I HAVE NEVER LIEDย to my parents before, until I met Crew. Now Iโm sneaking around and hiding what Iโm doing from my mom and dad, specifically my father, because I know he would be incredibly disappointed in me.
Worse, heโd flat out tell me no about this trip. Going away for the weekend with a boy, all alone?
Daddy would never let that happen.
Bringing up his contact info, I hit call and wait, holding the phone to my ear as I go to my closet and pull down the bag I use when I travel.
โPumpkin, how are you?โ His voice is warm and edged with faint concern, which makes me feel guilty.
โHi, Daddy.โ
โHow was your day? Howโs school going? Glad the semester is almost over?โ
โDefinitely.โ I need to get this over with. โUm, I wanted to ask you a question.โ
โWhat is it? Is everything okay?โ
โEverything is great,โ I reassure him. Heโs been worried about me ever since the divorce announcementโand retraction. โA friend of mine invited
me to go on a trip this weekend.โ
โA trip? The weekend before finals? Are you sure thatโs a smart idea?โ No, itโs a terrible idea. And a wonderful one too.
โIโm ready for finals. I already completed one today,โ I tell him. โI have an A in psychology.โ
โOf course you do.โ He says it as if he never had any doubt about my abilities. โWhere are you going? Somewhere close?โ
โVermont.โ
โAre you driving? Another storm is coming in, you know. Itโll be dangerous on the roads. And who are you going with?โ
โMaggie.โ I close my eyes, praying he believes me. โAnd weโre flying. Her familyโhas a plane.โ
I have no idea if thatโs actually true. Maggieโs family comes from money, but it might not be we-have-a-private-plane-type money.
โOh. Well that should be safer if youโre flying out tonight. The storm is coming in tomorrow.โ
โWeโll be careful, Daddy. We just want to get away for a bit. Relax before our intense finals week.โ
โAre you ready? Do you need to study?โ
โIโll be okay,โ I reassure him. โReally. Can I go?โ
Heโs quiet for a moment, which makes me nervous. I start pacing around my room, afraid of his answer.
โI normally would never allow something like this,โ he starts, getting my hopes up. โBut youโre almost eighteen. Almost done with high school. You deserve to have a little break. Especially since Veronica wasnโt able to find proper accommodations for your birthday trip.โ
Oh. Veronica. His assistant. The trip she was supposed to be planning for me, even though I wanted to do it. โWhat do you mean, she wasnโt able to
find proper accommodations?โ
โEverything I wanted for you was sold out or too expensive.โ
Since when does expense matter to my father? I know I sound like a spoiled brat, but heโs usually able to get me whatever I want, no matter the costโ save for that art piece I wanted so badly last year.
โItโs okay. This trip will be for my birthday,โ I tell him.
โThen enjoy it, Pumpkin. We canโt wait to see you next weekend. Your mother has held off decorating the house. She wants to wait until youโre home.โ
I frown. That doesnโt sound normal either. Mother usually starts decorating right after Thanksgiving. Sheโll hire out a professional to come into the house and decorate with a theme in mind. It looks like something straight out of a magazine layout. Almost too beautiful to touch.
Iโve always sort of hated it.
โIโd love to help her,โ I say, meaning every word. I canโt remember the last time we decorated for Christmas on our own. Do we actually even own any Christmas decorations anymore? Normally Mother pays for the decorating service, has the house featured in some sort of online publication for publicity, and then gives the decorations back when the holidays are over.
โGood. Iโll let her know. Iโll tell her about your trip too,โ he says. โHave fun, Pumpkin. Be safe.โ
The guilt is real. โI will. Thank you.โ โLove you.โ
โLove you too.โ
He ends the call, and I immediately text Crew. Me:ย I can go.
My phone starts ringing and I answer quickly.
โPack your bags fast, Birdy. We need to be at the airport by five-fifteen,โ Crew explains.
Panic floods my veins. That means I donโt have a lot of time. โI can be ready by then, but I need to go so I can pack.โ
โIโll pick you up at your building in a half hour, okay?โ โOkay. Sounds good.โ
WE ARRIVE AT THE AIRPORT, with the plane scheduled to take off by five- forty-five. The flight to Vermont is only about thirty minutes. From there, we have a twenty-five-minute drive to our hotel, which fills me with both excitement and dread.
Will we have separate beds? Knowing Crew, I think thatโs doubtful. Pretty sure Iโm in over my head.
I enter the Gulfstream jet first, Crew right behind me, and weโre greeted by a male flight attendant whoโs dressed in a black suit.
โMr. Lancaster, good evening. Welcome. My name is Thomas and Iโll be serving you and your guest during your flight.โ Thomas glances over at me, his gaze friendly. โWould you care for anything to drink?โ
โIโd like a glass of champagne,โ Crew answers Thomas. โAnd you, Miss?โ Thomasโs gaze meets mine.
โSheโll have the same,โ Crew answers for me.
โWill do.โ Thomas offers a little bow and leaves to go fix our drinks. I turn to Crew. โChampagne?โ
โLetโs celebrate.โ โWeโre underage.โ
โTheyโre not going to check our IDs. My family owns the plane. We can do whatever we want,โ Crew says before he starts checking out the plane. โThis is nice. I havenโt been on this one.โ
โDo you fly private often?โ Heโs right. This plane is very nice. The leather seats are a rich cream, clustered in pairs facing each other with a small table in between them. The windows are oval shaped and large, and thereโs a cabinet with a TV.
