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Chapter no 13

The Things We Leave Unfinished

Georgia

Dearest Jameson,

I miss you. I need you. Nothing here is the same without you. Constance thinks we might be able to move the rosebush, but Iโ€™m not sure we should. Why uproot something that is happy right where it is? Unlike me. Iโ€™m wilting here without you. Keeping busy, of course, but youโ€™re never far from my mind. Please stay safe, my love. I cannot breathe in this world without you. Be careful. Before you know it, weโ€™ll be together again.

All my heart,

Scarlett

โ€œWhat do you mean he justย showed up?โ€ Hazelโ€™s eyebrows flew sky-high, her green eyes flaring wide.

โ€œOut of everything I told you happened yesterday,ย thatย is what surprises you?โ€ I looked pointedly over my coffee at her.

โ€œAs much as I love you, Ava rolling out the minute the advance hit is pretty much her MO. Was I hoping sheโ€™d keep her promise and stay? Of course. I was rooting for her to turn over a new leaf, but she might need to turn over a whole tree at this point. I just thought you would have called me whenโ€” Colin, honey, donโ€™t touch that.โ€ She scurried to my breakfast nook where her children sat playing, and she shut the first cabinet door.

โ€œItโ€™s fine,โ€ I assured her. โ€œGran always kept those cabinets full of toys for exactly that.โ€ Most of those toys were older than I was.

โ€œI know, but I donโ€™t want them toโ€”โ€ She caught the look I was leveling on her. โ€œRight. This cabinet is fine, but letโ€™s leave Aunt Georgiaโ€™s other cabinets alone, okay?โ€ She swung open the door and walked back to the

island, taking the stool beside mine. โ€œI swear, I just wanted to stop by and check on you, not ransack your house.โ€

โ€œPlease.โ€ I rolled my eyes. โ€œIโ€™m glad you did. Itโ€™s not like I have a whole lot going on.โ€ A smile tugged at my lips as I leaned back slightly and watched them play.

โ€œSo heโ€™sโ€ฆhere?โ€ Hazel asked, lifting her coffee mug. โ€œHe rented Grantham Cottage.โ€

โ€œHe what?โ€ Her mug clicked against the granite as she set it down, forgetting to drink.

โ€œYou heard me.โ€ I took another fortifying swallow. All the caffeine in the world wouldnโ€™t help me today, but I was willing to give it a try.

โ€œThatโ€™s likeโ€ฆโ€ She leaned in as if someone might hear us. โ€œNext door.โ€ โ€œYes.โ€ I nodded. โ€œI even called the trust attorney last night, who

confirmed that the property manager rented it out as I instructed.โ€ I scrunched my nose. โ€œThen I may have asked if I could revoke the lease, and he told me that not liking Noah wasnโ€™t a legal reason.โ€

Hazel gawked at me.

โ€œWould you please say something?โ€ I asked when the silence became painfully awkward.

โ€œRight. Sorry.โ€ She shook her head and glanced at the kids. โ€œRelax, they arenโ€™t going anywhere.โ€

โ€œYou have no idea how fast they move. I swear I clocked Dani at a three-minute mile yesterday.โ€ She crossed her legs and studied me. โ€œSo, the hottie is next door.โ€

โ€œThe writer isโ€ฆwell, if you can even call the cottage โ€˜next door.โ€™โ€ It was basicallyย onย the propertyโ€”thatโ€™s how close it was, which was one of the reasons Gran had never sold it. She said it was better to pick and choose your neighbors than get saddled with a nosy Nellie.

Hazelโ€™s eyes narrowed.

โ€œIn fact, heโ€™s supposed to be here any minute so we can get down to the super fun business of arguing. He literallyย movedย here so he could argue with me. Who does that?โ€ I took another sip of my coffee.

โ€œSomeone who recognizes you for the stubbornโ€”โ€ โ€œHey now,โ€ I warned.

โ€œYou know itโ€™s true. If anything, he gets points for getting on a plane instead of hitting redial.โ€ She shrugged. โ€œPlus, it makes my earlier suggestion ofย working outย your frustration with himย onย him easier.โ€

Traitor.

