Fremont, California. 1980s Baba loved the idea of America.
It was living in America that gave him an ulcer.
I remember the two of us walking through Lake Elizabeth Park in Fremont, a few streets down from our apartment, and watching boys at batting practice, little girls giggling on the swings in the playground. Baba would enlighten me with his politics during those walks with long-winded dissertations. โThere are only three real men in this world, Amir,โ
heโd say. Heโd count them off on his fingers: America the brash savior, Britain, and Israel. โThe rest of them–โ he used to wave his hand and make a phht sound โ–theyโre like gossiping old women.โ
The bit about Israel used to draw the ire of Afghans in Fremont who accused him of being pro-Jewish and, de facto, anti Islam. Baba would meet them for tea and rowt cake at the park, drive them crazy with his politics. โWhat they donโt understand,โ heโd tell me later, โis that religion has nothing to do with it.โ In Babaโs view, Israel was an island of
โreal menโ in a sea of Arabs too busy getting fat off their oil to care for their own. โIsrael does this, Israel does that,โ Baba would say in a mock-Arabic accent. โThen do something about it! Take action. Youโre Arabs, help the Palestinians, then!โ
He loathed Jimmy Carter, whom he called a โbig-toothed cretin.โ In 1980, when we were still in Kabul, the U.S. announced it would be boycotting the Olympic Games in Moscow.
โWah wah!โ Baba exclaimed with disgust. โBrezhnev is massacring Afghans and all that peanut eater can say is I wonโt come swim in your pool.โ Baba believed Carter had unwittingly done more for communism than Leonid Brezhnev. โHeโs not fit to run this country. Itโs like putting a boy who canโt ride a bike behind the wheel of a brand new Cadillac.โ What America and the world needed was a hard man. A man to be reckoned with, someone who took action instead of wringing his hands. That someone came in the form of Ronald Reagan. And when Reagan went on TV and called the Shorawi โthe Evil Empire,โ Baba went out and bought a picture
of the grinning president giving a thumbs up. He framed the picture and hung it in our hallway, nailing it right next to the old black-and-white of himself in his thin necktie shaking hands with King Zahir Shah.
Most of our neighbors in Fremont were bus drivers, policemen, gas station attendants, and unwed mothers collecting welfare, exactly the sort of blue-collar people who would soon suffocate under the pillow Reganomics pressed to their faces. Baba was the lone Republican in our building.
But the Bay Areaโs smog stung his eyes, the traffic noise gave him headaches, and the pollen made him cough. The fruit was never sweet enough, the water never clean enough, and where were all the trees and open fields? For two years, I tried to get Baba to enroll in ESL classes to improve his broken English. But he scoffed at the idea.
โMaybe Iโll spell โcatโ and the teacher will give me a glittery little star so I can run home and show it off to you,โ heโd grumble.
One Sunday in the spring of 1983, I walked into a small bookstore that sold used paperbacks, next to the Indian movie theater just west of where Amtrak crossed Fremont Boulevard. I told Baba Iโd be out in five minutes and he shrugged. He had been working at a gas station in Fremont and had the day off. I watched him jaywalk across Fremont Boulevard and enter Fast & Easy, a little grocery store run by an elderly Vietnamese couple, Mr. and Mrs. Nguyen. They were gray-haired, friendly people; she had Parkinsonโs, heโd had his hip replaced. โHeโs like Six Million Dollar Man now,โ she always said to me, laughing toothlessly. โRemember Six Million Dollar Man, Amir?โ
Then Mr. Nguyen would scowl like Lee Majors, pretend he was running in slow motion.
I was flipping through a worn copy of a Mike Hammer mystery when I heard screaming and glass breaking. I dropped the book and hurried across the street. I found the Nguyens behind the counter, all the way against the wall, faces ashen, Mr. Nguyenโs arms wrapped around his wife. On the floor: oranges, an overturned magazine rack, a broken jar of beef jerky, and shards of glass at Babaโs feet.
It turned out that Baba had had no cash on him for the oranges. Heโd written Mr.
Nguyen a check and Mr. Nguyen had asked for an ID. โHe wants to see my license,โ
Baba bellowed in Farsi. โAlmost two years weโve bought his damn fruits and put money in his pocket and the son of a dog wants to see my license!โ
โBaba, itโs not personal,โ I said, smiling at the Nguyens. โTheyโre supposed to ask for an ID.โ
โI donโt want you here,โ Mr. Nguyen said, stepping in front of his wife. He was pointing at Baba with his cane. He turned to me.
