Knox
โBeer and catch a game? Beer and shoot the shit on the deck?โ I asked Jeremiah as he and Waylon followed me up the steps to my cabin. Once every two weeks or so, Iโd take an early night, and
weโd get together outside of work.
โI wanna find out whatโs got your beard so droopy. You were fine a couple of days ago. Your usual grumpy self. Now youโre pouting.โ
โI donโt pout. I ponder. In a manly way.โ Jeremiah snickered behind me.
I unlocked the door and, despite my best efforts, glanced in the direction of the cottage.
There were cars parked in front of the cottage, music playing. Great. The woman was a socializer. Another reason to stay far the hell away from her.
Not that I had to, seeing as how sheโd been avoiding me likeย Iย was the problem. The past week had been a struggle. An annoying one. Naomi Witt, Iโd discovered, was a warm, friendly person. And when she wasnโt feeling warm and friendly toward you, you definitely felt the cold. She refused to make eye contact with me. Her smiles and โSure thing, bossโ responses were perfunctory. Even when I drove her home and we were alone in the truck, the frostiness didnโt thaw a degree.
Every time I thought Iโd gotten a handle on it, she popped up. Either in her backyard or at my grandmotherโs. In my own bar. Hell, a few days ago, sheโd floated up to the window at Whiskey Clipper like a goddamn vision.
She was driving me fucking nuts.
โSee? That right there,โ Jer said, pointing a finger in my face. โPouting.
Whatโs going on with you, man?โ
โNothing.โ I noticed my brotherโs department vehicle parked at the cottage. โFuck.โ
โThere a reason you donโt like seeing your brotherโs car parked at Not Tinaโs?โ
โIs it the bis*xual part of you that wants to talk about fucking feelings all the time?โ I asked. โOr is it the โI come from a big, Lebanese family that knows everything about everybodyโ part that I can blame?โ
โWhy not both?โ he said with a quick grin.
A particularly loud burst of laughter caught our attention, as did the scent of grilled meat.
Waylonโs nose twitched. The white tip of his tail froze in the air. โNo,โ I said sternly.
I might as well have said, โSure, bud. Go get yourself a hot dog.โ Because my dog took off like a streak.
โLooks like weโre joining the party,โ Jeremiah observed. โFuck. Iโm getting a beer first.โ
A minute later, cold beers in hand, we wandered around the back of the cottage to find half of Knockemout on Naomiโs porch.
Sloane, the pretty librarian, was there with her niece, Chloe, who was wading knee-deep in the creek with Waylay and my grandmotherโs dogs. Liza J was sitting next to Tallulah while Justice manned the grill and my pain in the ass brother flirted with Naomi.
She looked like summer.
Considering Iโd had two sips of beer, I couldnโt blame alcohol on my mental prose. My mouth went dry as my gaze started at her bare feet, then moved up the long, tan legs to where they disappeared under the flirty, lemon yellow sundress.
โSoย thatโsย the problem,โ Jeremiah said smugly. He was looking right at Naomi, and I didnโt much care for it.
โI donโt know what youโre talking about,โ I said.
Waylon barreled his way up onto the porch and made a beeline for the grill.
โWaylon!โ Naomi looked delighted to see my dog. She crouched down to greet him, and even from here, the peek of cleavage was enough to tie
my balls in a knot.
โWaylon,โ I barked.
My jerk of a dog was too busy enjoying the affection of a beautiful woman to bother listening to me.
โKnox! Jer!โ Tallulah called when she spotted us in the yard. โJoin us.โ
Naomi looked up, and I saw the sunshine fade from her face when she spotted me. The ice walls went up.
โWe donโt want to impose,โ Jeremiah said, cagily eyeing the spread. There were deviled eggs, grilled vegetables, some kind of layered dip thing in a fancy dish, and four kinds of desserts. On the grill, Justice was turning chicken breasts and hot dogs.
โYouโre welcome to join us,โ Naomi said through a smile that was more gritted teeth than invitation. Her message was clear. She didnโt want me here at her cozy little dinner party.
Well, I didnโt want her in my head every time I closed my fucking eyes.
So I considered the score equal.
