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Chapter no 24

The Crown of Gilded Bones (Blood and Ash Series #3)

We ended up sharing a dinner of freshly grilled fish and roasted vegetables in one of the cafรฉs closest to the water, joined by Delano, who had shifted into his mortal form at some point. I had asked if the other wolven wished to join us, but they had chosen to remain in their wolven forms, watching over any and all that ventured near us, including the Crown Guard.

It wasnโ€™t until after the sun had begun its steady descent into the horizon that we made it to the beaches. The first thing I did was unstrap my sandals. The very moment my feet sank into the gritty sand, a smile tugged at my lips as a barrage of memories rose within meโ€”memories of my parents and Ian, walking along another beach. As my sandals dangled from my fingers, and Casteel wrapped his hand firmly around mine, I looked out at the sea, watching the clear waters turn a shade of silver as the moon rose. Those afternoons on the beaches of the Stroud Sea felt like a different lifetime, eons ago, and that saddened me. How long before they became memories that felt as if they belonged to someone else?

Delano, who walked ahead, turned to face us. โ€œIf youโ€™re not tired, thereโ€™s something ahead you might enjoy, Penellaphe.โ€

โ€œIโ€™m not tired.โ€ I looked up at Casteel. โ€œAre you?โ€ A faint smile appeared as he shook his head.

Delanoโ€™s gaze flicked from Casteel to Kieran before returning to me as he walked backwards. โ€œThere is a celebration of a wedding,โ€ he explained. โ€œJust around the bend.โ€

โ€œAre we able to join? I mean, they donโ€™t know meโ€”โ€ โ€œThey will welcome you,โ€ Delano cut in. โ€œBoth of you.โ€

โ€œYou want to?โ€ Casteel asked. Of course, I did. I nodded. He looked over his shoulder to where I knew the members of the Crown Guard followed several paces back. โ€œThank you for your watchful eyes. That will be all for tonight.โ€

I turned just as I saw several guards bow and then pivot. โ€œTheyโ€™re actually leaving?โ€

โ€œThey know they donโ€™t belong at a celebration like this,โ€ Kieran explained. โ€œItโ€™s not personal. It just is.โ€

Just is?

My feet sank into damp sand as we made our way around a dune, the sounds of laughter and music growing louder. There was so much to soak in

โ€”the shouts of happiness, the canopies rippling in the salty breeze, the thick blankets and cushions scattered about the sand, and the groups of people huddled about, dancing and talking. There was so much life, so much warmth and joy, that it flooded my senses, leaving me exposed like a live wire but in a way that was pleasant for the first time. In a way that Iย wanted. My gaze bounced everywhere, stopping on those moving around the flames.

โ€œDuring these kinds of celebrations, only the wolven can dance around the fire,โ€ Casteel explained, following my gaze. โ€œThough I bet theyโ€™d allow you. Youโ€™re theirย Liessa.โ€

โ€œItโ€™s strange to be the wolvenโ€™s Queen and not be a wolven,โ€ I said, watching people envelop Delano as the wolven whoโ€™d been trailing us all day rushed forward, disappearing into the crowd.

โ€œTonight is about celebration,โ€ Kieran told us. โ€œYou donโ€™t have to worry about anyone bowing or beating their fists off the sand tonight.โ€

A tiny grin appeared. โ€œWas my awkwardness the last time really that noticeable?โ€

โ€œYes,โ€ both Casteel and Kieran answered.

โ€œWow,โ€ I said, ducking my chin against Casteelโ€™s arm as I smiled.

But Kieran was right. As he broke away from us, joining several others who stood near a few of the canopied tents, only waves and smiles greeted us. Taking my sandals from me, Casteel dropped them onto the sand and then unstrapped his swords, lying them on a blanketโ€”a sign that he felt it was safe to do so here. Sitting, he pulled me down so I was nestled between his legs, facing the bonfire.

Iโ€™d completely lost sight of Delano as I relaxed in Casteelโ€™s embrace, but I found Kieran a few moments later, talking with a tall, dark-haired female. That was about all I could see of her from a distance. โ€œWho is Kieran speaking to?โ€ I asked.