โYouโre nice young man but your father, heโs crazy. Not welcome anymore.โ
โDoes he think Iโm a thief?โ Baba said, his voice rising. People had gathered outside.
They were staring. โWhat kind of a country is this? No one trusts anybody!โ
โI call police,โ Mrs. Nguyen said, poking out her face. โYou get out or I call police.โ
โPlease, Mrs. Nguyen, donโt call the police. Iโll take him home. Just donโt call the police, okay? Please?โ
โYes, you take him home. Good idea,โ Mr. Nguyen said. His eyes, behind his wire-rimmed bifocals, never left Baba. I led Baba through the doors. He kicked a magazine on his way out. After Iโd made him promise he wouldnโt go back in, I returned to the store and apologized to the Nguyens. Told them my father was going through a difficult time. I gave Mrs. Nguyen our
telephone number and address, and told her to get an estimate for the damages. โPlease call me as soon as you know. Iโll pay for everything, Mrs. Nguyen. Iโm so sorry.โ Mrs. Nguyen took the sheet of paper from me and nodded. I saw her hands were shaking more than usual, and that made me angry at Baba, his causing an old woman to shake like that.
โMy father is still adjusting to life in America,โ I said, by way of explanation.
I wanted to tell them that, in Kabul, we snapped a tree branch and used it as a credit card. Hassan and I would take the wooden stick to the bread maker. Heโd carve notches on our stick with his knife, one notch for each loaf of
_naan_ heโd pull for us from the tandoorโs roaring flames. At the end of the month, my father paid him for the number of notches on the stick. That was it. No questions. No ID.
But I didnโt tell them. I thanked Mr. Nguyen for not calling the cops. Took Baba home.
He sulked and smoked on the balcony while I made rice with chicken neck stew. A year
and a half since weโd stepped off the Boeing from Peshawar, and Baba was still adjusting.
We ate in silence that night. After two bites, Baba pushed away his plate.
I glanced at him across the table, his nails chipped and black with engine oil, his knuckles scraped, the smells of the gas station–dust, sweat, and gasoline–on his clothes. Baba was like the widower who remarries but canโt let go of his dead wife. He missed the sugarcane fields of Jalalabad and the gardens of Paghman. He missed people milling in and out of his house, missed walking down the bustling aisles of Shor Bazaar and greeting
people who knew him and his father, knew his grandfather, people who shared ancestors with him, whose pasts intertwined with his.
For me, America was a place to bury my memories. For Baba, a place to mourn his.
โMaybe we should go back to Peshawar,โ I said, watching the ice float in my glass of water. Weโd spent six months in Peshawar waiting for the INS to issue our visas. Our grimy one-bedroom apartment smelled like dirty socks and cat droppings, but we were surrounded by people we knew–at least people Baba knew. Heโd invite the entire corridor of neighbors for dinner, most of them Afghans waiting for visas. Inevitably, someone would bring a set of tabla and someone else a harmonium. Tea would brew, and who ever had a passing singing voice would sing until the sun rose, the mosquitoes stopped buzzing, and clapping hands grew sore.
โYou were happier there, Baba. It was more like home,โ I said. โPeshawar was good for me. Not good for you.โ
โYou work so hard here.โ
โItโs not so bad now,โ he said, meaning since he had become the day manager at the gas station. But Iโd seen the way he winced and rubbed his wrists on damp days. The way sweat erupted on his forehead as he reached for his bottle of antacids after meals.
โBesides, I didnโt bring us here for me, did I?โ
I reached across the table and put my hand on his. My student hand, clean and soft, on his laborerโs hand, grubby and calloused. I thought of all the trucks, train sets, and bikes heโd bought me in Kabul. Now America. One last gift for Amir.
Just one month after we arrived in the U.S., Baba found a job off Washington Boulevard as an assistant at a gas station owned by an Afghan acquaintance–heโd started looking for work the same week we arrived. Six days a week, Baba pulled twelve-hour shifts pumping gas, running the register, changing oil, and washing windshields. Iโd bring him lunch sometimes and find him looking for a pack of cigarettes on the shelves, a customer waiting on the other side of the oil-stained counter, Babaโs face drawn and pale under the bright fluorescent lights. The electronic bell over the door would ding-dong when I walked in, and Baba would look over his shoulder, wave, and smile, his eyes watering from fatigue.
The same day he was hired, Baba and I went to our eligibility officer in San Jose, Mrs.
Dobbins. She was an overweight black woman with twinkling eyes and a dimpled smile.
