For an eternity, I hear nothing. Itโs so quiet in the house that I begin to piece together sounds from the night: the distant waves lapping at the shore, the insects in the trees outside. Itโs warm, and a drip of sweat has worked its way down my spine. Erik put this sack over my head, but he didnโt tie it around my neck. It still reminds me of the night I was bound in the palace, waiting to face the Kingโs Justice.
Corrick would want me to fight. Heโd want me to plunge this dagger into Oren Crane, too.
It was one of the first things I said to Erik after Corrick died:ย I want you to teach me to fight.
But Iโm not a killer. Not really. Even the night I snuck into the palace to kill Harristan and Corrick, I couldnโt do it.
Just now, the memory makes me feel immeasurably weak.
I keep thinking of the way Bella came exploding out of that room on the ship, sweating and sick because Rian had beenย poisoning her. Am I fighting on Rianโs side because heโsย right, or am I fighting on his side because he got to me first?
But I trust Olive. I trust her opinion of Oren. That helps steel my resolve.
I wish I knew where Erik went. I donโt even know if heโs still in the room with me. I donโt think so. Earlier, he whispered that heโd be checking the other windows periodically because he didnโt want us to be taken unawaresโand he still doesnโt trust Rian.
The silence goes on for so long that time seems to stretch into infinityโand when sound finally comes, I nearly jolt out of the chair.
Itโs a grunt and a scuffle in the hallway somewhere behind me, then the clear sound of a punch being thrown. Glass breaks somewhere, and a man utters a muffled curse. My heart leaps into a gallop, and I jerk at my loose bindings automatically.
Then a hand brushes my arm, and I cry out. I hear a sharp, indrawn breath, but Iโm already scrabbling for the dagger. My hand closes around the steel hilt, and I pull it free with a ragged cry.
Suddenly, my thoughts donโt matter. My reasonings donโt matter. Iโm being attacked, and I fight back. Just like Iโve practiced, I swing that dagger down with all my strength.
I strike nothing, and instead, Iโm wrenched out of the chair sideways, landing on the floor on my back. It nearly knocks the wind out of me, but I kick hard, relieved when I make contact. I try again, but his weight lands on top of me, grabbing my wrist and smacking my hand against the floorboards until I let go of the blade. I donโt know if this is Oren Crane or one of his attackers, but Iโm pinned to the floor underneath his body, and my fingers scrabble desperately, seeking the dagger.
โNo,โ I say, because tears are already burning my eyes. I struggle against his grip, wishing I could see. โNoโpleaseโErikโhelpโโ
My assailant goes still. Completely frozen.
I take advantage of his stillness to redouble my struggles, my fingernails clawing at the floor. Steel brushes my knuckles, and I twist my wrist, grabbing hold of the dagger.
His grip loosens the tiniest fraction. I squeal in rage and lift my arm to drive the blade into whatever I can reach.
But he catches my wrist again. Thereโs no violence to it, just a secure grip.
The man is breathing so hard I can feel it against my chest.
Then he says, โTessa?โ
My heart stops. I canโt breathe. The dagger falls out of my hand and clatters to the floor.
Itโs impossible.
Without warning, the sack is yanked off my head. Cool air rushes in to soothe my tear-stained cheeks.
But there he is, right in front of me. Blue eyes and a smattering of freckles and those sharp features that Iโd recognize no matter how many shadows cloak the room.
โOh, Corrick,โ I whisper, and my breath hitches.
Heโs staring down at me in wonder, as if Iโm the one whoโs been dead all this time. My thoughts refuse to believe that heโs here, that this is real, that this is possible.
โAm I dead?โ I say, and my voice breaks.
โNo, my love.โ He takes my hand, and he brings it to his face. He kisses my fingertips, then presses my palm to his cheek. โVery much alive, I promise you.โ
I blink, and his face goes blurry before clearing. A tear rollsย down my cheek. Iโm afraid to move, Iโm afraid toย breathe, like this is a dream. Like Iโll touch him and the illusion will shatter.
His heart is beating against mine, though, and I can still feel each breath he inhales. I finally let my fingers move, running my thumb along his lower lip. My vision goes blurry again, and my breathing shudders so hard that I canโt catch myself, but I donโt want to blink the tears away this time.
โI donโt want you to disappear,โ I say, and then I realize Iโm crying in earnest.
โI wonโt,โ he says. โNever again. I swear it.โ He leans down to kiss me. โI swear to you. Never again.โ
And then Iโm glad thatย heย is the one who moved, becauseย thisย feels real, the brush of his lips against mine, the way he kisses the tears off my cheeks, the scent of his skin, the rasp of his voice in my ear. โWe really do have to stop meeting like this.โ
It makes me huff a laugh through my sobs, and I grab him around the neck, clutching him fiercely. โAnd to think I almost killed you.โ
โThat was a good strike,โ he murmurs against my neck.
โIโve been practicing,โ I say, and my breath refuses to stop hitching.
โI can tell. Iโmย veryย glad you were blindfolded.โ
I know I need to find out what happened in the hallway, or where Erik went, orย whyย Corrick is a part of thisโbut I canโt stop clutching at him. Inhaling his breath.ย Feelingย him.
