OCTOBER 31ST 2001 AOIFE
THE PAVILION WAS PACKEDย to the rafters on Halloween night, with people grinding and sweating all over each other in their hunt for a good time, and I was no exception to the rule.
Throwing shapes to Flip & Fillโsย Shake Ya Shimmyย in my fancy new shoes โ courtesy of daddy dearest โ with my best friend by my side, I let loose and threw myself into the moment.
With our costumes coordinating, Casey was the slutty devil to my equally slutty angel. With her horns and my halo, we made quite the pair on the dancefloor, enjoying the attention we were receiving from the lads in our year almost as much as the music.
โCop on, Aoife,โ an angry voice growled in my ear, as a big body pressed up against me from behind, and a pair of big hands clamped down on my hips. โEveryone is looking at you.โ
โSo?โ
โThatโs the point,โ Casey laughed.
โSo, I donโt like it,โ Paul snapped. โYouโre with me, which means youโre mine to look at, not every fella in this place. Enough of the fucking peep show.โ
โOne; you donโt own me,โ I slurred, grinding my body against his. โTwo; Iโm only dancing.โ
โYeah, like a slut.โ โAre you serious?โ
โYeah, Iโm serious,โ he shouted. โDo you want everyone to think that Iโm going out with a slut?โ
โOh my god.โ I shook my head angrily and swung around to glare up at him. โYou didย notย just say that to me.โ
โMy whole fucking team is looking at ya,โ he argued, cheeks reddening. โItโs embarrassing for me having my girlfriend shaking her ass like that.โ
I narrowed my eyes. โGo fuck yourself, Paul.โ โNo, babe, waitโโ
Shrugging out of his hold, I grabbed Caseyโs hand and sexy danced towards her, ignoring the killjoy behind me.
โWhatโs his problem?โ Casey shouted over the music, gesturing to where Paul was scowling behind me.
โApparently, Iโm embarrassing him.โ
Narrowing her eyes, she sucked on her middle finger before using it to flip him off. โAsshole.โ
DJ Alligator Projectโsย The Whistle Songย blasted all around us then, drawing every teenager within a ten-mile radius onto the dancefloor.
โScrew him,โ Casey ordered, dragging me deeper into the crowd. โLetโs just have a girls night.โ
โExcellent plan.โ
Drunk off the good time โ and the vodka flushing through our veins โ we ground against each other, shaking our asses like we were contesting for the role of the next member of Destinyโs Child.
Spying one of the lads from our class, who was dressed as the funniest Marilyn Monroe Iโd ever seen in my life, throwing shapes in the middle of the dancefloor, we quickly closed in on him.
โAngel-legs! Devil-tits!โ Alec cheered, throwing his arms over our shoulders when we reached him.
Off his head on drink, drugs, and mischief, he bumped and grinded along to the unofficial blow-job song, not giving two shits how ridiculous he looked in his cheap, knock-off relic of her Seven Year Itch white dress and fake blonde wig, with his hairy legs on full display.
โI canโt cope with him,โ Casey half-laughed, half-slurred, gesturing to the big eejit grinding his ass against us. โI canโt tell if I want to slap him or kiss him.โ
โBoth,โ I choked out through fits of laugher, as Al ripped the top half of his dress off in dramatic fashion, and pinched his own nipples, eyes rolling in equally dramatic fashion.
โCover those tits up, Marilyn,โ Casey laughed, reaching up to cover our classmateโs nipples with her small hands.
Not missing a beat, Alecโs hands shot out to cup Caseyโs barely concealed breasts.
โAre you seriously touching my tits?โ
โYouโre touching mine,โ Alec shot back, waggling his brows at her. โSeems like a fair trade to me.โ
โYou have some pair on you, boy.โ
โI was about to pay you the same compliment.โ
โThis is the part where they neck on,โ a familiar voice shouted over the music, and I turned to find an amused looking Podge. โTold ya.โ Winking, he pointed back to where Casey and Alec were now mauling the lips off each other. โSo predictable.โ
Laughing, I shimmied over to one of my favorite lads from our year and held my hand out to him. โHelp a loner out, will ya, Podge?โ
โThe things I do for friends,โ he chuckled, taking my hand and pulling me in for a dance. โDonโt be getting any notions now, ya hear?โ
โIโll try my best.โ Grinning, I wrapped my arm around his neck and danced along to the music. โSo, whereโs your friend tonight?โ
โWhich friend would that be, Aoif?โ he teased, knowing full well who I was referring to me.
