Georgia
Dearest Jameson,
I miss you. I need you. Nothing here is the same without you. Constance thinks we might be able to move the rosebush, but Iโm not sure we should. Why uproot something that is happy right where it is? Unlike me. Iโm wilting here without you. Keeping busy, of course, but youโre never far from my mind. Please stay safe, my love. I cannot breathe in this world without you. Be careful. Before you know it, weโll be together again.
All my heart,
Scarlett
โWhat do you mean he justย showed up?โ Hazelโs eyebrows flew sky-high, her green eyes flaring wide.
โOut of everything I told you happened yesterday,ย thatย is what surprises you?โ I looked pointedly over my coffee at her.
โAs much as I love you, Ava rolling out the minute the advance hit is pretty much her MO. Was I hoping sheโd keep her promise and stay? Of course. I was rooting for her to turn over a new leaf, but she might need to turn over a whole tree at this point. I just thought you would have called me whenโ Colin, honey, donโt touch that.โ She scurried to my breakfast nook where her children sat playing, and she shut the first cabinet door.
โItโs fine,โ I assured her. โGran always kept those cabinets full of toys for exactly that.โ Most of those toys were older than I was.
โI know, but I donโt want them toโโ She caught the look I was leveling on her. โRight. This cabinet is fine, but letโs leave Aunt Georgiaโs other cabinets alone, okay?โ She swung open the door and walked back to the
island, taking the stool beside mine. โI swear, I just wanted to stop by and check on you, not ransack your house.โ
โPlease.โ I rolled my eyes. โIโm glad you did. Itโs not like I have a whole lot going on.โ A smile tugged at my lips as I leaned back slightly and watched them play.
โSo heโsโฆhere?โ Hazel asked, lifting her coffee mug. โHe rented Grantham Cottage.โ
โHe what?โ Her mug clicked against the granite as she set it down, forgetting to drink.
โYou heard me.โ I took another fortifying swallow. All the caffeine in the world wouldnโt help me today, but I was willing to give it a try.
โThatโs likeโฆโ She leaned in as if someone might hear us. โNext door.โ โYes.โ I nodded. โI even called the trust attorney last night, who
confirmed that the property manager rented it out as I instructed.โ I scrunched my nose. โThen I may have asked if I could revoke the lease, and he told me that not liking Noah wasnโt a legal reason.โ
Hazel gawked at me.
โWould you please say something?โ I asked when the silence became painfully awkward.
โRight. Sorry.โ She shook her head and glanced at the kids. โRelax, they arenโt going anywhere.โ
โYou have no idea how fast they move. I swear I clocked Dani at a three-minute mile yesterday.โ She crossed her legs and studied me. โSo, the hottie is next door.โ
โThe writer isโฆwell, if you can even call the cottage โnext door.โโ It was basicallyย onย the propertyโthatโs how close it was, which was one of the reasons Gran had never sold it. She said it was better to pick and choose your neighbors than get saddled with a nosy Nellie.
Hazelโs eyes narrowed.
โIn fact, heโs supposed to be here any minute so we can get down to the super fun business of arguing. He literallyย movedย here so he could argue with me. Who does that?โ I took another sip of my coffee.
โSomeone who recognizes you for the stubbornโโ โHey now,โ I warned.
โYou know itโs true. If anything, he gets points for getting on a plane instead of hitting redial.โ She shrugged. โPlus, it makes my earlier suggestion ofย working outย your frustration with himย onย him easier.โ
Traitor.
โWhose side are you on?โ
โYours. Always yours. I didnโt even add the man to my hall pass.โ โGood. Then he doesnโt get points. There are no points to be had.โ I
finished off my coffee and took the mug to the sink. When I turned around, Hazelโs head was tilted as she studied me. โWhat?โ
โYou like him.โ She sipped her coffee.
โIโm s-sorry?โ I sputtered, my stomach twisting. โI said what I said.โ
โTake it back!โ I snapped, like we were seven years old again.
