupted our moment. A curvy brunette with wide, brown doe eyes followed her. The womanโs tank top and mini skirt showed a lot of skin and tattoos, but her smile was wide and friendly when she greeted me.
โInto the living room,โ Joni commanded. โWhy?โ I asked, even as I stood up.
โBecause thatโs where all the bags are,โ Laura said. โBags?โ Colt asked as he trailed behind me.
โBags,โ Laura reiterated.
โWe ran to the store to get you underwear and toiletries.โ โThen whatโs the other stuff?โ Colt demanded.
โLaura is helping organize the charity yard sale for the elementary school. I asked if she had any womenโs clothes in teeny-tiny sizes.โ Joni grinned. โSomeone dropped off a bunch of stuff.โ
โA lot of the clothes still have the tags on them,โ Laura said.
โWow,โ I said, riffling through one bag and pulling out a pair of dark skinny-leg jeans. โThis is great. Thanks, Laura.โ
โYouโre welcome.โ
โLetโs separate them out and get the wash going,โ Joni suggested. โOh, you donโt have to help me with that,โ I protested.
โItโs okay, I donโt mind. Besides, your wrist must be hurting.โ โSit down and let us do this,โ Laura said.
โLook how cute these are!โ Joni held up a pair of adorable red wedges I couldnโt wait to wear when my feet healed.
โAnd thatโs my cue,โ Colt said. โYou guys got this?โ โYes,โ we all chimed together and then laughed.
Colt shook his head and glanced at me. โDo you like steak?โ When I nodded he said, โGood. Iโm grilling. You guys staying for dinner?โ
Joni and Laura both declined and then looked at each other, which made my antenna go up. Colt either didnโt notice or pretended not to as he ducked out of the living room, leaving us to gab and examine the clothes.
The girls separated the garments into piles and Joni took the pajama load to the washing machine in the basement.
โSo,โ I began.
โWe only slept together once. Long time ago,โ Laura said as she cut off a tag on a gray V-neck T-shirt.
โOh, thatโs notโฆโ
She threw me a smile. โYou had that look.โ
โWhat look?โ
โThe look like you were dying to know,โ she teased. โIt meant nothing, okay?โ
โDoesnโt bother me if it did,โ I countered.
Damn dirty liar.
Why did Colt let me think he and Laura had been a recent thing?
I wasnโt able to give it much more thought because Laura asked, โWhy arenโt you staying at the clubhouse?โ
โHe said it had something to do with the parties, I guess,โ I stated. โAnd he didnโt want me staying with Zip.โ
โZip?โ Joni repeated her tone flat.
I peered at her closely and understanding finally dawned. Joni had a thing for Zip, but for some reason she wasnโt open about it.
โZip offered his guest room, but Colt squashed that idea immediately.โ โInteresting,โ Laura murmured.
โVery interesting,โ Joni agreed.
Laura peered at Joni. โDo you think heโโ โOh yes, most definitely,โ Joni interrupted. โItโs a good thing, right?โ Laura pressed.
โAbsolutely. Totally necessary. Long overdue.โ โI so agree.โ
My gaze lobbied back and forth between the two women who were clearly speaking in code.
Laura glanced back at me and grinned, holding up a black halter dress. โI think youโll look awesome in this.โ
I was really starting to like her.
I wanted to ask Joni everything there was to know about her brother, but I battled my curiosity and shut it away. After a few more loads of laundry, Laura and Joni left, and I was alone with Colt in his home. Alone with a
man I didnโt really know. So much had happened since heโd found me curled up on the steps of his garage.
Now I was in his house, feeling like an unwanted intruder that had to be tended to, like a plant you had to water if you didnโt want it to die.
Colt popped a beer and handed it to me. I took it, our fingers touching.
โCome sit outside with me while I grill the steaks,โ he said.
I nodded and followed him out of the kitchen, past the table that had been set with plates and a salad bowl, to the sliding back door that led to the patio.
