Noah
Scarlett, my Scarlett,
Tonight, I miss you more than my words can possibly convey. I wish I could fly to you, even if just for a few hours. The only thought that keeps me going here is knowing youโll be with me soon. On nights like tonight, I escape by picturing us in the Rockies, at home and at peace. Iโll teach William how to camp and fish. Youโll be able to writeโto do whatever you want. And weโll be happy. So happy. Weโre due a little tranquility, donโt you think? Not that I regret volunteering for this war. After all, it brought me to youโฆ
She slammed the door in my face.
She actually slammed the door in myย face.
I sucked in a deep breath, noting the particular burn in my lungs that always accompanied the high altitude. Of all the outcomes I pictured during the flight, this hadnโt been one of them.
The solution had come to me while Iโd been rereading Scarlettโs and Jamesonโs letters. Heโd been able to break down Scarlettโs walls because heโd beenย there, holding on to that suitcase in Middle Wallop, so Iโd packed mine and gotten on a plane.
I steadied my temper, lifted my hand, and knocked again. To my surprise, she answered.
โAs I was saying, hang up on meโโ My words froze in my throat.
There was something very wrong here. Georgia lookedโฆoff, as though she had just been delivered the kind of news you had to sit down to hear. Not that she wasnโt as beautiful as always, but her skin was bloodless, her
face slack, and her eyesโthose exquisite blue eyesโwere empty. โIs everything okay?โ I asked softly, my chest tightening.
She looked right through me for a second. โWhat do you want, Noah?โ Something was definitely wrong.
โCan I come in? I promise not to talk about the book.โ My chest tightened with an immediate, overwhelming urge to fix whatever had gone wrong.
Georgiaโs brow knit, but she nodded and opened the door for me. โCome on, letโs get you something to drink.โ Did this have to do with
Damian?
She nodded again, then led us down the hall and into an expansive kitchen. It was all I could do to keep my hand off the small of her back or offer her a hug.ย A hug?
Iโd never been this far inside the house before, but the kitchen fit what I had already seen. It was a Tuscan theme, with tawny-colored cabinetry and darker granite countertops. The woodwork was ornate but not overdone. The appliances were professional grade. The only thing that seemed out of place were slightly discolored pieces of artwork pinned to a bulletin board on the wall.
โWhy donโt you sit down,โ I suggested, gesturing to the stools that lined the kitchen island.
โIsnโt that supposed to be my line?โ she asked, averting her gaze.
โLetโs just pretend our roles are fluid for the moment.โ I moved to the stove, noting the teakettle on the back corner burner. To my relief, Georgia sat down, resting her forearms on the granite.
I dropped the keys to my rental car into my right pocket, filled the teakettle with water, and set it back on the stove, igniting the gas burner. Then I began my hunt.
I opened three cabinets before I found the one I was looking for. โDo you have a favorite?โ
Georgia looked past me to the carefully organized tea supply. โEarl Grey,โ she responded.
There was a squeezable honey bear next to the tea, and on instinct, I brought that to the countertop, too.
โYouโre not having any?โ Georgia glanced toward the singular packet of tea.
โIโm more of a hot chocolate kind of guy,โ I admitted. โBut youโre making tea.โ
โYou look like you need it.โ
Two lines appear between her eyes. โBut why would youโฆโ She shook her head.
โWhy would I what?โ I braced my palms on the island across from where she sat.
โNever mind.โ
โWhy would Iย what?โ I asked again. โWhy would I take care of you?โ I guessed.
Her gaze flickered my way.
โBecause, contrary to popular belief, Iโm not that big of an asshole, and you look like your dog just died.โ I tilted my head. โAnd both my mother and sister would kick my ass if I didnโt.โ I shrugged.
Surprise flared in her eyes. โBut theyโd never know.โ
โI try to liveย mostย of my life like my mother will always find out what Iโve done.โ Corner of my mouth tugged upward. โIn reality, she usually does anyway, and the lectures last for hours.ย Hours.ย And as for the other partsโฆwell, sheย neverย needs to know.โ My brow puckered as the overwhelming silence of the house hit me. โWhere is your mother? Usually sheโs the one making sure youโre hydrated.โ
She scoffed. โShe was making sureย youย were hydrated. Sheโs well aware that I can fend for myself.โ She laced her fingers in front of her, and her knuckles turned white. โBesides, sheโs probably halfway to the airport by now.โ
My stomach sank. Given the tone with which sheโd said that, my bets were on Ava being the reason Georgia looked shell-shocked. โWas it a planned trip?โ
Georgia laughed, but there was nothing happy about the sound. โYeah, Iโd say it was plannedย wellย in advance.โ
Before I could question her, the teakettle whistled. I removed it from the burner, only to realize I hadnโt looked for a cup.