I rolled my eyes. โFunny.โ โLynchyโs in here somewhere.โ
โSo, he actually knows how to dance?โ
โI donโt know about dancing, but he definitely knows how to get a naggin of vodka past the bouncers.โ
โAoife!โ Ripping me clean out of Podgeโs arms, my boyfriend clamped his hand around my arm and roughly pulled me back to him. โCome here for a secโโ
โHey,โ I snapped, yanking my arm free, as I turned around to glare at him. โThat hurt.โ I reached up to rub my arm. โDonโt do that.โ
โDonโt be such a drama queen,โ he protested with a roll of his eyes. โCome outside with me.โ He reached for my arm again. โI want to talk to you.โ
โNo.โ Yanking my arm free once more, I glared up at him. โYou called me a slut.โ
โI didnโt mean that the way it came out.โ Pulling me into a hug, he leaned down and planted a kiss on my lips. โCome on, babe, it was a slip of the tongue. Donโt fall out with me over it.โ
โYou said that I look like a slut,โ I hissed, shoving at his chest in order to escape his hold.
โLook at you,โ he shouted back at me, losing his cool. โYouโre practically wearing underwear and rubbing yourself against another fella!โ
โHey,โ Podge warned, coming to my defense. โStay out of this, Podge.โ
โDonโt grab her like that, lad.โ
โItโs okay, Podge, Iโm grand,โ I told him before turning my glare back on Paul. โThis is a Halloween costume, and Podge is myย friend.ย Iโm allowed to have friends, Paul.โ
โItโs too revealing,โ he argued. โI can see the cheeks of your ass under that thing you call a dress. It makes you look like a whore. Youโre better than that.โ
โWhore?โ Drunk and furious, I shoved at his chest. โYou prick.โ โAoifeโ โ
โI was dancing with my friend โ enjoying myself. I wasnโt do anything wrong, and you insulted me.โ I glared at him. โTwice. Thatโs a hard fucking limit for me, Paul.โ
โYeah, but youโve been drinking.โ โAnd?โ
โAnd Iโm not comfortable with it.โ
โWith what exactly?โ I demanded, voice slurring. โMe drinking or dancing?โ
Paul opened his mouth to reply but I quickly cut him off.
โYou know what? Donโt answer that. Donโt even speak to me. In fact, why donโt you consider yourself relieved of boyfriend duties for the night. At least that way, you wonโt feel embarrassed by me.โ
โDonโt do this, Aoife,โ he warned, snatching my hand up. โNot here.
Not like this.โ
โYou started this, Paul.โ Snatching my hand back, I wagged a finger in his face. โYou called me a slut, remember? And a whore.โ Shaking my head, I backed up a step or two, bumping up against a hard chest. โWhoops.โ
โHow are ya, Aoife?โ Mack, one of the lads from my class, asked, offering me a friendly smile. โYouโre looking well.โ
โHey, Mack.โ I smiled back at him before returning to glower at my boyfriend. โYouโre going to eat your words, asshole.โ
With that, I turned back to dance with my smiling classmate, who was only too happy to dance with me.