He gestured to one of the chairs with a blue cushion. I took a seat and watched as he lifted the hood, took a pair of tongs, and set two huge ribeyes onto the grill. They sizzled, and my mouth watered in Pavlovian response.
I searched for a topic of conversation, not wanting to sit in silence. โI like your sister.โ
He grunted.
โI like Laura too,โ I said, not deterred by his stoicism. โBoth are incredibly kind. Generous.โ
โThey bring you some good stuff?โ he asked. โYeah. They did.โ
The early evening sun was still fully aloft and I took a moment to gaze at the acreage at the rear of Coltโs property. It was green and gold, and I could imagine large family gatherings here. Noisy with laughter and conversation. It was a nice vision.
โWhat are you thinking about?โ Colt asked.
Startled, I realized heโd been staring at me for a few minutes while Iโd been lost in thought. โYour house. Seems like itโs fit for a family.โ I paused. โI saw the photos on the staircase wall.โ
He fell silent again and I was almost sure he wouldnโt tell me anything about his life, but he surprised me when he said, โDad was from Dornoch, a
really tiny town in Scotland. Left home at seventeen.โ
I shook my head. โWow. Seventeen. He was still a kid.โ
โNot him. He grew up tough.โ He shrugged. โAnyway. He bought an old Harley when he got over here and decided to see the country. He was passing through Waco and met my mom.โ
โYeah?โ I was completely riveted by Coltโs story.
Colt smiled. โDad claimed he accidentally wandered into a cowboy bar. Mom was with her friend. Momโs friend asked Dad to dance. Dad said yes but couldnโt take his eyes off Mom. When he was done dancing with her friend, he came back to where Mom was sitting and asked her if she wanted to get on the back of his Harley. They were together from that moment on.โ He flipped the steaks. โHe started the Blue Angels in Waco. Mom helped, actually. She grew up in Coeur dโAlene in biker culture. My dad liked the idea of livingโฆfreer.โ
โCoeur dโAlene? My mom lived there briefly before moving back home to Waco and having me.โ
โSmall world,โ he murmured. โSmall indeed.โ
I thought he was done sharing, but I was wrong when he said, โShe died when I was seventeen. Joni was thirteen at the time.โ
โAnd your dad?โ
โLung cancer. Two years later, he was gone.โ He shook his head. โWhen he got sick, he passed the gavel to his VP. Buddy was a good president, but he didnโt really want it. He knew he was just holding the title until I was old enough to lead. But after my dad died, I couldnโt stand to be here, so I left Waco and fucked around in Scotland.โ
โDrinking?โ โYeah.โ
โWomen?โ
Colt sighed. โYeah.โ
โFighting?โ
He shrugged. โIโve always been big for my age. I was never a bully. Some people need protecting. I like to protect. Sometimes that means using my fists.โ
โYou came back though. Why?โ I asked.
โJoni. She needed me more than I needed to drink, fuck, and fight my way through Scotland.โ He grinned in wry humor. โMy head wasnโt screwed on straight, but she was just a kid. Fifteen without a mom or a dad. Realized I was being a selfish asshole leaving her with the club while I tried to get my own shit straight.โ
I remembered when I was fifteen. Hormones, a teenager without a mom. Joni hadnโt had either of her parents. Iโd at least had Grammie.
Colt pulled the steaks off the grill and set them on a clean cutting board. โDinnerโs ready.โ
I hopped up and went to the sliding door and opened it for him since his hands were full. He brought the cutting board to the table, served us both, and then we sat down to eat. I couldnโt remember the last home cooked meal Iโd shared with another person.
โHowโs the steak? Cooked okay?โ he asked. โItโs perfect.โ
โNot too bloody?โ
I grinned. โJust bloody enough.โ
โYour turn.โ He reached for his beer bottle and took a sip. โMy turn what?โ
โI told you about me. Now you tell me about you.โ
I frowned in confusion. โYou actually want to know about that kind of stuff?โ
He arched an eyebrow but said nothing.