โCabinet to the left, second shelf,โ Georgia said. โThanks.โ I grabbed a mug, then set the tea to steep. โI should be the one thanking you.โ
I arched a brow. โFluid roles, remember?โ
She offered me a smile. It was barely there, lasting only a flash of a second, but it was genuine.
โDo you take it with milk, too?โ I asked as I slid the mug and honey across the island to her.
โGod no.โ She tilted the honey bear on its head and squeezed a dollop of the amber liquid into her tea. โGran would tell you thatโs sacrilege.โ
โWould she?โ I asked, hoping she would elaborate.
Georgia nodded and slid off her stool, coming around the island to open the drawer directly behind me. โShe would.โ She took the spoon from the drawer and returned to her seat before stirring her tea. โShe actually preferred sugar, though. The honey was always just for me. It didnโt matter how long Iโd been away; she always kept it for me, kept a place for me.โ A wistful look crossed her face.
โYou must miss her.โ
โEvery day. Do you miss your dad?โ
โAbsolutely. Itโs gotten better with time, but Iโd give anything to have him back.โ Come to think of it, Iโd only ever heard about the Stanton women. โWhat about your dad?โ
โI donโt have one.โ She said it so matter-of-factly that I blinked. โI have one, orย hadย one, of course. Iโm not the product of immaculate conception or anything,โ she said as she took her spoon to the dishwasher and put it in. โIโve just never met him. He and my mom were both in high school when I was born, and she never gave up his name.โ
Another piece of the puzzle that was Georgia Stanton clicked into place.
She never knew her father. Scarlett raised her. So what did that make Ava? โAre you sure you donโt want anything to drink?โ she asked. โIt feels a
little weird not getting you something when you made tea for me.โ She looked at me expectantly.
โNot everything is quid pro quo,โ I said softly.
Her spine straightened, and she turned her back on me, heading for the refrigerator. โIn my experience, itโs always quid pro quo.โ She took a bottle of water from the refrigerator, then shut the door. โIn fact, there are very few people who donโt want something from me.โ She set the bottle of water down on the counter in front of me and returned to her seat. โSo please, drink up. After all, you didnโt fly all the way to Colorado because your Spidey senses told you I needed a cup of tea.โ
You want something, too.
Her eyes said it even if her mouth didnโt, and damn it, she was right. My stomach fell into what felt like a bottomless pit.
I nodded once, and then we both drank.
โWhy are you here? Not that Iโm not thankful for the tea, or the distraction, because I am. I just wasnโt expecting you.โ She leaned forward, warming her hands on the mug.
โI promised I wouldnโt talk about the book.โ Book or not, I was glad to be here, glad to see her in a way that had zero to do with anything professional. The woman had been on my mind in one way or another for the past month.
โYou always keep your promises?โ Her eyes narrowed in speculation.
โI do. Otherwise, I wouldnโt make the promise.โ It had been an expensive lesson.
โEven to the women in your life?โ She tilted her head. โIโve seen quite a few pictures.โ
โChecking up on me?โย Please say yes.ย God knew my browser history was full of Georgia Stanton.
โMy best friend keeps sending me pictures and articles. She thinks I should jump you.โ She shrugged.
She what?ย I squeezed my water bottle so hard, I crushed it. โReally?โ My voice dropped, pushing every single image that sentence brought to mind far out of my head, or at least trying to.
โFunny, right? Especially given the parade of women you keep your
promisesย to.โ She gave me a sugar-sweet smile and batted her lashes.
I laughed, then shook my head. โGeorgia, the only promises I make to women are what time Iโll pick them up and what they can expect while theyโre with me. Days. Nights. Weeks. I find it saves a lot of misunderstandings and a lot of drama if everyone knows what theyโre getting up front, and despite your thoughts on my writing, Iโve never had anย unsatisfiedย complaint.โ I twisted the top back onto my empty water bottle, keeping my thoughtsย farย away from the things I wanted toย promiseย her.