โYeah, girl,โ Casey hooted in support, as she and Alec danced over to us. โYou show that prick whoโs boss.โ
โJesus Christ,โ Paul growled, grabbing ahold of my arm and roughly yanking me back towards him. โYouโre a messy fucking drunk.โ
โAnd youโre just plain messy,โ I snapped. โNow leave me alone before you ruin my whole night.โ
โLet her go, Ricey, lad,โ Mack said in a concerned tone. โShe was only dancing with me. Weโre friends, lad. No harm done.โ
โYeah, prick,โ Alec interjected, with Caseyโs red lipstick smeared all over his face. โI wouldnโt put hands on her, if I were you.โ
โSheโs making a fucking show of herself,โ Paul seethed before dragging me away from our friends. โIโd call that a lot of harm done.โ
โHey,โ Casey called out after us. โLet go of her arm, Paul!โ
โNo,โ he bit out, as he began to make his way through the crowd, dragging me along after him. โYouโre going to sober up and weโre going to talk about this.โ
โI donโt want to talk,โ I complained, digging my heels into the floor. โI want to dance.โ
โAnd make an even bigger show of me?โ He shook his head and continued to drag me towards the exit. โYeah, thatโs not happening, babe.โ
โStop,โ I argued, trying and failing to break free from his hold. โYouโre squashing my wings โmy halo! Stop, Iโve dropped my halo on the floor.โ
One minute, I was pulling with all of my might to break away from Paulโs hold, and the next, I was on my hands and knees on the floor, having lost my balance when he abruptly let go of my arm.
โMy halo!โ I half-slurred, half-cheered, reaching out a hand to retrieve it. โYou bastard,โ I wailed, when someoneโs big foot stomped down on it, cracking the plastic in half. โYou broke my halo!โ
โPut your hands on her like that again and see whatโll happen,โ a familiar voice threatened, as the owner of said voice hooked an arm around
my waist and pulled me to my feet. โSheโs not a fucking rag-doll, asshole.โ
Bleary eyed, I let my gaze wander up to the owner of said voice and beamed when his familiar green eyes landed on mine. โWell, hey there, Joe!โ
โMolloy,โ he acknowledged in his usual deep timbre. โCausing trouble again?โ
โAlways.โ Grinning wolfishly, I hooked an arm around his neck for balance, feeling my pulse skyrocket at the sight of him. โWhat are you doing here?โ
โLooking out for you, apparently,โ Joey muttered, keeping one strong arm hooked around me.
โSheโs mine, dickhead, back off,โ Paul growled, running a hand through his hair. โIโll look after her.โ
Joey cocked a brow. โLooks like you were doing a real stellar job at that.โ
โSheโs drunk Sheโs a handful when sheโs like this.โ
โSo, thatโs your excuse for almost pulling her arm out of its socket?โ
โSomeone broke my halo, Joe,โ I wailed, waving a broken piece around aimlessly in front of his face. โIโm a fallen angel now.โ
โDonโt worry about it,โ he replied with a shrug. โNo one likes a saint, Molloy.โ
โAoife, come on.โ
โSo, what are you dressed as?โ I asked, batting a random hand away, as my gaze trailed over the fitted white shirt and blue jeans Joey had on. โLet me guess,โ I teased, reaching up to fluff his perfectly styled hair and then letting my hand move to the silver chain hidden beneath the collar of his shirt. โYouโre a fallen angel, too.โ
โCome on, Aoife,โ Paul interrupted, catching ahold of my waist, and pulling me roughly to his chest. โWeโre leaving. Now.โ
โNo,โ I growled, huffing out a breath. โI donโt want to go with you. I want to stay and dance with Casey.โ
โNow, Aoife!โ
โIt doesnโt look like she wants to go anywhere with you,โ Joey interjected coolly, stepping in front of us when Paul carted me towards the exit.
