Home.
Was this what the voice had meant last night? Was this truly home? I wanted it to be more than I ever realized.
We passed through the Pillars, my heart thundering as I soaked in the sights before me with disbelieving eyes.
The first thing I noticed were the people along the walls, just inside the Pillars. How could I not see them? There were at least a hundred, dressed in black, sleeveless tunics and pants. Swords with gold handles were fitted to their sides. Crossbows like the one damaged in the fight with the Dead Bones Clan were strapped to their backs. The moment they saw Casteel, recognized him, they bowed, one after another in a wave, but it was those who stood on the ledges above that drew my attention.
Women.
There were more Guardians. They dropped to one knee in succession, placing their fists over their heart.
I knew my eyes were wide. I knew I was staring, but all of them were staring, tooโthe men below and the women aboveโat us. I suddenly wished that I still wore my cloak, even with how warm the air was here. Or that my hair was free. Maybe then I wouldnโt feel so exposed, my scars clearly displayed to these strangersโ eyes.
Strangers IโฆI wanted to be accepted by.
I looked forward, and then I wasnโt thinking of the scars or being accepted.
Leafy green trees lined the wide road, one smoother than any I knew of in Solis. It was made of some kind of dark stone that seemed fused together. The trees spread out into dense thickets of a lush forest, and aheadโฆ
A city sprawled ahead, dipping and flowing with the valleys and hills
โa city twice the size of Carsodonia. White and sand-colored structures gleamed under the sun, arcing gracefully with the landscape, some square and others circular. Some rose high, stretching into sleek towers, while
others were buildings as wide as they were tall, and some remained closer to the ground. They reminded me of the Temples in Solis, but they werenโt fashioned to mirror the night but to reflect the sunโto worship it. The roof of every building that I could see was green. Trees rose from them, vines swept down their sides, and bursts of color came from all sides.
Unlike the capital of Solis, where the city was stone and dirt, flashes of green surrounded buildings. Just as it had been in Spessaโs End, no building appeared stacked on top of one another, crowded to the point where they could barely fit. At least not from what I could gather from this distance.
Beyond the city, where specks of white grazed in open pastures, past the heavily wooded area that followed, was a mountain that did disappear into the clouds. And in the face of that mountain were eleven statues that had to be as tall as the Atheneum in Masadonia. Each one held a lit torch from their outstretched arm, the flames burning as brightly as the setting sun.
These were the godsโall of themโwatching over the city or standing guard.
I couldnโt even begin to figure out how those statues were built to that size, raised onto the mountain. Or even how those torches were litโhow they remained lit.
โSaionโs Cove is beautiful, isnโt it?โ Casteel didnโt need to ask. It was the most beautiful city Iโd ever seen, and I could imagine what the capital looked like. โYou canโt see the sea from here, but itโs beyond the trees, to our right.โ
Thoughts of warm sand and salty air tugged at my heart as I followed his gaze. I saw the tops of columns through the trees. โWhat is in there?โ
โThe Chambers of Nyktos,โ he answered. โYou can see the Seas of Saion from there, and the Isles of Bele,โ he added. โAnd, yes, the Goddess of the Hunt slumbers there.
โI have so many questions.โ
โThere is not a single person surprised to hear that,โ Kieran remarked. Delano laughed as he turned his head to the sky, basking in the sun.
A bell tolled, startling me. Leaves rattled as a flock of birds took flight from the nearby trees, their feathers a vivid green and blue. The bell tolled five more times.
I tensed. โIs something happening?โ I looked around, and no one appeared concerned. I only ever heard a bell ring when there was an attack
or something afoot.
Jasper smiled at me. โIt is only telling the time. Itโs six in the evening,โ he explained. โItโll ring every hour until midnight and then resume at eight.โ
โOh.โ That was clever. Ahead, I noticed someone on horseback riding toward us.
Casteel slowed the horse as Jasper said, โHere comes the welcoming party of one.โ
โWho is it?โ I asked.