Casteel looked over the top of my head. โ€œI think her name is Lyra. If thatโ€™s who I think it is. Sheโ€™s a bit younger than Kieran and me, but her family is close to his.โ€

โ€œOh,โ€ I whispered, watching them and thinking of what Kieran had once said about loving and losing someone. Heโ€™d never expounded on that, but what Iโ€™d felt from him when he spoke was the kind of anguish one felt when the person they loved was no longer in the realm of the living. It made me happy to see him with someone, even if they were just talking and laughing. Not that I would share that with him. Heโ€™d probably consider it a question.

โ€œYou know how you said it was weird to be a Queen to the wolven but not be a wolven?โ€ Cas said after a few moments. โ€œIt made me think of how when I met you, I was looking for the Maiden, but I found a Princess, a Queenโ€”my wife.โ€ He laughed, and it sounded as if it were one of awe. โ€œI donโ€™t know. It just made me think about how you find things you never knew you needed when youโ€™re looking for something completely opposite.โ€ โ€œOr not looking at all,โ€ I said, my nose scrunching. โ€œOr maybe Iย wasย looking. I went to the Red Pearl that night because I wanted to live. And I

found you.โ€

He curled his arms around me, tightening his embrace. A couple of additional moments passed as we watched the wolven around the fire. โ€œWhat would you want to be doing right now if you could be doing anything? Barring seeing your brother or anything that has to do with what we need to do.โ€

My brows rose at the unexpected question. Letting my senses stretch out to him, I felt a boyish sense of curiosity, one that brought a grin to my face. I didnโ€™t even have to think about it. โ€œThis. You?โ€

โ€œIโ€™m being serious,โ€ he said.

โ€œI am, too. I would want to be doing thisโ€”all that weโ€™ve done today,โ€ I said. โ€œYou?โ€

โ€œThe same,โ€ he said quietly, and I knew he spoke the truth. โ€œBut with you naked and more sex.โ€

I laughed loudly at that because I also sensed that to be true. โ€œIโ€™m glad that I chose to spend right now this way.โ€

โ€œMe, too.โ€ He pressed his lips to my cheek.

I really didnโ€™t know when we would have another day like this one, or at what point there would even be time. But I didnโ€™t want to think of the

reasons why it would probably be a while. That wasnโ€™t how I wanted to spend right now, so I watched those dancing around the fire with avid interest, entranced by the joyous frenzy of the dark outlines of their bodies, how they moved from one partner to the next, both male and female, with the kind of reckless abandon Iโ€™d shared with Casteel in the garden. What I felt from them could only be described as a release, as if they danced to toss away the chains of what preyed on their minds and souls, and in so doing, found freedom.

A body peeled away from the fire and moved toward us. Sweat glistened off Delanoโ€™s bare shoulders as he bowed at the waist. Pale hair tumbled across his forehead as he extended an arm. โ€œWould you like to dance?โ€

I started to take his hand, but uncertainty filled me. Was it appropriate for me to do so?

Casteel dipped his cheek to mine. โ€œYou can dance with him.โ€ His arm loosened around my waist. โ€œYou can do whatever you want.โ€

Do whatever you want.

Four words I hadnโ€™t heard for most of my life. โ€œIโ€ฆI donโ€™t really know how to dance.โ€

โ€œNo one does,โ€ Delano said, grinning. โ€œUntil they do.โ€ He wiggled his fingers. โ€œWhat do you say, Penellaphe?โ€

Excitement bubbled up in me as my gaze darted over his shoulder to the figures moving around the bonfire.ย Do whatever you want. The breath that left me was heady. Twisting, I curled my fingers around Casteelโ€™s chin and pulled his mouth to mine. I kissed him quickly. โ€œI love you, Cas.โ€

His arm tightened briefly around me. โ€œHave fun.โ€

Turning back to Delano, I placed my hand in his. โ€œPoppy,โ€ I told him. โ€œCall me Poppy.โ€

Smiling, Delano pulled me to my feet. โ€œThen letโ€™s dance, Poppy.โ€

Stomach skipping, I followed him toward the rippling flames. Delano turned to me as the warmth of the fire pressed against my skin.

โ€œI really donโ€™t know how to dance,โ€ I told him apologetically.