โYouโre wearing real clothes. Jeans, a shirt you had to iron, and your hair is down. You like him.โ A smile spread across her face.
โIโm starting to regret letting you through the door.โ My phone buzzed, and I snatched it from the counter before Hazel could see the screen. It was a text message from Noah.
Noah:ย Headed up. Need anything?
It would have been childish to respond that I needed him to take his gorgeous, insistent ass back to New York. I thought about doing it, anyway.
โI doย notย like him,โ I fired back at Hazel, then tapped out a text message.
Georgia:ย Come on in. The door is unlocked.
โAnd heโs on his way,โ I added, leaning my hip against the counter. Just because Iโd woken up and feltโฆhuman didnโt mean I liked him. It meant I was preparing for a business meeting. My phone buzzed again.
โKids, we need to pack it up. Aunt Georgia has a friend coming over,โ Hazel called over to Oliver and Dani.
Noah:ย You canโt just leave your doors unlocked. Itโs not safe.
I scoffed. Unsafe, my ass.
Georgia:ย Says the man who climbs mountains.
I set my phone on the counter and sighed at my best friend. โI donโt like him,โ I repeated.
โAll right,โ she said with a soft nod, taking her coffee mug to the sink. โBut you need to know that itโs okay if you do.โ
I flinched. It wasnโt, though. โGive it back!โ Oliver wailed. โItโs mine!โ Danielle shrieked.
Both Hazel and I spun, but Danielle raced right past us, Oliver on her heels.
โFor fuckโs sake,โ Hazel muttered to the heavens, already moving.
โYou cannot leave your doorโoomph!โ Noahโs voice bellowed from the entry.
Before we could make it out of the kitchen, Noah was already rounding the corner, a giggling kid under each arm. I didnโt notice the sheer size of those biceps. Nope. I didnโt. I also didnโt pay attention to the curve of his mouth or the straight-up sex appeal in his smile. It was inhuman to look that good this early in the morning.
โSee what happens when you leave your door unlocked?โ he asked, bouncing the kids slightly. โAll sorts of wild creatures get in.โ
Dani roared, which only made Noah smile wider.
No. No. No. No melting, no sighing, nothing. Nada.
โHey, youโre not supposed to be nice to strangers,โ I groaned. โIsnโt he your friend, Aunt Georgia?โ Oliver argued.
Lord save me from small towns. The kids hadnโt ever met a stranger. โYeah, Aunt Georgia, are you saying weโre not friends?โ Noah
challenged with mockingly wide eyes. I rolled mine as he set the kids on their feet and offered his hand out to Hazel. โHi. Noah Morelli. Iโm guessing the cute kids are yours.โ He laid the charm on thick, and it worked, given Hazelโs grin.
He gave her his real name.
โHi, Noah. Iโm Hazel, Georgiaโs best friend.โ She shook his hand and let go. โYouโre good with kids.โ Her eyebrows lifted.
โOnly thanks to my sister. Best friend, huh?โ He shot me a devious smile. โThe one with the articles?โ
Kill me right now.
โGuilty.โ Her grin only widened.
โSo, can you give me tips on getting a word in edgewise with that one?โ He motioned toward me.
โOh sure! You just have to let herโโ She caught my glare and straightened her spine. โSorry, no-points Noah, Iโm team Georgia. Kids, we have to go right now.โย Sorry, she mouthed at me as she hurried to the kids in the breakfast room.
โDonโt worry about the mess,โ I said over my shoulder. She had enough on her plate without picking up my house. It wasnโt like I had much else to do today, and she needed the break. โBesides, donโt you have to open the center?โ
โI hate toโ Oh my God, Iโm going to be so late!โ She scooped a kid into each arm, then nearly skidded by, stopping to kiss my cheek. โThanks for the coffee.โ
โHave a good day at work, dear,โ I sang, dropping a banana in her oversize purse.
โIt was nice to meet you, Noah!โ she yelled back as she raced out the door.
