We ended up sharing a dinner of freshly grilled fish and roasted vegetables in one of the cafรฉs closest to the water, joined by Delano, who had shifted into his mortal form at some point. I had asked if the other wolven wished to join us, but they had chosen to remain in their wolven forms, watching over any and all that ventured near us, including the Crown Guard.
It wasnโt until after the sun had begun its steady descent into the horizon that we made it to the beaches. The first thing I did was unstrap my sandals. The very moment my feet sank into the gritty sand, a smile tugged at my lips as a barrage of memories rose within meโmemories of my parents and Ian, walking along another beach. As my sandals dangled from my fingers, and Casteel wrapped his hand firmly around mine, I looked out at the sea, watching the clear waters turn a shade of silver as the moon rose. Those afternoons on the beaches of the Stroud Sea felt like a different lifetime, eons ago, and that saddened me. How long before they became memories that felt as if they belonged to someone else?
Delano, who walked ahead, turned to face us. โIf youโre not tired, thereโs something ahead you might enjoy, Penellaphe.โ
โIโm not tired.โ I looked up at Casteel. โAre you?โ A faint smile appeared as he shook his head.
Delanoโs gaze flicked from Casteel to Kieran before returning to me as he walked backwards. โThere is a celebration of a wedding,โ he explained. โJust around the bend.โ
โAre we able to join? I mean, they donโt know meโโ โThey will welcome you,โ Delano cut in. โBoth of you.โ
โYou want to?โ Casteel asked. Of course, I did. I nodded. He looked over his shoulder to where I knew the members of the Crown Guard followed several paces back. โThank you for your watchful eyes. That will be all for tonight.โ
I turned just as I saw several guards bow and then pivot. โTheyโre actually leaving?โ
โThey know they donโt belong at a celebration like this,โ Kieran explained. โItโs not personal. It just is.โ
Just is?
My feet sank into damp sand as we made our way around a dune, the sounds of laughter and music growing louder. There was so much to soak in
โthe shouts of happiness, the canopies rippling in the salty breeze, the thick blankets and cushions scattered about the sand, and the groups of people huddled about, dancing and talking. There was so much life, so much warmth and joy, that it flooded my senses, leaving me exposed like a live wire but in a way that was pleasant for the first time. In a way that Iย wanted. My gaze bounced everywhere, stopping on those moving around the flames.
โDuring these kinds of celebrations, only the wolven can dance around the fire,โ Casteel explained, following my gaze. โThough I bet theyโd allow you. Youโre theirย Liessa.โ
โItโs strange to be the wolvenโs Queen and not be a wolven,โ I said, watching people envelop Delano as the wolven whoโd been trailing us all day rushed forward, disappearing into the crowd.
โTonight is about celebration,โ Kieran told us. โYou donโt have to worry about anyone bowing or beating their fists off the sand tonight.โ
A tiny grin appeared. โWas my awkwardness the last time really that noticeable?โ
โYes,โ both Casteel and Kieran answered.
โWow,โ I said, ducking my chin against Casteelโs arm as I smiled.
But Kieran was right. As he broke away from us, joining several others who stood near a few of the canopied tents, only waves and smiles greeted us. Taking my sandals from me, Casteel dropped them onto the sand and then unstrapped his swords, lying them on a blanketโa sign that he felt it was safe to do so here. Sitting, he pulled me down so I was nestled between his legs, facing the bonfire.
Iโd completely lost sight of Delano as I relaxed in Casteelโs embrace, but I found Kieran a few moments later, talking with a tall, dark-haired female. That was about all I could see of her from a distance. โWho is Kieran speaking to?โ I asked.
Casteel looked over the top of my head. โI think her name is Lyra. If thatโs who I think it is. Sheโs a bit younger than Kieran and me, but her family is close to his.โ
โOh,โ I whispered, watching them and thinking of what Kieran had once said about loving and losing someone. Heโd never expounded on that, but what Iโd felt from him when he spoke was the kind of anguish one felt when the person they loved was no longer in the realm of the living. It made me happy to see him with someone, even if they were just talking and laughing. Not that I would share that with him. Heโd probably consider it a question.