โ€œLook around us.โ€ Keeping his fingers wrapped around mine, he picked up my hand and placed it on his hip before resting his on my waist. โ€œDo they look like they know how to dance? Or do they look like theyโ€™re having fun?โ€

Glancing around, I saw nothing like what I saw when Iโ€™d snuck through the back halls to spy on the balls held in the Great Hall of Castle Teerman. There were no rigid movements, nor was everyone paired with someone. A girl with long, blonde hair danced alone, her arms stretched above her head as her hips moved with the tempo. A brown-skinned man also danced alone, his body moving with fluid grace. Couples spun around each other, and others danced so close to one another it was difficult to tell where one body ended and the other began. I spied Kieran with the dark- haired female. With her golden-brown arms twined around his neck, they were one of the couples who danced so close that tongues wouldโ€™ve been wagging in Masadonia. Kieran lifted the female, spinning her as she threw her head back and laughed.

โ€œWhat do you see?โ€ Delano prodded.

Dragging my gaze from them, I looked up at him. โ€œTheyโ€™re having fun.โ€

He smiled. โ€œYou can do that, right?โ€

I peeked over to where Casteel sat on the plush blanket, one arm resting on a bent knee as he watched us. A tiny part of me wasnโ€™t sure I knew how to have fun, but Iโ€ฆIโ€™d had fun today. Iโ€™d had fun when Tawny and I had snuck out together to visit the lake. I hadnโ€™t been thinking about having fun those times. I was justโ€ฆliving. And that was the key, wasnโ€™t it? To not overthink and to just live.

I looked up at Delano. โ€œI can.โ€

โ€œI know.โ€ His smile widened, and then he started to move, taking small, swaying steps to our left and then the right. I followed him.

His steps were far surer, while mine were rigid, and I was sure I looked foolish, my arms stiff and cockeyed as I clutched his hand. Others moved faster around us, but as we continued dancing in our little circle, I realized that each of his steps was in tune with the steady beat of the drum. My muscles loosened, as did my grip on his hand. Delano stepped back, lifting our connected arms. The skirt of my gown billowed around my legs as he spun me. The hum in my chest sparked as my hair lifted from my shoulders when he turned me again. A quiet laugh escaped me, and then a louder one as he raised our arms once more and spun himself. His hand came back to my waist, and we moved faster in our little circle, swirling around the fire.

The hum in my chest found my blood as the hem of my gown twirled around my ankles. A new hand closed around mine as Delano let go.

Whirling, I found myself held by Kieran.

I grinned up at him. โ€œHi.โ€

His lips curved up. โ€œHello, Poppy.โ€ He stepped back, spinning me. I stumbled, laughing as he caught me. โ€œYou surprise me.โ€

โ€œWhy?โ€ I asked as we moved around the flames.

โ€œI didnโ€™t think youโ€™d dance,โ€ he said, pulling me to his damp chest. โ€œYou honor us by doing so.โ€

Before I could even begin to question why that would be an honor, Kieran spun me out, and another hand folded around mine. I turned to find that it was Lyra who now danced with me. We were nearly as close as she and Kieran had been, her legging-clad thighs brushing mine with every sway of her hips. Taking hold of my other hand, we moved together around the fire. Strands of hair stuck to my neck and temples as we weaved in and out of those flowing with the beat around the fire, each spinning into different partners. On and on, I danced, both with people I didnโ€™t recognize and those I knew, and all the while, that buzz in my chest and my blood vibrated in my skin. My head tipped back, my face exposed to the flames and moonlight as I was whirled into Delanoโ€™s arms and then into Kieranโ€™s, who lifted my feet from the sand. Grasping his shoulders, I laughed as he turned us around and around.

โ€œSomeone is jealous,โ€ he said when my feet touched the sand once more. We spunโ€”

Kieranโ€™s chuckle tickled my cheek as Casteel snagged me by the waist.

I all but fell into him as he said, โ€œI am definitely getting jealous.โ€

โ€œNo, youโ€™re not.โ€ All I felt from him was smoky spice. โ€œYouโ€™reโ€ฆโ€

โ€œWhat?โ€ he asked as he led me away from the fire, the dancers, and back into the moonlight-flecked shadows.