โIf you insist,โ Jeremiah said, shooting me a triumphant look.
โNice flowers,โ I said. There was a blue vase overflowing with wild blooms in the center of the table.
โNash brought them,โ Naomi said.
I wanted to smack the smug look of satisfaction right off my brotherโs face.
So he brought a girl flowers, and I could barely get her to say two words to me. He should know better than to challenge me like that.
I played dirty. Even when I didnโt care about winning. I just wanted Nash to lose.
BETWEEN EATINGย and shooting the shit with Naomiโs eclectic guests, I watched her. She sat between Waylay and Nash, who had all but pushed me out of the way like we were playing musical chairs. The conversation was lively, the mood upbeat.
Naomi laughed and talked and listened, all while keeping an eye on everyoneโs plates and glasses, offering second helpings and top-offs with the expertise of someone who spent their life looking out for others.
She was warm, attentive, funny. Except to me.
So maybe Iโd been a bit of a dick. Personally, I didnโt think that was enough of an infraction for me to be relegated to Ice Town.
I noticed every time Sloane or Chloe mentioned something about school starting, Naomi got pale and sometimes excused herself to go inside.
She talked to Jeremiah about hair and Whiskey Clipper. She talked about coffee and small business with Justice and Tallulah. And had no problem smiling at any stupid thing that came out of my brotherโs mouth. But no matter how long I watched her, she never once glanced in my direction. I was the invisible dinner guest, and it was rubbing me the wrong way.
โLiza J was telling us stories of you and Nash growing up earlier,โ Justice said to me.
I could only imagine which stories my grandmother had decided on. โWas it the rock fight in the creek or the zip line from the chimney?โ I asked my brother.
โBoth,โ Nash said, lips quirked.
โIt was quite the childhood,โ I told Justice.
โDid your parents live with you?โ Waylay asked. It was an innocent question coming from a kid who knew what it was like to not live with her parents.
I swallowed and looked for an escape.
โWe lived with our parents until our mom passed,โ Nash told her.
โIโm so sorry to hear that.โ That came from Naomi, and this time she was looking right fucking at me.
I nodded stiffly.
โNaomi, did you pick up Waylayโs school laptop yet?โ Sloane asked. โMy sister said Chloeโs was a little buggy.โ
โYeah, every time I open the internet, it restarts. How am I supposed to watch age-appropriate videos on YouTube with no internet?โ Chloe chimed in.
โOr, I donโt know, do school work?โ Sloane teased. โI could probably take a look at it,โ Waylay offered. Chloeโs brown eyes widened. โYouโre a STEM girl?โ โWhatโs that?โ Waylay asked with suspicion.
โScience Technology Engineering Math,โ Sloane filled in. โYeah. Nerd stuff,โ Chloe added.
Sloane elbowed her niece.
โOw! I donโt mean nerd likeย bad. Nerds are good. Nerds are cool. Nerds are the ones who grow up to run companies and make bazillions of dollars,โ Chloe said. She looked at Waylay. โNerds are definitely good.โ
The tops of Waylayโs ears turned pink.
โMy mom always said nerds were losers,โ she said quietly. She shot Naomi a look. โShe said girls who liked dresses and doing their hair wereโฆ uh, bad.โ
I had the sudden urge to hunt down Tina and drop-kick her ass into the creek for not being the kind of mother her kid needed.
โYour mom got a lot of things mixed up, kiddo,โ Naomi said, running her hand over Waylayโs hair. โShe didnโt understand that people could be more than one thing or like more than one thing. You can wear dresses and makeup and build rockets. You can dress in suits and play baseball. You can be a millionaire and work in your pajamas.โ
โYour mom doesnโt like dresses and hair?โ Chloe scoffed. โSheโs missing out. I hadย twoย wardrobe changes for my birthday last year,ย andย I got a bow and arrow. You be you. Donโt let someone who doesnโt like fashion tell you anything.โ
โListen to Chloe, whoโs about to lose a hot dog off her plateโ Get down, Waylon,โ Liza said.
My dog froze, mid-sneak.
โWe can still see you even if youโre not movinโ, dumbass,โ I reminded him.
Waylay giggled.