โYou know how you said it was weird to be a Queen to the wolven but not be a wolven?โ Cas said after a few moments. โIt made me think of how when I met you, I was looking for the Maiden, but I found a Princess, a Queenโmy wife.โ He laughed, and it sounded as if it were one of awe. โI donโt know. It just made me think about how you find things you never knew you needed when youโre looking for something completely opposite.โ โOr not looking at all,โ I said, my nose scrunching. โOr maybe Iย wasย looking. I went to the Red Pearl that night because I wanted to live. And I
found you.โ
He curled his arms around me, tightening his embrace. A couple of additional moments passed as we watched the wolven around the fire. โWhat would you want to be doing right now if you could be doing anything? Barring seeing your brother or anything that has to do with what we need to do.โ
My brows rose at the unexpected question. Letting my senses stretch out to him, I felt a boyish sense of curiosity, one that brought a grin to my face. I didnโt even have to think about it. โThis. You?โ
โIโm being serious,โ he said.
โI am, too. I would want to be doing thisโall that weโve done today,โ I said. โYou?โ
โThe same,โ he said quietly, and I knew he spoke the truth. โBut with you naked and more sex.โ
I laughed loudly at that because I also sensed that to be true. โIโm glad that I chose to spend right now this way.โ
โMe, too.โ He pressed his lips to my cheek.
I really didnโt know when we would have another day like this one, or at what point there would even be time. But I didnโt want to think of the
reasons why it would probably be a while. That wasnโt how I wanted to spend right now, so I watched those dancing around the fire with avid interest, entranced by the joyous frenzy of the dark outlines of their bodies, how they moved from one partner to the next, both male and female, with the kind of reckless abandon Iโd shared with Casteel in the garden. What I felt from them could only be described as a release, as if they danced to toss away the chains of what preyed on their minds and souls, and in so doing, found freedom.
A body peeled away from the fire and moved toward us. Sweat glistened off Delanoโs bare shoulders as he bowed at the waist. Pale hair tumbled across his forehead as he extended an arm. โWould you like to dance?โ
I started to take his hand, but uncertainty filled me. Was it appropriate for me to do so?
Casteel dipped his cheek to mine. โYou can dance with him.โ His arm loosened around my waist. โYou can do whatever you want.โ
Do whatever you want.
Four words I hadnโt heard for most of my life. โIโฆI donโt really know how to dance.โ
โNo one does,โ Delano said, grinning. โUntil they do.โ He wiggled his fingers. โWhat do you say, Penellaphe?โ
Excitement bubbled up in me as my gaze darted over his shoulder to the figures moving around the bonfire.ย Do whatever you want. The breath that left me was heady. Twisting, I curled my fingers around Casteelโs chin and pulled his mouth to mine. I kissed him quickly. โI love you, Cas.โ
His arm tightened briefly around me. โHave fun.โ
Turning back to Delano, I placed my hand in his. โPoppy,โ I told him. โCall me Poppy.โ
Smiling, Delano pulled me to my feet. โThen letโs dance, Poppy.โ
Stomach skipping, I followed him toward the rippling flames. Delano turned to me as the warmth of the fire pressed against my skin.
โI really donโt know how to dance,โ I told him apologetically.
โLook around us.โ Keeping his fingers wrapped around mine, he picked up my hand and placed it on his hip before resting his on my waist. โDo they look like they know how to dance? Or do they look like theyโre having fun?โ
Glancing around, I saw nothing like what I saw when Iโd snuck through the back halls to spy on the balls held in the Great Hall of Castle Teerman. There were no rigid movements, nor was everyone paired with someone. A girl with long, blonde hair danced alone, her arms stretched above her head as her hips moved with the tempo. A brown-skinned man also danced alone, his body moving with fluid grace. Couples spun around each other, and others danced so close to one another it was difficult to tell where one body ended and the other began. I spied Kieran with the dark- haired female. With her golden-brown arms twined around his neck, they were one of the couples who danced so close that tongues wouldโve been wagging in Masadonia. Kieran lifted the female, spinning her as she threw her head back and laughed.
โWhat do you see?โ Delano prodded.
Dragging my gaze from them, I looked up at him. โTheyโre having fun.โ
He smiled. โYou can do that, right?โ
I peeked over to where Casteel sat on the plush blanket, one arm resting on a bent knee as he watched us. A tiny part of me wasnโt sure I knew how to have fun, but IโฆIโd had fun today. Iโd had fun when Tawny and I had snuck out together to visit the lake. I hadnโt been thinking about having fun those times. I was justโฆliving. And that was the key, wasnโt it? To not overthink and to just live.
I looked up at Delano. โI can.โ
โI know.โ His smile widened, and then he started to move, taking small, swaying steps to our left and then the right. I followed him.
