I fully expect Corrick to offer me his arm and lead me to his carriage, but he extends a hand toward my seat and gives me an expectant look. โShall we?โ
I donโt know what to say. A few of the guards have fallen back to stand along the wall, with one to stand guard outside, while two stand near enough to the table that weโre still the center of attention. I donโt want to gape at the prince like half the people in the shop, so I clamp my lips shut. Iโve taken enough etiquette lessons at this point that I can avoid falling all over myself when it comes to royal protocol in public.
I take hold of my skirts and drop into a slight curtsy. โCertainly. Thank you, Your Highness.โ I ease into the chair. His expression doesnโt change, but a light sparks in his eyes like heโs amused. He settles into the chair across from
me, then turns the handle of Karriโs mug in his direction. โYou look so surprised,โ he says.
โIย amย surprised.โ
Mistress Woolfrey bustles over hurriedly. Sheโs a tall, portly woman with light brown skin and fuzzy braids wrapped on top of her head. Iโve always liked her, so I smile, but like everyone else here, sheโs only got eyes for
Prince Corrick right now. Some of the people are terrified of himโbut others are in awe. The king and his brother might not be well liked, but they are very definitely well respected, even if itโs a respect born of fear. Stories about the Kingโs Justice sitting down in a common shop will feed the rumor mill forย days.
Iโll admit that once you get past his reputation, Prince Corrick isnโt difficult to look at. Vibrant blue eyes sit well in his face, which is full of angles, with just a sprinkling of freckles to steal some of his severityโthough a narrow scar over his eyebrow adds it right back. Itโs late enough in the day that a shadow of beard growth has slightly darkened his jaw, too. The silver buttons on his brocade jacket glisten in the light, and the jeweled hilt of an ornate dagger is revealed at his waist. Iโve learned that he spends a number of hours training with the man-at-arms at the palace, so heโs no stranger to physical exertion, but his hands are clean, with long, elegant fingers, his palms smooth and free of calluses. He looks so out of place among the laborers and dockworkers who have stopped in for a sweet treat after a hard day at work.
โYour Highness,โ the shop owner says in a rush,
dropping into a curtsy herself. โAllow me to have one of the girls make you a fresh drink.โ
โNo need,โ he says.
โOh, Iย insist,โ she continues effusively, already reaching for the mug.
His eyes flick up. โI insist that you not.โ
His voice isnโt forceful, but Corrick never needs to be. He has a cool confidence that always seems unflappable. An expectation that things will go his way. The king is no different.
Mistress Woolfreyโs hands go still, and she jerks them back against her body. Her mouth works like she wants to
say something, but she isnโt sureย what.
โWeโll alert you if we need anything,โ Corrick adds.
โAh โฆ yes. Of course.โ She bobs another quick curtsy, then returns behind the counter. Conversation in the shop resumes quietly.
Corrick picks up a spoon and stirs at his chocolate cream like heโs completely unbothered. โWhy so surprised?โ he says easily, as if we werenโt interrupted.
โThis is hardly the place anyone would expect to find the Kingโs Justice,โ I say, keeping my voice low. โYouโre giving everyone enough gossip for aย week.โ
โJust a week?โ He lifts the mug and takes a sip. His eyebrows go up. โThatย isย rather good. Perhaps the Kingโs Justice should make this more of a habit.โ
โIโm not sure Mistress Woolfrey would survive the shock.โ I havenโt touched my own drink. โWhy didnโt you want her to make you a new one?โ
โBecause I felt rather certain the one she made for your friend Karri wouldnโt be poisoned.โ
He says this as equably as everything else heโs said, but it makes me hesitate before reaching for my own cup. I know theย goodย side of Corrick, the man who wants to help his people. I forget that everyone else still sees him as Cruel Corrick, one of the most terrifying men in all of Kandala.
โRight,โ I say weakly. Now Iโm worried about the cup Lochlan placed in front ofย me. I let go of the handle.
โHere,โ says Corrick, and thereโs a gentle note in his voice that no one will hear beyond this table. He slides his cup toward me.