โYou too!โ
The door shut with an audibleย wham.
โA banana?โ he asked, lifting his eyebrows.
โShe always remembers to feed her kids breakfast, but she gets too busy to eat for herself,โ I answered with a shrug as my phone buzzed.
Hazel:ย He gets about a dozen points for that maneuver with the kids.
โTraitor,โ I muttered, sticking my phone in my back pocket without responding.
โSo,โ Noah said, tucking his hands into his front pockets.
โSo,โ I responded. โIโve never scheduled a fight before.โ The air between us could have crackled with all the anticipatory electricity flying about.
โIs that what youโd call this?โ He smirked.
โWhat wouldย youย call it?โ I put the coffee mugs in the dishwasher.
He gave it a momentโs thought. โA premeditated walk for the purpose of discovering a mutually beneficial path so we might navigate our personal and professional differences to attain a singular goal,โ he mused. โIf I had to call it something off the cuff.โ
โWriters,โ I muttered. โThen letโsย walkย ourselves back to the office.โ
His eyes flared with delight. โI have a better idea. Letโs walk along the creek.โ
I arched an eyebrow at him.
He put his hands up. โNo climbing. Iโm talking about the creek in your backyardโthe one in the letters, right? I think better on my feet. Plus it takes breakable objects out of the equation if you want to throw something at me.โ
I rolled my eyes. โFine. Iโll get my shoes.โ
By the time I got back to the kitchen, now wearing hiking boots and a much more sensible T-shirt, heโd cleaned up the mess Hazelโs kids had left, and even I had to reluctantly admit he was scoring points.
Broody writer? Check. Hot as hell? Check.
Good with kids? Double check.
My chest went all tight on me. This wasย soย not good.
โYou didnโt have to, but thank you,โ I told him as we headed out the kitchen door and onto the patio.
โI didnโt mindโwhoa.โ He came up short, staring at the expanse of garden that Gran had loved.
โItโs an English-style garden, naturally,โ I explained as we started down the path between the trimmed hedges. Fall had set in, bringing out the
oranges and golds everywhere but the greenhouse.
โNaturally,โ he said, taking it all in, his attention darting to one plant, then another.
โAre you memorizing it?โ I asked. โWhat do you mean?โ
โGran used to tell me that she was memorizing a place. The way it looked and smelled, the sounds she heard, the smaller details she could drop into a story that would make the reader feel like they were there. Is that what you do?โ
โI never thought about it that way, but yeah.โ He nodded. โThis is beautiful.โ
โThank you. She loved it, even when she was complaining that she couldnโt get some of her favorite plants to live at altitude.โ We reached the back gate, where an evergreen hedge separated us from the Colorado wilderness. I turned the wrought iron handle and walked us through. โShe said it made her feel closer to her sister.โ
โConstance taught her, right?โ
โYep.โ It was weird, but comforting that someone else had read Granโs manuscript, knew that part of her life as intimately as I did.
โWell, damn. This is beautiful, too,โ he said toward the aspens ahead of
us.
โItโs home.โ I took a deep breath, feeling my soul settle the way it
always did at this particular view. We were nestled in a valley of the Elks, which rose up high before us, their crowns already tipped with the first snow.
The meadow behind Granโs house was colored in shades of burnished gold, both from the knee-high grass that had surrendered to the cycle of fall and the leaves of the aspen trees that flanked both sides.
โThis is my favorite time of year. Not that I donโt miss fall in New York, because I do. But here thereโs no riot of color. No war between the trees as to whose leaves will be the brightest. Here, the mountains turn gold, as if they all agreed. Itโs peaceful.โ I walked us along the path that had been
worn into the meadow long before I was born.
โI can see why youโd want to come back,โ Noah admitted. โIโm a sucker for autumn in New York, though.โ
โAnd yet, here you are, living just down the road.โ We reached the creek that ran through Granโs propertyโmy property now. It wasnโt much by East Coast standards. Maybe ten feet wide and two feet deep at the most, but water was different in the Rockies. It didnโt flow steadily, and it wasnโt smooth or predictable. Here, it could slow to a trickle, and when you least expected it, send a wall of water in a flash flood that would destroy everything in its path. It was like everything else in the mountainsโ dangerously beautiful.