โSo romantic.โ She rolled her eyes, but color flushed her cheeks.
โI never claimed to be, remember?โ I smirked, leaning back against the counter.
โAh yes, the bookstore. Noted. So youโve never broken a promise?โ Her voice pitched in disbelief.
My face fell.
โNot since I was sixteen and I forgot to take my little sister, Adrienne, for ice cream after I said I would.โ I winced, remembering the sound of the beeping hospital monitors. โMy mom took her and got into the accident I told you about.โ
Georgiaโs eyes widened.
โAdrienneโmy sisterโwas fine, but Momโฆwell, there were a lot of surgeries. After that, I made it a point to never commit myself unless I was sure I could follow through.โ Iโd also drafted my very first book the following summer.
โYouโve never missed a deadline?โ
โNope.โ Though that might change if she didnโt start communicating with me about this particular book.
Curiosity sparkled in those crystal blue eyes. I could have written an entire novel dedicated to them. In a way, I guess I already was, given that
she and Scarlett had the same ones.
โNever blown a New Yearโs resolution?โ
I grinned. โI never make them,โ I admitted like it was a dirty little secret.
She tugged her bottom lip between her teeth.
Shit. I wanted to suck it free. The bottle crinkled in my hand. โNever stood a woman up for a date?โ
โI always say that Iโll do my best to make it, and I do. I neverย promiseย a woman Iโll meet her unless Iโm already there.โ Anyone who went out with me knew that if I was sucked into a story, chances were, they were getting a cancellation text. Granted, Iโd send it hours in advance, but the story came first. Always. โIโm not exactly the guy you depend on during a deadline. Unless youโre my publisher.โ
โSo youโre more about the semantics,โ she argued, sipping her tea.
I barely managed to keep from sputtering. โNo, Iโm more about defining expectations and either meeting or exceeding them.โ We locked eyes, and that tangible hit of electricity struck me again.
โUh-huh.โ She clicked her tongue. โDo you still have dinner with your mother?โ
โOnce a week. Unless Iโm on book tour, a research trip, vacation, that kind of thing.โ I gave it some thought. โSometimes she makes me cut it to every other week.โ My lips tugged at the corners.
โSheย makesย youย cut it?โ
โShe does.โ I nodded. โShe would prefer I spend less time at her house and more time finding a wife.โ
Georgia startled, nearly spit out her tea. โA wife.โ She set the mug on the counter. โAnd how is that going?โ
โIโll let you know,โ I managed with a straight face.
โPlease do. Iโd hate not to be in the know when it comes to your love life.โ
I laughed and shook my head again. She was something else.
โGran would have liked you,โ she mused quietly. โShe wasnโt a fan of
your books, thatโs true. But you, she would have liked. You have just the right mix of arrogance and talent that she would have appreciated. Plus, it doesnโt hurt that youโre pretty. She liked pretty men.โ Georgia rubbed at the back of her neck. It was long and graceful, just like the rest of her.
โYou think Iโm pretty.โ I grinned, raising my eyebrows. She rolled her eyes. โOut of all that, you dwell onย pretty.โ
โWell, if youโd said sexy, handsome, well-endowed, or body-like-a-god, I would have dwelled on those, but you didnโt, so Iโm just making do with what content I have.โ I tossed my water bottle in the recycling bin at the end of the island.
Her cheeks turned a deeper shade of pink.
Mission accomplished. Sheโd been so pale there for a while that I was starting to wonder if Iโd get to see that fire again.
โI can hardly testify to those last two.โ She took her mug to the dishwasher.
โGuess your friend didnโt show youย everyย article,โ I teased. I liked that she was neat. Not that I had any business liking anything about her, to include the way her shorts clung to her very nice ass, but there I was, doing it anyway. How had that ass escaped my attention last time I was here? Or those mile-long legs?ย You had other, more important things on your mind.ย โSo the first two are in?โ My eyes trailed down the nape of her neck as she returned to her seat.
โDepends on how much youโre pissing me off at the moment.โ She lifted a shoulder.
โAnd right now?โ
Her gaze swept over me from head to toe and back up again, taking in my cargo shorts and NYU shirt.ย I would have worn the Armani had I known thereโd be a test.
โIโd say youโre a solid seven.โ Again, she pulled it off straight-faced.