I meet his eyes and see the warmth there. The kindness.
The awareness.
Thisย is what he never allows anyone to see. This is what people like Lochlanย needย to see.
โThank you,โ I say, and Iโm not quiet about it at all. I take a sip.
Itโsย divine.
โLochlan was right, you know,โ Corrick says. โYou shouldnโt be leaving the palace without protection.โ
โIโm no one of importance,โ I say.
โI beg to differ. Heโs lucky I didnโt have one of the guards put an arrow in his back for standing over you like that.โ
I choke on my next sip. โWell. That would have made for an interesting second meeting.โ I ease the cup onto the table, but as I lift my eyes, a slight movement beyond Corrick catches my attention. A man and woman are sitting near the window, but the man is glaring at the prince. Heโs older, with thinning hair and a thick gray beard, but his arms are heavily muscled. His shirt bears sweat stains and a few threadbare spots along his shoulders. His skin is sun- darkened and weathered like a dockworker.
His hand is in a tight fist on his knee.
Corrick takes a lazy sip. โYou look concerned.โ
โThereโs a man over there.โ I keep my voice very low. โHeโs glaring at you.โ
โAh.โ
I glance at the guards to see if theyโve noticed. I canโt tell. But at least they lookย alert. When I look at the dockworker again, he catches my gaze and startles. He deliberately unclenches his hand, turning to look out the window instead.
I drag my eyes back to Corrickโs. โArenโtย you
concerned?โ
He lifts a shoulder in a shrug. โWhen I found the note in your chambers, yes, I was concerned. When the porters told me youโd leftย alone, yes, I was concerned.โ He gives
me a look. โOne man glaring at me is a matter of course, Tessa.โ
โYou didnโt need to worry. I was fine. I knew you were busy with other things.โ
โPeople know youโre important to the king.โ His voice is practical, but a bit of that gentle warmth slips in. โThat youโre important toย me.โ His hand brushes over mine.
Itโs uncommon for him to touch me in public. A blush heats my cheeks. โWell.โ
He smiles, and I feel that warmth all the way down to my toes. Iโve been at court long enough to know that a true smile from the prince is rare.
When he was Weston Lark, he smiled often. Every time I earn a smile from Corrick, itโs both a reminder of who he truly isโand who he can no longer be.
The glaring dockworker is looking at him again, and it robs some of my warmth. I clear my throat. โWhat happened with โฆโ I hesitate, but weโre close enough to the docks in Artis that people here have surely heard about the boat arriving from Ostriary. โWhat happened with the ship?โ I say. โCan you tell me?โ
โNot here. But thatโs part of why I came to fetch you.โ โReally!โ My eyebrows go up. โWhatโโ
A roar of rage cuts me off. The dockworker explodes from his seat as he launches himself at the prince. Light glints on a blade, and I suck in a breath.
I donโt know if Corrick sees my reaction or if he hears the man coming, but he sweeps out of his seat in one smooth movement, pushing me toward the guards before I even realize heโs tugged me out of my chair. The man slams into him, and they crash to the ground together. They skid into the table, and the drinks wobble before tipping over, spilling to the floor. The mugs shatter on impact. Chocolate splatters my skirts.
โWeโd be better off without them!โ the man is shouting. He lifts a dagger, and my heart stops. โFinish the revolution! Kill him! Kill theโโ
Corrick punches him right in the throat. The manโs words break off with a gurgling sound, but he swings that dagger anyway. The guards will never be fast enough.
They donโt need to be. Corrick blocks, then flips the man onto his back. The blade goes skittering across the floor. I donโt even see the prince draw his own dagger, but itโs there, against the manโs throat, just as the guards move in, crossbows aimed and ready. One restrains the manโs companion, because she squeals when her arm is twisted back. One of the other guards draws back the bolt on a crossbow, aiming for the manโs head.
I inhale sharply. One of the girls behind the counter lets out a cry.
โNo,โ says Corrick, and his voice is just as quiet and even as when he told Mistress Woolfrey that he didnโt need a fresh drink.