His steps were far surer, while mine were rigid, and I was sure I looked foolish, my arms stiff and cockeyed as I clutched his hand. Others moved faster around us, but as we continued dancing in our little circle, I realized that each of his steps was in tune with the steady beat of the drum. My muscles loosened, as did my grip on his hand. Delano stepped back, lifting our connected arms. The skirt of my gown billowed around my legs as he spun me. The hum in my chest sparked as my hair lifted from my shoulders when he turned me again. A quiet laugh escaped me, and then a louder one as he raised our arms once more and spun himself. His hand came back to my waist, and we moved faster in our little circle, swirling around the fire.
The hum in my chest found my blood as the hem of my gown twirled around my ankles. A new hand closed around mine as Delano let go.
Whirling, I found myself held by Kieran.
I grinned up at him. โHi.โ
His lips curved up. โHello, Poppy.โ He stepped back, spinning me. I stumbled, laughing as he caught me. โYou surprise me.โ
โWhy?โ I asked as we moved around the flames.
โI didnโt think youโd dance,โ he said, pulling me to his damp chest. โYou honor us by doing so.โ
Before I could even begin to question why that would be an honor, Kieran spun me out, and another hand folded around mine. I turned to find that it was Lyra who now danced with me. We were nearly as close as she and Kieran had been, her legging-clad thighs brushing mine with every sway of her hips. Taking hold of my other hand, we moved together around the fire. Strands of hair stuck to my neck and temples as we weaved in and out of those flowing with the beat around the fire, each spinning into different partners. On and on, I danced, both with people I didnโt recognize and those I knew, and all the while, that buzz in my chest and my blood vibrated in my skin. My head tipped back, my face exposed to the flames and moonlight as I was whirled into Delanoโs arms and then into Kieranโs, who lifted my feet from the sand. Grasping his shoulders, I laughed as he turned us around and around.
โSomeone is jealous,โ he said when my feet touched the sand once more. We spunโ
Kieranโs chuckle tickled my cheek as Casteel snagged me by the waist.
I all but fell into him as he said, โI am definitely getting jealous.โ
โNo, youโre not.โ All I felt from him was smoky spice. โYouโreโฆโ
โWhat?โ he asked as he led me away from the fire, the dancers, and back into the moonlight-flecked shadows.
Breathless, I followed on tingling feet. โYouโre turned on.โ
He dipped his head, pressing his forehead to mine. โWhen am Iย not
turned on around you?โ
I laughed softly. โGood question.โ
โAdmittedly, I am more turned on than usual.โ He drew me down onto the thick blanket, pulling my back to his chest. โItโs your fault, though.โ
โHow is it my fault?โ I wiggled back, grinning as I heard him groan. โItโs your laugh.โ His lips brushed the damp skin of my neck. โIโll
never get used to hearing it or thinking you do it enough.โ His chest rose sharply against my back, and I sensed something raw and sharp from deep
within him. โAfter everything that happened with Shea and my brother, I honest to gods never thought a laugh could wreck me like yours does. And when I say it wrecks me, I mean in the best wayโin the most complete way. And Iโฆโ A shaky breath left him. โI just want to thank you for that.โ
โYouโre thanking me?โ I twisted as far as I could in his embrace, searching for his gaze and finding it. โI should be thanking you. It is you who made it possible for me to laugh without recourse.โ
He dropped his forehead to my temple. โYeah?โ
โYes,โ I said, curling my hand around the back of his neck. โIโmย livingย because of you, Cas, and I mean that both literally and figuratively. You think youโre not worthy of me? In reality, I sometimes wonder if Iโm not worthy of you.โ
โPoppyโโ
โItโs true.โ I squeezed the back of his neck. โNothing you say can change that, but I know. I know inย here.โ I pressed my palm to my chest. โThat I would do anything for you. I know you would do anything for me. You have, and nothing in this realm or any other will ever change that or how I feel about you. Nothing should ever make you forget that I laugh because of you.โ
Shuddering, he pressed his lips to my temple and then folded one arm around my waist, resting his hand on my hip, where his fingers traced idle circles. He didnโt say anything as he rested his chin atop my head, and neither did I. Words werenโt always needed, and inherently, I knew this was one of those moments.
We justย wereย as I watched those dancing around the fire break into smaller groups, some drifting out toward where the waves ebbed and flowed over the sand, and others into the canopied tents. I caught sight of Kieran once more. He was with who we thought was Lyra. Or at least I thought so. I honestly couldnโt be sure. His arm was around the womanโs shoulders, his head bent toward hers as they walked into the shadows of the bluffs.