โ€œWhose side are you on?โ€

โ€œYours. Always yours. I didnโ€™t even add the man to my hall pass.โ€ โ€œGood. Then he doesnโ€™t get points. There are no points to be had.โ€ I

finished off my coffee and took the mug to the sink. When I turned around, Hazelโ€™s head was tilted as she studied me. โ€œWhat?โ€

โ€œYou like him.โ€ She sipped her coffee.

โ€œIโ€™m s-sorry?โ€ I sputtered, my stomach twisting. โ€œI said what I said.โ€

โ€œTake it back!โ€ I snapped, like we were seven years old again.

โ€œYouโ€™re wearing real clothes. Jeans, a shirt you had to iron, and your hair is down. You like him.โ€ A smile spread across her face.

โ€œIโ€™m starting to regret letting you through the door.โ€ My phone buzzed, and I snatched it from the counter before Hazel could see the screen. It was a text message from Noah.

Noah:ย Headed up. Need anything?

It would have been childish to respond that I needed him to take his gorgeous, insistent ass back to New York. I thought about doing it, anyway.

โ€œI doย notย like him,โ€ I fired back at Hazel, then tapped out a text message.

Georgia:ย Come on in. The door is unlocked.

โ€œAnd heโ€™s on his way,โ€ I added, leaning my hip against the counter. Just because Iโ€™d woken up and feltโ€ฆhuman didnโ€™t mean I liked him. It meant I was preparing for a business meeting. My phone buzzed again.

โ€œKids, we need to pack it up. Aunt Georgia has a friend coming over,โ€ Hazel called over to Oliver and Dani.

Noah:ย You canโ€™t just leave your doors unlocked. Itโ€™s not safe.

I scoffed. Unsafe, my ass.

Georgia:ย Says the man who climbs mountains.

I set my phone on the counter and sighed at my best friend. โ€œI donโ€™t like him,โ€ I repeated.

โ€œAll right,โ€ she said with a soft nod, taking her coffee mug to the sink. โ€œBut you need to know that itโ€™s okay if you do.โ€

I flinched. It wasnโ€™t, though. โ€œGive it back!โ€ Oliver wailed. โ€œItโ€™s mine!โ€ Danielle shrieked.

Both Hazel and I spun, but Danielle raced right past us, Oliver on her heels.

โ€œFor fuckโ€™s sake,โ€ Hazel muttered to the heavens, already moving.

โ€œYou cannot leave your doorโ€”oomph!โ€ Noahโ€™s voice bellowed from the entry.

Before we could make it out of the kitchen, Noah was already rounding the corner, a giggling kid under each arm. I didnโ€™t notice the sheer size of those biceps. Nope. I didnโ€™t. I also didnโ€™t pay attention to the curve of his mouth or the straight-up sex appeal in his smile. It was inhuman to look that good this early in the morning.

โ€œSee what happens when you leave your door unlocked?โ€ he asked, bouncing the kids slightly. โ€œAll sorts of wild creatures get in.โ€

Dani roared, which only made Noah smile wider.

No. No. No. No melting, no sighing, nothing. Nada.

โ€œHey, youโ€™re not supposed to be nice to strangers,โ€ I groaned. โ€œIsnโ€™t he your friend, Aunt Georgia?โ€ Oliver argued.

Lord save me from small towns. The kids hadnโ€™t ever met a stranger. โ€œYeah, Aunt Georgia, are you saying weโ€™re not friends?โ€ Noah

challenged with mockingly wide eyes. I rolled mine as he set the kids on their feet and offered his hand out to Hazel. โ€œHi. Noah Morelli. Iโ€™m guessing the cute kids are yours.โ€ He laid the charm on thick, and it worked, given Hazelโ€™s grin.

He gave her his real name.

โ€œHi, Noah. Iโ€™m Hazel, Georgiaโ€™s best friend.โ€ She shook his hand and let go. โ€œYouโ€™re good with kids.โ€ Her eyebrows lifted.

