GIDEON SLOWED HIS STRIDEย to match Runeโs as she led him through the labyrinthine hedges. She carried a lantern in one hand as they walked through her gardens, while her other hand clasped her shawl closed at her throat.
Her hair was loose, and the breeze kept tugging strands across her face, giving him the infuriating urge to drag it back with his fingers.
No paint adorned her lips tonight. No rouge reddened her cheeks. Even her feet were bare. She looked wild and raw and exposed out here. Not the girl he was used to seeing all done up at parties.
It threw him off guard. Heโd come here to win back her trust because she was his best lead. But he found himself โฆ faltering. Unsure of himself. The silence between them rose like a crescendo.
He glanced down at the angry gash on her forearm. How did a girl who spent her days planning parties and spreading gossip come by such a deep wound?
โDid you hurt yourself?โ
Rune startled. โOh! Yes, I โฆ took a tumble while riding yesterday. Sliced my arm on a rock. I can beย soย clumsy.โ She smiled up at him, tucking the arm under her shawl and changing the subject. โHave you given more thought to my invitation?โ
โTo the Luminaries Dinner? I thought my answer was obvious.โ She glanced at him, her lips parting.
Apparently, it was not.
He almost laughed. โRune. Of course Iโll accompany you. You expected me to turn you down?โ
Her eyes held his. โI donโt know what to expect with you.โ The words hung in the air between them.
Was that Rune Winters talking? Or the Crimson Moth?
Gideon had no proof that she and the Moth were the same. Rune had a solid alibi the night before last, and yet she was freshly injuredโmuch like the Moth might be after Laila shot at her. He couldnโt arrest her, but neither was he convinced of her innocence.
It was why he was here. If Runeย wasย the Moth, no way would she trust him after the stunt heโd pulled at the Seldom mine. He needed to patch the hole heโd made, because the only way to unmask her was to get closer to her. And the only way to doย thatย was to convince her to trust him again. If that was even possible.
What would I do if this were a real courtship?
Gideon recoiled at the thought. He didnโt know how to fall for someone as superficial as Rune Winters.
Maybe that was the wrong way to think about it.
How would he fall for a girlย pretendingย to be superficialโin order to outwit him?
That was easier.
Gideon cleared his throat. โYour gardens are beautiful.โ
He winced, imagining Harrow rolling her eyes.ย Is that the best you can do, lover boy?
โAre they?โ Rune murmured, taking in her surroundings. โI try to keep them well tended, but I lack my grandmotherโs โฆ devotion. She loved these flowers like they were her children.โ
At the mention of Kestrel, Runeโs face softened. She continued, unprompted, as her gaze roamed the hedges.
โSometimes, if I squint, I can almost see her still trimming her roses. Or sipping tea in the greenhouse, with her box of seed packets beside her, planning out next seasonโs garden โฆโ
She quickly glanced at Gideon, her face blanching. As if sheโd said more than she meant to. โIโโ
โWe never had a garden,โ he said, to put her at ease. โBut my mother grew herbs in a box on the windowsill.โ
He immediately wished heโd thought of something else to say. His familyโs lack of land was an obvious reminder of the gap between them: their stations, their upbringings, their lives. It was a gap that had narrowed since the revolution, but it would never close.
Proving him exactly right, she said: โYou could have a garden now, if you wanted. You could live somewhere far grander than even Wintersea House, with gardens more well kept, as a reward for everything you did for the Republic. Iโm sure the Good Commander would grant it all to you, if you asked.โ
โIโm happy in Old Town.โ โAre you?โ
Gideon flinched at her question, remembering the day he took her measurements in his parentsโ shop. He wondered what sheโd been thinking as she walked the sooty streets of his neighborhood. Breathing in the smoggy air. Listening to the rattle and hiss of the factories nearby.
โOld Town didnโt impress you, I take it.โ
She stiffened beside him. โI only meantโโ โWas that your first time there?โ
She didnโt need to answer; he could easily guess.
In all the years Rune and Alex had been friends, sheโd never set foot in their tenement. Alex had always gone to Wintersea House. Either his brother had been too ashamed to invite her into their home, or heโd invited her, and Rune had declined to come.
โWhen my parents died, the shop and apartment passed to me,โ he explained.
โBut why choose to live there? Why not sell it and ask the Commander for an estate of your own? Thornwood Hall, for example, could have been yours.โ
Thornwood Hall. Gideon shivered.
A dark shadow hung over that house. He could still feel Cressida there. Still smell the stench of her magic in the air. The few times heโd gone back,
heโd been plagued by living nightmares.
โI would rather sleep beneath a bridge than sleep in Thornwood Hall,โ he said, more to himself than to her. โIf you found Old Town beneath you, I certainly wonโt admit to the neighborhood we lived in before that.โ
โI never said Old Town was beneath me.โ
Her voice came from several paces behind him, making him realize sheโd stopped walking. Turning to face her, he found her edges lit up by the red-gold light of the setting sun and her white sundress whipping around her knees in the wind. They were at the edge of the gardens here. The hedges were lower and less manicured. Wild, like her.
โYour neighborhood is โฆ quaint.โ
โQuaintย is a word polite people use when they donโt want to be insulting.โ
Her cheeks reddened and her hair blew across her face. โAre you so determined to misunderstand me?โ
Gideon paused, studying her. If he and Rune Winters were truly courtingโwhich would never happenโthis is exactly the argument he would have with her.
โIs itย quaintย that the residents of Old Town scrape their pennies together to keep the lights on?ย Quaintย that parents spend half the year starving, so their children donโt have to? When Penitent children beg in Old Town streets? Or the old and infirm freeze to death in their beds because they canโt afford to heat their apartments?โ
These things were regular occurrences in Old Town.