But then he sits up, pulling me with him, tugging me into his lap. Before I can ask him anything at all, his hands find my cheeks, and his mouth lands on mine. Every emotion pours through his kiss, andย thisย is what finally convinces me heโs real. I can feel his longing. His loss. His worry. His fear.
His love. His hope.
For the first time since arriving in Ostriary, I feel settled, like my world has been righted. I have Corrick back, and I can face any challenge.
Then he breaks free, his blue eyes filling mine. His hand presses to my cheek, his thumb brushing along my lip. โDonโt fight him. Iโve told you before what people will do with me.โ
A jolt goes through me. โWhat?โ
But heโs looking up, past me. โAre you still going by Captain Blakemore? Or should I address you as Your Majesty? I have a hard enough time keeping track of my own identities, honestly, so youโre going to need to help me with yours.โ
I scramble out of Corrickโs lap to see that Rian is in the doorway of my bedroom, a crossbow leveled. Sablo is beside him, an identical weapon in hand.
โCall me whatever you want,โ says Rian.
Corrick climbs to his feet more slowly than I did. โI rather doubt you want me to doย that.โ
โDo it anyway,โ a strained male voice calls from the hallway, and Iโm shocked to realize that the male voice I heard earlier wasย Lochlan. โItโll make you feel better.โ
โWas this a trap for me the whole time?โ says Corrick.
Rian shrugs. โOnly since I knew it was really you.โ
A cold wind blows through me at those words. โWhat?โ I whisper again.
โSo you double-crossed me?โ says Corrick. โI shouldnโt be surprised.โ
โIโm not sure youโre in a position to be pointing fingers. Iโve heard a dozen reports that youโve been torturing people for Oren Crane.โ
โYouโve heard wrong,โ says Corrick. โAny torture has been by his own hand. I specificallyย sparedย the man he told me to execute.โ
A muscle twitches in Rianโs jaw. โI know who you are. I know what youโve done in Kandala. I donโt believe that for a minute.โ
Iโm not even listening to him. โDid you know?โ I demand. โDid you know he was alive?โ
Corrick looks to me. โHe knew. I specifically asked him to tell you, to verify my words.โ
I think back to the day we met Rian on the road. He pulled that parchment out of his pocketโbut he never showed it to me.
I donโt even need to ask what it said. I know exactly what Corrick would have written to prove it was him. โSo I reallyย wasย bait,โ I finish.
โYou volunteered,โ says Rian.
Corrick looks at me in surprise. โYouย volunteered?โ
I lift my chin. โIn exchange for passage back to Kandala. Someone needs to warn your brother about the Moonflower poison.โ
Corrick glares at Rian. โHe was never going to give us passage back to Kandala. Heโs going to use me against Harristan.โ He pauses. โI admit to being a bit surprised that you didnโt take the opportunity to grab Crane while you could. You wanted me that badly?โ
Rian swears. โNo, you jackass. I wantย steelย that badly. I want to help my people. So I told my uncle that if he sent you here, Iโd deliver his daughter to him. He could keep Silvesse.โ
โIโve seen what heโs doing to the people of Silvesse,โ Corrick says. โYou sacrificed an island just to get me? That doesnโt exactly sound like youโre caring for your people.โ He pauses. โAnd what are you going to do when you have no daughter to deliver?โ
โIt doesnโt matter. I already have you. He only has one island. I have the other five. Iโve bought myselfย time.โ
Outside the house, some commotion has gone up, but I canโt make sense of it. Maybe Rianโs soldiers have drawn closer now that Corrick has been caught.
Rian takes a step toward Corrick. His eyes are so angry. โYou thought you would trapย me, and you failed.โ
โNo,โ Corrick says. โI offered you exactly what you wanted. Again, you rule like a despot, with double dealings and empty promises andย lies. I offered you a solution to the crimes ravaging your country, in exchange for a return to my own. If you wanted steel so badly, you couldโve workedย withย me, trapped Oren Crane, and again, I would have been willing to negotiate with my brother on your behalf.โ He takes hold of my hand. โNow, I will not.โ
โI know what Kandala has done,โ Rian snaps. โYour own consuls have been working against the people forย years. No one hereย trustsย you.โ
โYouโre wrong about the people of Ostriary,โ says Corrick. โMany people on Silvesse were desperate for Kandalaโs help. Youโre just too angry to see it.โ
โMany peopleย here, too,โ I say.
โSay what you want,โ Rian replies โI have plenty of detail from Ford Cheeke about what youโve been doing in Silvesse.โ
โIs that the same Ford Cheeke who was kidnapped by Oren Crane before I was dragged here?โ says Corrick.
Rian looks like heโs been hit by a fist. โOren got to Ford?โ
โMaybe youโre not the only one capable of double-crossing.โ
Outside, a woman gives a ragged scream, and it chills my spine.
From the hallway, Erik says, โOlive.โ Then I hear the clear sounds of a scuffle again.
โWhatโs going on?โ Rian calls.
Olive comes pushing through the people to get into the room.ย Her face is streaked with tears. โWhat have you done?โ she screams at Rian. She shoves him in the chest, hard. โWhat have you done?โ
โWhat?โ he whispers. โWhat happened?โ
A soldier has followed her, breathless and sweat-streaked. Thereโs soot in his hair. โI rode here as fast as I could,โ he says. โItโs the palace at Tarrumor. You need to return at once. Oren Crane is attacking.โ