โ€œOnly thanks to my sister. Best friend, huh?โ€ He shot me a devious smile. โ€œThe one with the articles?โ€

Kill me right now.

โ€œGuilty.โ€ Her grin only widened.

โ€œSo, can you give me tips on getting a word in edgewise with that one?โ€ He motioned toward me.

โ€œOh sure! You just have to let herโ€”โ€ She caught my glare and straightened her spine. โ€œSorry, no-points Noah, Iโ€™m team Georgia. Kids, we have to go right now.โ€ย Sorry, she mouthed at me as she hurried to the kids in the breakfast room.

โ€œDonโ€™t worry about the mess,โ€ I said over my shoulder. She had enough on her plate without picking up my house. It wasnโ€™t like I had much else to do today, and she needed the break. โ€œBesides, donโ€™t you have to open the center?โ€

โ€œI hate toโ€” Oh my God, Iโ€™m going to be so late!โ€ She scooped a kid into each arm, then nearly skidded by, stopping to kiss my cheek. โ€œThanks for the coffee.โ€

โ€œHave a good day at work, dear,โ€ I sang, dropping a banana in her oversize purse.

โ€œIt was nice to meet you, Noah!โ€ she yelled back as she raced out the door.

โ€œYou too!โ€

The door shut with an audibleย wham.

โ€œA banana?โ€ he asked, lifting his eyebrows.

โ€œShe always remembers to feed her kids breakfast, but she gets too busy to eat for herself,โ€ I answered with a shrug as my phone buzzed.

Hazel:ย He gets about a dozen points for that maneuver with the kids.

โ€œTraitor,โ€ I muttered, sticking my phone in my back pocket without responding.

โ€œSo,โ€ Noah said, tucking his hands into his front pockets.

โ€œSo,โ€ I responded. โ€œIโ€™ve never scheduled a fight before.โ€ The air between us could have crackled with all the anticipatory electricity flying about.

โ€œIs that what youโ€™d call this?โ€ He smirked.

โ€œWhat wouldย youย call it?โ€ I put the coffee mugs in the dishwasher.

He gave it a momentโ€™s thought. โ€œA premeditated walk for the purpose of discovering a mutually beneficial path so we might navigate our personal and professional differences to attain a singular goal,โ€ he mused. โ€œIf I had to call it something off the cuff.โ€

โ€œWriters,โ€ I muttered. โ€œThen letโ€™sย walkย ourselves back to the office.โ€

His eyes flared with delight. โ€œI have a better idea. Letโ€™s walk along the creek.โ€

I arched an eyebrow at him.

He put his hands up. โ€œNo climbing. Iโ€™m talking about the creek in your backyardโ€”the one in the letters, right? I think better on my feet. Plus it takes breakable objects out of the equation if you want to throw something at me.โ€

I rolled my eyes. โ€œFine. Iโ€™ll get my shoes.โ€

By the time I got back to the kitchen, now wearing hiking boots and a much more sensible T-shirt, heโ€™d cleaned up the mess Hazelโ€™s kids had left, and even I had to reluctantly admit he was scoring points.

Broody writer? Check. Hot as hell? Check.

Good with kids? Double check.

My chest went all tight on me. This wasย soย not good.

โ€œYou didnโ€™t have to, but thank you,โ€ I told him as we headed out the kitchen door and onto the patio.

โ€œI didnโ€™t mindโ€”whoa.โ€ He came up short, staring at the expanse of garden that Gran had loved.

โ€œItโ€™s an English-style garden, naturally,โ€ I explained as we started down the path between the trimmed hedges. Fall had set in, bringing out the

oranges and golds everywhere but the greenhouse.

โ€œNaturally,โ€ he said, taking it all in, his attention darting to one plant, then another.