Rune stared in horror at Gideon. Of course she didnโt know about these things. She lived in a different world. One that was only an hourโs ride on horseback but might as well be as far as the moon.
Gideon turned and kept walking, annoyed with himself for bringing it up. Annoyed at her for being โฆ well, her.
โIโm not sure why youโre angry at me,โ she said to his back. โIf Penitent children are begging in the street, itโs the Republic you should blame. The Good Commander made their families outcasts for aiding witches.โ
Gideon stopped.
โOr donโt you remember that the Commander promised us a better world?โ she continued before he could respond. โOne where no one lives in squalor.โ
Despite his anger, she was right. Gideon remembered the rallies. The speeches. The pamphlets hidden in pockets and shoes or between the pages of books passed under the noses of the aristocracy. Nicolas Creedย hadย promised to usher in a better world. But that world had yet to fully arrive.
โIf people live in poverty,โ she said, โyou should direct your anger at
him.โ
He whirled on her.
โYou think we werenโt impoverished before? You have no idea what the real world is like, Rune. You live a pampered, privileged existence and always have. Iโm not saying thatโs your fault. Iโm simply stating facts. If you donโt want to look at ugly things, you donโt have to. You can pretend they donโt exist.โ
A bright flush of red swept up her neck.
โPeople like you and your grandmother flourished under the Reign of Witches, when things were worse than they are now. So donโt pretend you care. You didnโt then, and you donโt now. The Sister Queens or the Good Commander โฆ itโs all the same to you.โ
She winced, as if heโd struck her. Seeing it, the fight went out of him.ย Fuck.ย That was too far.
โRune โฆโ He ran his hands roughly through his hair. โIโm sorry.โ
Did he have to be so brutally honest? She seemed so small, suddenly. He wanted to close the space between them but was afraid she might recoil. โI agree with you: the revolution was supposed to make things better,
for all of us, but thereโs a long way to go.โ
She stayed silent, watching him as the wind whipped through her hair.
Iโve ruined it,ย he thought.ย Sheโs going to turn around, go back, and never speak to me again.
But instead of trying to salvage thisโhis last fraying thread to his only lead on the Crimson Mothโhe gave her that out. He felt sick with himself
for insulting her, and the right thing to do was suggest they return to the house.
Before he could, she stepped toward him, stopping only inches away. โIf I thought you were beneath me โฆโ Her eyes were hard as pewter,
searching his. โโฆ why would I be out on a walk with you?โ He searched hers back.
Why indeed?
Lifting his hands, he gathered the wild tangle of hair blowing across her face. It surprised him when she didnโt flinch away, when she let him scrape it back instead. She seemed to soften as he held it, allowing him to see her clearly.
He shouldnโt have liked it so muchโthe feel of her hair against his palms, the way she relaxed beneath his fingers.
โBeautiful heiresses might court common soldiers,โ he said. โBut they donโt marry them.โ
Her mouth quirked a little. โDid you just call me beautiful, Gideon?โ โIโm stating the obvious. Donโt change the subject.โ
She looked away.
โYou know itโs true, Rune. People of your station donโt marry down.โ
In Gideonโs experience, those born into wealth and privilege wanted more of it, not less. Like the first hit of a drug, the moment people tasted power, they needed more to quench the craving.
โI donโt know how to dance to your songs,โ he said. โI donโt have the esteem of your friends. I donโt use seventeen pieces of silverware at dinner.โ He let go of her hair, and it billowed out, catching in the wind once more. โI have no means of expanding your inheritance.โ
He knew he was walking a fine line, reminding her of the reasons they made no sense. That this charade they were playing was a weak one. But if the goal was to be vulnerable, to entice her to be vulnerable, too, he needed to speak the truth.
โPeople likeย youย are impossible,โ she said. โI donโt care about those things.โ
He almost rolled his eyes. โOf course you do.โ
โThen why are we here? If Iโm so shallowโall trappings and no substanceโwhat are you doing with me? Why would someone likeย youย want someone likeย me?โ
Gideon opened his mouth to respond, only he didnโt know the answer.
He studied her, hair ablaze in the setting sun. Gray eyes like molten steel.
In his silence, Rune came to her own conclusions.
โMaybe youโre right.โ She stepped around him, lantern in hand, and unlatched the white gate at the gardenโs edge, stepping into the meadow beyond. โOne of us thinks ourself too good for the other. But itโs not me.โ
The gate swung closed behind her. Gideon stared after her.
What?
From this side of the gate, he watched her follow the footpath through the tall grass, heading toward the woods in the distance. For some strange reason, his thoughts trickled to Cressida.
Heโd learned very quickly not to challenge Cress. Arguments with her came with consequences. When he disagreed or disobeyed, she would punish himโand sometimes others. Until he stopped resisting her altogether.
Rune, on the other hand, seemed rattled by his insults, but unfazed by his defiance.
It was uncharted territory. And without a map to guide him, Gideon stood motionless, watching her get further away. Not even Harrowโs voice in his head was any help.
If you genuinely liked this girl,ย he told himself,ย you would go after her.
Hopping over the gate, Gideon jogged down the path after her, his pulse beating wildly. As a general rule, Gideon avoided situations that rendered him vulnerable. Yet here he was, running straight into one.
โIf weโre going to do this,โ he said when he caught up with her, โthere are some things you need to know.โ
She glanced at him.
โSo you can decide if this is what you want. Ifย Iย am what you want.โ
The forest ahead obscured their view of the sea, but he could taste the brine on the breeze. They were getting close.
She studied him in the light shining from her lantern. โAll right. Tell me.โ
This is a game,ย he reminded himself, his chest tight.ย It means nothing.
But if that were true, why did he feel like he was walking straight off a cliff, hoping he wouldnโt fall?