Naomi
โYou donโt have to come along, you know,โ I pointed out. โYou didnโt get much sleep in the last forty-eight hours.โ
โNeither did you,โ Knox said, making a show of locking up
the cabin before we left. I knew he was making a point.
I didnโt like people who made points. At least not before Iโd had my coffee.
We made the short walk to Lizaโs in silence. The birds were singing, the sun was shining, and my mind was spinning like a dryer with a lopsided load.
Weโd slept together. As inย fell asleepย in the same bed without having sex together. Not only that, but Iโd woken up with Knox โVikingโ Morgan spooning me.
I didnโt know much about no strings. Hell, I had so many strings attached to so many things, Iโd been tied up in knots for most of my adult life. But evenย Iย knew that sharing a bed and cuddling was way too intimate for what weโd both agreed to.
I mean, donโt get me wrong. Waking up with Knoxโs hardโand I do meanย hardโbody at my back, his arm draped heavily over my waist was one of the best ways in the world to wake up.
But it wasnโt part of the agreement. There was a reason for rules. Rules would keep me from falling for the grumpy, cuddly Viking.
I chewed on my lower lip.
Men got tired and didnโt want to walk women home or let women walk home alone only to be eaten by wildlife. The man had gone through a traumatic twenty-four hours. He probably wasnโt making the most rational decisions, I decided. Maybe Knox was just a restless sleeper. Maybe he spooned his dog in bed every night.
Of course, that didnโt explain why heโd volunteered to run next door and grab a bunch of my stuff while I showered. Why heโd put actual thought into an outfit for me. I glanced down at the high-waisted green and white shorts, the cute lacy top. Heโd even grabbed underwear for me. Sure, it was a thong and didnโt match my bra. But still.
โโBout done thinking everything to death?โ
I shook myself from my reverie to find Knox shooting me one of those almost smiles.
โI was just running through my to do list,โ I fibbed haughtily. โSure you were. Can we go in now?โ
I realized we were standing in front of Lizaโs house. The smell of Stefโs World Famous Maple Bacon wafted through the screen door.
There was a single woof followed by a chorus of barks as four dogs barreled through the door and off the porch.
Waylon was last, ears flapping behind him, tongue lolling obscenely from his mouth.
โHey, bud,โ Knox said, dropping to his knees to greet his dog and the other three as they jumped and yapped their enthusiasm.
I bent down and exchanged more dignified greetings with the pack before straightening.
โOkay, so whatโs the plan?โ I asked him.
Knox gave Waylonโs ears a last ruffle. โWhat plan?โ โBreakfast? With my family?โ I prodded.
โWell, Daze, I donโt know about you, but my plan is to guzzle half a pot of coffee, chow down on some bacon, and then go back to bed for another four or five hours.โ
โI mean, are we stillโฆyou knowโฆpretending?โ Something passed over his face that I couldnโt read. โYeah. Weโre still pretending,โ he said finally.
I didnโt know if I was relieved or not.
Inside, we found Liza and my dad standing sentry behind Stef as he peered into the oven at two baking sheets of bacon that smelled like heaven.
Mom was setting the table in the sun-room. Waylay was making her way around the table, still in her new, pink tie-dye pajamas, carefully pouring glasses of orange juice.
I felt a swift rush of affection for her and then remembered I had to come up with a suitable punishment for her today. I really needed to get to the discipline chapter in my library book.
โMorninโ, lovebirds. Didnโt expect to see you here, Knox,โ Liza said, spotting us as she shuffled over to the coffee maker in a blue fuzzy robe over lightweight camouflage pajamas.
Knox draped an arm around my shoulders. โMorninโ,โ he returned. โI couldnโt pass up the bacon.โ
โNo one can,โ Stef said, pulling the trays out of the oven and setting them on the two cooling racks Iโd discovered hidden behind the hutch in Lizaโs dining room.