Breathless, I followed on tingling feet. โ€œYouโ€™re turned on.โ€

He dipped his head, pressing his forehead to mine. โ€œWhen am Iย not

turned on around you?โ€

I laughed softly. โ€œGood question.โ€

โ€œAdmittedly, I am more turned on than usual.โ€ He drew me down onto the thick blanket, pulling my back to his chest. โ€œItโ€™s your fault, though.โ€

โ€œHow is it my fault?โ€ I wiggled back, grinning as I heard him groan. โ€œItโ€™s your laugh.โ€ His lips brushed the damp skin of my neck. โ€œIโ€™ll

never get used to hearing it or thinking you do it enough.โ€ His chest rose sharply against my back, and I sensed something raw and sharp from deep

within him. โ€œAfter everything that happened with Shea and my brother, I honest to gods never thought a laugh could wreck me like yours does. And when I say it wrecks me, I mean in the best wayโ€”in the most complete way. And Iโ€ฆโ€ A shaky breath left him. โ€œI just want to thank you for that.โ€

โ€œYouโ€™re thanking me?โ€ I twisted as far as I could in his embrace, searching for his gaze and finding it. โ€œI should be thanking you. It is you who made it possible for me to laugh without recourse.โ€

He dropped his forehead to my temple. โ€œYeah?โ€

โ€œYes,โ€ I said, curling my hand around the back of his neck. โ€œIโ€™mย livingย because of you, Cas, and I mean that both literally and figuratively. You think youโ€™re not worthy of me? In reality, I sometimes wonder if Iโ€™m not worthy of you.โ€

โ€œPoppyโ€”โ€

โ€œItโ€™s true.โ€ I squeezed the back of his neck. โ€œNothing you say can change that, but I know. I know inย here.โ€ I pressed my palm to my chest. โ€œThat I would do anything for you. I know you would do anything for me. You have, and nothing in this realm or any other will ever change that or how I feel about you. Nothing should ever make you forget that I laugh because of you.โ€

Shuddering, he pressed his lips to my temple and then folded one arm around my waist, resting his hand on my hip, where his fingers traced idle circles. He didnโ€™t say anything as he rested his chin atop my head, and neither did I. Words werenโ€™t always needed, and inherently, I knew this was one of those moments.

We justย wereย as I watched those dancing around the fire break into smaller groups, some drifting out toward where the waves ebbed and flowed over the sand, and others into the canopied tents. I caught sight of Kieran once more. He was with who we thought was Lyra. Or at least I thought so. I honestly couldnโ€™t be sure. His arm was around the womanโ€™s shoulders, his head bent toward hers as they walked into the shadows of the bluffs.

I looked away, watching those who were still at the fire for a couple of minutes before I glanced back toward the bluffs.

My lips parted. I had no idea how Kieran and the female had gotten from where Iโ€™d last seen them to him leaning back in the sand and her kneeling between his legs, her hands in the general vicinity of an area that would definitely be considered naughty.

โ€œAre theyโ€ฆ?โ€ I sucked in a sharp breath as Kieranโ€™s head fell back.

My eyes widened.

Casteelโ€™s chuckle was dark and soft. โ€œDo you still need me to answer that question?โ€

I swallowed. โ€œNo.โ€

The hand at my hip continued moving in small, distracting circles as I watched who I thought might be Lyra move her head back and forth in a way that reminded me of how I moved against Casteel.

โ€œAre you scandalized?โ€ Casteel whispered.

Was I? I wasnโ€™t sure. Maybe I should be because I definitely shouldnโ€™t be watching. Every single social propriety there was, demanded that I look away and pretend that I had no idea what they were doing. But I did know. Iโ€™d read about the act Lyra was engaging in now in Miss Willaโ€™s diary. My heart thumped heavily. It was like when Casteel kissed me between the thighs, except the way Willa had described it, there was less kissing and licking, and moreโ€ฆsucking. That whole act had confused me greatly when I first read about it, but that was before I had learned that there were all kinds of acts one could do with any number of body parts.

โ€œIโ€™ll take your non-answer as a no?โ€ Casteel queried.

Feeling my cheeks warm, I dragged my gaze to the fire where people sat and talked, either unaware of what was happening in the shadows or not caring. โ€œYou did say the wolven were into public displays of affection.โ€

He laughed again. โ€œI did, and they are very open with theirโ€ฆ affections. They feel no shame in doing so. Iโ€™m sure at some point you will definitely see a bare ass or two.โ€

I liked that they felt no shame, possibly never even knowing the sourness of that emotion attached to such actions. There was an enviable freedom in that, to exist and be so free and open.