The guard with the crossbow hesitates, looking up, waiting for an order.
Corrickโs blade is still against that manโs throat. The manโs breathing shuddersโbut then his eyes narrow, and he spits in Corrickโs face.
A line of blood appears around the blade, trickling toward the floor. โIโve cut menโs tongues off for less,โ Corrick says, his voice as low and vicious as Iโve ever heard it.
Iโm frozen in place. So is everyone else in the shop. I
wait for Corrick to let him up, to order the guards to take him out of here, but he doesnโt move.
That line of blood darkens. Thickens. The blade has gone deeper.
The man hisses a breath, then chokes on a sob, rebellion shifting into fear. โPlease,โ he gasps. โPlease.โ
Iโm thinking the same word in my head.ย Please, Corrick.
Please.ย I have to bite my tongue so I donโt say it out loud.
Corrick leans close. Blood still flows. โSo you beg when itโsย yourย life in question.โ
A tear leaks out of the manโs eye, finding the blood to trail down his neck.
My stomach is tight, and I donโt know what to do. No matter who Corrick is toย me, heโs the Kingโs Justice to everyone else. I canโt interfere.
But I canโt watch him kill someone. I canโt. My fingernails press into my palms.
An eternal moment later, Corrick says, โTake him to the Hold. He can stand trial like the others.โ
Then he wipes his blade on the manโs shirt and tucks it back into its sheath.
My heart is pounding so hard, refusing to settle. I thought I was about to witness an execution. Based on the tense silence of the shop, so did everyone elseโincluding the man the guards are dragging to his feet.
Everyone is still staring at Prince Corrick with a mixture of horror and fascination, as if heโll say, โJust kidding,โ and cut the manโs throat anyway.
When the prince turns to look at me, his eyes search mine for a moment, and I have no doubt he can read the panic that hasnโt fully melted away.
The guards are leading the man out of the shop. One of the others has begun questioning the woman, whoโs wringing her hands, casting terrified glances at Corrick.
He ignores them all and offers me his arm. โIt seems we no longer have a drink to share. I do require your services at the palace. Shall we?โ
I have to shake myself. โAh โฆ yes. Of course.โ I rest a still-trembling hand on his arm. Heโs so good at hiding every emotion, but I donโt have anywhere near as much practice.
He begins to lead me to the door, but he pauses before we cross the threshold to look to the counter. โMistress Woolfrey,โ he says.
Her face goes pale, and Iโm sure sheโs ready for him to levy an accusation that she might have been involved. When she speaks, her voice is breathy and shaking. โYesโ yes, Your Highness.โ
He withdraws a handful of coins and holds them out to her. โThe drinks were very good. The guards will assist in cleaning up the mess, but Iโd ask that you have an accounting of any damages prepared. Iโll send a steward to cover any costs.โ
She startles, her eyes widening as he hands over enough silver that heโs probably covering her costs for aย month. โYour Highness. Itโs โฆ itโs nothing.โ
โAll the same.โ He gives her a nod. โFor the trouble then. You have my thanks.โ
Then he leads me through the door, and we climb into his waiting carriage.
I drew a lot of attention on the way to the confectionerโs, but thatโs nothing compared to the looks we get on the way back, sitting in the princeโs burgundy carriage, trailed by half a dozen guards. My heart is still rattling around in my chest, leaving my fingers to tremble along my skirts. I have my eyes fixed on the window, so I see every glare we get.
Iโve cut menโs tongues off for less.
Every time I want to forget who he was, the world seems determined to remind me. I want to ask if thatโs true, or if he only said it for effect.
But Iโm afraid I already know the answer.
Corrick sits on the opposite seat of the carriage, and thereโs a part of me that wants to ease to his side, to hide in the circle of his arms for the short journey back to the palace. Another part of me wants to run away from everything that just happened.
I canโt do either. Everything about our relationship is massively complicated now. When I first moved into the palace, it all seemed simple. Easy. Corrick and I could go for walks, or play games, or have a late dinner on the terrace. He could steal kisses in the moonlight, and I could taste his breath and remember what it was like to be in the Wilds, just the two of us against the dawn.