โMost of the time,โ Crew answers, and I marvel at the casualness of his answer. What it must be like, to come from such wealth. My family has plenty of money, but nothing like this.
I think of what my father said on the phone earlier and Iโm starting to think we donโt have as much money as I originally thought.
Thomas brings us our drinks and I take mine with a murmured thank you, settling into the seat closest to the window.
โWeโll be taking off shortly,โ Thomas announces.
โThank you, Thomas,โ Crew tells him, settling into the seat beside me and taking a sip from his glass.
I follow his lead, taking a tinier sip, the bubbles tickling my throat. My nose. It tastes almost bitter, but at least it goes down relatively smooth.
โEver drank champagne before?โ Crew asks me. I slowly shake my head. โI donโt drink alcohol.โ
โI am thoroughly corrupting you.โ He clinks his glass to mine. โWhat do you think?โ
โItโs okay.โ I take another sip because heโs watching me, and I make a face. โIt tickles.โ
โItโs the bubbles.โ
I study the glass, the tiny bubbles in the golden liquid. โI donโt know if I like it.โ
โI bet youโd prefer something sweet. A tropical drink.โ
โI drank lots of virgin pina coladas when we went on a Caribbean cruise a couple of years ago,โ I tell him, immediately feeling dumb for admitting that.
He sets his glass on the table in front of us and then takes mine from my hand, setting it on the table next to his. โYouโre nervous.โ
This isnโt asked as a question. He can sense it. I donโt bother denying it either.
โI am,โ I admit. โI feel bad, lying to my father. Going away with you for the weekend. This is a huge step for me, Crew. I donโt do things like this.โ
โI wonโt push you for anything you donโt want to do,โ he says, and I know he means it, but he also knows how easy it is for me to get carried away when Iโm with him.
I know it too. Maybe I feel guilty because I want to do this. I want to run away with him for a couple of days and forget the rest of the world. Spend my time with Crew and no one else. I think of the day he showed up at the art gallery, and how much fun we had. Just the two of us.
I also think of the night in his room, when we kissed in his bed and he went down on me. That was fun too. A different kind of fun, something I want to explore more, if Iโm being honest with myself.
I didnโt know it could be like this. That he could feel like a friend and aโ lover, both at once. How much Iโd want to spend time with him. How lonely I feel when heโs not around. How happy I am when I first spot him, when he shines that smile on me, looks at me with those all-knowing blue eyes. Filled with a combination of affection and lust. Sometimes amusement. Sometimes irritation.
All I ever wanted was for someone to see me for who I really am. Everyone has their own expectations and eventually I fell into those roles, giving them what they needed from me. No one makes me feel like Iโm just being myself when Iโm with them.
Except for Crew.
โWren.โ His deep voice pulls me from my thoughts and I glance up to find Crew watching me, his gaze steady, his expression serious. He touches my hair. Tucks a strand behind my ear, his fingers lingering. โIโm glad youโre coming with me. You need to get away from reality for a little while.โ
โSo do you,โ I say, then I frown. โWait. Iโm still supposed to be mad at you.โ
A sigh leaves him. โWhat did I do now?โ
โYou never responded to my text this morning. I was worried about you. I didnโt know where you were.โ Thatโs another thing Iโm not used to.
Caring about someoneโa boyโand wondering where he is when he doesnโt reach out. I was truly worried. Even a little panicked. What if something happened to him? Something awful? The relief I felt upon first seeing him blotted out all of my anger and frustration.
But thatโs all coming back to me now.
โI was in the admin office all morning. I didnโt get out of there until after lunch,โ he admits, reaching for his champagne glass and draining it, as if he needs the liquor coursing through him to even talk about it.
โWhy were you in the office?โ I almost donโt want to know.
โI was being questioned by police detectives. About Figueroa.โ โOh.โ That sounds ominous. โAre they going to arrest him?โ
โProbably. Thatโs half the reason I wanted to get away from here. Iโm sick of dealing with that shit. Natalie and her lies. Figueroa and his sleazy ways.โ His upper lip curls with disgust. โI canโt stand him.โ
โForget about him.โ I pluck the empty glass from his fingers and return it to the table before I turn my full attention on him. โLetโs focus on the weekend. I donโt even know where youโre taking me exactly.โ
โManchester, Vermont. I hear they go all out for the holidays.โ
โReally?โ Excitement bubbles up inside me, much like the bubbles in my champagne glass. โAnd thereโs snow? Mountains? Pine trees?โ
He nods. โIโve never seen someone so enthusiastic for the mountains.โ โIโm a city girl. My family never goes to the mountains.โ
โNot even to Vail?โ
โYou sound like such a snob right now,โ I say with a soft laugh. โAnd no, we donโt go to Vail.โ
โYouโre missing out then.โ He doesnโt even seem offended by me calling him a snob. Not like I really meant it.
โCan I ask you a question?โ
Crew nods, turning in his seat so heโs facing me more fully. โDid you do this for me? This trip to Vermont? Or for yourself?โ
He reaches for me, his hand landing on my cheek, his fingers stroking my skin, leaving me breathless. โI did it for you.โ
I blink at him, my eyes wanting to fill with tears, though I donโt know why. โI did it for us,โ he admits.
Just before he kisses me.