Once we have a plan in mind, I want to execute it immediately. I meant what I said to Corrick: Iโd make a terrible spy. I donโt mind stealth and danger, but Iโm not a good liar.
But Corrick steps out of the room to talk to Rocco, and when he returns, he tells me to wait.
โThe crew is too anxious,โ he says. โRocco believes he had someone watching our rooms all night. We need to find out if those ships have drawn closer. We need Blakemore to lower his guard again.โ
โHow are we going to accomplish that?โ I say.
While I button my vest, the prince glances at the porthole, which is just beginning to reveal the faint hint of a pink sky. โWhy donโt you go offer to climb the rigging with him.โ
Thereโs enough of an edge to the suggestion that I study him.
โYou were jealous,โ I say. โI was.โ
โAre you still?โ
His blue eyes are dark in the dim light from the lantern. โItโs more than jealousy now.โ
I shiver at the warning in his voice. โDo you trust me?โ
โTrustingย youย has never been a problem. I told Rocco to make sure one of the guards is nearby the entire time.โ
Thatโs probably intended to make me feel better. It doesnโt. I fasten the last button, then give my vest a tug to straighten it. I finger-comb my hair and rebraid it loosely.
I peer at Corrick as he buckles his own jacket into place. โDoes it ever bother you that the guards see everything?โ
A line appears between his eyebrows. โHow do you mean?โ
I gesture at the door. โThey saw me come in here. They know I never came out.โ
โTessa, Iโve had guards outside my door from the moment I first drew breath.โ He takes my face in his hands and kisses me softly. โMoments of true privacy are rare and precious.โ
I suppose thereโs something to that, but I canโt keep the blush off my cheeks. โWe โฆ ah, we probably shouldnโt go up together. If you want Captain Blakemore to trust me.โ
โI agree. Go ahead.โ He lets go of my face, and I turn for the door.
All three guards are still on duty: Rocco stationed between my room and Corrickโs, Silas near the other end of the hallway, and Kilbourne at the bottom of the steps.
I wonder if theyโve all been on duty throughout the night.
โTensions are high among the crew,โ Rocco says. โKilbourne will accompany you if you go above.โ
Even though Corrick warned me, a ribbon of fear wraps around my spine. I thank Rocco, then turn for the steps.
When I reach the deck with Kilbourne at my back, the morning sky is darker than I expect, heavy with pink and purple clouds that obscure the sunrise. Wind blasts my cheeks, sending the sails and rigging to rattle. The water
seemed so calm yesterday, but today, the ocean is choppy, small waves slapping the hull from all directions, making it hard to walk evenly.
Off to our east, those two brigantine ships have drawn closer. I can make out the flag of Kandala now.
That ribbon of fear around my spine seems to tighten.
A flash of motion catches my eye, followed by the smack of boots on the deck just to my left.
I jump a mile, but itโs the captain. He must have jumped down from the rigging, because heโs a little red-cheeked and windblown, his light eyes just as stormy as the sky.
โRian,โ I say in surprise.
He gives me a nod. โMiss Cade.โ Without another word, he moves away.
Oh.ย Well then.
That tightness in my chest goes nowhere.
After a moment, I follow him. Heโs stopped near the railing, where the boom is tethered. Sea spray has collected on the deck, but he ignores it, unwinding the rope from the steel cleat. I watch his hands move, the motions tight and controlled.
I donโt know if heโs upset about the ships, or upset about Corrick, or upset aboutย meโand not knowing is leaving me off-balance.
I try to be direct about it. โWeโre back to formality, Captain Blakemore?โ
โWe probably should have maintained formality from the very beginning. Watch yourself.โ He nods at the beam.
I step out of the way, but I follow him. โYouโre upset with me.โ
โIโm upset that Kandalan ships are drawing closer just as weโre going to enter the most difficult part of the ocean.โ He follows the swinging beam, then grunts as he digs in his heels to stop at the next cleat, deftly whipping
the rope around the steel bar. โItโs hard enough to navigate this part. I donโt want to do it while fighting off two well- armed brigantines.โ
โI donโt have anything to do with those ships,โ I say.