Sheโd told me once that she sang in church, and I believed her–she had a voice that made me think of warm milk and honey. Baba dropped the stack of food stamps on her desk. โThank you but I donโt want,โ Baba said. โI work always. In Afghanistan I work, in America I work. Thank you very much, Mrs. Dobbins, but I donโt like it free money.โ
Mrs. Dobbins blinked. Picked up the food stamps, looked from me to Baba like we were pulling a prank, or โslipping her a trickโ as Hassan used to say. โFifteen years I been doinโ this job and nobodyโs ever done this,โ she said.
And that was how Baba ended those humiliating food stamp moments at the cash register and alleviated one of his greatest fears: that an Afghan would see him buying food with charity money. Baba walked out of the welfare office like a man cured of a tumor.
THAT SUMMER OF 1983, I graduated from high school at the age of twenty, by far the oldest senior tossing his mortarboard on the football field that day. I remember losing Baba in the swarm of families, flashing cameras, and blue gowns. I found him near the twenty-yard line, hands shoved in his pockets, camera dangling on his chest. He disappeared and reappeared behind the people moving between us: squealing blue-clad girls hugging, crying, boys high-fiving their fathers, each other. Babaโs beard
was graying, his hair thinning at the temples, and hadnโt he been taller in Kabul? He was wearing his brown suit–his only suit, the same one he wore to Afghan weddings and funerals–and the red tie I had bought for his fiftieth birthday that year. Then he saw me and waved. Smiled. He motioned for me to wear my mortarboard, and took a picture of me with the schoolโs clock tower in the background. I smiled for him–in a way, this was his day more than mine. He walked to me, curled his arm around my neck, and gave my brow a single kiss. โI am moftakhir, Amir,โ he said. Proud.
His eyes gleamed when he said that and I liked being on the receiving end of that look.
He took me to an Afghan kabob house in Hayward that night and ordered far too much food. He told the owner that his son was going to college in the fall. I had debated him briefly about that just before graduation, and told him I wanted to get a job. Help out, save some money, maybe go to college the following year. But he had shot me one of his smoldering Baba looks, and the words had vaporized on my tongue.
After dinner, Baba took me to a bar across the street from the restaurant. The place was dim, and the acrid smell of beer Iโd always disliked permeated the walls. Men in baseball caps and tank tops played pool, clouds of cigarette smoke hovering over the green tables, swirling in the fluorescent light. We drew looks, Baba in his brown suit and me in pleated slacks and sports jacket. We took a seat at the bar, next to an old man, his leathery face sickly in the blue glow of the Michelob sign overhead. Baba lit a cigarette and ordered us beers. โTonight I am too much happy,โ he announced to no one and everyone. โTonight I drinking with my son. And one, please, for my friend,โ he said, patting the old man on the back. The old fellow tipped his hat and smiled. He had no upper teeth.
Baba finished his beer in three gulps and ordered another. He had three before I forced myself to drink a quarter of mine. By then he had bought the old man a scotch and treated a foursome of pool players to a pitcher of Budweiser. Men shook his hand and clapped him on the back. They drank
to him. Someone lit his cigarette. Baba loosened his tie and gave the old man a handful of quarters. He pointed to the jukebox. โTell him to play his favorite songs,โ he said to me. The old man nodded and gave Baba a salute.
Soon, country music was blaring, and, just like that, Baba had started a party.
At one point, Baba stood, raised his beer, spilling it on the sawdust floor, and yelled,
โFuck the Russia!โ The barโs laughter, then its full-throated echo followed. Baba bought another round of pitchers for everyone.
When we left, everyone was sad to see him go. Kabul, Peshawar, Hayward. Same old Baba, I thought, smiling.
I drove us home in Babaโs old, ochre yellow Buick Century. Baba dozed off on the way, snoring like a jackhammer. I smelled tobacco on him and alcohol, sweet and pungent.
But he sat up when I stopped the car and said in a hoarse voice, โKeep driving to the end of the block.โ
โWhy, Baba?โ
โJust go.โ He had me park at the south end of the street. He reached in his coat pocket and handed me a set of keys. โThere,โ he said, pointing to the car in front of us. It was an old model Ford, long and wide, a dark color I couldnโt discern in the moon light. โIt needs painting, and Iโll have one of the guys at the station put in new shocks, but it runs.โ
I took the keys, stunned. I looked from him to the car. โYouโll need it to go to college,โ he said.