โI donโt,โ I agreed, nodding vigorously, as I slipped out of his hold. โI want to stay.โ
โStay out of it, Lynchy,โ Paul warned, reaching for my arm again. โSheโs my girlfriend, not yours. Iโll look after her.โ
โThen why donโt you start by asking her what she wants?โ Joey countered, taking a protective step in front of me. โNot fucking telling her.โ Piercing green eyes locked on mine, when he turned back to me and asked, โMolloy, do you want to leave with him?โ
โNo,โ I replied, and then hiccupped loudly. โHe called me a slut.โ โYou called her a slut?โ
โI didย notย call her a slut,โ Paul quickly defended, pulling on my arm. โI told her that she was dancing like one.โ
โSame thing,โ I shot back, yanking my arm free from Paulโs overly tight grip, as I leaned heavily against my protectorโs tall frame. โIโm not dealing with you tonight, so just go away and leave me alone.โ
โAoife.โ
โNo, stop. Iโm not going with you, Paul.โ
โYouโre drunk and that prick is off his head on god knows what,โ Paul snarled. โIf you think Iโm leaving you alone with him, then youโre out of your mind.โ
โIโm not leaving with you,โ I screamed, losing my patience. โIโm mad at you, remember?โ
โSo, what?โ he demanded. โYouโd rather stay here?โ His disgusted gaze flicked to Joey. โWithย him?โ
โWhy not?โ I slurred, patting his stubbly cheek with my hand. โHeโs my friend.โ
โYourย friend?โ Paul deadpanned. โHeโs not your friend, Aoife. Heโs a fucking druggie whoโs only out for a good time.ย Iโmย your friend. Iโm the one who cares about you. Iโm yourย boyfriend. Youโre mine, dammit!โ
โIโm not your property, Paul,โ I screamed over the sound of Mickey Modelleโs dance version ofย Iโll Tell Me Maย as it blasted from the DJ booth.
His eyes bulged in his head, and he looked like he was about to lose his mind.
โYes, you fucking are, now letโs go,โ he roared, losing his cool with me. โBecause thereโs no way in hell that Iโm allowing you to stay here with him.โ
โAllowingย me?โ I hissed, outraged. โYou donโt get toย allowย me to do anything, Paul. Who the hell do you think you are? Iโm my own person. I make the rules for me.โ
โFine,โ he attempted to coax. โWe can talk about all of it and more outside.โ He reached for me again, but this time it was the boy I was leaning against who batted Paulโs hand away โ and not gently, either.
โYou heard her,โ Joey warned in a dangerously cold tone, reaching up to pry my hand off his cheek. How it had got there, I had no clue. โWalk away.โ
โOh, youโre just loving this, arenโt you?โ Paul narrowed his eyes.
โYou must have a serious death wish, prick-face,โ Joey replied in a heated tone, as he took a menacing step towards Paul. โWalk the fuck away before you restart something that Iโll be only too happy to finish.โ
โTry it,โ Paul snarled back. โYou remember who my father is, donโt you?โ
โThreatening me with your daddy the Gard?โ Joey threw his head back and laughed. โLike I give a fuck.โ
โHeโs a lot higher up the pecking order than just a Gard,โ Paul hissed. โYouโd do well to remember that the next time you think about crossing me, Lynchy.โ
โWhoa, whoa, whoa,โ I mumbled, shaking my head, as I squeezed my body between them, feeling the heat emanating from both boys as I pressed a hand to each of their chests. โDonโt even think about starting a fight in here.โ
โWhoโs trying to cause a fight here, Aoife?โ Paul hissed back at me, tone accusing. โBecause from where Iโm standing, all Iโm trying to do is take my drunk girlfriend home. Youโre the one making a scene and draped all over the schoolโs scumbag like heโs your savior. Classy, Aoif, real fucking classy.โ Running a hand through his hair, Paul glowered at Joey. โIf you think that youโve one-upped me tonight, Lynchy, youโre wrong. Because this right here,โ he paused to wave a hand between us, before sneering, โdoesnโt count. Sheโs not thinking clearly, and if you have a shred of anything decent about you, then you wonโt take advantage of the situation.โ
โHey.โ Joey held his hands up and smiled darkly. โAll Iโm doing is being a goodย friendย to my favoriteย friend.โ
โSheโs not your anything.โ โUh, yes, I am.โ
โHear that, Ricey?โ Joey replied, with a shit-eating grin etched on his face. โYour girl hereย isย my anything.โ
โHey,โ I snapped, glaring up at Joey. โNot cool.โ He shrugged in response, unapologetic.
โAnd this is what you want to stay with instead of letting me take you home?โ Paul demanded, giving me a look of such disgust that it made me wither. โA year and a half, Aoife. A year and a fucking half and you pick that piece of shit over me?โ
โNo, Paul, Iโm not picking him over you, Iโm pickingย meย over you,โ I snapped in a shaky tone, as I shook my head, and staggered away from the both of them. โThis is over, Paul. Congratulations, youโre a free agent. Weโre done.โ
โAoife!โ Paul called after me, but I didnโt turn back.