โ€œAre you memorizing it?โ€ I asked. โ€œWhat do you mean?โ€

โ€œGran used to tell me that she was memorizing a place. The way it looked and smelled, the sounds she heard, the smaller details she could drop into a story that would make the reader feel like they were there. Is that what you do?โ€

โ€œI never thought about it that way, but yeah.โ€ He nodded. โ€œThis is beautiful.โ€

โ€œThank you. She loved it, even when she was complaining that she couldnโ€™t get some of her favorite plants to live at altitude.โ€ We reached the back gate, where an evergreen hedge separated us from the Colorado wilderness. I turned the wrought iron handle and walked us through. โ€œShe said it made her feel closer to her sister.โ€

โ€œConstance taught her, right?โ€

โ€œYep.โ€ It was weird, but comforting that someone else had read Granโ€™s manuscript, knew that part of her life as intimately as I did.

โ€œWell, damn. This is beautiful, too,โ€ he said toward the aspens ahead of

us.

โ€œItโ€™s home.โ€ I took a deep breath, feeling my soul settle the way it

always did at this particular view. We were nestled in a valley of the Elks, which rose up high before us, their crowns already tipped with the first snow.

The meadow behind Granโ€™s house was colored in shades of burnished gold, both from the knee-high grass that had surrendered to the cycle of fall and the leaves of the aspen trees that flanked both sides.

โ€œThis is my favorite time of year. Not that I donโ€™t miss fall in New York, because I do. But here thereโ€™s no riot of color. No war between the trees as to whose leaves will be the brightest. Here, the mountains turn gold, as if they all agreed. Itโ€™s peaceful.โ€ I walked us along the path that had been

worn into the meadow long before I was born.

โ€œI can see why youโ€™d want to come back,โ€ Noah admitted. โ€œIโ€™m a sucker for autumn in New York, though.โ€

โ€œAnd yet, here you are, living just down the road.โ€ We reached the creek that ran through Granโ€™s propertyโ€”my property now. It wasnโ€™t much by East Coast standards. Maybe ten feet wide and two feet deep at the most, but water was different in the Rockies. It didnโ€™t flow steadily, and it wasnโ€™t smooth or predictable. Here, it could slow to a trickle, and when you least expected it, send a wall of water in a flash flood that would destroy everything in its path. It was like everything else in the mountainsโ€” dangerously beautiful.

โ€œI did what I had to.โ€ He shrugged, and we turned to walk along the creek. โ€œDo you miss New York?โ€

โ€œNo.โ€

โ€œQuick answer.โ€

โ€œEasy question.โ€ I tucked my thumbs into my back pockets. โ€œI guess this is when we start the book fight?โ€

โ€œIโ€™m not the one saying it has to be a fight. Letโ€™s start out easy. Ask me a personal question. Anything you want.โ€ He pushed up his sleeves as we walked, revealing a line of ink down one forearm that looked like the tip of a sword. โ€œIโ€™ll answer one if you do.โ€

That seemed easy enough. โ€œAnything?โ€

โ€œAnything.โ€

โ€œWhatโ€™s the story behind that tattoo?โ€ I motioned toward his forearm.

He followed my line of sight. โ€œAh, that one was actually my first.โ€ He pushed up his sleeve as far as the material would let him go, revealing the blade of a sword that served as the needle for a compass. Iโ€™d seen enough pictures to know it covered his shoulder, though I could only see the base of it right now. โ€œI got it the week beforeย Avalon Waningย published. I wove a King Arthur parable into this guyโ€™s search forโ€”โ€

โ€œHis lost love. Iโ€™ve read it.โ€ I nearly tripped as he gave me a slow smile,

and I jerked my gaze back to the path. โ€œDo you have tattoos for all your books?โ€

โ€œOne, thatโ€™sย twoย questions, and yes, but the other ones are smaller.