Nice.ย I lifted a single brow. โAnd when Iโm pissing you off?โ โYou slide right off the scale into the negatives.โ
I laughed. Damn, how long had it been since a woman had made me
laugh so many times in just a few minutes?
She folded her hands on the island, and her energy shifted. โTell me why youโre really here, Noah.โ
โI promisedโโ
โSo, what? Youโre just going to stand in my kitchen and make me tea?โ Her chin lifted. โI know youโre here about the book.โ
I studied her carefully, taking in the rise of color in her cheeks and the spark in her eyes. She was mostly back to what Iโd considerย normal,ย but in all honesty, I didnโt have a baseline when it came to Georgia Stanton. I was flying blind.
โYou want to get out of here?โ I asked.
โWhat do you have in mind?โ She looked more than skeptical. โHowโs your life insurance?โ
โฆ
โNo,โ she said a half hour later as she stared up at the rock face that stretched a hundred feet above us.
โItโs fun,โ I argued, gesturing to a couple of guys who were all grins as they packed up their equipment. โSee, they think itโs fun.โ
โYou have lost your mind if you think Iโm climbing that.โ She lifted her sunglasses to the top of her head so I could see just how serious she was.
โI didnโt say you had to climb the whole thing,โ I argued. โThereโs a less challenging path right over there.โ That one was only thirty-or-so feet, and my niece could easily do it, not that I was about to sayย thatย to Georgia.
โAre you trying to kill me?โ she whispered as the other climbers walked past on the trail.
โWe have equipment.โ I gave the shoulder strap of my backpack a pat. โI brought an extra harness.โ I eyed her footwear. โYour shoes arenโt exactly what Iโd recommend, but theyโll do until we can get you some good ones.โ
Her eyes narrowed. โWhen you said,ย throw on some active wear and
letโs go for a hike, I assumed, shockingly, that we wereย hiking.โ She gestured to her Lululemon-covered body.
โWe did hike,โ I argued. โIt was half a mile to get up here from the trailhead.โ
โSemantics, again!โ she snapped, putting her hands on her very nice hips.
Stop looking at her fucking hips.
โWhat are you afraid of?โ I turned my Mets cap backward and shoved my glasses to the top of my head.
โFalling off the mountain!โ She pointed to the rock face. โItโs a pretty realistic fear when you think aboutย climbingย it.โ
โThink of it as vertical hiking.โ I shrugged. โUnreal.โ She jabbed her finger in my direction.
โI was only kidding about the life insurance comment. I wonโt let you fall.โย Ever.ย Sheโd already been let down too many times.
She scoffed. โOkay. Right. And how exactly are you going to prevent it?โ She lifted her eyebrows.
โIโll be your belay partner and control the rope in case you fall. See, we put the harness onโโ
โWhy the hell do you evenย haveย an extra harness? Do you just fly around the United States, hoping to pick up women climbers?โ She folded her arms across her chest.
โNo.โ Though I couldnโt help but wonder if that thought was spurring her on or not. Sure, it made me an ass, but the thought of Georgia getting all worked up out of jealousy was pretty fucking hot. โItโsย myย extra harness in caseย mineย breaks. I like to climb, therefore, I bring my equipment when Iโm going somewhere with mountainsโฆyou know, likeย Colorado.โ
โHow did you even know about this place, anyway?โ she asked, still downright hostile.
โI found it the last time I was here.โ She tilted her head.
โDuring the days I was waiting for you to decide if I was good enough
toโโ
โYou promised!โ And the finger was back again.
I pressed my lips in a tight line and breathed in through my nose for a count of three. โGeorgia, Iโm not going to force you up that rock faceโโ
โAs if you could.โ
โโbut I am promising that if you choose to climb, I will not let you fall off the mountain.โ I lowered my face to hers, making sure she knew I was serious.
My best friend thinks I should jump you.ย My brain was pretty much a broken record after hearing that.
โBecause you control gravity?โ She blinked.
I had never met a more frustrating woman in my life. โBecause Iโm going toโโ
She lifted that brow again.
I sighed. โIf youย wantedย to climb, I would go first and hook the rope up.