โI did what I had to.โ He shrugged, and we turned to walk along the creek. โDo you miss New York?โ
โNo.โ
โQuick answer.โ
โEasy question.โ I tucked my thumbs into my back pockets. โI guess this is when we start the book fight?โ
โIโm not the one saying it has to be a fight. Letโs start out easy. Ask me a personal question. Anything you want.โ He pushed up his sleeves as we walked, revealing a line of ink down one forearm that looked like the tip of a sword. โIโll answer one if you do.โ
That seemed easy enough. โAnything?โ
โAnything.โ
โWhatโs the story behind that tattoo?โ I motioned toward his forearm.
He followed my line of sight. โAh, that one was actually my first.โ He pushed up his sleeve as far as the material would let him go, revealing the blade of a sword that served as the needle for a compass. Iโd seen enough pictures to know it covered his shoulder, though I could only see the base of it right now. โI got it the week beforeย Avalon Waningย published. I wove a King Arthur parable into this guyโs search forโโ
โHis lost love. Iโve read it.โ I nearly tripped as he gave me a slow smile,
and I jerked my gaze back to the path. โDo you have tattoos for all your books?โ
โOne, thatโsย twoย questions, and yes, but the other ones are smaller.
Whenย Avalonย published, I thought it might be my only book. My turn.โ โItโs only fair.โย Here comes the question about the last affairโฆย โWhy did you quit sculpting?โ
What?ย My pace slowed, but he matched it. โDamian asked me to put it on pause and help him get Ellsworth Productions off the ground, which made sense. We were newlyweds and I thought I was helping to build our future. It was still art, justย hisย form of art, right?โ I shrugged at the naive thoughts of a twenty-two-year-old girl. โAnd then pause became more of a stop, and that part of me justโฆโ The right words had always failed me in this topic. โโฆdimmed. It went out like a fire Iโd forgotten to tend. The flames dwindled so slowly that I didnโt notice until they were nothing but embers, and by that time it was the rest of my life that had gone up in flames. Thereโs not a lot of room for creativity when youโre focused on breathing.โ I could feel his stare, but I couldnโt meet it. Instead, I sucked in a breath and forced a smile. โI think itโs coming back, though. Little by little.โ I thought about Mr. Navarroโs shop, then the cost of actually doing something about it. โAnyway, thatโs one question, and I owe you another, so ask away.โ
โWhy donโt you trust me with the story?โ
My spine straightened. โI donโt trust anyone with it, and neither did Gran. Itโs not easy, knowing someone is about to fictionalize what actually happened to your family. Itโs not just some story to me.โ
โThen why sell it at all? Just to make your mother happy?โ His dark brows lowered. โIs that really the only reason you agreed?โ
Was it? I watched the creek rush past, giving his question some thought. He earned another point by not prodding for an answer. โIt was fifty-fifty,โ I finally said. โI wanted to make my mother happy. I wanted to be able to give her something she wanted, sinceโฆit doesnโt happen often.โ
He shot me a quizzical look.
โWe have a complicated relationship. Letโs just say that while you eat with your family once a month, Mom and I have dinner maybe once aย year.โ That was putting it lightly, but this wasnโt a therapy session. โThe other part of me watched Gran work on that book off and on up to the winter I got married.โ
โDid she stop then?โ
โIโm not sure, since I moved to New York, but I came home every couple of months, and I never caught her working on it again.โ I shook my head. โWilliamโmy grandfatherโwas the only person she ever let read it, and that was back in the sixties before she wrote the last few chapters. After he diedโcar accident,โ I said in quick explanation, โshe didnโt touch it for a decade. But it was important to her, so eventually she took it out again. She wanted to get it right.โ
โLet me get it right.โ His voice lowered as we neared the bend in the creek.