โAlastir,โ he told me. โHe mustโve been waiting for us.โ
The advisor to the King and Queen arrived within a few minutes, a smile softening the deep scar in his forehead.
โYou cannot believe how relieved I am to see you. All of you,โ Alastir said, and the strangest thing happened.
A shivery feeling of icy fingers danced across the back of my neck.
Gods, he sounded so much like Vikter, butโ
โYou must tell me what became of Spessaโs End.โ Alastir drew his horse up to our side, clasping Casteelโs hand. โBut I must warn you.โ His voice dropped low. โYour father and mother are here, and your arrival was spotted. They know youโve come home.โ
My stomach fell beyond my feet. I hadnโt planned on meeting his parents this quickly. They were supposed to be in the capital.โ
Casteel was of like mind. โWhat are they doing here?โ
โThey came as soon as they learned of the trouble in Spessaโs End. Your damn father was about to cross the mountain. I assured him that our forces would make itโฆโ He trailed off as he caught sight of the ring on Casteelโs left hand. He turned Casteelโs palm upward. His skin blanched. โYou did it.โ He twisted in his saddle, looking toward my left hand. His gaze met mine. โYou actually did it.โ
โWe did,โ Casteel said. โJust like we told you.โ
โYou missed it,โ Jasper chimed in as I picked up on the disbelief and concern radiating from Alastir. Which wasnโt surprising. Heโd wanted us to wait until Casteel spoke with his parents. โDay turned to night at the end of the ceremony. Nyktos gave his approval.โ
Alastir blinked as if he hadnโt expected that. โWell, that isโฆthat is good news. Perhaps that will be of aid when the King and Queen are made aware, but I need to speak with you Casteel, in private.โ
โWhatever you need to say to me, you can say in front of myย wife,โ Casteel replied, and my already unstable stomach flipped.
Wife.
Why was that such a shock to hear? It was a pleasant surprise, though. โThis is a conversation regarding the kingdom and I mean no offense,
but she is not a part of the Crown yet,โ Alastir replied. โNor privy to such information.โ
Casteel stiffened behind me, and I knew he was about to push back, and the last thing I wanted was him to be standing here arguing with Alastir about what I was privy to when his parents arrived.
โItโs okay. No offense taken,โ I said, tapping his arm. โI would like to stretch my legs a bit anyway.โ
Casteel wasnโt at all happy about that, but Beckett offered, โI can show her the Chambers of Nyktos. Itโs not very far from here,โ he said. โThat is, if youโd like.โ
โI would like that,โ I readily agreed, latching on to the offer as if it were a lifeline. โThatโs what I would like to do.โ
โThen thatโs what you will do,โ Casteel replied.
My heart was pumping so fast as Casteel dismounted and helped me get down that I wouldnโt have been surprised if I fainted. How embarrassing would that be? The first time to faintโฆat the feet of my father and mother-in-law, the former the King who still planned to use me as a message.
But that would change. It had to. Not just because the gods favored me, but because what Casteel and I shared wasย real.
โOne second.โ Casteel motioned at Beckett as Quentyn went to the young wolvenโs side. He drew me slightly away from the others, under the shade of one of the nearby trees. โIโm sorry about this,โ he said. โI had no idea theyโd be here. I wanted to give you some time before I introduced you. That was what I planned.โ
โI know, and honestly, Iโm glad that Alastir was here to warn us and that he wants to talk to you. It will give me some time toโฆI donโt know.โ I felt my cheeks flush. โPrepare myself.โ
โYou donโt need to be nervous.โ โReally?โ I replied dryly.
โIโm trying to be helpful.โ A half-grin appeared and then vanished. โWeโve faced scarier things than parents caught off guard, and we will face
far more frightening things. Just remember that this,โโhe picked up my left hand and turned it overโโis real,โ he said, echoing my earlier thoughts. โWeโre real. No matter what.โ
I stared down at the dazzling gold swirl on my palm. โNo matter what.โ
Curling a finger under my chin, he lifted my head, and his lips found mine. He kissed me, and it was no short peck on the lips. People watched us, but Casteel took his sweet time, and by the time he lifted his head, I felt faint for a whole different reason.