Waylay padded in on bare feet and sniffed with suspicion. โWhyโs it smell weird?โ
โFirst of all, gorgeous,ย youย smell weird,โ Stef said, giving her a wink. โSecondly, thatโs the caramelized maple syrup.โ
Waylay perked up. โI like syrup.โ Her eyes slid to me. โMorninโ, Aunt Naomi.โ
I ran my hand through her messy blonde hair. โMorning, kiddo. Did you have fun with your grandparents last night, or did they make you scrub the floors?โ
โMe and Grandma and Uncle Stef watchedย The Princess Bride. Grandpa fell asleep before the shrieking eels,โ she said. โAm I still grounded?โ
Mom opened her mouth, looked at me, then shut it again. โYou are,โ I decided. โFor the weekend.โ
โCan we still go to the library?โ
I was new at this discipline thing, but I figured the library was safe enough. โSure,โ I yawned.
โSomeone needs her coffee,โ Mom sang. โLate night?โ She looked pointedly at Knox and then winked at me.
โYou know where else you two should go today?โ Dad said. Now that the bacon was safely out of the oven, he was peering over Lizaโs shoulder as she flipped an omelet.
โWhere?โ I asked warily.
He turned to look at me. โCar shopping. You need a car.โ Dad said it with authority as if the idea of getting a car had somehow never occurred to me.
โI know, Dad. Itโs on the list.โ
It was on a literal list. A spreadsheet actually, comparing makes and models ranked by reliability, gas mileage, and cost.
โYou and Waylay need something reliable,โ he continued. โYou canโt get around on bikes forever. Itโll be winter before you know it.โ
โI know, Dad.โ
โIf you need money, your mother and I can help out.โ
โYour fatherโs right, dear,โ Mom said, handing Knox a cup of coffee and the second to me. She was wearing plaid pajama shorts and a matching button-down top.
โI donโt need any money. I have money,โ I insisted. โWeโll go this afternoon,โ Dad decided.
I shook my head. โThatโs not necessary.โ I hadnโt finished my spreadsheet yet and I wasย notย walking on a car lot without knowing exactly what I wanted and what it was worth.
โWeโve already got plans to look at cars today,โ Knox announced.
Crabby Viking says what?ย Car shopping plans were news to me. And unlike having a boyfriend, the purchase of a car wasnโt nearly as easy to fake for my parents.
He drew me into his side. It was a possessive move that both confused me and turned me on. โFigured Iโd take Naomi and Waylay to look for a ride,โ he said.
Dad harrumphed.
โI get to come too?โ Waylay asked, climbing up on her knees on the barstool.
โWell, since itโs our car, you have to help me decide,โ I told her. โLetโs get a motorcycle!โ
โNo,โ my mother and I answered together.
โWell,ย Iโmย getting one as soon as Iโm old enough.โ
I closed my eyes, trying to ward off all the catastrophes that rolled through my mind like a high school driverโs ed filmstrip. โIโve changed my mind. Youโre grounded until youโre thirty-five.โ
โI donโt think you can legally do that,โ Waylay said.
โSorry, Witty. Iโm with the kid on this one,โ Stef said, leaning on his elbows next to her at the island. He broke a piece of bacon in half and handed one piece to my niece.
โGotta vote with Way,โ Knox said, squeezing my shoulder, one of those sort-of smiles dancing at the corners of his lips. โYou can only ground her until sheโs eighteen.โ
Waylay punched a fist into the air victoriously and took a bite of bacon. โFine. Youโre grounded until youโre eighteen. And no fair ganging up
on me,โ I complained.
โUncle Stef,โ Waylay said, her eyes going wide and solemn. โThis is the best bacon Iโve ever had in my life.โ
โIย toldย you,โ Stef said triumphantly. He slapped a hand onto the counter. The dogs, mistaking the noise for a knock, raced to the front door in a fit of barking.
โGot some news,โ Liza announced. โNash is coming home.โ
โThatโs awfully soon, isnโt it?โ I asked. The man had two bullet holes in him. It seemed like that deserved more than a few days in the hospital.
โHeโs going stir-crazy cooped up in there. Heโll do better at home,โ Liza predicted.