I scouted it the first time I was here.โ
Her brows lowered. โAnd what would keepย youย from falling off?โ
I swung the backpack from my shoulders and shook it lightly. โIโd clip in. Weโre not talking about Yosemite here. Itโs pretty well-traveled. Then as you climbed, Iโd have you on belay, so if youย didย slip off, youโd just hang there dangling until you found your footing.โ
Her jaw dropped. โYou what?โ
I lifted the backpack slightly. โYou would be attached to one end of the rope, and I would have the other.โ
She drew back.
โYouโd be safe,โ I promised.
She shook her head, her mouth tightening.
A thought dawned on me. โGeorgia, if you donโt want to climb because youโre scared of heights, or you donโt want to scrape up your hands, or you just flat donโt want to, thatโs fine.โ
โI know that.โ Her eyes said sheย hadnโtย known that. What? Like I was going to shove her up the mountain while she begged me not to?
โRight.โ My chest ached. โBut if you donโt want to climb because you think Iโll drop you, then thatโs a whole other matter. I promise you that I will not drop you.โ I kept my voice even and low, hoping sheโd hear the truth in my words. โIโm really good at this.โ
She swallowed, then glanced at the bag. โI barely know you.โ
โSee? More articles your best friend missed out on. You can run a google search on my climbing history if weโve got service up here. Itโs pretty well documented that Iโm an avid climber, and I donโt just mean the easy stuff.โ
Her forehead puckered. โI never said you werenโt.โ
My stomach lurched. โSo itโs not my skill level youโre worried about,โ I said slowly.
She averted her gaze and shifted her weight. โYou could be a serial killer,โ she suggested, sarcasm dripping from her tone as she lifted her hands.
Deflecting. She uses humor to deflect.
โIโm not.โ
โYou kill off a lot of people in your books. Just saying.โ She looked up the rock face, tilting her head back.
โNot through homicide, and now whoโs talking about books?โ A smile tugged at her lips.
โBesides, there are three other climbers right there.โ I pointed to a group midway up the face. โPretty sure theyโd rat me out if I murdered you in broad daylight.โ
She stared at the other climbers silently.
โYouโre not going to climb, are you?โ I asked quietly.
She shook her head, her lips pursing as she watched the other climbers.
Her refusal stung. It shouldnโt have, and I knew it, but it still did. โWant to hike up the rest of the trail?โ
Her head snapped my way in surprise. โYou can climb. Iโm happy to watch.โ
โI didnโt come up here for me.โ Iโd brought her in hopes that the fresh
air would help clear out whatever had taken her down earlier.
She winced. โIโd still hate to make you miss out. Go ahead. Iโm fine.โ She nodded, plastering on a smile so fake, it was almost comical.
โIโd rather hike with you. Come on.โ I nodded back toward the trail and slipped my pack over my shoulders.
โYouโre sure?โ She narrowed her eyes. โAbsolutely.โ
โItโs not you.โ She sucked in a breath, then glanced back up at the rock wall. โThe last man who promised to keep me safe screwed his lead and dropped me on my ass,โ she said softly. โBut Iโm sure you already know that. Everyone knows that.โ
If Iโd been the serial killer sheโd joked about, Damian Ellsworth would have been my first victim.
โAnd after todayโฆโ She shook her head, the edges of her mouth trembling. โToday just isnโt a good day for the whole trust fall thing. So letโs get going.โ She forced another smile, then took off up the trail.
She doesnโt trust you.ย I swore under my breath as I realized that was the same reason she wouldnโt let me finish the book how I wanted.
It all came down to trust.
I steadied myself before striding after her, cursing at the irony. Iโd spent the majority of my life making sure I lived by my word, and now it was being questioned by a woman so jaded even I couldnโt dig out of the hole someone else had dug.
Guess it was good that I was an expert climber.
โSo how long are you here for?โ she asked as we continued the hike. โUntil I finish the book.โ My lungs burned as we pushed up the trail.
โAnd, since my deadline is in two and a half months, Iโd guess Iโll be here about that long.โ
โWhat? Really?โ โReally.โ
Two little lines appeared between her brows. โSo where are you staying?โ
โI rented a little place down the road,โ I replied, a smug smile quirking at my lips.
โOh?โ
โYep. Itโs called Grantham Cottage.โ
She stopped in the middle of the trail, so I turned around and kept walking backward, savoring the surprise and horror on her face. โLike I said, hang up on me now,ย neighbor.โ
The look on her face made the hassle of tracking down a rental entirely worth it.