โI hoped you would, but then you started spewing all the happily-ever- afterโโ
โBecause thatโs her brand!โ His posture stiffened beside me. โAuthors have a contract with their readers once they get to the point your gran was at. She wrote seventy-three novels that gave her readers that joyful payoff of a happy ending. You honestly think she was going to flip the script for this one?โ
โYes.โ I nodded emphatically. โI think the truth of what happened was too painful for her to write, and the fantasy you want to create was even more so, because it only reminded her of what she couldnโt have. Even the years she spent married to Grandpa Brian werenโtโฆwell, youโve read what she had with Grandpa Jameson. It was rare. So rare that it comes around maybe what? Once a generation?โ
โMaybe,โ he admitted softly. โThatโs the kind of love that stories are written about, Georgia. The kind that makes people believe it has to be out there for them, too.โ
โThen you ask Grandpa Jameson how it ends. She said only he would
know, and heโs kind of hard to get ahold of.โ I looked back toward the path. The creek began its gentle curve, following the geography of my backyard. โHave you thought about where it would be shelved?โ I asked, trying a different avenue to bring him to my point of view.
His eyebrows lifted. โWhat do you mean?โ
โIs it going under your name or hers?โ I stopped walking, and he turned to face me. The sunlight caught in his hair, making it shine in places.
โBoth, like you said. Do you want to know the marketing budget, too?โ he teased.
I shot him a glare. โAre you really willing to forsake general fiction and be shelved in theโgaspโromance section? Because the guy I met in the bookstore last month definitely wasnโt.โ
He blinked, drawing back slightly.
โHmm. Hadnโt made it past the new release table in your mind, had you?โ
โDoes it matter?โ he countered, rubbing his hands down his stubble in obvious frustration.
โYes. What Iโm asking you to do keeps you in the section that isnโt for
โโ I cocked my head to the side. โWhat was it you said again? Sex and unrealistic expectations?โ
A muttered curse slipped from his lips. โIโm never going to live that down, am I?โ He turned away, looking into the trees, then muttered something that sounded likeย unsatisfying.
โNope. Want to keep telling me all about that romance ending? Because thatโs where theyโll shelve you if you write it. Her name overpowers yours. You might be hot shit, but youโre no Scarlett Stanton.โ
โI donโt give a shit where the book gets shelved.โ Our eyes locked for a tense moment.
โI donโt believe you.โ
He lowered his head. โYou donโt know me.โ
My cheeks heated, my heart rate spiked, and more than anything, I wanted to have this argument over the phone so I could end it and stomp
out the infuriating flickers of emotion Noah never failed to ignite within me.
I liked it numb. Numb was safe.
Noah was a lot of things, but safe wasnโt one of them. I ripped my eyes away from his.
โWhat is that?โ He leaned slightly, his eyes narrowing.
I followed his line of sight. โThe gazebo.โ The breeze whipped by, and I tucked my hair behind my ears as I marched past Noah, heading into the aspen grove. Space. I needed space.
The crunching footsteps behind me implied that he followed, so I kept going. About fifty feet in, dead center in the grove, was a gazebo fashioned entirely from the trunks of aspen trees. I walked up the steps, trailing my fingers lovingly over the railings, which had been sanded smooth and replaced over the years, just like the floor and roof. But the supports were the originals.
Noah came up beside me, turning slowly so he could see all of the space. It was roughly the size of our dining room but shaped in a circle. I watched him carefully, preparing myself for what would no doubt be a judgment of the rustic little space Iโd favored as a kid.
โThis is phenomenal.โ His voice dropped as he walked to one of the railings and looked over the edge. โHow long has it been here?โ
โGran built it in the forties with Grandpa Jamesonโs dad and uncle. They finished it before VE day.โ I leaned back against one of the trunks. โEvery summer Gran would have a desk brought out so she could write here, and Iโd play while she worked.โ I smiled at the memory.