โ€œIf it makes you uncomfortable, donโ€™t feel embarrassed to say so,โ€ Casteel said quietly. โ€œWe donโ€™t have to stay, and we can leave whenever you want.โ€

His offer tugged on my heart, and I turned my head, kissing the underside of his jaw. โ€œThank you for saying that, but Iโ€™m not uncomfortable.โ€

โ€œOkay,โ€ he said, tilting his head and kissing me.

And I really wasnโ€™t as I leaned into Casteel, resting my head against his chest. If there was no shame in their actions, then there was none in my

heart.

But I really shouldnโ€™t be watching, and that was exactly what I was doing, my gaze finding where Kieran and Lyra had gone with rather unerring accuracy. I saw Lyra place a hand on his chest, pushing him back as he started to sit up orโ€ฆreach for her. She was in control of her actions as Kieran retreated to rest on his elbows, a confidence in her as her head moved, a hand following the movements.

I really should have kept my senses locked down when I focused on Lyra, but I felt that control I had assumed was there, mixed with warm smokiness. The warmth in my cheeks increased, flowing down my neck as I shifted, stretching out my leg. My breath caught as Casteelโ€™s fingers moved a scant couple of inches from my hip to the left, still moving in those maddening, tiny circles.

And I really, really shouldnโ€™t have left my senses open when my gaze flicked to Kieran. The spiciness gathered in the back of my throat and low in my body, the place Casteelโ€™s fingers were so dangerously close to. I closed down my senses before I pried any further, but Iโ€ฆ

โ€œPoppy?โ€

โ€œYes,โ€ I whispered as Lyra seemed to tilt her head, pressing in impossibly close to Kieranโ€™s body.

โ€œAre you watching them?โ€ Casteel asked, his voice full of smoke. A denial rose to the tip of my tongue.

โ€œIf so, you wouldnโ€™t be the only one, nor are they the only ones being watched,โ€ he said, one of his fingers stretching over the thin material of my gown. โ€œThey find no shame in any act of affection, whether they are involved in it, casual observersโ€ฆor more active watchers.โ€

Active watchers?

My gaze wandered across the rippling canopies and the shadowy depths inside, to where a slender arm beckoned to another who had been seated in the sand outside. The man put the bottle of what heโ€™d been drinking down and rose, bending down as he entered the space under the canopy, where the shadowy outlines of bodies moved in unison. He joined them as Casteel shifted behind me again, leaning forward to slip his hand under where the hem of my gown was gathered at my knees. My heart might have stuttered as he trailed those fingers up the length of my bare skin, somehow managing to keep the skirt of the gown in place. The fingers on his right hand continued creeping lower and lower as I saw the man

lower himself behind the one who moved on top. My pulse pounded as Casteelโ€™s fingers hesitated under my gown at the vee of my legs.

A slight tremor of anticipation tinged with uncertainty ran through me, followed by a sharp twist in my very core.

โ€œPoppy, Poppy, Poppy,โ€ Casteel murmured as a finger above the gown reached the sensitive bundle of nerves. โ€œDoes what youโ€™re seeing in that tent answer any questions you might have had about how three lovers can enjoy each other?โ€

Yes? No? I saw the woman who had been riding the man under her still, her back bowing as the man behind her pulled her close to his chest.

โ€œThe newcomer is either moving inside her or against her,โ€ Casteel explained as his finger moved in those damn circles above the gown and along the crease of my thigh and hip. โ€œDid Willaโ€™s journal explain the technicalities of that?โ€

The heat from my skin had entered my veins, stirring up my blood as I nodded. โ€œIt did.โ€ I wet my lips. โ€œIt sounded like it could beโ€ฆpainful.โ€

โ€œIt can be if not done with care,โ€ he said. โ€œAnd it appears that they are taking care.โ€

No one appeared to be in pain, and no one seemed to be paying any attention to where we sat on our blanket. A breathlessness entered me as I slowly inched my thighs apart and asked, โ€œAre they taking part in the Joining?โ€

โ€œI do not know.โ€ The fingers against my bare skin slid toward the elicit ache. A strangled sound left me as he lazily drew a finger through the gathering wetness there. โ€œA Joining is not required for such acts.โ€

โ€œHave youโ€”?โ€ I bit down on my lip as his finger pierced my flesh. My entire body jerked, spasmed, just like the three in the tent. I really needed to stop looking.

