My hand itched to knock on the door between my room and Millerโs, wanting to walk down to the lobby with her, wanting to show up in front of my teammates together in hopes theyโd understand sheโs off-limits for tonight.
Sheโs off-limits always. For them and for me.
Instead, as soon as Monty was settled in my room to watch Max, I headed down to the lobby alone, forcing myself to wait for her there while pretending to be entirely unaffected by the prospect of having a night away from the house or hotel with the girl I, annoyingly, canโt stop thinking about.
The entire team seems to be down here already, drinking pregame beers and all too excited to have a night off without needing to be at the field tomorrow. I find Isaiah on a couch and as soon as my ass hits the cushion next to him, heโs holding out a fresh beer, top popped already.
โNever thought this would happen again,โ Isaiah says, clinking his bottle to mine. โYou coming out with us.โ
โItโs a one-time thing.โ
He doesnโt say anything, simply brings his beer to his lips, but I can feel the unspoken words heโs dying to say swirling around us.
โWhat?โ
โI just find it interesting that the night you decide to join us is the same night Miller is.โ
โThereโs nothing interesting about that.โ
โReally? Because I thought it was especially interesting how suddenly, after Travis invited her, you were in too.โ
I find our catcher hanging out with Cody and a few other of our teammates. I like Trav a lot, heโs a good guy and a good baseball player.
Heโs also twenty-six years old, a lot closer to Millerโs age than me, and doesnโt have someone else that he revolves every minute of his day around. Iโm not surprised that he might be interested in her. Hell, I think anyone would be interested if they knew her, but I hate that if Travisโs interest was
reciprocated, itโd make a whole lot of sense.
โHe into her?โ I ask as casually as possible, taking a pull from the bottle. โWould it bother you if he were?โ
I shoot my brother a side glance. โAnswer the question.โ โYou answer mine.โ
Rolling my eyes, I stare straight ahead once again. โIt would only bother me because sheโs here for Max. I donโt want it to get in the way of her taking care of my son.โ
My brother barks out a laugh. โOh my fucking God. Youโre so full of shit.โ He scrubs a hand over his face to hide his disbelieving grin. โDonโt put this on Maxie. I saw the way you were looking at her in the stands today.โ
โI wasnโt looking at her. I was looking at my kid.โ
โYou can lie to anyone else, including yourself, but donโt try to bullshit me. Iโve known you since the day our wonderful mother blessed the world with me, and I havenโt seen you watch a woman the way you watch Miller in far too long. Hell, maybe ever.โ
Fuck my life.ย I thought my lingering glances were sly, but I canโt lie and say I havenโt found myself looking at her anytime sheโs in the same room as me. The way she is with Max, the odd juxtaposition of her as a personโ polished and put together in the kitchen then reckless and wild outside of it
โmakes me want to learn everything there is to know about her. It doesnโt hurt that sheโs fucking stunning and her blatant statements about the way I look make me feel equally as desired.
I try to save the lie anyway. โSheโs good with my son. So, yeah, of course I like watching them together, but itโs only because Max is happy.โ
โI make Max happy. Monty makes Max happy, but I donโt see you looking at us like you want to fuck us against the wall.โ
โFucking gross, Isaiah.โ
โIโm just saying, itโs okay to admit that you might be interested in more than Millerโs babysitting skills.โ
I shake my head. โIt doesnโt matter. Sheโs leaving.โ
Out of my periphery, Isaiahโs cheeky smile lifts. โFucking knew it.โ His voice isnโt low at all. โFuckingย knewย it. Glad to know the Rhodesโ family jewels are still functioning because I was getting worried there for a minute.โ
โCan you please shut up?โ I look around to make sure no one else heard him. โI havenโt slept with her, Jesus.โ
โWell, get on it. You said it yourself, sheโs leaving.โ
I take another swig of my beer. โWeโre done talking about this.โ โI think sheโs into you too.โ
That gains my attention. โYou think so?โ
He gestures to me. โThis insecure dad thing doesnโt suit you.โ โIโm not being insecure.โ
Iโm completely insecure.
โIโm being realistic. Miller is young and successful. She doesnโt stay put for long. Iโm inching towards retirement and have a kid who will always be my priority. Women like that donโt go for guys like me.โ
Isaiahโs eyes are wide and unblinking. โYou whiny little bitch. You need to get laid and find some of that swag that left when Max showed up at your door. I never thought Iโd see the day where Iโd have to be Malakai Rhodesโ personal hype man but here we go.โ He sits up straighter. โFirst of all, having Max is a bonus, not a deterrentโโ
โI never said heโs a deterrent.โ
My brother holds his hand up to stop me. โI know you didnโt, but youโre thinking other women might view him that way. We donโt give a fuck about those women. There are people out there, letโs take the hot nanny who is living in your side yard for example, who will look at you being a father as a major check in the pro column. And the retirement thingโyouโre a professional athlete. Of course, youโre close to retirement. We all are. Youโre making it seem like youโre in your seventies and about to sign up for an AARP card. You used to have girls falling at your feet. Remember who the fuck you are. Youโre Kai Rhodes, starting pitcher and sexy as hell.โ
I raise my brow at him.