Whenย Avalonย published, I thought it might be my only book. My turn.โ€ โ€œItโ€™s only fair.โ€ย Here comes the question about the last affairโ€ฆย โ€œWhy did you quit sculpting?โ€

What?ย My pace slowed, but he matched it. โ€œDamian asked me to put it on pause and help him get Ellsworth Productions off the ground, which made sense. We were newlyweds and I thought I was helping to build our future. It was still art, justย hisย form of art, right?โ€ I shrugged at the naive thoughts of a twenty-two-year-old girl. โ€œAnd then pause became more of a stop, and that part of me justโ€ฆโ€ The right words had always failed me in this topic. โ€œโ€ฆdimmed. It went out like a fire Iโ€™d forgotten to tend. The flames dwindled so slowly that I didnโ€™t notice until they were nothing but embers, and by that time it was the rest of my life that had gone up in flames. Thereโ€™s not a lot of room for creativity when youโ€™re focused on breathing.โ€ I could feel his stare, but I couldnโ€™t meet it. Instead, I sucked in a breath and forced a smile. โ€œI think itโ€™s coming back, though. Little by little.โ€ I thought about Mr. Navarroโ€™s shop, then the cost of actually doing something about it. โ€œAnyway, thatโ€™s one question, and I owe you another, so ask away.โ€

โ€œWhy donโ€™t you trust me with the story?โ€

My spine straightened. โ€œI donโ€™t trust anyone with it, and neither did Gran. Itโ€™s not easy, knowing someone is about to fictionalize what actually happened to your family. Itโ€™s not just some story to me.โ€

โ€œThen why sell it at all? Just to make your mother happy?โ€ His dark brows lowered. โ€œIs that really the only reason you agreed?โ€

Was it? I watched the creek rush past, giving his question some thought. He earned another point by not prodding for an answer. โ€œIt was fifty-fifty,โ€ I finally said. โ€œI wanted to make my mother happy. I wanted to be able to give her something she wanted, sinceโ€ฆit doesnโ€™t happen often.โ€

He shot me a quizzical look.

โ€œWe have a complicated relationship. Letโ€™s just say that while you eat with your family once a month, Mom and I have dinner maybe once aย year.โ€ That was putting it lightly, but this wasnโ€™t a therapy session. โ€œThe other part of me watched Gran work on that book off and on up to the winter I got married.โ€

โ€œDid she stop then?โ€

โ€œIโ€™m not sure, since I moved to New York, but I came home every couple of months, and I never caught her working on it again.โ€ I shook my head. โ€œWilliamโ€”my grandfatherโ€”was the only person she ever let read it, and that was back in the sixties before she wrote the last few chapters. After he diedโ€”car accident,โ€ I said in quick explanation, โ€œshe didnโ€™t touch it for a decade. But it was important to her, so eventually she took it out again. She wanted to get it right.โ€

โ€œLet me get it right.โ€ His voice lowered as we neared the bend in the creek.

โ€œI hoped you would, but then you started spewing all the happily-ever- afterโ€”โ€

โ€œBecause thatโ€™s her brand!โ€ His posture stiffened beside me. โ€œAuthors have a contract with their readers once they get to the point your gran was at. She wrote seventy-three novels that gave her readers that joyful payoff of a happy ending. You honestly think she was going to flip the script for this one?โ€

โ€œYes.โ€ I nodded emphatically. โ€œI think the truth of what happened was too painful for her to write, and the fantasy you want to create was even more so, because it only reminded her of what she couldnโ€™t have. Even the years she spent married to Grandpa Brian werenโ€™tโ€ฆwell, youโ€™ve read what she had with Grandpa Jameson. It was rare. So rare that it comes around maybe what? Once a generation?โ€

โ€œMaybe,โ€ he admitted softly. โ€œThatโ€™s the kind of love that stories are written about, Georgia. The kind that makes people believe it has to be out there for them, too.โ€

โ€œThen you ask Grandpa Jameson how it ends. She said only he would

know, and heโ€™s kind of hard to get ahold of.โ€ I looked back toward the path. The creek began its gentle curve, following the geography of my backyard. โ€œHave you thought about where it would be shelved?โ€ I asked, trying a different avenue to bring him to my point of view.

His eyebrows lifted. โ€œWhat do you mean?โ€

โ€œIs it going under your name or hers?โ€ I stopped walking, and he turned to face me. The sunlight caught in his hair, making it shine in places.