And, of course, I found myself looking to where Kieran and Lyra were. They were kissing now, but her arm still moved at his hips in a slow rhythm.

โ€œHave I what?โ€

Pulse thrumming as Casโ€™s finger slowly plunged in and out of me as he continued worrying the sensitive flesh, I gave up on remaining still before I even started to try. I lifted my hips against his hand as I forced my brain to remember how to form words. โ€œHave you ever done that? What theyโ€™re doing under the canopy?โ€

His lips moved down the side of my throat, tugging gently on the column of my neck. โ€œI have.โ€ He nipped my flesh, wringing a gasp from me. โ€œDoes that bother you?โ€

Some of the passion faded enough for me to ask, โ€œWhy would it?โ€

โ€œThe pasts of some haunt the future of others,โ€ he said, his hands stilling.

My brows lowered as my gaze flickered. โ€œYouโ€™re over two hundred years old, Cas. I imagine youโ€™ve done all manner of things.โ€

His fingers moved again. โ€œWith all manner of people?โ€

The way he said that made me giggle. โ€œYes.โ€ Though my smile faded because I wanted to ask if heโ€™d done that with Shea. A moment later, I realized that I could simply ask the question. So, I did.

Casteel kissed my neck. โ€œNo, Poppy. We didnโ€™t.โ€

Surprised, I started to look back at him, but he curled his finger, hitting a spot inside me that caused my legs to stiffen and my toes to curl into the blanket. โ€œW-why not?โ€

โ€œWe were friends, and then we were more,โ€ he said, the tension curling deeper and deeper inside me as my gaze darted across the fire, the canopies, and the shadows. Somehow, my focus ended up on Lyra and Kieran. They were no longer kissing. Lyraโ€™s head was at his waist again, and his hand was balled in her hair, his hips movingโ€” โ€œBut our relationship was never one of raw need. That doesnโ€™t mean I cared any less about her, but it wasnโ€™t like this. There was no constant need to be inside her in every way imaginable, and even ways not yet thought of. I never found myself constantly hungering, and I believe you need that to find yourself exploring those things with someone youโ€™re committed to,โ€ he said, and my breaths became shorter and shallower. โ€œI never had what I have with you with her, Poppy.โ€

I donโ€™t know if it was the things he was doing to my body, what was going on around us or his words, but I teetered on that edge and then tumbled over it, falling and crashing like the waves rolling against the beach. The shattering release left me trembling.

Once my heart slowed enough for the pleasure-induced fog to clear, I turned my head toward him. โ€œDo youโ€ฆdo you want to do that with me?โ€

He kissed me as he eased his hand out from under my gown. โ€œI want to do everything imaginable, and things no one has ever thought of with you,โ€ he said. โ€œBut I onlyย needย you, Poppy. Now. Always.โ€

My heart skipped and then sped up as my chest swelled with so much love I felt as if I could float right to the stars. I twisted in his embrace, clasping his cheeks as I rose onto my knees. โ€œI love you.โ€ I kissed him, hoping that everything I felt for him could be communicated with that kiss, and then decided the kiss wasnโ€™t enough. A tendril of excitement swept through me as I rocked back, grabbing his hands. โ€œI want to go somewhereโ€ฆprivate.โ€

Amber glowed from within hooded, sensual eyes. โ€œWe can go backโ€”โ€ โ€œNo.โ€ I didnโ€™t want to wait. If I did, I would lose my nerve. โ€œIs there

not somewhere private here?โ€

The tips of his fangs became visible as he bit down on his lower lip and looked over his shoulder. โ€œYeah,โ€ he said. โ€œThere is.โ€

Without another word, we rose. Under the moonlight, Casteel led me farther down the beach, to where I hadnโ€™t seen the tree-heavy dunes in the darkness. He guided me around the first outcropping of trees and then stopped. It was so dark that I could barely make out his features as he looked down at me. โ€œYouโ€™re up to something, arenโ€™t you?โ€

โ€œMaybe,โ€ I admitted, grateful for the heavier shadows here as I took hold of the front of his shirt and stretched up, bringing his mouth to mine.

