Dean
ALLIEโS FATHER HATESย me on sight.
Iโm sure if I mentioned it to Allie, sheโd wave off my concerns and say things like โheโs just grumpyโ or โoh, thatโs just how he is with everyoneโ. But sheโd be wrong.
Joe Hayes hates me from the moment he opens the door and sees me standing on the stoop. And hoo boy, donโtย Iย feel overdressed. Allie told me to dress โniceโ, so Iโd chosen a white Tom Ford dress shirt and gray Armani trousers. No suit coat, but my black Ralph Lauren jacket gets an eyebrow flick from Allieโs dad, whoโs in sweatpants and a flannel shirt.
โYou AJโs friend from school?โ he barks. I wrinkle my brow. โAJ?โ
โMy daughter. Allison Jane?โ Mr. Hayes looks annoyed that he has to explain.
โOh, ah, yes, sir. I know her as Allie, though.โ
โAnd you didnโt know her nickname?โ He makes a derisive sound. โNot much of a friend, are ya?โ He mutters, โCome inโ and turns around stiffly. Stiff in the literal sense, because his gait is visibly labored as he stumbles forward on a slender cane.
Allie had warned me that her father has MS. She also advised me not to bring it up in conversation, saying he doesnโt like talking about it and will most likely bite my head off if I mention it. So I donโt, but itโs clear even with my non-medical background that heโs in pain right now.
I follow Mr. Hayes through a surprisingly large main floor with gleaming hardwood and what looks like the original woodwork and doors from whenever this brownstone was built. Allie and her dad have the two lower floors, which Iโm brusquely told contain four bedrooms and three baths. Either the family purchased the apartment before the Brooklyn
Heights neighborhood became super exclusive, or pro-hockey scouts make
wayย more money than I thought.
He leads me into a spacious living room with a bay window that overlooks a neatly tended garden and patio. โDo you garden?โ I ask politely.
Allieโs dad scowls at me. โWoman upstairs takes care of the garden.โ Okay then.
โDean. Hey.โ
Oh thank Christ. Allie pops into the room, and Iโm relieved to see sheโs wearing a knee-length blue dress. Not a fancy one, but nice enough that I no longer feel like I showed up to a potluck in a tuxedo.
โYou want anything to drink?โ she asks after she greets me with a quick hug.
I glance at the brown leather couch that Mr. Hayes is slowly lowering himself on. He tucks the cane on the edge of the sofa and snatches a beer from the coffee table. His hand trembles wildly as he raises the bottle to his lips. When he catches me staring, he scowls again.
โUhโฆโ I gulp. โA beer would be nice.โ โCoors or Bud?โ
โBud.โ
She nods. โComing right up.โ
Iโm once again left alone in the clutches of Mr. Hayes, whose blue eyes are now glued to the Lions game flashing on the flat screen. Iโve got about five inches and thirty pounds on the man, but he still fucking terrifies me. I suspect he was a bruiser when he played hockey. Heโs got that stocky barrel chest. And the surly attitude.
โWhat are you waiting for, pretty boy? Sit down already.โ Pretty boy?
Goddamn it. Why did I show up in Ford and Armani? Allieโs dad probably took one look at my expensive getup and decided I was a rich prick.
Very reluctantly, I sit on the other end of the sectional.
Mr. Hayes glances over briefly. โAJ says you play hockey.โ โYes, sir.โ
โForward?โ
โDefenseman.โ
โWhatโre your stats so far this season?โ
I pause uncertainly. Wait, does he expect me to rattle off actual numbers? Like goals and assists and penalty minutes? I could probably ballpark it, but reciting my own statistics feels pompous.
โTheyโre decent,โ I say vaguely. โThe teamโs had a rocky start. We won the Frozen Four last season, though.โ
He nods. โWon it junior year. Boston College.โ
โNice. Uh. Congrats.โ His face is utterly expressionless, so I canโt be sure if this is some kind of pissing match. If so, I could probably mention I won it the year before, too. But I keep my mouth shut. Luckily, Allie is back with my beer, and I reach for it as if itโs a life preserver. โThanks, babe.โ
We both freeze the moment the endearment leaves my mouth. Shit. I hope Mr. Hayes didnโt hear that.
Heโs sitting right here. Of course he heard.
I twist off the bottle cap and take a much-needed swig of alcohol. โSo what did I miss?โ Allie asks in an overly cheerful voice.
Her father scoffs. โPretty boy over here was just telling me how he won the Frozen Four.โ
Fucking hell.
This is going to be a long Thanksgiving.
*
DINNER IS AWFUL. Well, not the foodโfor someone who claims to suck at cooking, Allie did a pretty good job with the meal. Itโs the act of eating said food that I find excruciating. The conversation is brutal. Mr. Hayes seems to be going out of his way to antagonize me. His preferred phrase of the evening is โof course.โ Except itโs spoken in a flat, condescending tone that makes me wish I was spending Thanksgiving in the empty house in Hastings.
When Allie tells him Iโm going to law school next fall, he says, โOf course.โ
When she mentions my family owns a place in Manhattan, he says, โOf course.โ
When I thank him for having me to dinner, he says, โOf course.โ Goddamn. Brutal.