โ€œBoth, like you said. Do you want to know the marketing budget, too?โ€ he teased.

I shot him a glare. โ€œAre you really willing to forsake general fiction and be shelved in theโ€”gaspโ€”romance section? Because the guy I met in the bookstore last month definitely wasnโ€™t.โ€

He blinked, drawing back slightly.

โ€œHmm. Hadnโ€™t made it past the new release table in your mind, had you?โ€

โ€œDoes it matter?โ€ he countered, rubbing his hands down his stubble in obvious frustration.

โ€œYes. What Iโ€™m asking you to do keeps you in the section that isnโ€™t for

โ€”โ€ I cocked my head to the side. โ€œWhat was it you said again? Sex and unrealistic expectations?โ€

A muttered curse slipped from his lips. โ€œIโ€™m never going to live that down, am I?โ€ He turned away, looking into the trees, then muttered something that sounded likeย unsatisfying.

โ€œNope. Want to keep telling me all about that romance ending? Because thatโ€™s where theyโ€™ll shelve you if you write it. Her name overpowers yours. You might be hot shit, but youโ€™re no Scarlett Stanton.โ€

โ€œI donโ€™t give a shit where the book gets shelved.โ€ Our eyes locked for a tense moment.

โ€œI donโ€™t believe you.โ€

He lowered his head. โ€œYou donโ€™t know me.โ€

My cheeks heated, my heart rate spiked, and more than anything, I wanted to have this argument over the phone so I could end it and stomp

out the infuriating flickers of emotion Noah never failed to ignite within me.

I liked it numb. Numb was safe.

Noah was a lot of things, but safe wasnโ€™t one of them. I ripped my eyes away from his.

โ€œWhat is that?โ€ He leaned slightly, his eyes narrowing.

I followed his line of sight. โ€œThe gazebo.โ€ The breeze whipped by, and I tucked my hair behind my ears as I marched past Noah, heading into the aspen grove. Space. I needed space.

The crunching footsteps behind me implied that he followed, so I kept going. About fifty feet in, dead center in the grove, was a gazebo fashioned entirely from the trunks of aspen trees. I walked up the steps, trailing my fingers lovingly over the railings, which had been sanded smooth and replaced over the years, just like the floor and roof. But the supports were the originals.

Noah came up beside me, turning slowly so he could see all of the space. It was roughly the size of our dining room but shaped in a circle. I watched him carefully, preparing myself for what would no doubt be a judgment of the rustic little space Iโ€™d favored as a kid.

โ€œThis is phenomenal.โ€ His voice dropped as he walked to one of the railings and looked over the edge. โ€œHow long has it been here?โ€

โ€œGran built it in the forties with Grandpa Jamesonโ€™s dad and uncle. They finished it before VE day.โ€ I leaned back against one of the trunks. โ€œEvery summer Gran would have a desk brought out so she could write here, and Iโ€™d play while she worked.โ€ I smiled at the memory.

When he turned toward me, his expression had softened, sadness filling his eyes. โ€œThis is where she waited for him.โ€

I wrapped my arms around my middle and nodded. โ€œI used to think their love was built into it. Thatโ€™s why she always had it repaired, never rebuilt.โ€

โ€œYou donโ€™t anymore?โ€ He moved close enough to my side that I felt the heat of him against my shoulder.

โ€œNo. I think she built her sorrow, her longing into it. Which makes sense

now that Iโ€™m older. Love doesnโ€™t last, not like this place.โ€ My gaze slid from trunk to trunk to trunk as a million memories played through my mind. โ€œItโ€™s too delicate, too fragile.โ€

โ€œThen itโ€™s infatuation, not love.โ€ His voice lowered, and yet another flicker of emotionโ€”longing this timeโ€”flared into a flame that centered in my chest.