Pouting, Waylon slunk back under the table. Seconds later, I noticed Waylay tear off a piece of her hot dog and casually tuck it under the checkered cloth.
Naomi noticed it too but didnโt tattle on either one of them.
โIf you brought your laptop along, I could take a look,โ Waylay offered. โWell, if youโre doing a little post-dinner tech support,โ Tallulah said, pulling a huge iPad out of her work bag, โI just got this for the shop, and
Iโm having trouble transferring everything over from the old one.โ โTen dollars a job,โ I said, slapping the table.
Everyoneโs eyes came to me. Waylayโs lips quirked.
โWaylay Witt doesnโt work for free. You want the best? You gotta pay for it,โ I told them.
Her tiny smile was a smirk now, which morphed into a full-out grin when Tallulah yanked a $10 bill out of her purse and handed it over. โFirst paying customer,โ Tallulah said proudly.
โAunt Sloane!โ Chloe hissed.
Sloane grinned and went for her purse. โHereโs a $20 for your trouble. Miss Fashion here also dribbled honey on the space bar when she was making tea.โ
Waylay pocketed the bills and sat down to get to work.
This time, Naomi locked eyes with me. She didnโt smile, didnโt say โthank youโ or โget me naked tonight.โ But there was still something there. Something I itched to unlock simmering in those hazel eyes.
And then it was gone.
โExcuse me,โ she said, pushing back from the table. โIโll be right back.โ
Nash watched her walk away, that bright yellow material sliding over tanned thighs.
I couldnโt blame him. But I also couldnโt let him have her.
When Jeremiah caught his attention with a question about football, I used it as an opportunity to follow Naomi inside. I found her bent over the rolltop desk next to the stairs in the living room.
โWhatcha doing?โ
She jumped, shoulders hitching. Then spun around, holding her hands behind her back. When she saw it was me, she rolled her eyes. โIs there something you need? A slap across the face? An excuse to leave?โ
I closed the distance between us slowly. I didnโt know why I was doing it. I just knew that watching her smile at my brother made my chest tight, that being frozen out was getting to me. And the closer I moved to her, the warmer I felt.
โThought money was tight,โ I said when she tilted her head to look up at me.
โOh, bite me, Viking.โ
โJust sayinโ, Daisy, your first night on the job, you gave me a sob story of losing your savings and supporting your niece. Now it looks like youโre feeding half the county.โ
โItโs aย potluck,ย Knox. By the way, youโre the only one who didnโt bring anything to share. Besides, I wasnโt doing it to socialize.โ
I liked the way she said my name when she was exasperated. Hell, I just liked my name on those lips.
โAll right then. Why are you hosting half of Knockemout for a potluck?โ
โIf I tell you do you promise to do us both a favor and go away?โ โAbsolutely,โ I lied.
She bit her lip and peered over my shoulder. โFine. Itโs because of Chloe.โ
โYouโre throwing a dinner party for an eleven-year-old?โ
She rolled her eyes. โNo! That adorable chatterbox is the most popular girl in Waylayโs grade. They have the same teacher this year. I was just trying to give them a chance to spend some time together.โ
โYouโre matchmaking sixth-graders?โ
Naomiโs jaw jutted out and she crossed her arms over her chest. I didnโt mind because it pressed her breasts up higher against the neckline of her dress.
โYou wouldnโt understand what itโs like to walk through town and be judged by people just because of who youโre related to,โ she hissed.
I took a step closer to her. โYouโre dead wrong about that.โ
โOkay. Fine. Whatever. I want Waylay to go to school with actual friends, not just rumors that sheโs Tina Wittโs abandoned daughter.โ
It was probably a solid play. Iโd had my brother and Lucian on the first day of school when weโd moved here. No one in school had the guts to say shit about one of us since we were protected by the pack.
โThen whatโs this?โ I asked, grabbing the notebook she had clutched in one hand.
โKnox! Stop!โ
โEmergency Back-to-School To Do,โ I read. โPick up laptop. Try to schedule meeting with teacher. Back to school clothes and supplies. Money.โ I let out a low whistle. โA lot of question marks after that one.โ
She lunged for the notebook, but I held it out of her reach and flipped back a page. I found another to do list and another one. โSure do like lists,โ I observed.