When he turned toward me, his expression had softened, sadness filling his eyes. โThis is where she waited for him.โ
I wrapped my arms around my middle and nodded. โI used to think their love was built into it. Thatโs why she always had it repaired, never rebuilt.โ
โYou donโt anymore?โ He moved close enough to my side that I felt the heat of him against my shoulder.
โNo. I think she built her sorrow, her longing into it. Which makes sense
now that Iโm older. Love doesnโt last, not like this place.โ My gaze slid from trunk to trunk to trunk as a million memories played through my mind. โItโs too delicate, too fragile.โ
โThen itโs infatuation, not love.โ His voice lowered, and yet another flicker of emotionโlonging this timeโflared into a flame that centered in my chest.
โWhatever it is, it never quite measures up to the ideal, does it? We just pretend it does, lapping up the sand when we come across the mirage. But this place? Itโs sturdy. Solid. The sorrow, the longing, the ache that eats you up after the missed chanceโฆthose make fine supports. Those are the emotions that last the test of time.โ
I felt his stare again but still couldnโt meet it, not with all the word vomit Iโd just spewed all over him.
โIโm sorry he didnโt love you the way you deserve.โ
I flinched. โDonโt believe everything you read in the tabloids.โ
โI donโt read tabloids. I know what wedding vows mean, and Iโve learned enough about you to know that you took them seriously.โ
โIt doesnโt matter.โ I tucked my hair again before I could stop my hands, his gaze warming my skin like a physical touch.
โDid you know that our brains are biologically programmed to remember painful memories better?โ he asked.
I shook my head as a shiver of cold swept over me now that we were shaded. Noah closed the inches between us, giving me his heat. The man was a furnace, if his arm was any indication.
โItโs true,โ he continued. โItโs our way of protecting ourselves, to remember something painful so we donโt repeat the same mistake.โ
โA defense mechanism,โ I mused.
โExactly.โ He turned his head to look at me. โDoesnโt mean we shouldnโt do whatever it was again. Just means we have to push past the pain our brains wonโt let go of.โ
โWhat do they say about the definition of insanity?โ I asked, tilting my face so I could meet his eyes. โDoing the same thing over and over,
expecting a different outcome?โ
โItโs never the same. There are a million variations of any situation. No two people are alike. The tiniest change to any encounter could leave us with very different results. I like to think of the possibilities as a tree. Maybe you start with the one pathโโ He tapped the nearest trunk. โBut fate throws all the branches out and what seems like a tiny choice, left or right, becomes another and another, until the possibilities of what could have been are endless.โ
โLike if I hadnโt found out Damian was cheating, Iโd still be with him? Well, maybe if there wasnโt a baby.โ My voice dropped off, and I shut that line of thinking down.
โMaybe. But youโre on a different branch now because you did. And maybe that other branch exists in the fictional realm of possibilities, but in this one, youโre here with me.โ His gaze dropped to my lips and back. โIโm sorry that he fucked up but not sorry you know about it. You deserve better.โ
โGran never wanted me to marry him.โ I shifted my weight but left us connected. โShe wanted what she had with Grandpa Jameson for me. Not that she didnโt love Grandpa Brian, because she did.โ
โIt took her forty years to move on. Was she finally happy?โ
I nodded. โShe really was, from what sheโs said. I never really pushed her to talk about it, though. It always seemed too painful. Damian did once or twice, but he was always a nosy ass. Still, even while she was married to Grandpa Brian, she wrote out here, like she was still waiting for Jameson all those years later.โ
โShe was the ultimate romantic. Look at this placeโฆโ He studied the gazebo. โCanโt you feel them here? Canโt you see them happy in some other fictional realm of possibility? Some other branch where the war doesnโt rip them to shreds?โ
I swallowed, thinking of Granโnot the way I remembered her, but the way she looked in the photograph, wildly, recklessly in love.