He laughs under his breath, but not like anything is funny. He knots off the rope and then strides to the next.
I follow him again. โDonโt do that,โ I say. โDonโt treat me likeโโ
He whirls so quickly that my breath catches, and then the boat is hit by a swell of water, knocking me into his chest like the first night I boarded theย Dawn Chaser.
He catches me by the arms, and I can feel the warmth and strength in his hands through the loose muslin of my shirt. But heโs holding me a touch too tightly, and my heart skips.
โDonโt treat you like what?โ he says.
My mouth is dry, and I canโt tell whatโs driving his temper, whether itโs betrayal or anger. I donโt really like either option.
โCaptain,โ says Kilbourne. โLet her go.โ
In the space between heartbeats, I think Rian isnโt going to obey. His grip is too tight, those storm clouds in his eyes too tumultuous.
But then he does. He releases my arms, then steps back, running a hand across his jaw. โYou should return to your quarters, Miss Cade. Or Prince Corrickโs quarters. Whichever you find most suitable.โ
Nothing even happened between me and Corrick, but my cheeks flame. I canโt help it. โWhy are you acting like I betrayed you?โ I demand. โOn the day you invited us on board, you knewโyou knewโโ
โI knew you were involved with a man who has a reputation for treachery and violence,โ he says. โI knew you were afraid to speak your mind. I knewโโ
โI was not!โ
He continues, heedless. โI knew you were determined to help the people of Kandala, risking your life to bring them medicineโwhich I find admirable. But I also know what it is to be tricked and manipulated, andโโ
โI am not tricking and manipulating you!โ
โI know,โ he says. โIโm talking about what Prince Corrick has done toย you.โ
โHe hasnโt done anything to me. You donโt know him at
all.โ
โI donโt need to know him. I know menย likeย him. If he wanted to help his people, he could have boarded this ship with determination and valor. Instead, he views every interaction as a battle that waits for a victor. I hoped Kandala and Ostriary could find a new path to favorable trade, but now Iโm worried that Iโm delivering a prince who will sow discord and start another war just because Iโve poked at his pride.โ
โThat isย not true,โ I seethe.
โOh, itโs not?โ Rian takes a step closer to me, and his voice drops. โHe lost a battle to me last night,โ he says. โSo it comes as no surprise that he sought to win another by cajoling you into his bed.โ
Thatโs it. Iโm swinging a fist before I fully think about what Iโm doing.
Rianโs hand shoots out and he catches my wrist. The motion is so quick that it steals my breath, especially since his grip is tight, and he doesnโt let me go.
โHe invited me to his quarters because he was worried you wereย threateningย me.โ
โSo he didnโt have to cajole you. He just had to frighten you.โ
I jerk my hand out of his grip. My breathing is rapid. I wasnโt sure what to expect from him, but it wasnโt this.
โYou know Iโm right,โ he says roughly. โI expected better of you, Miss Cade.โ
Heโs not right. Heโsย not.
But in so many ways, heย is. So much of what he said echoes exactly what I said to Corrick in the shadows of his quarters.
Rian turns away. โTell him that if those ships are coming for his capture, Iโll hand him over, and gladly.โ
Iโm barely listening to him. My heart is roaring in my ears. My breath is shuddering when I get to the steps, tears hot on my cheeks.
But then I realize that this is the perfect time.
Itโs early. Most of the crew is asleep. Rian thinks Iโm running right back into Corrickโs arms.
But I think of those ships, and I think of that room, and I think of how much weโve risked already.
Instead of heading for our quarters, I turn the bend and head down the next set of steps.
Kilbourne moves to follow me, but I stop him. โYou need to tell Corrick to go up on deck,โ I say to him in a rushed whisper.
โBut, Miss Tessaโโ
โNow,โ I say urgently. I swipe the tears off my cheeks. My chest is full of longing and betrayal and uncertainty, but now is the time for action. โPrince Corrick needs to go pick a fight with the captain. Right now.โ He inhales, and I add, โQuickly, Kilbourne! Stay in the hallway before anyone in the crew sees me.โ
Then I donโt wait. I hold my breath and I skip down the steps.