โ€œWhatever it is, it never quite measures up to the ideal, does it? We just pretend it does, lapping up the sand when we come across the mirage. But this place? Itโ€™s sturdy. Solid. The sorrow, the longing, the ache that eats you up after the missed chanceโ€ฆthose make fine supports. Those are the emotions that last the test of time.โ€

I felt his stare again but still couldnโ€™t meet it, not with all the word vomit Iโ€™d just spewed all over him.

โ€œIโ€™m sorry he didnโ€™t love you the way you deserve.โ€

I flinched. โ€œDonโ€™t believe everything you read in the tabloids.โ€

โ€œI donโ€™t read tabloids. I know what wedding vows mean, and Iโ€™ve learned enough about you to know that you took them seriously.โ€

โ€œIt doesnโ€™t matter.โ€ I tucked my hair again before I could stop my hands, his gaze warming my skin like a physical touch.

โ€œDid you know that our brains are biologically programmed to remember painful memories better?โ€ he asked.

I shook my head as a shiver of cold swept over me now that we were shaded. Noah closed the inches between us, giving me his heat. The man was a furnace, if his arm was any indication.

โ€œItโ€™s true,โ€ he continued. โ€œItโ€™s our way of protecting ourselves, to remember something painful so we donโ€™t repeat the same mistake.โ€

โ€œA defense mechanism,โ€ I mused.

โ€œExactly.โ€ He turned his head to look at me. โ€œDoesnโ€™t mean we shouldnโ€™t do whatever it was again. Just means we have to push past the pain our brains wonโ€™t let go of.โ€

โ€œWhat do they say about the definition of insanity?โ€ I asked, tilting my face so I could meet his eyes. โ€œDoing the same thing over and over,

expecting a different outcome?โ€

โ€œItโ€™s never the same. There are a million variations of any situation. No two people are alike. The tiniest change to any encounter could leave us with very different results. I like to think of the possibilities as a tree. Maybe you start with the one pathโ€”โ€ He tapped the nearest trunk. โ€œBut fate throws all the branches out and what seems like a tiny choice, left or right, becomes another and another, until the possibilities of what could have been are endless.โ€

โ€œLike if I hadnโ€™t found out Damian was cheating, Iโ€™d still be with him? Well, maybe if there wasnโ€™t a baby.โ€ My voice dropped off, and I shut that line of thinking down.

โ€œMaybe. But youโ€™re on a different branch now because you did. And maybe that other branch exists in the fictional realm of possibilities, but in this one, youโ€™re here with me.โ€ His gaze dropped to my lips and back. โ€œIโ€™m sorry that he fucked up but not sorry you know about it. You deserve better.โ€

โ€œGran never wanted me to marry him.โ€ I shifted my weight but left us connected. โ€œShe wanted what she had with Grandpa Jameson for me. Not that she didnโ€™t love Grandpa Brian, because she did.โ€

โ€œIt took her forty years to move on. Was she finally happy?โ€

I nodded. โ€œShe really was, from what sheโ€™s said. I never really pushed her to talk about it, though. It always seemed too painful. Damian did once or twice, but he was always a nosy ass. Still, even while she was married to Grandpa Brian, she wrote out here, like she was still waiting for Jameson all those years later.โ€

โ€œShe was the ultimate romantic. Look at this placeโ€ฆโ€ He studied the gazebo. โ€œCanโ€™t you feel them here? Canโ€™t you see them happy in some other fictional realm of possibility? Some other branch where the war doesnโ€™t rip them to shreds?โ€

I swallowed, thinking of Granโ€”not the way I remembered her, but the way she looked in the photograph, wildly, recklessly in love.

โ€œI can,โ€ Noah went on. โ€œI see them cutting a little landing strip into the

meadow so he could fly, and I see them with half a dozen kids. I see the way he looks at her, like sheโ€™s the reason the seasons change and the sun rises until theyโ€™re a hundred and one years old.โ€

That was one year more than Gran had lived, and though I knew it was greedy, I wanted it. Out of every year Iโ€™d been alive, this was the one Iโ€™d needed her the most.

Noah pivoted, consuming the space in front of me, looking at me with such intensity that I had to fight not to look away. He saw too much, made me feel too exposed. But my body certainly didnโ€™t mind how close he was. My heart thundered, my breath hitched, my blood warmed.

