Tucker kisses Blondie on the forehead.
And then ruffles her hair as if sheโs a toddler.
โDamn. She got the forehead kiss?โ DโAndre murmurs. โThatโs rough.โ
Whatever. It was still a kiss! And I donโt even want to know who this chick is anymore. I feel stupid for coming tonight.
Tucker is Mr. Popular, with his swarm of admirers and impeccable manners and that reddish hair that makes him look like he belongs in some old-timey family sitcom where life is perfect, perfect, perfect.
Iโm the overachiever, the bitch who studies her ass off and works every second of every day to try to climb out of the gutter she was born in so she can stand next to all these Briar kids without feeling inferior.
โLetโs go,โ I repeat.
My friends must realize how serious I am, because they all take a step forward. Weโre about two feet from the base of the steps when I hear my name.
โSabrina!โ
Crap. Iโve been spotted.
โWait up.โ His voice sounds closer now.
I turn to Carin in a silent plea for help, but she simply grins. When I turn to Hope and DโAndre, theyโre pretending to be studying her phone. Traitors.
Sighing, I swing around and meet Tucker halfway.
Heโs visibly thrilled to see me, his eyes bright and his sexy mouth curved in a smile. โWhat are you doing here?โ
I say the first lame thing that comes to mind. โI was in the neighborhood.โ
โYou were, were you?โ His smile widens. โAnd did you happen to catch any of the game while you were in the neighborhood?โ
โAll of it, actually. That was a nice assist.โ
โI thought you didnโt know anything about hockey.โ
โI donโt. Iโm just repeating what the announcer said on the PA.โ โTuck!โ someone from the group of players calls. โYou coming?โ
He twists around to shout back, โIโll meet you there!โ Then heโs smiling at me again. โWant to come back to my place to celebrate the win with us?โ I shake my head. โI have to get home. I work tomorrow. Besidesโโย Donโt say itโฆย โI donโt particularly feel likeโโย Donโt fucking say it,
Sabrina!ย โโbeing a third wheel,โ I finish, and want to punch myself for it.
His dark auburn eyebrows shoot up. โWhat are you talking about?โ I clench my teeth.
โDarlinโ,โ he prompts.
โLittle Red Riding Hood over there,โ I mumble, jerking my head toward Blondie, whoโs now chatting with one of Tuckerโs friends. โYou two looked like you were on a date.โ
โA date? Um, no.โ He starts to laugh. โThatโs Sheena, a friend of mine.โ He pauses. โWell, an ex.โ
I pounce on that. โSee!โ
โSee what? Sheโs an ex, but sheโs also a friend. Iโm friends with lots of my exes.โ
Of course he is. No girl on this damn planet would ever Carrie Underwood this guy and key his truck or bash it in with a baseball bat. Heโs too fucking nice. Itโs impossible to hate him.
โYouโre jealous,โ he teases. โNo,โ I lie.
โYou totally are.โ Delight dances across his face. โYou like me.โ
โNo,โ I lie again. โI told youโI was in the neighborhood. I figured Iโd say hello.โ
โYouโre better than this, baby. Why donโt you put us out of our misery and say yes already?โ
โYes to what?โ
โA date. Just say yes.โ
My mouth opens to form words. Or rather, one word.ย Yes. I want to say it, I really, really do, but I hate being put on the spot. I can feel my friendsโ
amused gazes on us, and now some of his friends are glancing over too. And Tucker is too good and sweet, and Iโm trashy and aloof, and my stepfather is a total creep, and itโs all too fucking overwhelming right now.
So when I finally answer, itโs not with the word he wants to hear. โYour friends are waiting for you,โ I mutter, and then I hurry back to my crew before he can object.
Carin takes one look at my face and steers me toward the parking lot where DโAndre parked his car.
โUgh!โ I groan when weโre out of Tuckerโs sight. โIโm so freaking stupid!โ
โYouโre not stupid,โ Hope objects.
โIf anything, youโre too smart,โ Carin says. โYour brain is your biggest enemy.โ
โWhatโs that supposed to mean?โ
โIt means you think too much. We all saw your face just nowโyou like this guy. You really like him.โ
โHe scares me,โ I blurt out.
Three sets of eyes blink in surprise.
โHeโs too perfect, you guys.โ I groan again. โAnd Iโm a total mess most of the time. Iโm scared that if he gets to know me better, heโll see that.โ
โSo what if he does?โ Hope counters. My teeth dig into my bottom lip.
Carin touches my arm. โYou need to go out with him. Seriously, Sabrina, youโll regret it if you donโt. And the one thing I know you hate is regrets.โ
Sheโs right. I always kick myself after I let an opportunity pass me by. โTell you what,โ she says when I hesitate for too long. โLetโs make it a
double date.โ
โA double date?โ I echo weakly.
โOooh, threesome.โ Hope waggles her brows. โKinky.โ
โCalm your tits, Hopeless,โ Carin orders. โIโm talking normal, wholesome double date.โ
I think it over. Itย doesย take a lot of the pressure off. โOkayโฆ I can do that.โ
Carin beams. โGood. Now text him before you change your mind. Oh, and whoever you pair me up with better be hot. And make sure he knows
how to use his tongue.โ
โIโm standing right here, you know.โ DโAndre waves one meaty hand in the air. โHow โbout you pervs quit objectifying my man clan?โ
Hope giggles.