Knox nodded in agreement.
โWell, that means his place will need a good cleaning. Canโt have germs getting in bullet wounds now, can we?โ Mom said as if she knew people who got shot every day.
โProbably need some food too,โ Dad chimed in. โBet everything in his fridge is rotten. Iโll start a list.โ
Liza and Knox exchanged confounded looks. I grinned. โItโs the Witt Way,โ I explained. โItโs best to just go with it.โ
โI SLEPTย with Knox twice in the last forty-eight hours and then Iย slept with himย slept with him last night. And I donโt know how much of itโs a mistake. And it was just supposed to be one time and definitely no sleeping, but he keeps changing the rules on me,โ I blurted out to Stef.
We were on Lizaโs front porch, waiting for Waylay to get her stuff so we could go back to the cottage and get ready for premature car shopping. It
was the first time Iโd gotten him alone since The Sexโฆand subsequent arrival of my parents.
Weโd been trading texts for the last two days.
โYou did it again? Iย knewย it! I fuckโfreakingย knewย it,โ he said, dancing from foot to foot.
โGreat. Congratulations, Mr. Know It All. Now tell me what it all means?โ
โHow the hell should I know what it means? Iโm the one who chickened out on asking that fine AF salon god for his phone number.โ
My jaw dropped. โExcuse me, but Stefan Liao has never chickened out on a hot guy before.โ
โLetโs not make this about me and my temporary mental break. Go back to the sex part. Was it good?โ
โPhenomenal. Best sex ever. Now Iโve trapped him in something resembling a relationship and I have no idea what to say to Way about it. I donโt want her thinking that itโs okay to jump from relationship to relationship. Or that itโs not okay to be alone. Or that itโs okay to have a one-night stand with a hot guy.โ
โHate to break it to you, Little Miss Uptight, but all of those things actuallyย areย okay.โ
โThirty-six-year-old adult woman me knows that,โ I snapped. โBut those things donโt look okay in the eyes of family court, and is that really the example I want to set for an eleven-year-old?โ
โI can see youโve entered the over-analyzing everything part of your freak-out,โ Stef quipped.
โStop being a jerk and start telling me what to do!โ
He reached out and squished my cheeks between his hands. โNaomi. Did it ever occur to you that maybe this is your chance to start living a lifeย youย choose? Start doing thingsย youย want to do?โ
โNo,โ I said.
The screen door burst open, and Waylay jumped out with Waylon on her heels. โI canโt find my math book.โ
โWhere did you see it last?โ I asked her. โIf I knew that, Iโd know where it was.โ
The three of us headed in the direction of the cottage. Waylon darted out in front of us, pausing every few feet to sniff things and pee on them.
โDoes Knox know you have his dog?โ I asked.
โDunno.โ Waylay shrugged. โSo are you and Knox a thing?โ I stumbled over my own feet.
Stef snickered unsympathetically next to me.
I blew out a breath. โHonestly, Way. I have no idea. I donโt know what we are or what I want from him or what he wants from me. So we probably wonโt be a thing forever. But we might be spending more time with him for a while. If itโs okay with you.โ
She frowned thoughtfully at the ground as she kicked at a stone. โYou mean you wouldnโt hang out with him and stuff if I didnโt want you to?โ
โWell, yeah. Youโre kind of pretty important to me, so your opinion matters.โ
โHuh. Then I guess he can come over for dinner tonight if he wants to,โ she said.
NASH WAS HOMEย and resting in his freshly cleaned and restocked apartment. My parents were celebrating their weekly date night with dinner at a five-star Lebanese restaurant in Canton. Liza had invited Stef to be her โhot dateโ for a dinner party at a local โfancy-ass horse farm.โ
As for me, I had a new (to me) SUV in my driveway, and my sort-of boyfriend and niece were in the backyard building a fire in the fire pit while I put away the leftovers.
Waylon was in the kitchen with me in case I dropped any of the aforementioned leftovers.