โNo matter what,โ he repeated.
Nodding, I pulled away from him and turned to where Beckett waited, shifting his weight from one foot to the other.
โPoppy?โ
I turned back to Casteel, and the moment I saw him, I felt the breath I took catch in my throat. The way he stared at me, the intensity in his fiery golden eyes, rooted me to the spot. What I felt from himโฆit tasted like the smoothest chocolate and the sweetest berries.
Casteelโs chest rose with an uneven breath. โIโll come for you.โ
I love you.
That was what I thought Casteel was going to say. That was what I felt from him, but those words didnโt pass his lips.
They hadnโt passed mine either.
Whatever disappointment I mightโve felt was quickly lost to wonder as Beckett led me through the woods. The wolven hadnโt been an excited chatterbox, and I could tell he was still wary of me. I picked up the faint trace of fear from him, and I imagined he was challenging himself to get past that by offering to take me to the Chambers.
The trees were full of the calls and chirps of birds, but as Beckett had said, the Chambers werenโt that far. We left the wooded area fairly quickly.
The structure rose against the deep blue of the sky, the limestone and marble a glistening white in the sun.
We walked through a short field of tiny blue and yellow flowers. The closer I got, the more I realized how large the temple still was. It was nearly the length of Castle Teerman.
โGood gods,โ I said, glancing at Beckett. โThis thing is huge.โ
He nodded as he quickly glanced at me. โItโs one of the largest of the Temples here.โ
โWhy is it called the Chambers?โ I asked as we climbed the steep steps, welcoming the distraction. Vines scaled the wide steps, all the way to the top where they wrapped around the columns.
โItโs because there are tombs underneath.โ
I stopped near the top and looked at him. โSeriously?โ
A nervous giggle left him. โYeah. The entrance to them is on the side. Itโs where some of the ancient ones have been buriedโthe deities, I mean.โ โSorry. Graveyards and tombs kind of weird me out,โ I admitted as I
started walking again.
โSame.โ A quick smile appeared. โEspecially these. You feelโฆI donโt know, like those who are entombed are watching you.โ
A warm, salty breeze reached us as we came to the top. I didnโt know where to look first. Pebbles and much larger rocks were scattered across the Atlantian Crest that had been engraved into the stone floors.
Statues of the gods stood between the columns, each one with one arm outstretched. Nyktos was the tallest of them all, and he stood in the very center of the Temple, the toes of his feet brushing the Atlantian Crest. All were sculpted so it appeared the sun rose behind them, and they held torches in their stone hands, empty of flames, of life.
Tearing my gaze from them, I walked to one side. The beauty of what I saw was stunning. Iโd never seen water so clear. Bright blue, green, and even red coral was clearly visible underneath. Farther out, where the water deepened, it was a shade as blue as the sky above. I knew there were other things to see, like the trees of Aios that were visible from the Chambers, but I couldnโt tear my gaze from the sea. The next breath I took was steady and calming as if I hadnโt taken a breath as deep as this one in, well, forever. I blinked, realizing there were tears in my eyes. Normally, I wouldnโt get choked up by seeing a body of water, but itโฆit felt like home.
โThank you for healing my legs,โ Beckett said, startling me. As terrible as it was, Iโd forgotten that he was there. โI know I said that before, but I, uh, I just wanted to say it again. You have no idea what you did for me.โ
It took me a moment before I trusted myself to speak. The poor kid was already uncomfortable around me. He didnโt need me to start sobbing
all over him. โYou didnโt need to thank me before, and you donโt need to do it now.โ I touched the warm stone of a column. โIโm glad I could help.โ
Off in the distance, I could make out the Isles of Bele. They appeared large, as if they could house two or three towns the size of Spessaโs End. There was something at the highest peak of the center island. A Temple? I started to ask Beckett what it was when I realized that he hadnโt responded to me.
Pulling my gaze from the sparkling waters, I turned, and every muscle in my body immediately locked up. Beckett was gone.
But I wasnโt alone.
