My heart skips a few several beats, sputtering at the sight of her standing there in the sand.
I canโt breathe, canโt think, canโt do anything but stare helplessly at her 1gure so far away.
This canโt be right. Adena is the farthest thing from a criminal. The farthest thing from anyone who deserves to die.
An Imperial storms by, jostling my shoulder hard enough that I grab his arm. He whips round, temper Raring in his eyes. Iโve never once gone out of my way to interact with an Imperial, yet here I am, clutching his bicep and growling, โSheโs not a criminal. Why the hell is she in there?โ
The man scoIs, shoving me away from him. And if I werenโt so shaken, I likely wouldnโt have let him. โKingโs orders, slummer.โ He bares his teeth in what he thinks is a menacing way. โGrab me again and Iโll throw you in there with her.โ
โWell, in that caseโฆโ I catch his arm, twisting it out with a jerk that forces a gasp from his lips.
He staggers back, eyes wide with hatred. โWhy youโโ He stops suddenly, and I fear the worst when his eyes narrow. โOn second thought, I think youโd be hurting far more if you simply watched her die.โ
My chest heaves at his words, and before I can do something drastic, he spins on his heel and strides away. Iโm left staring after him, breath shaky and palms sweaty.
I turn back slowly towards the arena, fearing what it is Iโll 1nd there. When my eyes land on her, I can just make out the rope binding her wrists behind her back.
But itโs her 1ngers I focus on. They look wrong, oddly diIerent to what I memorized from the many hours of watching her sew.
I squint, shading my eyes from the blinding sun.
And then Iโm once again grasping the rail for support. Her 1ngers are bent, swollen, broken behind her back. Her sewing 1ngers. They have broken her sewing 1ngers. Emotion clogs my throat, making it hard to swallow.
Those beautiful hands of hers. Those beautiful hands that have cupped my face, created countless pieces of clothing, clapped joyfully at the smallest of things.
And now they never will again.
I shake my head, 1ghting the tears that beg to fall.
No, this isnโt happening. Why would this be happening to her?
A blur from the edge of the circle emerges from the foliage. Blinking away unshed tears, I lean over the railing, catching a glimpse of a vaguely familiar 1gure.
Paedyn.
Dangerously, I let hope grab ahold of my heart, forcing it to sputter back to life.
If what I know about her is true, then the Silver Savior would never hurt her other half. With that as my only hope, I watch her tear through the sand towards a stumbling Adena.
I pray to whatever will listen. Beg with every ounce of earnestness. OIer my life for hers.
And yet, it appears that nothing was listening. Nothing even cared enough to hear me out, consider my pleas.
Because a branch plunges into her back. I scream.
The sound rips my throat raw, managing to turn hundreds of heads in my direction.
I canโt look away, canโt see anything but the blood blooming across her back. The branch pierces straight through her to protrude from her chest and the beautiful heart beating there.
When her knees hit the sand, mine meet the concrete.
Tears slide over my skin as I watch Paedyn fall to the ground beside her.
Watch her cradle that head of curls, cling to her broken body.
It hurts to not be holding her. My heart aches and my vision blurs. The box in my pocket grows heavy against my chest, right above the mangled heart beating beneath.
The needle will never have the pleasure of being held by her. And neither will I. Not ever again.
I can barely hear Paedynโs desperate shouts through the persistent ringing in my ears, but I keep my eyes trained on her, not daring to look away until sheโs truly left me forever.
Her eyes are trained on the sky. I picture those big hazel eyes that I loved to fall on me, and choose to remember them that way.
The Sights are now focused on her, displaying her death clearly on the screen above for all to see. I cover my mouth with a trembling hand, attempting to smother my sob.
She blinks slowly at the sky above, her eyelids growing heavier with each one.
Sheโs counting the stars.
I break.
All of me. Every inch of my being shattering at the realization.
Sobs shake my body as I clutch the bars of the railing, my legs trembling atop the concrete.
Itโs a good thing I cut her bangs. The crooked strands kiss her forehead, allowing those hazel eyes clear view of the stars.
The stars she now counts for the last time. I weep, unashamed, for her.
For the girl who shines so bright that the sun pales in comparison. For the girl who I was helplessly tripping into.
For the girl who deserved a happy ending. โJust count the stars, Dena.โ
I choke out the words, whisper them on the wind that will carry her soul far away from me. โJust count the stars.โ
I count right along with her.
One, two, threeโฆ
Only, Iโm counting down the seconds until I get to see her again.
Four, ๏ฌve, sixโฆ
Iโll count until Iโm up in the sky beside her.
Seven, eight, nineโฆ
And I suddenly wish that second would come sooner.
Ten, eleven, twelveโฆ
I feel her power Ricker and fade. And then I watch her die.
Watch the life drain from her dark skin, steal the light from her eyes.
The connection snaps. Her ability slips between my 1ngers. Leaving me cold and shaking without its comfort.
And Iโll never feel it again. Never feelย herย again.
Thirteen, fourteen, ๏ฌfteenโฆ
When Paedynโs hand sweeps over her eyes, shutting out the world for eternity, I stand and stumble down the path with shaky legs.
Sixteen, seventeen, eighteenโฆ
Tears blur my vision; anger burns my blood. I turn down a concrete tunnel leading to the world beyond. A world without her. A world she is no longer in.
And Iโm not sure I can live in that world.
Nineteen, twenty, twenty-oneโฆ
My sobs echo oI the walls, drowning out the cheers from inside the Bowl. It should have been me. I wish it was me.
Twenty-two, twenty-three, twenty-fourโฆ
They are cheering. Cheering as if a sliver of the sun hadnโt just burned out before them.
Twenty-๏ฌve, twenty-six, twenty-sevenโฆ
When my feet meet the path outside, and my face is thoroughly doused in sun, I fall to my knees once again.
I clutch the vest around me, pulling at the perfectly straight seams holding it together.
Twenty-eight, twenty-nine, thirtyโฆ
Never again will I get to admire her while she sews.
My head falls into my hands, collecting hot tears on my palms. Then Iโm running my 1ngers over the vest again, tracing every bit that her 1ngers graced.
Thirty-one, thirty-two, thirty-threeโฆย My heart stutters at the feel of raised
thread beneath a pocket.
I donโt need to look at it to know what it says. Donโt need to read the words to have more tears rolling down my cheeks.
โSee you in the sky.โ
I look up, choking back a sob.
Thirty-four, thirty-๏ฌve, thirty-sixโฆ
The sun drenches me in warmth, coats me in comfort. Itโs soothing. Gentle. Soft.
I smile sadly. Laugh despite the tears still staining my skin. And there she is, outshining everyone.
In a way, sheโs always been the sun. Always the brightness that existed despite the presence of such darkness.
Thirty-seven, thirty-eight, thirty-nineโฆ
โThanks for picking the closest star, Dena.โ I take a shaky breath.
Forty, forty-one, forty-twoโฆ
โLooks like youโll be around to keep me company.โ