โWhoโs objectifying?โ Carin replies. โIโm just saying I want a guy whoโs good with his tongue. That should be the prerequisite for every member of your โman clan,โ D. Like in middle school, they should teach reading, writing, and really good tongue movement.โ
โGirl, I think you can get locked up for those thoughts,โ he warns.
Hope continues to giggle uncontrollably for another minute before gaining enough composure to reach over and squeeze my arm. โThisโll be good for you.โ
โIf it crashes and burns, do I get to say I told you so?โ
โIโll write it across my forehead in black magic marker for you,โ she vows.
As my friends head for Hopeโs car, I gather all the courage I can find and text Tucker before I talk myself out of it.
If I say yes, it doesnโt mean anything.
His answer is immediate.
Him:ย It means yes.
Me:ย But Iโm not committing to anything beyond this one date.
Him:ย Kinda presumptuous, no? I only asked for one date.
I stare at my phone. Had I read this whole thing incorrectly? The guy talked about love at first sight, wanting to be married and have kids, and he only wants to see me one more time and fuck me?
Him:ย Kidding, darlin. Iโm holding back the marriage proposal until the 3rd date. When?
Me:ย Iโm bringing my friend Carin and u need to bring the hottest guy u know.
Him:ย Iโm the hottest guy I know. Will look for 2nd hottest guy on campus. She have any preferences?
Me:ย Someone who knows how to use his tongue.
Him:ย Again, thatโd be me. Not sure how Iโll find out how good the other guys are w/ their equipment. Not a topic that comes up a lot.
Me:ย Thatโs the price of my time.
Him:ย On it.
Thereโs a short delay, and then another message pops up.
Him:ย You wonโt regret this.
*
I have the perfect date idea, Carin texts an hour later. Itโs eleven and Iโm getting ready for bed because I have to be up at four to sort mail. The text is followed up with a slightly blurry pic. I pinch and zoom until I manage to make out a few words.
Me:ย Paint night out? I have no artistic skills. Even my stick figures look terrible. U know this. U mocked my hangman once.
Her:ย That was NOT a hangman. That wasโฆI mean, the arms shld come out from the side of the body, not the neck. Anyway this is EZ. Itโs like a paint by numbers thing. We drink/paint/enjoy ourselves. If the date is crappy then u and I can drink ourselves into oblivion.
Me:ย Fine. When is it? Iโm only available Sun, M, W, Thur.
Her:ย I know. Itโs why I picked this, dummy. Itโs every other Sunday, as in tomorrow night.
How would I know? The picture she sent is small and blurry and could say itโs a church group meeting on Saturday morning.
Me:ย Iโll see if T is available.
Her:ย Bet u he is.
Iโm not taking that bet. Instead, I text Tucker.
Me:ย You in 4 some paint by numbers?
My phone dings the message alert just as Iโm pulling on my sleep shirt and boxers.
Him:ย Is that like naked Twister?
Me:ย I have no clue.
I send him the picture. Maybe he can make some sense out of it, because I sure canโt.
Him:ย Was this taken with an actual camera or drawn by tiny leprechauns?
Me:ย Carinโs a scientist, not an artist. Btw did u find someone?
Him:ย Yes. My buddy Fitz is coming and b4 u ask, I have no idea re: his oral skills. But heโs hella smart, has a mean slapshot, and Iโve never heard any complaints.
I take a screenshot of that text and send it to Carin.
Me:ย Is this OK?
Her:ย Can I have a pic?
I text Tuck,ย Can she have a pic?
Him:ย Of what?
Dear God. This is a ridiculous game of actual telephone.
Me:ย Tucker says: of what?
Her:ย Face, abs, ass. No dick
I take yet another screenshot and shoot that off to Tucker. While he considers the request, I wash my face and brush my teeth. By the time I climb into bed, thereโs a message waiting for me. A picture of a gorgeous dark-haired guy flipping Tucker off fills my screen.
Wow. Itโs incredible how hot these Briar hockey players are. Is that a requirement of making the team? Be able to slap the puck a hundred miles an hour and also star in the calendar?
I forward the picture to Carin, who sends me a thumbs-up emoji in return. Then I text Tucker again.
Me:ย Weโre good to go.
Him:ย Time/place? Srsly canโt read this thing.ย Me:ย Tomorrow. 8 p.m. Carin says thereโs booze.ย Him:ย K
Iโm about to put my phone away when three dots appear. And then disappear. And then re-appear again. Finally, the message comes through.
Him:ย Dick pics that bad?
I smother a giggle. Thatโs his question?
Me:ย Why? RU going to send me one?
Him:ย Feel like that may be a trick question. Do u want one?
Me:ย Depends on context. Random dick pics = no. Otherwise? I dunno. I havenโt gotten one that Iโve really liked. Uโve sent one? Or several?
Him:ย My thumbs are tired. Hold on.