Several people stood by the statue of Nyktos. Mostly men, but a few women. There were at least a dozen, a mix of Atlantian and mortal. Not a single wolven among them. But they were all dressed the same, wearing loose white pants and tighter, sleeveless shirts. Their arms were adorned with golden bands similar to those Iโd seen on the Guardians in Spessaโs End. Their attire, the way they stared at me, reminded me of the Priests and Priestesses in Solis.
Except the Priests and Priestesses didnโt carry weapons. All of them wore a golden, narrow, long dagger strapped across their chests.
Goosebumps pimpled my skin. I recognized none of them, but I knew what they were feeling. Anger surged from them, thickening the air, and it mixed with my stinging disbelief as what was happening began to sink in. Instinct flared to life.
โYou shouldnโt be here,โ an Atlantian said, taking a step forward. โYou shouldโve never crossed the Skotos Mountains. Your mere presence is a taint,ย Maiden.โ
These people knew exactly who I was.
I quickly glanced at the exitโthe only exit. They blocked it, and their angerโtheir hatredโit kept stretching out toward me, coating my skin like a too-coarse blanket, filling the back of my throat with hot acid. I severed the connection, picturing each cord being snipped away until there was nothing inside me but my pounding heart. Once I locked them out, I scanned the Temple again, this time looking for any sign of the young wolven. There was none, and everything inside me knew what had been done, even if I didnโt understand why. Heโd been so happy when I first met him. Iโd healed him. No other wolven had been unkind toward me.
But heโฆhe had led me here. Heโd offered to bring me here, and then heโd left me.
Left me to those who Iโd never seen or met before but who hated me nonetheless.
But they did not choose you.
My skin flushed hot and then cold. It had been a trap. One of opportunity or something planned, I had no idea. And I didnโt know how this had been orchestratedโif these people had been waiting or for how long. But it didnโt change what this was. The betrayal, the disappointment, and the bone-deep hurt sank its razor-sharp claws into me. I stared at the nameless faces, feeling as if my chest had cracked open.
It had been so silly of me to want these people to accept me. And so incredibly naive for me to take that flicker of hope and hold onto it. I wanted to scream. I wanted toโฆgods, I wanted to cry. And I wanted to rage.
But I couldnโt.
I needed to stay calm. This was a trap, but they knew who I was, and that meant they also had to know that I was Casteelโs wife. They couldnโt seriously think to harm me. I needed to deescalate the situation somehow. The mortals wouldnโt be a problem. The Atlantians standing before them could become one, however.
Still, I lowered my right hand to where my sweater hid the wolven dagger. โIโm sorry. I didnโt know this area was forbidden, and I donโt know what youโve heard about me, but I am not an Ascended, and I never chose to be the Maiden. I fought against them atโโ
โYouโre something worse,โ a woman interrupted, and I realized she held something in her closed fist. โWe know what you really are. We know how you managed to gain the Princeโs trust,ย empath. Soul Eater.โ
A prickly wave of dread skated over my skin. None of these people had been in Spessaโs End or at New Haven. Had Alastir told someone? I doubted that Kieran would have during his brief return. At the moment, none of that mattered. What did was that what Alastir had said was right. So was Casteel, even though he hadnโt wanted to say it. And I already suspected as much. Because of who I was and who I wasnโt, they wouldnโt accept me, and they feared me.
And that fear fed their hatred. That was the most dangerous of all. โI am not that either,โ I said, watching the womanโs handโtheir hands. A man
held something, too. โI cannot feed off emotional energy or heighten fear. I didnโt even know what I was untilโโ
โClose your mouth, whore,โ the Atlantian spat. I blinked, shocked into silence by the slur.
โYou speak out of both sides of your mouth,โ he continued. โYour lies may have worked on the others, but they will not work on us.โ
โYou will not find what you seek here,โ a woman said, and I immediately thought of the voice Iโd heard last night. โYou will not destroy Atlantia from within. You may have warped the Princeโs mind, but you will not succeed with us.โ
โI havenโt done anything to him.โ My fingers curled under the hem of my sweater.