I took his hand in mine. Squeezed it. My eyes were tearing over and I was glad for the shadows that hid our faces. โThank you, Baba.โ
We got out and sat inside the Ford. It was a Grand Torino. Navy blue, Baba said. I drove it around the block, testing the brakes, the radio, the turn signals. I parked it in the lot of our apartment building and shut off the engine. โTashakor, Baba jan,โ I said. I wanted to say more, tell him how touched I was by his act of kindness, how much I appreciated all that he had done for me, all that he was still doing. But I knew Iโd embarrass him. โTashakor,โ I repeated instead.
He smiled and leaned back against the headrest, his forehead almost touching the ceiling. We didnโt say anything. Just sat in the dark, listened to the tink-tink of the engine cooling, the wail of a siren in the distance. Then Baba rolled his head toward me. โI wish Hassan had been with us today,โ he said.
A pair of steel hands closed around my windpipe at the sound of Hassanโs name. I rolled down the window. Waited for the steel hands to loosen their grip.
I WOULD ENROLL in junior college classes in the fall, I told Baba the day after graduation. He was drinking cold black tea and chewing cardamom seeds, his personal trusted antidote for hang over headaches.
โI think Iโll major in English,โ I said. I winced inside, waiting for his reply. โEnglish?โ
โCreative writing.โ
He considered this. Sipped his tea. โStories, you mean. Youโll make up stories.โ I looked down at my feet.
โThey pay for that, making up stories?โ
โIf youโre good,โ I said. โAnd if you get discovered.โ โHow likely is that, getting discovered?โ
โIt happens,โ I said.
He nodded. โAnd what will you do while you wait to get good and get discovered? How will you earn money? If you marry, how will you support your khanum?โ
I couldnโt lift my eyes to meet his. โIโll… find a job.โ
โOh,โ he said. โWah wah! So, if I understand, youโll study several years to earn a degree, then youโll get a chatti job like mine, one you could just as easily land today, on the small chance that your degree might someday help you get… discovered.โ He took a deep breath and sipped his tea. Grunted something about medical school, law school, and โreal work.โ
My cheeks burned and guilt coursed through me, the guilt of indulging myself at the expense of his ulcer, his black fingernails and aching wrists. But I would stand my ground, I decided. I didnโt want to sacrifice for Baba anymore. The last time I had done that, I had damned myself.
Baba sighed and, this time, tossed a whole handful of car damom seeds in his mouth.
SOMETIMES, I GOT BEHIND the wheel of my Ford, rolled down the windows, and drove for hours, from the East Bay to the South Bay, up the Peninsula and back. I drove through the grids of cottonwood-lined streets in our Fremont neighborhood, where people whoโd never shaken hands with kings lived in shabby, flat one-story houses with barred windows, where old cars like mine dripped oil on blacktop driveways. Pencil gray chain-link fences closed off the backyards in our neighborhood. Toys, bald tires, and beer bottles with peeling labels littered unkempt front lawns. I drove past tree-shaded parks that smelled like bark, past strip malls big enough to hold five simultaneous Buzkashi tournaments. I drove the Torino up the hills of Los Altos, idling past estates with picture windows and silver lions
guarding the wrought-iron gates, homes with cherub fountains lining the manicured walkways and no Ford Torinos in the drive ways.
Homes that made Babaโs house in Wazir Akbar Khan look like a servantโs hut.
Iโd get up early some Saturday mornings and drive south on Highway 17, push the Ford up the winding road through the mountains to Santa Cruz. I would park by the old lighthouse and wait for sunrise, sit in my car and watch the fog rolling in from the sea. In Afghanistan, I had only seen the ocean at the cinema. Sitting in the dark next to Hassan, I had always wondered if it was true what Iโd read, that sea air smelled like salt.
I used to tell Hassan that someday weโd walk on a strip of seaweed-strewn beach, sink our feet in the sand, and watch the water recede from our toes. The first time I saw the Pacific, I almost cried. It was as vast and blue as the oceans on the movie screens of my childhood.
Sometimes in the early evening, I parked the car and walked up a freeway overpass.
My face pressed against the fence, Iโd try to count the blinking red taillights inching along, stretching as far as my eyestould see. BMWs. Saabs.
Porsches. Cars Iโd never seen in Kabul, where most people drove Russian Volgas, old Opels, or Iranian Paikans.
Almost two years had passed since we had arrived in the U.S., and I was still marveling at the size of this country, its vastness. Beyond every freeway lay another freeway, beyond every city another city hills beyond mountains and mountains beyond hills, and, beyond those, more cities and more people.