โAnd Iโm only saying that because minus the eye color and glasses, you look a lot like me. Come on, man. Remember my prom date who only said yes to me because she wanted to ride in the same limo as you?โ
โKrista?โ
โKaitlin.โ He sighs, eyes looking up towards the ceiling. โWho I thought was the love of my life until I realized she was in love with my big brother, as was every other girl I wanted in high school.โ
โYou find a new love of your life every other week.โ
He waves me off. โAll Iโm saying is, there would be a horde of women who would happily get you out of your self-inflicted dry spell.โ
โDonโt need a horde of women.โ
โOf course, you donโt. Because youโre only interested in one.โ I shake him off, my voice low. โSheโs Montyโs kid.โ
Just then, the elevator doors open on the lobby level, and like the magnet sheโs become, my attention finds her as soon as sheโs in the room. That dark hair is curled, falling over the tattoos Iโve begun to memorize, and instead of Millerโs typical overalls, dark denim jeans act as a second skin, so tight I can see every striation in her thighs. A cream-colored tank dips between her breasts, her typically bare lips are painted in red, and her eyes are set on me. โDoes she look like a kid to you?โ Isaiah asks, trying to gain my attention, but it does nothing to take my eyes off her. โI didnโt think so. She looks like a grown-ass woman who knows exactly what she wants.โ He pats
my leg as he stands from the couch. โAnd that, my brother, would be you.โ
Miller keeps her jade green gaze attached to mine from across the room and it does all sorts of things to my head and my dick. If I could pull my eyes off her, I imagine Iโd find a few of my teammates checking her out as well. Not that I could blame them, sheโs fucking stunning and that red around her lips has me daydreaming of seeing it smeared around my cock.
But then Travis steps up to offer her a beer, pulling her attention away from mine, and earning one of her smiles.
โAnd yes,โ Isaiah says, walking backward to join the rest of the boys. โTo answer your question. Trav is interested.โ
Fucking hell.
โLetโs go!โ Cody yells into the lobby. โCars are here.โ
Miller says something to my catcher, which causes Travis to join the rest of the team filing outside, but she stays put, lingering behind. I stand and do the same, waiting for the lobby to empty.
Millerโs eyes take their time trailing up my body until finally, they connect with mine. โHi,โ she says, her red painted lips lifting.
โHi there.โ
โYou look hot.โ
I didnโt think too much of my jeans and button-down while I was getting ready, but now Iโm categorizing this as an outfit I need to repeat at my earliest convenience.
โYou donโt look half bad yourself, Montgomery.โ
Understatement of the fucking year. She always looks good. In the overalls, the chefโs coat, or this sinfully tight pair of jeans. Iโve just spent our time together trying not to notice.
A twinkle glitters in those green eyes, a slight color creeping on her cheeks. She pulls her bottom lip between her teeth, and fuck if I donโt want to pluck it out of there and bite it myself. It makes no sense. Sheโs wild, far too carefree for my liking. Not to mention, sheโs Montyโs daughter. I canโt stand half the things that come out of that mouth, but for some reason, I canโt stop imagining what it might taste like.
โIโm now takingย not half badย as your highest compliment yet.โ Her head tilts. โHow was Max at bedtime?โ
The sudden shift in conversation causes me to pause. Iโm not sure why, but I didnโt expect her to ask about my son, especially when sheโs got the night off to go out and party with the team.
โHe was out like a light. I think the field wore him out in the best way possible.โ
Her lips curve in a smile. โWe had fun at your game.โ
โHey!โ Isaiah calls from outside. โKai, weโre leaving! Hot Nanny, letโs go!โ
I shoot him a disapproving glare from across the lobby. โI swear Iโm going to kill him if he keeps calling you that.โ
Miller pops her shoulders. โAt least someone is willing to call me that.โ She turns on her heel, headed straight for the exit.
Isaiahโs reminders ring in my mind, Millerโs blatant words too. Iโve always brushed off her forward flirting, chalking it up to her love of getting under my skin. But I donโt want to brush it off anymore. For one night, I want to pretend I can be the guy who can get a woman like her, the guy that doesnโt have a hundred responsibilities at home weighing him down.
For one night, I donโt want to think about whose daughter she is, and I sure as hell donโt want to think about her leaving in less than two months.
My steps swallow hers, chasing after her. Reaching around Miller for the handle of the door, I pull in, holding it closed with my chest to her back and my arms caging her in on either side.
I lower my lips to her ear. โIs that what you need to hear, Miller? That I think youโre hot? Do you really need to hear me say I canโt keep my fucking eyes off you when youโre in the room, or have you finally picked up on that?โ
Her body stiffens and from behind, I watch her throat move in a long swallow. โNo. I like watching you beat yourself up over wanting to look at me. Itโs much more satisfying to know I piss you off than it would be to know I turn you on.โ
A small laugh rumbles in my chest. โWell, much to my frustration you, Miller, are excellent at both.โ