But then I learned that nothing about his life is simple. Iโm an apothecary working in service for the king, and heโs second in line for the throne. Iโm a girl from the Wilds, and heโs the Kingโs Justice. Any courtship would be watched. Studied. Judged. At dinner one night, I overheard a woman telling her companion that it was adorable how the prince allowed his little mistress to dabble in medicine.
Lochlan himself already proved it:ย If youโre not sharing
his bed, someone is. Heโs the brother to the king.
Our work to make enough medicine for everyone in Kandala is far too important to sully it with rumors that Iโm only in the palace at the princeโs whim. Our late night walks ended. So did our stolen kisses and private dinners.
Itโs left me feeling adrift. Uncertain.
And I resent this doubt in my abilities. That just because Iโm from the Wilds, my theories and research and medicine are somehow seen as lesser, just because I wasnโt trained in the Royal Sector. That the only reason I might be in the
palace at all would be for Corrick, not because I truly have something toย offer.
Maybe we werenโt helpingย allย of Kandala when we were delivering medicine as outlaws, but at least I felt like I was helping some.
So I sit here, and Corrick sits there, and I content myself with watching the passing terrain, longing for his touch. When I finally tear my eyes away from the window, I expect to find his gaze on the blur of greenery as well, but heโs watching me.
โDonโt worry,โ he says. โThe carriage can withstand a few bolts from a crossbow.โ
Well, I wasnโt worried about that untilย now. โYou think someone is going to shoot at us?โ
โNo, but I didnโt expect someone to leap at me with a dagger in a candy shop either.โ
โAre you frightened?โ I try to be as even-keeled as he sounds, but my voice is hollow.
Any dry humor fades from his voice. โIโve been attacked before. I know how to defend myself. The guards did their job, and they did it well.โ
I smooth my hands along my skirts, then frown. He could have been killed. He couldโve been the killer. How does he go through every day like this?
I wonder if heโs regretting the way he told the guards to take the man to the Hold. I imagine the Kingโs Justice from a month ago might have let that blade go another inch, just to send a message. I donโt want to think soโbut again, Iโm afraid of the answer, so I donโt ask the question.
Corrick is studying me now, and his voice turns very careful. โI know Karri is your friend, but I donโt trust Lochlan.โ He pauses. โYou shouldnโt either.โ
I glance at the window again, because I donโt want to meet his eyes. โLochlan told her the same thing aboutย meโ
in regards toย you.โ
โHe was very displeased with the way the meeting progressed. It could have been a trap.โ
โIt wasnโt a trap.โ
โHe wouldnโt even have to coerce Karri. She wouldnโt have to know. He just needed to get you there.โ The princeโs eyes narrow. โAs much as I hate him, heโs not a fool. He could have drugged your drink, made you feel a bit woozy so theyโd have to help you outsideโโ
โCorrick.โ I bring my gaze back to his. โIt wasnโt a trap. Heโs right to be anxious. Itโs life or death for them. You remember.โ
โItโs life or death for us, too.โ Corrickโs eyes donโt leave mine, and his tone is unyielding. โHe used you against me once before.โ
When we were captured together, and Lochlan figured out that Weston Lark was truly Prince Corrick. They nearly beat him to death. I donโt want to think about that.
I donโt want to think about Lochlan using Karri against me either.
โThat was different,โ I say. โWas it? How?โ
Heโs not challenging me, not really, but my skin feels hot and prickly. I donโt know how the whole day has gone so wrong. I scowl and frown.
After a moment, he says, โAreย youย frightened?โ
I swallow, and my throat feels thick. I canโt look at him, but I nod.
โThe guards will take the man to the Hold. Heโll stand trial. You werenโt his target.โ
I donโt know how to respond, so I keep my gaze trained on the window.
โOr,โ he says quietly, โare you frightened of me?โ
I donโt answer, and he makes an aggravated noise and runs a hand over the back of his neck.
