AFTER DINNER,ย a small group of us heads to the Filthy Flamingo. Iโm sitting in a booth between Rory and Hayden, across from Jamie, Pippa, and Alexei. Roryโs arm drapes over the back of the booth, over my shoulders, and I can feel the heat of him along my side.
I kissed him. I donโt even think Connor saw, but I didnโt care. I just really, really wanted to kiss Rory again.
The trophy sits on the table in the middle of our group. Every time Connor looked at it during dinner, his jaw ticked in irritation. As soon as dinner was done, he left, muttering about having an early training session tomorrow. I smile to myself.
โWhatโs so funny, Hartley?โ Rory murmurs in my ear.
โJust thinking about how we kicked Connorโs ass.โ The way Rory laughed as we ran up the stairs replays in my head. His smile stretched ear to ear, boyish delight radiating from him.
I liked it, and Iโm itching to see it again.
I suck in a tight breath. Itโs pretend. Guys like Rory and Connor, they can have whatever and whoever they want. Iโm not going to get attached.
It feels different with Rory, though, and I canโt put my finger on how. Maybe itโs that Iโve got his full attention, whereas with Connor, I was always an afterthought. My thoughts flip to earlier in the closet with the stained-glass window, how I asked if we were friends.
Roryโs fingers find my hair, playing with it. Prickles skitter down my spine when he touches the top of my shoulder.
โHave you settled on a date yet?โ Hayden asks Pippa and Jamie about their upcoming wedding.
Pippa smiles, fiddling with her engagement ring, and looks at Jamie. The corner of his mouth tips up as his arm slides from her shoulder down to her waist.
โNot yet,โ she says, still smiling up at Jamie. โSometime in the spring.โ
That strange pang hits my chest, the one I feel sometimes when I watch them, and my mind returns to Rory sitting beside me. The gift he got me. How he kissed me when he saw me tonight. How he kissed me upstairs in the hallway so fervently, like I was so necessary to him.
My heart gives another pleasant twang, and I rub it away.
Pippa arches an eyebrow at Hayden. โAre you bringing a date?โ
His grin widens. โNope. Iโm thinking about picking up one of your cute musician friends.โ
She rolls her eyes. โYou dog, you.โ
โIโm not a dog,โ Hayden protests, laughing. โI never lead girls on. They know Iโm not looking for anything serious.โ He lifts a big shoulder. โItโs easier that way, with our schedules and trades and stuff.โ
My brow wrinkles. Iโve always lumped him in with the rest of the hockey players who have a new hookup every week because they can.
Iโm not looking for anything seriousย andย itโs easier that wayย is what I say about relationships, though, and now Iโm wondering what his deal is.
With my one-time-only hookup rule, if I were a guy, Iโd probably be called a player, too.
โThereโs something we wanted to ask you two,โ Pippa tells me and Rory, and I pull my attention back to the conversation. Her hands wring in her lap. โWill you be my maid of honor, Hazel?โ
Emotion stings my eyes, sharp and sweet, and I blink it away fast. For the first time, it hits me: my baby sister is getting married. Sheโs fallen in love with a truly great guy who loves her more than anything. A man I actually like and trust, and sheโs so wildly happy.
All I ever wanted was for her to be happy.
โOf course I will,โ I tell her, my voice thick. โYou didnโt even need to ask.โ
She shrugs, smiling. Her cheeks are pink. โI know. Itโs just going to be a big day and I need you there.โ
My heart clenches with love. โCome here,โ I say, and Hayden and Alexei move so we can slide out of the booth.
She tackles me in a big hug, almost tripping over her dress, and I laugh into her hair, squeezing her as hard as sheโs squeezing me. Since we were little, thatโs how weโve hugged each other. As tight as we can.
โLove you,โ she whispers into my hair. โLove you, too.โ
We sit back down, and Roryโs hand traces the top of my shoulders. Heโs watching me with a little smile, and my skin goes warm. He saw all of that. Iโm not used to him seeing me all hugging and loving. I glance away, embarrassed.
Across the table, Pippa gives Jamie a meaningful look. He clears his throat and turns to Rory. โI need a best man.โ
Roryโs hand stills on my shoulder. โYeah, you probably do.โ Jamieโs eyebrows lift. โYou up for it?โ
A beat passes. โOnly if youโre sure.โ Thereโs a hesitant note to his words.
It feels like he doesnโt think he deserves this. My heart aches. โIโm sure.โ Jamie gives him a nod. โI want you to do it.โ
Rory relaxes, and his fingers go back to brushing long, distracting strokes over my skin. โYou know Iโm in.โ
Jamie sits back. โGood.โ
โYeah. Good.โ I catch the side of Roryโs smile.
Thereโs a pause where no one says anything before Pippa gestures between them with exasperation. โHug each other.โ
Rory chuckles and Jamie actually smiles as we all move out of the booth. They stand and give each other a masculine, backslapping hug. When Rory drops back down beside me, itโs me whoโs watching him with a little smile. He shoots me a wink before shifting closer, and his hand lands on the part of my shoulder that meets my neck. A second later, his fingers toy with the neckline of my dress, sending shivers and tingles down my back.
The guys start talking about their upcoming game, but Iโm half listening, focused on the tickling sensation of his fingers on me and thinking about the fun we had earlier, bounding up the stairs and laughing like kids. He was so different from the flat, unimpressed version of Rory I see on the ice. He was lit up, glowing from within.
I want to see that version of Rory Miller again.