โOther than attempt to kill him?โ another challenged as the clouds formed above us.
Well, that was hard to defend, and also something none of them shouldโve known.
โOr led an army of Ascended to the walls of Spessaโs End?โ another claimed, and that was also hard to defend. โPeople died, didnโt they?โ
People had.
โThe Ascended disguised you as a Maiden. Sending you right into the heart of Atlantia,โ the Atlantian man said, the one who had spoken first. โWe will not let you destroy Atlantia. We will not allow you to destroy us all, whore of the Ascended.โ
โYou have no idea what youโre talking about.โ I fought my anger and was losing. I was too damnโฆhurt, and I refused to stand here and listen to them accuse me of working with the Ascended. I hadย killedย countless people to defend Spessaโs End. I had been prepared to end my own life to protect that town. โI speak nothing but the truth when I say I am sorry for all that you may have suffered at the hands of the Ascended. I can even understand your distrust and dislike of me, but if one of you calls me a whore one more time, you will regret it.โ
โBecause of the Prince?โ The Atlantian sneered. โDo you think weโre not willing to die to protect our kingdom from even him? The Prince is already lost to us, just as Malik was.โ
โYour Prince is not lost to you.โ My fingers brushed the sheath of the dagger as the sun hid behind a dark cloud. โAnd itโs not myย husbandย you have to worry about. Itโs me.โ
Focused on the Atlantian, Iโd forgotten about the womanโabout what she held. I didnโt even see her lift her arm. It was such a stupid misstep on my part. Vikter would be so disappointed.
Pain exploded, stunning me. I gasped, clutching my throbbing shoulder as I looked down.
A rock.
Sheโd thrown aย rock.
I almost laughed, only because she couldโve thrown something worse. Like the dagger strapped to her chest. Anything more dangerous than aย rock.
โThat hurt,โ I bit out as the clouds darkened, becoming fat and heavy. The scent of rain filled the air, and in the distance, the warning of thunder rumbled. โBut seriously? A rock?โ
โYou think we fear you?โ the Atlantian male said, withdrawing his dagger. โYouโre not a threat when you canโt touch us. We know how Soul Eaters feed. We know how you sense emotion. You must come into contact with flesh.โ
That was not how that worked. โThere appears to be a lot of things you have no understanding of.โ I unsheathed the dagger. To hell with making the situation worse. โI am not your enemy, but youโre quickly becoming mine.โ
โBut youโre not anything but a scarred whore for the Ascended,โ the woman replied calmly as thunder clapped, closer now.
Before I could even question how I could be both the Maiden and a whore, a new pain erupted along the side of my head, so sudden and shocking that I dropped the dagger as I staggered back. I quickly realized that the stoning was only meant to incapacitate me so they could get closer. Another rock hit me in the stomach, then my leg, my armsโ
A streak of lightning lit the sky over the sea. Thunder boomed, echoing through the columns of the Temple as sudden agony lanced my brow when a rock connected with my forehead and the scarred skin there, so sharp and startling that it sent me to my knees. My hold on my senses loosened and then shattered. It was like a crevice cracked wide open in me as wet warmth trickled down my temple.
Ascended trash. Soul Eater. Whore.ย Words fell in time with their rocks, but it was what I felt from them that landed heavier blows.
โEnough,โ I whispered.
Their anger and hatred beat at me as I looked down, seeing my blood falling against the stone. I couldnโt breathe. Their raw emotions were an endless rolling tide, and underneath it was a hum, a whirring from the very core of me. My skin vibrated. Just like it had when the soldiers surrounded Casteel and I before the wolven had arrived.
Something red splashed on the ground, tainting the pearly stone. More blood. Another drop joined it, seeping into the cracks. The marble trembled under my feet as roots appeared in the stone, thin as fragile veins, they crept out from the crack. I blinked a sting from my eyes, and the roots disappeared. Another splash of crimson fell and another, this one farther from where I stood.
It was blood.
But it wasnโt mine. It fell from above. The skies bled.