My heart thrummed as our tongues touched and danced, much as I had around the fire. We kissed and kissed, and even though he had to know this wasnโ€™t why Iโ€™d sought privacy, he didnโ€™t rush me. He just followedย myย lead, saying nothing as I pressed tiny kisses to the base of his throat. Sliding his palms up and down my arms, he remained quiet as I drew my hands down his chest. When I reached his stomach, I sank to my knees.

His hands fell away from me, hovering at my sides as I unhooked the flap of his breeches, feeling the rigid thickness there.

The taste of smoky spice consumed my senses as I reached in, wrapping my fingers around his warm, hard skin. He was breathing heavily now, and my heart raced as I eased him out. His skin felt like heated steel encased in silk as I tipped forward, halting when I felt him spasm in my hand.

โ€œPoppy,โ€ he ground out. I lifted my gaze, momentarily stunned by the churning flecks of bright gold in his eyes. A shudder worked its way through him. โ€œYou donโ€™t have to do this.โ€

โ€œI want to,โ€ I told him. โ€œDo you want me to?โ€

โ€œYou can do anything to me, and Iโ€™ll want it.โ€ Another tremor worked its way through him. โ€œThis? My cock in your mouth? Iโ€™d have to be dead and nothing but ash to not want that.โ€

My lips twitched. โ€œThatโ€™sโ€ฆkind of flattering.โ€

He choked out a rough laugh. โ€œYou areโ€”โ€ He groaned as I glided my fingers from his base to his tip.

โ€œAm what?โ€

His fingertips touched my cheek. โ€œEverything.โ€

Smiling, I lowered my head. The salty taste of his skin was a surprise, dancing over my tongue. Tentatively, I moved my hand down his length, exploring as I brought him deeper into my mouth like I had read about in Willaโ€™s diary.

โ€œPoppy,โ€ Casteel groaned, his palm flattening against my cheek.

Sheโ€™d written about other things, stuff that reminded me of what Casteel had done for me, and I wasnโ€™t sure if heโ€™d enjoy that or not. But Iโ€ฆ I wanted to do those things. I drew my tongue over his taut skin, finding a little indentation under the ridge of his head and swirling my tongue over it.

โ€œFuck.โ€ His body jerked. โ€œIโ€ฆI wasnโ€™t expecting that.โ€

Fighting a smile, I did it again, and he swore. โ€œDid you read about that in Miss Willaโ€™s book?โ€

I hummed out an agreement, and the act seemed to vibrate through him. His entire body flexed, and Iย feltย him throb.

โ€œFuck,โ€ he rasped. โ€œI love that godsdamn diary.โ€

A laugh escaped me then, and based on the way his hips jerked, he liked how it felt. There was nothing in Miss Willaโ€™s diary about laughing while doing this, but as I curled my hand around his base, I stopped thinking about that damn journal and just let instinct take over. I flicked my tongue across the head of his cock, marveling at his reactionโ€”at the lazy heat swamping my senses. I liked doing this. Liked knowing he enjoyed it.

His hand slid from my cheek as his fingers threaded through my hair. He cupped the back of my neck, but he didnโ€™t put any pressure there. All he did was move his thumb, gently massaging the muscles. It was aโ€ฆ supportive presence as he continued letting me learn what made his body move in short, shallow thrusts, what caused his breath to catch, and what made the spicy flavor intensify. I realized something. Not only did I like this but I also enjoyed the control, the way I could slow his breathing or

increase the way he throbbed against my tongue just by the pressure of my mouth, or how hard or soft I sucked on his skin.

โ€œPoppy, Iโ€™m notโ€ฆgods, Iโ€™m not going to last much longer.โ€ His grip on my neck tightened as he rocked against my hand, in my mouth. โ€œAnd I donโ€™t know if that diary spoke of what happens.โ€

It had.

And I wanted that. Wanted to feel him finish, to experience that, knowing I had brought him to that point. I drew my hand up the length of him, closing my mouth over his head. He shouted my name, and then his hips stiffened as he pulsed and spasmed against my tongue.

No sooner had I finished, and before I could even feel rather proud of myself, he dropped to his knees before me, clasping my cheeks. Tilting his head to the side, his mouth was suddenly on mine, his tongue against mine. The kiss was as demanding as it was worshipping, all-consuming as it left little room for anything else.

Casteel lifted his head, his eyes locked on mine. โ€œYou,โ€ he said, his voice thick and tone reverent. โ€œAll I ever need is you. Now. Always.โ€

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