RORY MILLER KISSES ME,ย and the world tilts below my feet. His stubble scrapes my skin, making my breath catch. Kissing him is so different from what I expected.
His mouth is a gentle press against mine, his exhale is soft against my skin, and his fingers trail across my jaw before sinking into my hair. His movements are slow, unhurried. Iโd say he was reluctant if it werenโt for the way his tongue slips past my lips and lightly strokes me.
The breath whooshes out of my lungs, and I realize Iโm gripping the front of his shirt in my fist. His fingers flex for a split second on the back of my hair, and he covers my hand on his chest, flattening it against him. Everything about him is warm, inviting, and comforting.
Nothing makes sense right now, but he smells so goodโsandalwood and something clean, like body washโand the sensation of his stubble brushing my chin is so enjoyable that I stop trying to figure this moment out. The way he smells pulls on a muscle low in my belly.
โJesus Christ,โ he mutters to himself against my lips before his tongue glides against mine.
He grips the back of my hairโstill gentle, still carefulโand pulls. Rory kisses me like heโs been thinking about this for a long time, and as sparks shoot over my skin at the feel of his hand in my hair, I make a quiet noise of pleasure against his lips.
He huffs. โLiked that, huh?โ
His words rumble against my hand on his chest. I open my mouth to say something smart and sharp, but he strokes back inside, licking into me.
This isnโt just a kiss. My head spins with the pleasure of his lips against mine, the way he tastes, the way he feels and smells.
In some dark corner of my mind, I wonder if this is how heโd use his tongue between my legs. The muscles there clench, and I nip his bottom lip. Under my palm, his heart beats fast.
I pull back to look at him, and my stomach flutters as our eyes lock. He looks wildly handsome. Itโs unfair how his blue eyes pop against the inky black and crisp white of his tux, and itโs unfair how he can look so boyishly handsome and yet powerful and masculine at the same time. His hair is in that perfectly messy, just-fucked style that he pulls off so well. The sides are cleaned up like he snuck out to get a haircut this afternoon, and my fingers itch to trace the short hairs, feel the tickle of them under my nails.
Someone clears their throat and I snap back to reality.
Pippa and Jamie stare at us with the same amused expression, and Connor is nowhere to be found. My face heats and I run a finger along my lip line to make sure nothing smeared. Beside me, Rory shifts, breathing hard. Our eyes meet and warmth pulses between my legs at the glazed look in his eyes. We both look away again.
โYou look really nice,โ he says, still not looking at me.
โThanks.โ Iโm studying a spot on the other side of the room.
Thereโs a beat where we glance at each other again before looking away.
Heโs flushing, I think.
โIโm going to get us drinks,โ he says, glancing at my dress again before walking away.
His sharp black tux is tailored to fit every inch of his lean, athletic frame. Watching Rory Miller walk away in a tux likeย that, with his broad shoulders and powerful yet graceful movements, is truly a gift. Iโm not prepared for how hot he looks, and I know my gaze is lingering too long, but I canโt look away.
โHmm.โ Pippaโs smiling at me, and heat creeps up my neck.
โDonโt start.โ I push my hair behind my shoulders, collecting myself. Worry swirls through me and I bite my lip. We shouldnโt have done that.
I liked it too much.
For days, Iโve replayed our argument, the crushing feeling in my chest as he basically told me I was broken and pathetic, and then his desperate, pained expression as he apologized.
He looked like heโd just die if I didnโt forgive him.
Iโve thought about him lacing up my skates. His gentle patience as he taught me to skate. On the ice, when he looked at my mouth with focus in his eyes, I thought maybe heโd try to kiss me, but he didnโt.
That dumb, adorable dragon sits on my dresser, staring back at me as I fall asleep each night.
I glance back at Rory. Our eyes meet, and I look away, taking in the room, the art on the walls, the plush leather furniture, the side tables with antique knickknacks. Near the bar, Ward stands among a group of players, a drink in one hand, listening as Alexei says something. Coaches are supposed to be old, red-faced, and angry, but Ward looks like James Bond in his tux, all handsome and quietly confident.
Rory returns with a drink for me, and I sip it, grateful for something to do with my hands.
โIโm glad you came,โ he murmurs, and his mouth brushes my ear before he presses a quick kiss to my temple.
A shiver rolls down my back. Heโs getting more bold with this fake relationship charade, and I wish I could say Iโm annoyed by it butโฆ Iโm not.
My smile is a bit shy. โDid you think I wouldnโt?โ
โWell, after the other dayโฆโ He glances back to me, rubbing the back of his neck. โI got you something. To say sorry.โ
โYou already said sorry.โ
โI know.โ A slight frown creases his forehead as he reaches into his jacket and pulls out an envelope. โI wanted to show you I meant it.โ
Heโs wearing that same earnest expression he wore at the rink, like heโs in physical pain. A lock of hair has fallen onto his forehead and my gaze lingers on it.
โOpen it,โ he says, tilting his chin at the envelope now in my hand.
I slide out an email confirmation. Itโs for a weekend at a nearby vacation destination, Harrison Hot Springsโthe luxury suite at aย reallyย nice hotel and two full days at the spa.
โItโs for you and Pippa,โ he says quickly. โYou can go whenever you want.โ He gives me a tight, vulnerable smile that makes my heart ache. โYou said spending time with Pippa made you feel worthy.โ
In my head, the glowing sign that saysย Rory Miller is an evil, selfish hockey playerย flickers, losing power.
โYouโre supposed to be an asshole.โ I keep my tone light and humorous as I stare at the paper, and he huffs a quiet laugh.
That was the guy I signed up for when we agreed to this. Notย thisย Rory.
Not the sweet, earnest, honest guy who apologizes like he means it.
Iโm starting to think I was wrong. Maybe I donโt know Rory Miller at
all.
โI wasnโt pretending,โ Rory says quietly, eyes on me.
Aboutโฆ the kiss? I search his deep blue gaze, blue like my dress, and
there isnโt enough air in here.
โAbout the dress.โ Roryโs mouth tips into an affectionate smile. โYou look beautiful.โ
Warm, liquid feelings gather inside me, swirling and looping.
โThe dress cost more than what I make in a month,โ I admit, laughing a little.
โHow many times do I need to say it?โ His voice is low and soft as he smiles down at me, gaze lingering on my hair, my dress, with his trademark cocky, knowing grin. โIโm going to spend money on you.โ
Longing aches in my chest. Itโs not the money; itโs the gesture. Iโve always been independent and stubborn. No one takes care of me.
I like it. Roryโs smiling down at me like Iโm precious to him, and the way he kissed me, hungry and needy and desperate like he couldnโt wait a second longer?
I liked all of that, too.
Worry pulls tight in my chest. Weโve got until January first, and then this is all over, so Iโm not going to get used to it.
โBesides,โ he says, putting his hands in his pockets, โIโm not talking about the dress. Iโm talking about you. Youโre stunning.โ
โThank you.โ My heart gives a heavy thud against the front wall of my ribcage. No oneโs ever called me beautiful like that, so earnestly. โFor everything. For the dress, for this.โ I hold up the envelope. โIโm starting to think youโre secretly nice.โ
He smiles at me, and yeah, Iโm fucked, because thereโs a weird, intense feeling around my heart that Iโve never felt before.
A glass-tinkling noise rings out and Ward waits as the conversation dies down.
โYou have the luckiest sex doll in the world,โ I whisper to Rory, smiling, and he shakes with laughter.