Donโt get me wrong, Iโm making a genuine effort to be polite. I ask him what it was like to be a pro scout, but all I get is a half-mumbled, one- sentence response. I compliment him on how nice this brownstone is, and he grunts out a โthank you.โ
Eventually I give up, but Allie is more than happy to fill the awkward silence. As she tells her father about the play sheโs acting in, her courses, her upcoming auditions, and everything else she has going on, thatโs the only time Mr. Hayes seems to come to life. Itโs obvious he loves his daughter deeply, and he hangs on to every word she says like sheโs offering him the secrets to eternal life. He does scowl at her once, though, after he asks if sheโs still in touch with Sean and she admits they had coffee.
โNever liked that boy,โ Mr. Hayes mutters. For once, he and I are on the same page.
Allie chews her last bite of gravy-laden mashed potatoes before voicing a protest. โAw, thatโs not true. You guys always got along when we came to visit you.โ
Her father chuckles. Well, look at that, heโs actually capable of conveying humor. I never would have guessed.
โHe was your boyfriendโI had no choice but to get along with him.
Now heโs not, so I donโt have to pretend to like him anymore.โ I cover up a laugh behind my napkin.
โBoy was too needy,โ Mr. Hayes continues. โI didnโt like the way he looked at you.โ
โHow did he look at me?โ Allie asks warily. โLike you were his entire world.โ
She frowns. โAnd thatโs a bad thing?โ
โDamn right it is. Nobody should ever be someone elseโs entire world. Thatโs not healthy, AJ. If your whole life is centered on one thingโone personโwhatcha going to be left with if that person goes away? Absolutely nothing.โ He gruffly reiterates, โNot healthy.โ
Joe Hayes has a very practical way of looking at things. Iโm oddly impressed.
โWell, now youโre just making me feel bad for Sean. Letโs change the subject. Dean, tell my dad about your last game.โ
I sigh ruefully. โReally? The one I got thrown out of?โ Her dad harrumphs. โOf course.โ
The conversation becomes strained again. Iโm relieved when itโs finally time to clear the table, eagerly standing up to help Allie gather the dishes. Thereโs still half a turkey left in the serving platter, which Mr. Hayes reaches for as he staggers to his feet.
โNo, Dad,โ Allie says in a strict voice. โGo and watch the rest of the game. Dean and I can clean up.โ
โIโm not an invalid, AJ,โ he grumbles. โIโm perfectly capable of carrying one plate to the kitchen.โ
No sooner do the words exit his mouth than the platter wobbles in his hand. Or rather, his hand wobbles and the platter follows suit, abruptly slipping from his grip and smashing to the hardwood.
The ceramic shatters to pieces, sending the slippery turkey careening across the floor. I immediately set down my plates and hurry around the table. Allie does the same, and our heads bump when we both reach for the same broken piece.
โGoddamn it,โ Mr. Hayes bites out. โIโll take care of the mess.โ
โNo.โ Her tone isnโt strict anymoreโitโs commanding. She snatches the ceramic shard from my hand and says, โDean, would you take Dad to the living room and make sure he stays there?โ
Her father levels me with a death glare that makes my balls shrivel up, but no way am I facing Allieโs wrath right now. Stifling a sigh, I lightly clasp Joeโs arm and lead him out of the small dining room.
The scowl stays fixed on his face even after heโs settled on the couch. โI couldโve cleaned it up myself,โ he informs me.
โI know.โ I shrug. โBut I think we made the right call sneaking out of there. For such a tiny little thing, your daughter sure is terrifying when sheโs trying to get her way.โ
His lips curve ever so slightly. Holy shit, did I almost make him smile?
But whatever shred of humor I might have induced disappears before I can blink. Mr. Hayes lowers his voice to a deadly pitch and asks, โWhat do you want with AJ?โ
I shift in confusion. โI donโt understand the question.โ
โI see the wayย youย look at her, too.โ His jaw begins to twitch, but I donโt know if itโs from anger, or the disease heโs battling. โYou like her.โ
โOf course I do,โ I say awkwardly. โWeโre friends.โ
โDonโt feed me that bull. Iโve been alive a lot longer than you, pretty boy. You think I canโt tell when a man is in lust?โ
And I thought the dinner conversation was uncomfortable.
โI get it. AJโs a catch. Sheโs smart, pretty like her mom. Sheโs caringโ too damn caring sometimes,โ he admits. โIf she loves you, sheโll always put your needs ahead of hers.โ And I know heโs talking about his own relationship with Allie now. Itโs obvious that because of his MS, she puts his needs first, not to mention coddles him more than he likes.
โShe needs a man who will take care ofย her.โ His voice goes soft for a moment, but then it sharpens. โYouโre not that man, kid. Youโre incapable of that.โ
Insult prickles my skin. Who is he to make that sort of judgment?
He notices my frown and chuckles. โI was a hockey scout for more than twenty yearsโyou think youโre the first cocky SOB Iโve met in my life? Cockier, too, because you grew up with money. You already have that entitled sense of importance that comes after a player signs his first seven- figure contract.โ
I force my hands not to clench into fists. โJust because my family has money doesnโt mean Iโm a bad person, sir.โ
โNot saying that.โ He shrugs. โBut guys like you, you know nothing about real world problems. And if shit does go wrong, you throw a little money at the problem andย poofโall fixed.โ Blue eyes, a shade darker than Allieโs, sweep over me from head to toe. โYouโre not what she needs, Dean. You wouldnโt step up and be there for her if it came down to it.โ A pause. โI donโt trust you to take care of my daughter.โ
With that final cutting remark, he shifts his gaze back to the football game.