Screw him.
Screw them both.
Shoving my way through the mob, I tried to retrace my steps back to Casey, regretting my decision to come tonight almost as much as the alcohol running through my veins.
MY PHONE WAS VIBRATINGย next to me.
Narrowing my eyes, I glared down at my phone and quickly pressed end when Paulโs name lit up the screen.
He could go to voicemail, along with the other dozen unanswered calls heโd made, not to mention the seven unread texts.
Thoroughly depressed, I sat on the bonnet of a random car outside of the Pavilion, with a bag of chips balancing on my thighs, as my fishnet- stocking clad legs dangled loosely.
Frozen to the bone, but too drunk to truly appreciate how cold the night air was, I muttered angrily to myself as I chomped on my vinegar-coated chips like a demented lunatic.
I was so fucking mad; I could taste it on my tongue, as I swung my legs so furiously that one of my heels slipped off.
โFuck,โ I slurred, staring down despondently at my shiny white stiletto when it landed in a puddle of muddy rainwater on the ground. โWell, now you can just stay there, you traitorous slut,โ I hissed, glaring down at the knock-off leather. โThatโs right. I said it. This is all your fault.โ
โWell, if it isnโt the angel with her dirty wings,โ a familiar voice drawled, and I groaned loudly.
Great.
Thatโs just great.
Twisting my head, my bleary-eyed gaze locked on none other than Joey Lynch, phone in hand, as he swaggered towards me.
โFighting with your shadow again, Molloy?โ
โIโll fight you,โ I grumbled, reaching behind me to check that my wings were still intact. โMy wings are fine, asshole.โ
โGot a spare chip?โ
โNope, not for you,โ I growled, stuffing a fistful of chips into my mouth in a very unladylike way. โTheyโre all mine.โ
โWhat are you doing out here on your own?โ
โWhat does it look like Iโm doing, jackass; Iโm clearly sulking,โ I huffed, voice still slightly slurred from the alcohol in my belly. โWhat are you doing?โ
Shrugging, he slid his phone into his jeans pocket. โWaiting for a friend.โ
โOh, so youย haveย friends?โ I rolled my eyes. โI thought you were opposed to the idea.โ
With an amused expression etched on his sickeningly good-looking face, Joey strolled over to where I was sitting. โAh, thatโs not entirely true.โ Winking, he reached into my bag and swiped a chip. โIโm only opposed to you, Molloy.โ
That small act of theft caused an unreasonable surge of violence to grow inside of me.
โOh, look at me,โ I heard myself grumble as I made a terrible attempt to mimic his voice. โIโm Joey Lynch. Iโm so hard, Iโm so tough. Iโm not friends with girls, even though I like to steal their chips and pick fights with their boyfriends.โ Frowning, I held up a hand and swiftly corrected myself.
โEx. Thatโs right. Heโs myย ex-boyfriend, because he sure as hell isnโt my current one. Dick.โ
Laughing at my reaction, Joey shook his head and said, โYouโre a messy little drunk, arenโt ya?โ
โNo,โ I corrected, slapping his hand away from my chip when he reached for another. โIโm a woman on the edge.โ
โThe dramaโs that deep, huh?โ
โYes, and hereโs why,โ I snapped, grabbing another chip from his hand when he sideswiped me. โI have been very publicly labeled a slut tonight by my former boyfriend, thatโs rightโฆโ I paused for dramatic effect, before continuing, โmyย formerย boyfriend,ย who, for your information, has never had the privilege of being even remotely slutty with me.โ Huffing out a breath, I muttered, โAnd thatโs not for the want of him trying, either.โย Constantly.
