Pipโs alarm went off for school, chirping from her bedside table.
She yawned, sticking one foot outside the duvet. Then she remembered that she was suspended, so she tucked the foot back inside and leaned over to snooze the alarm.
But even through one sleepy eye, she saw the message waiting on her phone. Received seven minutes ago, from Nat da Silva.
Hi itโs Nat. I need to show you something. Itโs about Jamie. About Layla Mead.
Her eyes hadnโt even unstuck yet, but Pip sat up and kicked off the duvet. Her jeans were still damp from last night as she pulled them on, with a white long sleeved T-shirt from the top of the laundry basket; it probably had one more use in it.
She was just fighting a brush through her rain-tangled hair when her mum came in to say goodbye before work.
โIโm taking Josh to school now,โ she said.
โOK.โ Pip winced as the brush caught in a knot. โHave a good day.โ
โWe need to have a proper conversation about whatโs going on with you, this weekend.โ Her mumโs eyes were stern, but her voice was trying not to be. โI know youโre under a lot of pressure, but we agreed that wouldnโt happen this time.โ
โNo pressure, not any more,โ Pip said, the knot coming loose. โAnd Iโm sorry about getting suspended.โ She wasnโt, not one bit. Ant deserved it, as far as she was concerned. But if thatโs what her mum needed to hear to
leave it alone, then lying it was. Her mum had the best intentions, Pip knew, but right now, those best intentions would only get in her way.
โThatโs OK, sweetie,โ she said. โI know the verdict must have hit you hard. And everything with Jamie Reynolds. Maybe itโs best if you stay in today, get some studying done. Some normality.โ
โOK, Iโll try.โ
Pip waited, listening at her bedroom door to the sounds of her mum telling Joshua to put his shoes on the correct feet and ushering him outside. The car engine, wheels on the drive. She gave them a three-minute head start, and then she left.
Natโs face appeared in the crack, her eyes swollen, white hair pushed back, broken up by visible finger tracks.
โOh, itโs you,โ she said, pulling the door fully open.
โI got your message,โ Pip said, her chest constricting as she met Natโs sad eyes.
โYeah.โ Nat stepped back. โYou should, um, you should come in.โ She beckoned Pip over the threshold, before closing the door and leading them down the corridor to the kitchen. The furthest Pip had ever been invited inside this house.
Nat took a seat at the small kitchen table, gesturing for Pip to take the one opposite. She did, sitting awkwardly at its very edge. Waiting, the air thickening between them.
Nat cleared her throat, rubbed one eye. โMy brother told me something this morning. He said Max Hastingsโ house was vandalized last night, and someone paintedย Rapistย across his door.โ
โOh . . . r-really?โ said Pip, swallowing hard.
โYeah. But, apparently, they donโt know who it was, donโt have any witnesses or anything.โ
โOh, thatโs a . . . thatโs a shame,โ Pip coughed.
Nat looked pointedly at her, something different, something new in her eyes. And Pip knew that she knew.
Then something else happened; Nat reached out across the table and took Pipโs hand. Held on to it.
โAnd I saw you uploaded that audio file,โ she said, her hand shifting around inside Pipโs. โYouโre going to get in trouble for that, arenโt you?โ
โProbably,โ said Pip.
โI know how that feels,โ Nat said. โThat anger. Like you just want to set fire to the world and watch it burn.โ
โSomething like that.โ
Nat tightened her grip on Pipโs hand and then she let it go, drawing hers back flat against the table. โI think weโre quite alike, you and me. I didnโt before. I wanted to hate you so badly, I really did. I used to hate Andie Bell that much; for a while it felt like the only thing I had. And you know why I wanted to hate you so much? Apart from you being a pain in the arse.โ She tapped her fingers. โI listened to your podcast, and it made me not hate Andie quite so much any more. In fact, I felt sorry for her, so I hated you even harder instead. But I think Iโve been hating the wrong people all along.โ She sniffed with a tiny smile. โYouโre OK,โ she said.
โThanks,โ Pip said, Natโs smile passing to her and then out of the open window.
โAnd you were right.โ Nat picked at her fingernails. โAbout Luke.โ โYour boyfriend?โ
โNot any more. Not that he knows it yet.โ She laughed, but there was no joy in it.
โWhat was I right about?โ
โWhat you noticed, when you asked where we were the night Jamie went missing. Luke said he was home all night, alone.โ She paused. โHe was lying, you were right.โ
โDid you ask him where he was?โ said Pip.
โNo. Luke doesnโt like to be asked questions.โ Nat shifted in her chair. โBut after Jamie never showed up and was ignoring my calls, I went over to Lukeโs house to see him. He wasnโt there. And his car was gone.โ
โWhat time was this?โ
โAround midnight. Then I went back home.โ
โSo, you donโt know where Luke was?โ Pip leaned forward, elbows on the table.
โI do now.โ Nat withdrew one of her hands to pull her phone out, laying it on the table. โLast night, I was thinking about what you said yesterday, that maybe Luke had something to do with Jamieโs disappearance. So I, uh, looked through his phone while he was asleep. Went through his WhatsApps. Heโs been talking to a girl.โ She laughed again, small and hollow. โSheโs called Layla Mead.โ
Pip felt the name creeping along her skin, climbing up her spine, jumping rung to rung.
โYou said Jamieโs been talking to her too,โ Nat said. โI stayed up till four, listening to your two episodes. You donโt know who Layla is, but Luke does.โ She ran her fingers through her hair. โThatโs where he was, the night of Jamieโs disappearance. Meeting Layla.โ
โReally?โ
โThatโs what his messages say. Theyโve been talking for several weeks, I scrolled back and read every message. Looks like they met on Tinder, so thatโs great for me. And the messages are, you know, explicit. Also great for me. But they hadnโt met yet, not until last Friday night. Here.โ She unlocked her phone, thumbing on to her photos app. โI took two screenshots and sent them to my phone. I was already thinking of showing you, because, you know . . . you came back, so I didnโt have to be alone. And when I heard about Maxโs house, thatโs when I decided to message you. Here.โ She passed the phone into Pipโs waiting hands.
Nothing good I hope : )
Iโ d like to.
Pipโs eyes trailed down the first screenshot: Lukeโs messages on the right in green boxes, Laylaโs left and white.
Iโ ve been thinking about you . . .
Yeah? Been thinking bout you too
You know me
I donโ t wanna wait any more. Wanna meet tonight?
Alright where?
Car park in Lodge Wood
Pipโs breath stuttered at Laylaโs last message. The car park at Lodge Wood; her search party team had walked through that car park on Wednesday. It fell inside their zone.
I wonโ t be wearing much . . .
She glanced up quickly at Nat before swiping to the second screenshot.
A car park?
When?
Come now.
Then ten minutes later, at 11:58 p.m.:
Are you coming?
Almost there.
And then much later, at 12:41 a.m. from Luke:
What the fuck, Iโ m gonna kill you
Pipโs eyes shot up to Natโs.
โI know,โ she said, nodding. โNo more messages from either of them after that. But he knows who Layla is, and you think she had something to do with Jamie?โ
โYeah, I do,โ Pip said, sliding Natโs phone back across the table. โI think she had everything to do with Jamie.โ
โI need you to find him,โ Nat said, and there was quiver to her lip now that wasnโt there before, a sheen to her dried-out eyes. โJamie, he . . . heโs really important to me. And I-I just need him to be OK.โ
It was Pip who reached across the table now, taking Natโs hand in hers, her thumb hovering above the sharp ridges and falls of Natโs knuckles. โIโm trying,โ she said.