I looked away, watching those who were still at the fire for a couple of minutes before I glanced back toward the bluffs.
My lips parted. I had no idea how Kieran and the female had gotten from where Iโd last seen them to him leaning back in the sand and her kneeling between his legs, her hands in the general vicinity of an area that would definitely be considered naughty.
โAre theyโฆ?โ I sucked in a sharp breath as Kieranโs head fell back.
My eyes widened.
Casteelโs chuckle was dark and soft. โDo you still need me to answer that question?โ
I swallowed. โNo.โ
The hand at my hip continued moving in small, distracting circles as I watched who I thought might be Lyra move her head back and forth in a way that reminded me of how I moved against Casteel.
โAre you scandalized?โ Casteel whispered.
Was I? I wasnโt sure. Maybe I should be because I definitely shouldnโt be watching. Every single social propriety there was, demanded that I look away and pretend that I had no idea what they were doing. But I did know. Iโd read about the act Lyra was engaging in now in Miss Willaโs diary. My heart thumped heavily. It was like when Casteel kissed me between the thighs, except the way Willa had described it, there was less kissing and licking, and moreโฆsucking. That whole act had confused me greatly when I first read about it, but that was before I had learned that there were all kinds of acts one could do with any number of body parts.
โIโll take your non-answer as a no?โ Casteel queried.
Feeling my cheeks warm, I dragged my gaze to the fire where people sat and talked, either unaware of what was happening in the shadows or not caring. โYou did say the wolven were into public displays of affection.โ
He laughed again. โI did, and they are very open with theirโฆ affections. They feel no shame in doing so. Iโm sure at some point you will definitely see a bare ass or two.โ
I liked that they felt no shame, possibly never even knowing the sourness of that emotion attached to such actions. There was an enviable freedom in that, to exist and be so free and open.
โIf it makes you uncomfortable, donโt feel embarrassed to say so,โ Casteel said quietly. โWe donโt have to stay, and we can leave whenever you want.โ
His offer tugged on my heart, and I turned my head, kissing the underside of his jaw. โThank you for saying that, but Iโm not uncomfortable.โ
โOkay,โ he said, tilting his head and kissing me.
And I really wasnโt as I leaned into Casteel, resting my head against his chest. If there was no shame in their actions, then there was none in my
heart.
But I really shouldnโt be watching, and that was exactly what I was doing, my gaze finding where Kieran and Lyra had gone with rather unerring accuracy. I saw Lyra place a hand on his chest, pushing him back as he started to sit up orโฆreach for her. She was in control of her actions as Kieran retreated to rest on his elbows, a confidence in her as her head moved, a hand following the movements.
I really should have kept my senses locked down when I focused on Lyra, but I felt that control I had assumed was there, mixed with warm smokiness. The warmth in my cheeks increased, flowing down my neck as I shifted, stretching out my leg. My breath caught as Casteelโs fingers moved a scant couple of inches from my hip to the left, still moving in those maddening, tiny circles.
And I really, really shouldnโt have left my senses open when my gaze flicked to Kieran. The spiciness gathered in the back of my throat and low in my body, the place Casteelโs fingers were so dangerously close to. I closed down my senses before I pried any further, but Iโฆ
โPoppy?โ
โYes,โ I whispered as Lyra seemed to tilt her head, pressing in impossibly close to Kieranโs body.
โAre you watching them?โ Casteel asked, his voice full of smoke. A denial rose to the tip of my tongue.
โIf so, you wouldnโt be the only one, nor are they the only ones being watched,โ he said, one of his fingers stretching over the thin material of my gown. โThey find no shame in any act of affection, whether they are involved in it, casual observersโฆor more active watchers.โ
Active watchers?
My gaze wandered across the rippling canopies and the shadowy depths inside, to where a slender arm beckoned to another who had been seated in the sand outside. The man put the bottle of what heโd been drinking down and rose, bending down as he entered the space under the canopy, where the shadowy outlines of bodies moved in unison. He joined them as Casteel shifted behind me again, leaning forward to slip his hand under where the hem of my gown was gathered at my knees. My heart might have stuttered as he trailed those fingers up the length of my bare skin, somehow managing to keep the skirt of the gown in place. The fingers on his right hand continued creeping lower and lower as I saw the man
lower himself behind the one who moved on top. My pulse pounded as Casteelโs fingers hesitated under my gown at the vee of my legs.
A slight tremor of anticipation tinged with uncertainty ran through me, followed by a sharp twist in my very core.