I blew out a breath of air, stirring the hair around my face. โMy grandmother died. About two years ago.โ I looked down at my plate,
suddenly not hungry. โIโm glad sheโs gone.โ โYou are?โ
I nodded. โI hate to think what wouldโve happened if the Iron Horsemen had come to my home and Grammie was still alive. It probably wouldโve given her a stroke. Better sheโs not here to worry about me.โ
We ate a few more bites in silence and then he asked, โWhat about your mom and dad?โ
I shook my head. โNever knew my dad. He just wasnโt part of our lives.
Mom died when I was five and left me with Grammie.โ โWeโre orphans.โ
โYeah. I guess we are.โ
He lifted his beer bottle and I held up mine. โTo orphans,โ I said.
โTo surviving.โ He clinked his bottle against mine and then we drank.
When we finished dinner, I stood up, needing to shatter the intimacy we had shared in the kitchen. This was why I didnโt eat meals with people. Conversation was exchanged, stories about life, laughter over simple jokes. It was easy to fall into a rhythm, lulled into a sense that I wasnโt alone.
That I wasnโt desperately lonely.
I attempted to gather the empty plates but had trouble due to my useless wrist.
โMia,โ Colt said, his hand going to my good arm, stopping me from moving past him toward the sink and dishwasher. โStop. You donโt have to clean up.โ
โItโs the least I can do.โ
He looked at me, his brown eyes intense.
I lowered the dishes to the table. โItโs been a long day. A really long day. Iโd like to shower and go to bed. Will you plastic-wrap my cast?โ
He gently let go of my arm. โPlastic wrap is in that far drawer and the rubber bands should be in there, too.โ
I brought the supplies to the kitchen table, pulled up a chair, and faced Colt. Holding up my arm, I waited for him to tear off a piece of Saran wrap. A few minutes later, I had a plastic coating around my cast.
โI think you missed your calling,โ I said. โYouโre good at that.โ He grinned. โThereโs a clean towel in the bathroom for you.โ
โThanks.โ I scampered out of the room and headed upstairs, pausing a moment outside of Coltโs bedroom before moving along. I could hear the faint sounds of clanging dishes being loaded into the dishwasher.
The hall bathroom had a spacious tub and shower. Turning on the water, I adjusted the temperature, letting it get hot and steamy. I stripped out of my clothes and looked at myself in the long, rectangular mirror over the sink.
I was a fucking mess. But I was alive.
Iโd lived a lifetime in the span of a few days. Iโd dropped my boss off at the bus station, escaped the bikers whoโd come to my house, and kissed Colt this afternoon. Even now, my lips were remembering the shape and feeling of his. Between the lust and the heated banter, along with the intimacy of sharing our pasts, it felt like Iโd known him a lot longer than I had. I could get used to the idea of relying on him. His house was a home. Though it was masculine, it had personal touches. Touches I hadnโt expected from a man like him.
With Colt I felt protected. He wasnโt what I expected. Shelly had warned me away from bikers, and under normal circumstances I wouldโve heeded her advice. But these werenโt normal circumstances, and Colt wasnโt an ordinary biker. As limited as my knowledge was, I knew he was different.
By the time I finished my shower, I was wrung out and ready for bed. I draped a towel around my body and then opened the bathroom door, almost
barreling into Coltโs broad chest. I jumped back and let out a squeak. โSorry,โ he said, his gaze drifting down before coming back up to meet
my eyes. โI figured youโd want these.โ He held up a pair of pajamas I had forgotten in the dryer.
โThanks,โ I said, reaching for them. The towel was slipping, and I grabbed for that too. I couldnโt hold both, and I felt the towel was more important.
My clothes tumbled to the wooden floor; both Colt and I didnโt notice as we continued to stare at one another. Something was brewing between us, something I would be smart to resist. I was about to open my mouth to warn him off, but Colt turned and stalked away.