Her handwriting started out nice and neat, but the farther down the list it got, I could practically feel the panic in her penmanship. The woman had a lot on her plate. And not much to do it with if the glimpse of her bank balances scrawled at the bottom of a shopping list were any indicator.
This time I allowed her to snatch the notebook back. She threw it on the desk behind her and picked up her wine glass.
โStay out of my business, Knox,โ she said. Her cheeks were pink, and there wasnโt a hint of frost in those gorgeous hazel eyes now. Every time she took a deep breath, her breasts grazed my chest and drove me just a little more insane.
โYou donโt have to do this alone, you know,โ I said.
She clapped her non-wine-holding hand to her forehead in mock excitement. โOfย course! I can just ask for handouts from strangers. Why didnโt I think of that? That wouldnโt make me look like Iโm incapable of taking care of a child in the eyes of the law. Problem solved.โ
โThereโs nothinโ wrong with accepting a little help now and then.โ
โI donโt need help. I needย time,โ she insisted, her shoulders tensing, hand fisting at her side. โSloane mentioned she might have a part-time position opening up at the library after school starts. I can save up and get a car. I can make this work. I just need time.โ
โYou want extra shifts at Honky Tonk, say the word.โ I couldnโt seem to stop wanting this womanโs orbit to overlap with my own. It was a stupid, dangerous game I was playing.
โThis from the man who called me an โuppity, needy pain in the assโ and tried to fire me on the spot. Forgive me if I donโt ever ask you for anything.โ
โOh, come on, Naomi. I was pissed off.โ
She looked at me like she wanted to light me on fire. โAnd?โ she said pointedly.
โAnd what? I said some shit because I was pissed off. You werenโt supposed to hear it. Not my fault you were eavesdroppinโ on a private conversation.โ
โYou yelled two seconds after I walked out the door! You canโt just do that! Words have power. They make peopleย feelย things.โ
โSo stop feelinโ things, and letโs move on,โ I suggested.
โThat might be the most ridiculous thing Iโve ever heard in my life.โ โDoubt that. You grew up with Tina.โ
The ice in her had thawed and turned to molten lava. โI did grow up with Tina. I was nine when I overheard her telling my best friend they should play without me because I was too snobby to have any fun. I was fourteen when she kissed the boy she knew I liked and told me I was too needy for him or anyone to ever want me.โ
Fucking A.ย This is why I hated talking to people. Sooner or later, you always stuck your finger in a wound.
I ran my hand through my hair.
โThen along comes Knox Morgan. Who doesnโt want me around because, despite my defective personality of being uppity and needy, you still managed to be attracted to my body.โ
โLook, Daisy. Itโs nothing personal.โ โExcept it isย deeplyย personal.โ
โPut a lot of thought into being pissed off about this, havenโt you?โ Maybe I wasnโt the only one losing sleep.
โGo screw yourself, Knox!โ
The brisk knock at the front door made Naomi jump. Wine sloshed over the rim of her glass.
โAm I interrupting?โ The woman on the other side of the screen door was a few inches shy of Naomi and wore a rumpled gray suit. Her dark hair was pulled back in a tight bun.
โUmmm,โ Naomi managed as she tried to blot at the wine on her chest with her hands. โUhhh.โ
โIโm Yolanda Suarez. With Child Protective Services.โ
Ah. Fuck me.
Naomi went rigor-mortis stiff next to me. I snatched the box of tissues off the top of the desk and handed it to Naomi. โHere,โ I said.
When she just stared at the visitor without moving, I yanked a few tissues out and started to blot up the disaster.
It took about two dabs into her cleavage before she snapped out of it and slapped my hands away.
โUm! Welcome. This isnโt my wine,โ Naomi said, eyes wide. The visitorโs gaze slid to the now-empty glass Naomi was holding. โI mean itย is. I donโt know why I said that. But Iโm not drinking a lot of it. Iโm responsible. And I hardly ever yell at men in my living room.โ
โOkaaaaaay. Is Chief Morgan here? He asked me to stop by,โ Yolanda asked coolly.