โPoppy, Poppy, Poppy,โ Casteel murmured as a finger above the gown reached the sensitive bundle of nerves. โDoes what youโre seeing in that tent answer any questions you might have had about how three lovers can enjoy each other?โ
Yes? No? I saw the woman who had been riding the man under her still, her back bowing as the man behind her pulled her close to his chest.
โThe newcomer is either moving inside her or against her,โ Casteel explained as his finger moved in those damn circles above the gown and along the crease of my thigh and hip. โDid Willaโs journal explain the technicalities of that?โ
The heat from my skin had entered my veins, stirring up my blood as I nodded. โIt did.โ I wet my lips. โIt sounded like it could beโฆpainful.โ
โIt can be if not done with care,โ he said. โAnd it appears that they are taking care.โ
No one appeared to be in pain, and no one seemed to be paying any attention to where we sat on our blanket. A breathlessness entered me as I slowly inched my thighs apart and asked, โAre they taking part in the Joining?โ
โI do not know.โ The fingers against my bare skin slid toward the elicit ache. A strangled sound left me as he lazily drew a finger through the gathering wetness there. โA Joining is not required for such acts.โ
โHave youโ?โ I bit down on my lip as his finger pierced my flesh. My entire body jerked, spasmed, just like the three in the tent. I really needed to stop looking.
And, of course, I found myself looking to where Kieran and Lyra were. They were kissing now, but her arm still moved at his hips in a slow rhythm.
โHave I what?โ
Pulse thrumming as Casโs finger slowly plunged in and out of me as he continued worrying the sensitive flesh, I gave up on remaining still before I even started to try. I lifted my hips against his hand as I forced my brain to remember how to form words. โHave you ever done that? What theyโre doing under the canopy?โ
His lips moved down the side of my throat, tugging gently on the column of my neck. โI have.โ He nipped my flesh, wringing a gasp from me. โDoes that bother you?โ
Some of the passion faded enough for me to ask, โWhy would it?โ
โThe pasts of some haunt the future of others,โ he said, his hands stilling.
My brows lowered as my gaze flickered. โYouโre over two hundred years old, Cas. I imagine youโve done all manner of things.โ
His fingers moved again. โWith all manner of people?โ
The way he said that made me giggle. โYes.โ Though my smile faded because I wanted to ask if heโd done that with Shea. A moment later, I realized that I could simply ask the question. So, I did.
Casteel kissed my neck. โNo, Poppy. We didnโt.โ
Surprised, I started to look back at him, but he curled his finger, hitting a spot inside me that caused my legs to stiffen and my toes to curl into the blanket. โW-why not?โ
โWe were friends, and then we were more,โ he said, the tension curling deeper and deeper inside me as my gaze darted across the fire, the canopies, and the shadows. Somehow, my focus ended up on Lyra and Kieran. They were no longer kissing. Lyraโs head was at his waist again, and his hand was balled in her hair, his hips movingโ โBut our relationship was never one of raw need. That doesnโt mean I cared any less about her, but it wasnโt like this. There was no constant need to be inside her in every way imaginable, and even ways not yet thought of. I never found myself constantly hungering, and I believe you need that to find yourself exploring those things with someone youโre committed to,โ he said, and my breaths became shorter and shallower. โI never had what I have with you with her, Poppy.โ
I donโt know if it was the things he was doing to my body, what was going on around us or his words, but I teetered on that edge and then tumbled over it, falling and crashing like the waves rolling against the beach. The shattering release left me trembling.
Once my heart slowed enough for the pleasure-induced fog to clear, I turned my head toward him. โDo youโฆdo you want to do that with me?โ
He kissed me as he eased his hand out from under my gown. โI want to do everything imaginable, and things no one has ever thought of with you,โ he said. โBut I onlyย needย you, Poppy. Now. Always.โ
My heart skipped and then sped up as my chest swelled with so much love I felt as if I could float right to the stars. I twisted in his embrace, clasping his cheeks as I rose onto my knees. โI love you.โ I kissed him, hoping that everything I felt for him could be communicated with that kiss, and then decided the kiss wasnโt enough. A tendril of excitement swept through me as I rocked back, grabbing his hands. โI want to go somewhereโฆprivate.โ
Amber glowed from within hooded, sensual eyes. โWe can go backโโ โNo.โ I didnโt want to wait. If I did, I would lose my nerve. โIs there
not somewhere private here?โ
The tips of his fangs became visible as he bit down on his lower lip and looked over his shoulder. โYeah,โ he said. โThere is.โ
Without another word, we rose. Under the moonlight, Casteel led me farther down the beach, to where I hadnโt seen the tree-heavy dunes in the darkness. He guided me around the first outcropping of trees and then stopped. It was so dark that I could barely make out his features as he looked down at me. โYouโre up to something, arenโt you?โ
โMaybe,โ I admitted, grateful for the heavier shadows here as I took hold of the front of his shirt and stretched up, bringing his mouth to mine.