Long before the Roussi army marched into Afghanistan, long before villages were burned and schools destroyed, long before mines were planted
like seeds of death and children buried in rock-piled graves, Kabul had become a city of ghosts for me. A city of harelipped ghosts.
America was different. America was a river, roaring along, unmindful of the past. I could wade into this river, let my sins drown to the bottom, let the waters carry me someplace far. Someplace with no ghosts, no memories, and no sins.
If for nothing else, for that, I embraced America.
THE FOLLOWING SUMMER, the summer of 1984–the summer I turned twenty-one–Baba sold his Buick and bought a dilapidated โ71 Volkswagen bus for $550 from an old Afghan acquaintance whoโd been a high-school science teacher in Kabul. The neighborsโ heads turned the afternoon the bus sputtered up the street and farted its way across our lot. Baba killed the engine and let the bus roll silently into our designated spot. We sank in our seats, laughed until tears rolled down our cheeks, and, more important, until we were sure the neighbors werenโt watching anymore. The bus was a sad carcass of rusted metal, shattered windows replaced with black garbage bags, balding tires, and upholstery shredded down to the springs. But the old teacher had reassured Baba that the engine and transmission were sound and, on that account, the man hadnโt lied.
On Saturdays, Baba woke me up at dawn. As he dressed, I scanned the classifieds in the local papers and circled the garage sale ads. We mapped our route–Fremont, Union City, Newark, and Hayward first, then San Jose, Milpitas, Sunnyvale, and Campbell if time permitted. Baba drove the bus, sipping hot tea from the thermos, and I navigated. We stopped at garage sales and bought knickknacks that people no longer wanted. We haggled over old sewing machines, one-eyed Barbie dolls, wooden tennis rackets, guitars with missing strings, and old Electrolux vacuum cleaners. By midafternoon, weโd filled the back of the VW bus with used goods. Then early Sunday mornings, we drove to the San Jose flea market off Berryessa, rented a spot, and sold the junk for a small profit: a Chicago record that weโd bought for a quarter the day before might go for $1, or $4 for a set of five; a ramshackle Singer sewing machine purchased for $10 might, after some bargaining, bring in $25.
By that summer, Afghan families were working an entire section of the San Jose flea market. Afghan music played in the aisles of the Used Goods section. There was an unspoken code of behavior among Afghans at the flea market: You greeted the guy
across the aisle, you invited him for a bite of potato bolani or a little qabuli, and you chatted. You offered tassali, condolences, for the death of a parent, congratulated the birth of children, and shook your head mournfully when the conversation turned to Afghanistan and the Roussis–which it inevitably did. But you avoided the topic of Saturday. Because it might turn out that the fellow across the isle was the guy youโd nearly blindsided at the freeway exit yesterday in order to beat him to a promising garage sale.
The only thing that flowed more than tea in those aisles was Afghan gossip. The flea market was where you sipped green tea with almond kolchas, and learned whose daughter had broken off an engagement and run off with her American boyfriend, who used to be Parchami–a communist–in Kabul, and who had bought a house with under-the-table money while still on welfare. Tea, Politics, and Scandal, the ingredients of an Afghan Sunday at the flea market.
I ran the stand sometimes as Baba sauntered down the aisle, hands respectfully pressed to his chest, greeting people he knew from Kabul: mechanics and tailors selling hand-me-down wool coats and scraped bicycle helmets, alongside former ambassadors, out-of-work surgeons, and university professors.
One early Sunday morning in July 1984, while Baba set up, I bought two cups of coffee from the concession stand and returned to find Baba talking to an older, distinguished-looking man. I put the cups on the rear bumper of the bus, next to the REAGAN/BUSH
FOR โ84 sticker.
โAmir,โ Baba said, motioning me over, โthis is General Sahib, Mr. Iqbal Taheri. He was a decorated general in Kabul. He worked for the Ministry of Defense.โ
Taheri. Why did the name sound familiar? The general laughed like a man used to attending formal parties where heโd laughed on cue at the minor jokes of important people. He had wispy silver-gray hair combed back from his smooth, tanned forehead, and tufts of white in his bushy eye brows. He smelled like cologne and wore an iron-gray three-piece suit, shiny from too many pressings; the gold chain of a pocket watch dangled from his vest.
โSuch a lofty introduction,โ he said, his voice deep and cultured. โ_Salaam, bachem_.โ
Hello, my child.
โ_Salaam_, General Sahib,โ I said, shaking his hand. His thin hands belied a firm grip, as if steel hid beneath the moisturized skin.