โ€œI see them walking hand in hand at sunset to get a few minutes awayโ€” after they put the kids to bed, of course. I see her looking up from her typewriter to watch him walk by, knowing if she gets her work done for the day, heโ€™ll be waiting. I see them laughing, and living, and fightingโ€”always passionate but fair. Theyโ€™re careful with each other because they know what they have, they know how rare it is, how lucky they were to survive it all with that love intact. Theyโ€™re still magnetic, still make love like theyโ€™ll never get enough, still open, bluntly honest, yet tender.โ€ His hand rose to cup my cheek, warm and steady. My breath caught, my pulse leaping at the touch. โ€œGeorgia, canโ€™t you see it? Itโ€™s in every line of this place. This isnโ€™t a mausoleum, itโ€™s a promise, a shrine to that love.โ€

โ€œItโ€™s a beautiful story,โ€ I whispered, wishing that had been their fateโ€ฆor mine.

โ€œThen let them have it.โ€

I sidestepped out of his reach, then walked across the gazebo to get some perspective. He wove his words into a world I wanted to live in, but that was his talent, his job. It wasnโ€™t real.

โ€œIt wasnโ€™t what she wanted, or she would have written it that way, ended it like all her other books,โ€ I said. โ€œYou still think itโ€™s a story, with characters who speak to you and choose their own branches. Itโ€™s not. Itโ€™s the closest she came to an autobiography, and you canโ€™t change the past.โ€ The tightness in my chest transformed to an ache. โ€œWhat you described is why

youโ€™re so good at what you do, but itโ€™s not what she wanted.โ€ I walked to the split in the railing and down the stairs, staring up at the tops of the trees. โ€œWhat she wanted or whatย youย want, Georgia?โ€ he asked from the top of

the steps, frustration cutting lines on his forehead.

My eyes slid shut, and I took a steadying breath, then another before turning back to him. โ€œWhat I want has only ever mattered to one person, and sheโ€™s dead. This is all I can give her, Noah. The gift of honoring what she went throughโ€”what they lost.โ€

โ€œYouโ€™re taking the easy way out, and thatโ€™s not who you are!โ€ โ€œWhat the hell makes you think you know me?โ€ I fired back. โ€œYou sculpted a tree coming straight out of the water!โ€ โ€œAnd?โ€ I folded my arms over my chest.

โ€œWhether itโ€™s conscious or unconscious, there are pieces of me in every story I tell, and I bet itโ€™s the same for you with sculpting. That tree isnโ€™t anchored by earth. It shouldnโ€™t be able to grow, and yet there it is. And donโ€™t think I didnโ€™t notice the lighting. It shined straight through to highlight the roots. Why else would you call itย Indomitable Will?โ€

He remembered the name of the piece? I shook my head. โ€œThis isnโ€™t about me. Itโ€™s about her. About them. Wrapping this up with a bow, whether itโ€™s a tearful reunion at a train station or showing her rushing to his bedside, cheapens what she went through. The book ends here, Noah. Right at this gazebo, with Scarlett waiting for a man who never came back to her. Period.โ€

He looked up to the sky like he was praying for patience, and the fire in his eyes had lowered to a simmer by the time he brought his gaze back to mine. โ€œIf you force this, it will earn inevitably shitty reviews and disappoint her fans who will burn me at the stake for fucking with Scarlett Stantonโ€™s legacy. Thatโ€™s what people will remember, not her love story, not the hundred other books I could write in my lifetime.โ€

I bristled.ย His career.ย Of course. โ€œThen use the opt-out and walk away.โ€ I did exactly that, not bothering to look back as I headed down the path.

Iโ€™d seen enough looks of disappointment in my life without adding his

to the mix.

โ€œThe farthest Iโ€™m walking is back to my place. Iโ€™m here for the next two and a half months, remember?โ€

โ€œGood luck crossing the creek in those shoes!โ€ I called back over my shoulder.

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