My heart thrummed as our tongues touched and danced, much as I had around the fire. We kissed and kissed, and even though he had to know this wasnโt why Iโd sought privacy, he didnโt rush me. He just followedย myย lead, saying nothing as I pressed tiny kisses to the base of his throat. Sliding his palms up and down my arms, he remained quiet as I drew my hands down his chest. When I reached his stomach, I sank to my knees.
His hands fell away from me, hovering at my sides as I unhooked the flap of his breeches, feeling the rigid thickness there.
The taste of smoky spice consumed my senses as I reached in, wrapping my fingers around his warm, hard skin. He was breathing heavily now, and my heart raced as I eased him out. His skin felt like heated steel encased in silk as I tipped forward, halting when I felt him spasm in my hand.
โPoppy,โ he ground out. I lifted my gaze, momentarily stunned by the churning flecks of bright gold in his eyes. A shudder worked its way through him. โYou donโt have to do this.โ
โI want to,โ I told him. โDo you want me to?โ
โYou can do anything to me, and Iโll want it.โ Another tremor worked its way through him. โThis? My cock in your mouth? Iโd have to be dead and nothing but ash to not want that.โ
My lips twitched. โThatโsโฆkind of flattering.โ
He choked out a rough laugh. โYou areโโ He groaned as I glided my fingers from his base to his tip.
โAm what?โ
His fingertips touched my cheek. โEverything.โ
Smiling, I lowered my head. The salty taste of his skin was a surprise, dancing over my tongue. Tentatively, I moved my hand down his length, exploring as I brought him deeper into my mouth like I had read about in Willaโs diary.
โPoppy,โ Casteel groaned, his palm flattening against my cheek.
Sheโd written about other things, stuff that reminded me of what Casteel had done for me, and I wasnโt sure if heโd enjoy that or not. But Iโฆ I wanted to do those things. I drew my tongue over his taut skin, finding a little indentation under the ridge of his head and swirling my tongue over it.
โFuck.โ His body jerked. โIโฆI wasnโt expecting that.โ
Fighting a smile, I did it again, and he swore. โDid you read about that in Miss Willaโs book?โ
I hummed out an agreement, and the act seemed to vibrate through him. His entire body flexed, and Iย feltย him throb.
โFuck,โ he rasped. โI love that godsdamn diary.โ
A laugh escaped me then, and based on the way his hips jerked, he liked how it felt. There was nothing in Miss Willaโs diary about laughing while doing this, but as I curled my hand around his base, I stopped thinking about that damn journal and just let instinct take over. I flicked my tongue across the head of his cock, marveling at his reactionโat the lazy heat swamping my senses. I liked doing this. Liked knowing he enjoyed it.
His hand slid from my cheek as his fingers threaded through my hair. He cupped the back of my neck, but he didnโt put any pressure there. All he did was move his thumb, gently massaging the muscles. It was aโฆ supportive presence as he continued letting me learn what made his body move in short, shallow thrusts, what caused his breath to catch, and what made the spicy flavor intensify. I realized something. Not only did I like this but I also enjoyed the control, the way I could slow his breathing or
increase the way he throbbed against my tongue just by the pressure of my mouth, or how hard or soft I sucked on his skin.
โPoppy, Iโm notโฆgods, Iโm not going to last much longer.โ His grip on my neck tightened as he rocked against my hand, in my mouth. โAnd I donโt know if that diary spoke of what happens.โ
It had.
And I wanted that. Wanted to feel him finish, to experience that, knowing I had brought him to that point. I drew my hand up the length of him, closing my mouth over his head. He shouted my name, and then his hips stiffened as he pulsed and spasmed against my tongue.
No sooner had I finished, and before I could even feel rather proud of myself, he dropped to his knees before me, clasping my cheeks. Tilting his head to the side, his mouth was suddenly on mine, his tongue against mine. The kiss was as demanding as it was worshipping, all-consuming as it left little room for anything else.
Casteel lifted his head, his eyes locked on mine. โYou,โ he said, his voice thick and tone reverent. โAll I ever need is you. Now. Always.โ