โAmir is going to be a great writer,โ Baba said. I did a double take at this. โHe has finished his first year of college and earned Aโs in all of his courses.โ
โJunior college,โ I corrected him.
โ_Mashallah_,โ General Taheri said. โWill you be writing about our country, history perhaps? Economics?โ
โI write fiction,โ I said, thinking of the dozen or so short stories I had written in the leather-bound notebook Rahim Khan had given me, wondering why I was suddenly embarrassed by them in this manโs presence.
โAh, a storyteller,โ the general said. โWell, people need stories to divert them at difficult times like this.โ He put his hand on Babaโs shoulder and
turned to me. โSpeaking of stories, your father and I hunted pheasant together one summer day in Jalalabad,โ he said. โIt was a marvelous time. If I recall correctly, your fatherโs eye proved as keen in the hunt as it had in business.โ
Baba kicked a wooden tennis racket on our tarpaulin spread with the toe of his boot.
โSome business.โ
General Taheri managed a simultaneously sad and polite smile, heaved a sigh, and gently patted Babaโs shoulder. โZendagi migzara,โ he said. Life goes on. He turned his eyes to me. โWe Afghans are prone to a considerable degree of exaggeration, bachem, and I have heard many men foolishly labeled great. But your father has the distinction of belonging to the minority who truly deserves the label.โ This little speech sounded to me the way his suit looked: often used and unnaturally shiny.
โYouโre flattering me,โ Baba said.
โI am not,โ the general said, tilting his head sideways and pressing his hand to his chest to convey humility. โBoys and girls must know the legacy of their fathers.โ He turned to me. โDo you appreciate your father, bachem?
Do you really appreciate him?โ
โBalay, General Sahib, I do,โ I said, wishing heโd not call me โmy child.โ
โThen congratulations, you are already halfway to being a man,โ he said with no trace of humor, no irony, the compliment of the casually arrogant.
โPadar jan, you forgot your tea.โ A young womanโs voice. She was standing behind us, a slim-hipped beauty with velvety coal black hair, an open thermos and Styrofoam cup in her hand. I blinked, my heart quickening.
She had thick black eyebrows that touched in the middle like the arched wings of a flying bird, and the gracefully hooked nose of a princess from old Persia–maybe that of Tahmineh, Rostamโs wife and Sohrabโs mother
from the _Shahnamah_. Her eyes, walnut brown and shaded by fanned lashes, met mine. Held for a moment. Flew away.
โYou are so kind, my dear,โ General Taheri said. He took the cup from her. Before she turned to go, I saw she had a brown, sickle-shaped birthmark on the smooth skin just above her left jawline. She walked to a dull gray van two aisles away and put the thermos inside. Her hair spilled to one side when she kneeled amid boxes of old records and paperbacks.
โMy daughter, Soraya jan,โ General Taheri said. He took a deep breath like a man eager to change the subject and checked his gold pocket watch. โWell, time to go and set up.โ He and Baba kissed on the cheek and he shook my hand with both of his. โBest of luck with the writing,โ he said, looking me in the eye. His pale blue eyes revealed nothing of the thoughts behind them.
For the rest of that day, I fought the urge to look toward the gray van.
IT CAME TO ME on our way home. Taheri, I knew Iโd heard that name before.
โWasnโt there some story floating around about Taheriโs daughter?โ I said to Baba, trying to sound casual.
โYou know me,โ Baba said, inching the bus along the queue exiting the flea market.
โTalk turns to gossip and I walk away.โ โBut there was, wasnโt there?โ I said.
โWhy do you ask?โ He was looking at me coyly.
I shrugged and fought back a smile. โJust curious, Baba.โ
โReally? Is that all?โ he said, his eyes playful, lingering on mine. โHas she made an impression on you?โ
I rolled my eyes. โPlease, Baba.โ
He smiled, and swung the bus out of the flea market. We headed for Highway 680. We drove in silence for a while. โAll Iโve heard is that there was a man once and things…
didnโt go well.โ He said this gravely, like heโd disclosed to me that she had breast cancer.
โI hear she is a decent girl, hardworking and kind. But no khastegars, no suitors, have knocked on the generalโs door since.โ Baba sighed. โIt may be unfair, but what happens in a few days, sometimes even a single day, can change the course of a whole lifetime, Amir,โ he said.
LYING AWAKE IN BED that night, I thought of Soraya Taheriโs sickleshaped birthmark, her gently hooked nose, and the way her luminous eyes had fleetingly held mine. My heart stuttered at the thought of her. Soraya Taheri. My Swap Meet Princess.