Joeyโs brows shot up as he stood in front of me. โYou and Ricey arenโtโฆโ
โNo, weโre not sleeping together,โ I spat, narrowing my eyes. โGod, what do you take me for?โ I quickly reached up and clamped a hand over his mouth. โYou know what, donโt answer that. I donโt need any relationship advice from you.โ
Rolling his eyes, Joey reached up and peeled my hand from his mouth. โJesus, Molloy,โ he growled, tongue snaking out to taste his bottom lip. โHow much vinegar did you put on those chips?โ
โThe perfect amount,โ I replied, slipping a finger into my mouth to sample what he clearly had when I put my hand on his mouth. โOkay,โ I conceded, holding my finger back up. โI may have been a little overly generous with the bottle.โ
โYou donโt think?โ His tone was laced with sarcasm.
โHey, donโt judge me,โ I defended huffily. โI already told you that Iโm a woman on the edge. I canโt be held responsible for my lack of judgement
when it comes to pouring vinegar. Clearly, if tonightโs anything to go by, Iโm not a very good judge of anything.โ
โWell, my judgementโs just fine, Molloy, and I can tell you that itโs your boyfriend whoโs the prick in this situation.โ Shoving his hands into the front pockets of his jeans, Joey added, โIf heโs pressuring you, then walk. You have all the time in the world for that bullshit.โ
โEx.โ My face burned with heat. โAnd by bullshit, you mean sex?โ
โWould you prefer if I said fucking?โ he offered, not missing a beat. โLook, do whatever you want, but if you want my advice, you shouldnโt give yourself away to the likes of him.โ
โThe likes of him?”
โSomeone whoโs supposed to care about you, but then puts hands on you and calls you a slut when he doesnโt get his own way.โ
โAs opposed to the boy who once called meย easy.โ
โThere are a few big differences between us,โ came his amused reply, as he leaned closer, so close that I could smell the distinct fragrance of his lynx. “Look, all I’m saying is you can do better than Paul Rice.”
โOh yeah?โ Desperately trying to remain composed, and not reveal just how deeply this boy affected me, I kept my eyes locked on his when I asked, โWell, since youโre in such a chatty mood, would you care to oblige me by sharing thoseย differences?โ
โIf thatโs what you want.โ โThatโs what I want.โ
โFine,โ he replied, not missing a beat. โFirst difference; I may have had a momentary lapse in my own judgment when I called you easy.โ He placed his hands on either side of me as he spoke. โItโs something that, on many occasions since that night, Iโve come to feel somewhat regrettable about.โ
โWow. Is this another version of an apology?โ I breathed, feeling my body sway closer to his. โBecause itโs as shitty as the last one.โ
โNot an apology,โ he corrected. โMore like a rare admission.โ
โWell then,โ I breathed, feeling my heart buck wildly against my ribcage, as I leaned back on my elbows. โIf itโs a rare admission then it must have hurt you to say it?โ
โYou have no idea,โ he agreed, hands planted on either side of my body, as he stared down at me with dark, hooded eyes. โWill I keep going?โ
I nodded. โYes.โ
โSecond difference,โ he said. โIโm not your boyfriend, Molloy. Iโm not
supposedย to care about you, remember?โ
โNo, youโre notย supposedย to,โ I agreed with a shiver, as he pinned me to the bonnet of the car. Excitement thrummed to life inside of me. โBut you still do.โ
Heat flashed in his eyes, but he made no move to deny it. What the hell was wrong with me?
Goading this boy was the same as putting my hand in the cheetah enclosure at Fota Wildlife Park.
A risky move.
โIs there a third difference?โ I breathed.
โYeah, thereโs a difference,โ he replied. โDo you want it?โ โI want it.โ
โYou sure?โ โIโm sure.โ
โThird difference,โ he whispered then, leaning so close that I could feel his alcohol scented breath on my face. โIโm not pressuring you to spread your legs for me.โ Rearing back, he made a point of glancing between us. โYou did that all by yourself.โ
My gaze followed his, and my breath hitched in my throat when I saw that he had deftly stepped between my legs.
Not only that, but my legs had wrapped themselves around his hips of their own damn accord.
โWell shit,โ I whispered, breathing hard and fast, as I watched him watch me. โI have no idea how they got there.โ
“Yeah,” he agreed, closing the space between us once more, his lips a hairโs breadth from mine. โMe either.โ
Heโs going to kiss you.