โFine. But donโt think you can look at me with that droopy face and get a treat every time,โ I warned the dog as I reached into the mason jar of dog treats I hadnโt been able to resist at Ninaโs dadโs pet shop.
Waylon wolfed down his biscuit with an appreciative full-butt wiggle. โOuch! Damn it!โ
โWaylay! Language!โ I yelled. โSorry!โ she called back.
โBusted,โ Knox sang not quite quietly enough. โKnox!โ
โSorry!โ
I shook my head.
โWhat are we going to do with them?โ I asked Waylon. The dog belched and wagged his tail.
Outside, Waylay gave a triumphant whoop, and Knox punched both fists in the air as sparks became flames. They high-fived.
I snapped a picture of them celebrating and sent it to Stef.
Me: Spending the evening with two pyromaniacs. Howโs your night going?
He responded less than a minute later with a close-up of a dignified- looking horse.
Stef: I think Iโm in love. How sexy would I be as a horse farmer? Me: The sexiest.
โAunt Naomi!โ Waylay burst through the screen door as I wiped down the counter tops. โWe got the fire started. Weโre ready for sโmores!โ
She had dirt on her face and grass stains on her t-shirt. But she looked like a happy eleven-year-old.
โThen I guess weโd better get them started.โ With a flourish, I pulled the dish towel off the sโmores platter Iโd assembled.
โWhoa.โ
โLetโs go, ladies,โ Knox called from outside.
โYou heard the man,โ I said, nudging her toward the door. โHe makes you smile.โ
โWhat?โ
โKnox. He makes you smile. A lot. And he looks at you like he likes you a lot.โ
I felt my cheeks flush. โOh, yeah?โ She nodded. โYeah. Itโs cool.โ
We ate too many sโmores and sat around the campfire until dark. I expected Knox to make an excuse to head home, but he followed us inside and helped me clean up while Waylayโand Waylonโwent upstairs to brush her teeth.
โI think my dog is in love with your niece,โ Knox observed. He pulled an open bottle of wine and a beer out of the fridge.
โThereโs definitely a crush happening,โ I agreed.
He pulled out a wine glass, filled it, and handed it to me. Okay, maybe there wereย twoย crushes happening.
โThanks for dinner,โ he said, opening his beer and leaning back against the counter.
โThanks for haranguing the sales guy into submission,โ I said.
โItโs a good vehicle,โ he said, hooking his fingers in the waist of my shorts and drawing me closer.
Weโd spent the majority of the day together, but without touching. It had been a special kind of torture to be so close to a man who made me feel so much I forgot to think yet not be able to reach out and touch him.
He smelled like smoke and chocolate. My new favorite scent. I couldnโt help it. I wanted to taste him. So I did. Bringing my mouth to his, I sampled his flavor. Leisurely. Deliberately.
His free hand came around me, splaying over my low back, holding me to him.
I breathed him in, letting his heat take the chill off my skin.
Suddenly, there was thunder on the stairs as both Waylay and the dog charged down.
โDamn it,โ Knox muttered.
I jumped back and picked up my wine.
โCan we watch TV before bed?โ Waylay asked.
โSure. Iโll just say good night to Knox.โ I was giving him his out. The man had to be exhausted, and I was sure he had better things to do than watch YouTube episodes of teen girls doing makeup with us.
โIโm up for some TV,โ he said, sauntering into the living room with his beer. Waylay launched herself at the couch, curling into her favorite corner. The dog hopped up next to her. Knox took the opposite end and patted the cushion next to him.
So I sat down with my niece, my sort-of boyfriend, and his dog, and we watched a fifteen-year-old with 2 million subscribers tell us how to choose the right eyeliner for our eye color.
Knoxโs arm was warm and comforting behind me on the back of the couch.
Five minutes into the episode, I heard a soft snore. Knox had his feet propped up on the coffee table and his head pitched back against the cushion. His eyes were closed, and his mouth was open.
I looked at Waylay, and she grinned at me. Knox snored again, and we both giggled quietly.