โIโm sorry,โ I say.
โLord, Tessa, I donโt want you to beย sorry.โ He pauses. โHe was going to kill me. That was his goal.โ
โI know. I heard him. I justโโ I break off and hold my breath. Sometimes, I think about my position and what Iโve accomplished. Iโm helping the king find a better path to medicine for the people.
But when I think about everything theyโve done wrong, I question whether Iโm on the right side.
โI wasnโt going to kill him,โ Corrick says. โBut I had to make him think it. I had to make themย allย think it.โ
I hate that he madeย meย think it. โWhy?โ I whisper.
โBecause the Kingโs Justice canโt go soft overnight. The people are already emboldened. No one would haveย daredย to attack me in public a few weeks ago.โ He makes an aggravated sound again. โThis was so much easier as outlaws.โ
I want to disagree with him, but I canโt. Itย wasย easier. โNo one trusts anyone now.โ
He sits back against the cushions. โWelcome to life at court.โ
I scowl. My fingers have ceased their trembling, but my insides feel tight and unhappy. โWhat happened with the ship from Ostriary? Did you really need me for something, or was that to get me out of the shop?โ
โOh. Yes. I want you to look at some flower petals and tell me if theyโre truly Moonflower.โ
โThe palace physicians werenโt sure?โ
โThey are, but after they didnโt detect the difference in the petals Allisander was supplying to the palace, I still canโt decide if theyโre incompetent or traitors.โ
โWhere did they come from?โ
โCaptain Rian Blakemore arrived with a chest full of them.โ
โThe emissary?โ
โTheย spy. His father was supposedly sent by my parents years ago. He says he has two dozen crates of Moonflower on his shipโand the means to get more. He claims that the king of Ostriary would like to begin trade negotiations, because they are lacking in resources for iron and steel. Kandala, of course, has quite a bit.โ
Thereโs a note in his voice I canโt quite parse out. โYou donโt believe him.โ
โIโm not sure yet. But Harristan has invited him to dine with us.โ He pulls a jeweled pocket watch out of his jacket and glances at the face. โWe should arrive in time for you to prepare.โ
My eyebrows go up. โIโm to join you?โ โIโve surprised you again?โ
โA little.โ
โQuint will attend, too. Captain Blakemore has made more than a few references to myย reputation, so Harristan felt it would do well to have you attend to keep the conversation a bit more โฆโ
โHonest?โ
Corrick smiles. โSocial.โ
โWill Harristan be bringing someone as well?โ
โNo.โ He seems startled. โHavenโt you noticed? My brother never invites a companion.โ
I hesitate. I havenโt been at court very long, but Iโve spent enough time in the palace that Iโve become accustomed to the usual players. Some of the consuls are married, like Roydan Pelham, an older man whoโs rather devoted to his wife, while others seem to rotate through courtiers as regularly as I wash my face.
Until this moment, I hadnโt considered that Harristan never has someone at his side. I havenโt even seen him engage in so much as a casual flirtation.
Though honestly, the thought of Harristan doing
anythingย in a casual manner is almost laughable.
When the sector was under attack from the rebels, Harristan and I slipped through the woods of the Wilds together. Heโd once told me that it was easy to love your king when everyone is well fed and healthy, but not so much when everyone is sick and hungry. Harristan is always stoic and reserved, but I remember seeing his composure crack, just a little, when I told him thatย heย could be loved.
Corrick watches me work through this in my head. โHe doesnโt trust anyone, Tessa. Too many people have tried to take advantage of us.โ He pauses, and his voice drops, even though weโre alone. โAnd it would be difficult to keep his lingering illness a secret. I donโt think heโd allow anyone to get close enough.โ
That makes me sad. I canโt chase Lochlanโs comments out of my head, so I find myself asking, โWhat about you? Any frequent companions for the Kingโs Justice?โ
Iโm trying to keep my tone light, but he holds my gaze, and I know he hears the true question there. โAh, Tessa.โ Thereโs something simultaneously wicked and warm in his eyes. โNo one dared, until you.โ