The phone vibrates in my hand a second later. โHello,โ I answer.
โHey.โ He pauses. โSo what made you change your mind about the date?โ
โMy friends said it would be good for me,โ I admit.
โYour friends are right.โ I can hear the smile in his voice. โAnyway, I feel like this is a conversation we should have in person so I can see your face. Eggplant emojis donโt have enough nuance.โ
This makes me laugh. โTrue.โ
โBut youโre in Boston and Iโm in Hastings, so weโre going with the phone call. I may have sent a pic once, but it was solicited. She sent me one first.โ
โReally? Iโm not a fan of that. Too many revenge pics online.โ Besides, I never really hung around a guy long enough to want to send him a picture,
but I donโt share that with Tucker. โSo there are pics of Tuckerโs mighty wang on the internet?โ
โI havenโt been tagged on Instagram yet, so Iโm hopeful they arenโt out there. But thanks for calling my dick mighty. We appreciate that.โ Amusement colors his words.
โWe? As in you and your penis?โ โYup,โ he says cheerfully.
I snuggle deeper under the covers. โYou have a name for your penis?โ โDoesnโt everyone? Guys put a name on everything thatโs important to
themโcars, dicks. One of my teammates in junior hockey named his stick, which was dumb because sticks break all the time. Heโd gone through twelve of them by the end of the season.โ
โWhat were the names?โ
โThatโs the thing. He just kept adding a number to the end, like iPhone 6, iPhone 7, except in his case it was Henrietta 1, Henrietta 2, et cetera.โ
I snicker. โHe shouldโve used the hurricane naming convention.โ โDarlinโ, he wasnโt smart enough to come up with two names, let alone
twelve.โ
Darlinโ. My heart trips at the endearment. When he used it before, it seemed like a throwaway. But now? After he just said guys name things that are important to them?
I quell my fantastical interpretations before they lead me to a dangerous end.ย Weโre flirting. Keep the tone light. โWhatโs your dickโs name?โ
โUh-uh,โ he scolds. โThatโs wife knowledge. I canโt tell you until the honeymoon.โ
I wait for the inevitable sense of discomfort to start tickling my neck, but it doesnโt come. Apparently the offhand jokes about marriage no longer bother me.
โSo what makes a good dick pic?โ he asks. โNot that Iโm sending you one.โ
โIs that also wife knowledge?โ I tease. โIโd consider it engagement stuff.โ
I put that thought aside and consider his question. โCompletely graphic doesnโt do it for me. I need context, like I said before. Your fist around it would be hot. You have good hands.โ
Thereโs a rustling sound, footsteps, and then a door latch clicking shut. Heโs gone somewhere private, and that knowledge makes certain parts of my body pulse excitedly.
โI had to leave the living room. Weโve got people over, and you thinking about my dick is hot as fuck. Iโm too hard to be in public.โ
My breasts feel so heavy that Iโm finding it hard to breathe. As I shift underneath the blankets, I hear his breath catch.
โWhat are you thinking about?โ he murmurs.
I drag in some air to fill my suddenly depleted lungs. I know where this is going. If I stay on the phone, weโre going to end up turning each other on to the point that Iโm going to have to masturbate once Iโm done. Tucker remains silent, leaving the decision up to me. I dip my hand between my legs as if the pressure could make the ache go away, but the contact only intensifies my desire.
My voice is hoarse when I start speaking. โIโm fixated on you holding your dick. Only now youโre moving your hand, stroking yourself.โ
When thereโs no immediate response, I blush, thinking Iโve gone too far for him. But his next words tell me heโs right with me.
โYouโre killing me.โ
I bite my lip and rub harder. โIโm getting worked up too.โ
โThat doesnโt help, because now Iโm picturing you all flushed and needy. You wet, Sabrina?โ
My fingers slip across my pussy. โVery.โ โFuck. What would I be doing if I was there?โ
โLicking me,โ I say instantly. He has a great tongue.
On his end, thereโs more rustling and then a husky, โYou need a toy?โ
โYeah, give me a sec.โ I fumble in my desk drawer and find the box of tampons where I hide stuff from Rayโsome cash rolled up in an empty tampon cartridge and my vibe. I fish the latter out and flick it on.
โReady,โ I tell him as I place the quivering toy against my clit. My hips arch up and a small cry escapes me.
โGoddamn,โ he groans. โSlide it inside, slow and steady. Itโs my hand on that vibrator and my tongue is on your clit.โ
As he issues his commands and paints an erotic picture, I work the toy in and out. Itโs such a relief not to have to think, to give myself completely over to him. I donโt say anything more. I canโt, really. Iโm too focused on
listening, letting his southern drawl pour over me like warm syrup, listening to the hoarse, dirty instructions telling me to pump the vibe harder, imagine him licking my pussy, telling me how gorgeous and sexy I am, and how heโs never been harder in his life.
I come as the sounds of him working his own flesh mix with my gasps of pleasure. His voice fills my world.
โNight, darlinโ,โ he says when my breathing slows.
โNight,โ I manage. And then I fall asleep, deep and long and utterly satisfied.