โI can,โ Noah went on. โI see them cutting a little landing strip into the
meadow so he could fly, and I see them with half a dozen kids. I see the way he looks at her, like sheโs the reason the seasons change and the sun rises until theyโre a hundred and one years old.โ
That was one year more than Gran had lived, and though I knew it was greedy, I wanted it. Out of every year Iโd been alive, this was the one Iโd needed her the most.
Noah pivoted, consuming the space in front of me, looking at me with such intensity that I had to fight not to look away. He saw too much, made me feel too exposed. But my body certainly didnโt mind how close he was. My heart thundered, my breath hitched, my blood warmed.
โI see them walking hand in hand at sunset to get a few minutes awayโ after they put the kids to bed, of course. I see her looking up from her typewriter to watch him walk by, knowing if she gets her work done for the day, heโll be waiting. I see them laughing, and living, and fightingโalways passionate but fair. Theyโre careful with each other because they know what they have, they know how rare it is, how lucky they were to survive it all with that love intact. Theyโre still magnetic, still make love like theyโll never get enough, still open, bluntly honest, yet tender.โ His hand rose to cup my cheek, warm and steady. My breath caught, my pulse leaping at the touch. โGeorgia, canโt you see it? Itโs in every line of this place. This isnโt a mausoleum, itโs a promise, a shrine to that love.โ
โItโs a beautiful story,โ I whispered, wishing that had been their fateโฆor mine.
โThen let them have it.โ
I sidestepped out of his reach, then walked across the gazebo to get some perspective. He wove his words into a world I wanted to live in, but that was his talent, his job. It wasnโt real.
โIt wasnโt what she wanted, or she would have written it that way, ended it like all her other books,โ I said. โYou still think itโs a story, with characters who speak to you and choose their own branches. Itโs not. Itโs the closest she came to an autobiography, and you canโt change the past.โ The tightness in my chest transformed to an ache. โWhat you described is why
youโre so good at what you do, but itโs not what she wanted.โ I walked to the split in the railing and down the stairs, staring up at the tops of the trees. โWhat she wanted or whatย youย want, Georgia?โ he asked from the top of
the steps, frustration cutting lines on his forehead.
My eyes slid shut, and I took a steadying breath, then another before turning back to him. โWhat I want has only ever mattered to one person, and sheโs dead. This is all I can give her, Noah. The gift of honoring what she went throughโwhat they lost.โ
โYouโre taking the easy way out, and thatโs not who you are!โ โWhat the hell makes you think you know me?โ I fired back. โYou sculpted a tree coming straight out of the water!โ โAnd?โ I folded my arms over my chest.
โWhether itโs conscious or unconscious, there are pieces of me in every story I tell, and I bet itโs the same for you with sculpting. That tree isnโt anchored by earth. It shouldnโt be able to grow, and yet there it is. And donโt think I didnโt notice the lighting. It shined straight through to highlight the roots. Why else would you call itย Indomitable Will?โ
He remembered the name of the piece? I shook my head. โThis isnโt about me. Itโs about her. About them. Wrapping this up with a bow, whether itโs a tearful reunion at a train station or showing her rushing to his bedside, cheapens what she went through. The book ends here, Noah. Right at this gazebo, with Scarlett waiting for a man who never came back to her. Period.โ
He looked up to the sky like he was praying for patience, and the fire in his eyes had lowered to a simmer by the time he brought his gaze back to mine. โIf you force this, it will earn inevitably shitty reviews and disappoint her fans who will burn me at the stake for fucking with Scarlett Stantonโs legacy. Thatโs what people will remember, not her love story, not the hundred other books I could write in my lifetime.โ
I bristled.ย His career.ย Of course. โThen use the opt-out and walk away.โ I did exactly that, not bothering to look back as I headed down the path.
Iโd seen enough looks of disappointment in my life without adding his
to the mix.
โThe farthest Iโm walking is back to my place. Iโm here for the next two and a half months, remember?โ
โGood luck crossing the creek in those shoes!โ I called back over my shoulder.