Oh my god, Aoif, heโs going to put his mouth on yours. Be cool, donโt freak out.
The sound of tires screeching tore his attention from me, and I wanted to cry.
No, God,ย why?
With Puddle of Muddโsย Controlย blasted from the car stereo, I watched as a souped-up, black Honda civic came tearing up the road towards us, spitting gravel from the speed in which the person was driving.
Beeping on the horn, he flashed his lights at us, and my heart sank into my ass when I noticed who was driving.
Shane Holland.
โShit,โ Joey groaned, momentarily dropping his head on my shoulder. โI better go,โ he finally said, voice strained. โHeโs here for me.โ
โWait โ no, Joey, donโt go with him!โ I strangled out in horror, catching ahold of his hand when he straightened up and took a step back. โPlease donโt go anywhere with him,โ I urged, scrambling to my feet, as I entwined our fingers and squeezed. โStay here with me instead.โ
โListen, Molloy; about us,โ he began to say, and then paused, like he was thinking carefully about what words needed to come next. His entire focus was on our joined hands, as his thumb gently brushed over my knuckles.
โAbout us?โ I croaked out, shivering from the feel of his thumb tracing my skin.
โYouโre my friend,โ he finally settled on.
โYouโre finally admitting it without needing to be coerced?โ
Nodding, he forced a small, humorless laugh. โOnly took a few years, right?โ
โOnly a couple.โ
โYeah.โ Clearing his throat, he looked behind him to where the car was waiting and then back to me. โI like you.โ
โWow,โ I breathed. โAnother admission.โ โThe hardest one yet.โ
โI bet.โ
โI know what you want us to be,โ he added, tone gruff. โBut that canโt happen.โ
โJoeโโ
โNo, listen to me,โ he urged, giving my hand a small squeeze. โI can be your friend, okay? I can do that. But you need to know that Iโve got some bad genes running through my system. Some seriously fucked up DNA.โ
โNobodyโs perfect, Joe.โ
โItโs not about being perfect, Molloy.โ Releasing my hand, I watched as he crouched down and retrieved my heel from the mud. โItโs about being dangerous,โ he added, wiping it clean with the side of his jeans before slipping it back on my foot. โAnd thatโs what I am, okay? Iโm a bad bet.โ
โNo, youโre not.โ
โYes, I am.โ
โThen I donโt care,โ I blurted out. โYou should.โ
โWell, I donโt.โ
โNice shoes,โ he said in a soft voice, tapping my foot. โYou were right, they were worth hounding your father for.โ
โSee?โ I forced a smile when I felt like crying. โTold you.โ
โIโm not a good friend for you,โ he added quietly, still crouching, with his hand on my foot. โI wouldnโt even know where to start.โ
โYouโre better at it than you think.โ
โI need my job, Molloy.โ And there it was.
Finally.
โSo, youโre finally admitting it?โ I heard myself whisper. โYou blew me off because of my dad?โ
โAnd because you can do better than me.โ Releasing my foot, he slowly stood up. โBut you can do better than him, too.โ
โJoe.โ
โLynchy!โ One of the lads called out, swinging the back door of the car open. โLetโs go, lad.โ
โYeah, Iโm coming,โ he called over his shoulder, causing a surge of panic to rack through me.
โListen, we can just chat,โ I hurried to say. โHang out, whatever. As friends. Friends is fine. Just please donโt go with him, Joey.โ
Please donโt let him sink his claws into you.
Releasing a pained breath, he leaned in close and pressed a kiss to my forehead. โI could go a fair bit crazy over you, Molloy.โ His lips brushed against my brow as he said, โStay out of my head now, ya hear?โ
โDonโt, Joey,โ I called after him, voice thick with reckless emotion, watching his back as he walked away from me. โDonโt go with them.โ
Turning back, his green eyes flicked to mine, and it was clear that the shutters had been firmly clamped shut, blocking me and the rest of the world out. โIโll be seeing ya, Molloy.โ