MY POST-SEX HIGH LASTED PRECISELY AN HOUR ANDย eight minutes. After our awkward run-in with Kai and Isabella in the library, a red-faced Alessandra left with the couple (I assumed she and Isabella had a lot to catch up on), and I went home with my blood buzzing.
I knew better than to assume sex meant anything more than a temporary melding of desires, but it was a modicum of progress in our relationship, and that was all I could ask for at the moment.
The penthouse greeted me with silence when I returned. Iโd given the staff the week off for Christmas, and my footsteps echoed against the marble floors as I walked through the foyer to the living room. I should turn
โ
Something moved in the darkness.
A cold dagger of fear severed the last tendrils of my warm, Alessandra- induced haze, and I came to an abrupt halt.
A second later, a lamp flicked on, throwing relief over midnight hair and cool green eyes.
โLate night,โ my brother drawled. โWhereโve you been?โ
My fear crisped, burning into anger. โHow the fuck did you get in?โ
Roman lounged on the couch like an emperor lounging on his throne. A silver dagger glinted against his all-black outfit, and he tossed it
absentmindedly from hand to hand while surveying me with amusement. โYour security system is good,โ he said. โIโm better.โ
My jaw tensed into granite.
I had the best system money could buy. I also employed the best tracker in the city, and he hadnโt been able to dig up a single thing about Romanโs past or where heโd been since Martin Wellgrewโs suspiciously timed death at Le Boudoir.
What have you been up to since high school, Rome?
โDonโt worry. I come in peace.โ He held up his hands, his tone half- mocking, half-sincere. โWipe the suspicious look off your face. Canโt a guy pay a friendly visit to his brother for the holidays?โ
โA friendly visit means a knock on the door, not breaking and entering.โ โNo one was home when I dropped by, so a knock wouldnโt have done
anything, would it?โ
โDonโt bullshit me.โ I crossed the room, cognizant of both the dagger in his hands and the gun Iโd tucked in the fireplaceโs concealment mantle. โYou disappeared after Le Boudoir, and you wouldnโt be here unless you want something.โ
His mouth sobered, and the dagger came to a standstill in his left hand. โLike I said, itโs the holidays. They make me nostalgic.โ
โWe had shitty holidays.โ Our foster family hadnโt been big on gift- giving or Christmas cheer. The only present Iโd received from them was a pair of hand-me-down socks.
Roman shrugged. โTrue, but they had their moments. Remember when we got drunk off eggnog for the first time and trashed Mrs. Peltzerโs garden gnomes? We could hear her screaming from half a block away.โ
โWe did her a favor. Those gnomes were hideous.โ
โThat they were.โ Shadows danced over his face. โI didnโt have anyone to celebrate Christmas with after you left. Juvie was a hellhole. When I got out, I had no friends, no family, no money.โ
Guilt pressed in on all sides. While Iโd been rubbing elbows with classmates and professors at Thayer, Roman had been suffering alone. Heโd
made his choices and faced the consequences, but that didnโt ease the bitter heaviness in my throat.
Still, he was an adult now, a dangerous one, and Iโd be a fool to let sentimentality dampen self-preservation.
โYou seem to be doing fine now.โ I stopped next to the fireplace, my eyes trained on Roman, my senses on high alert for any surprises that may leap out of the shadows.
โSo it seems.โ He pressed the tip of his blade against his finger. A tiny drop of blood welled. โI floated for a while after juvie until I met John. He was a World War II vet and prickly as hell, but he gave me a steady gig in his shop and a place to live. If it werenโt for him, I wouldnโt be where I am today.โ The shadows darkened further. โHe died last year.โ
โIโm sorry.โ I meant it.
I didnโt know the man, but Iโd had a similar figure in my life, and Ehrlichโs death had unmoored me more than anything else had up to that point.
โI told him about you, you know,โ Roman said quietly. โHow close we were. How you betrayed me, and how much I hated you. That hatred kept me alive, Dom, because I refused to die while you got every fucking thing you wanted.โ
The bitterness swelled. It was a hundred boulders tied around my waist, dragging me down until I drowned beneath its weight. โI wouldโve helped you. If youโd asked me for anything else, anything except an alibi, I wouldโve done it.โ
โWhoโs the one bullshitting now?โ Roman rose from the couch, resentment carving deep cuts across his indifference until it lay in tatters on the ground. โYou wouldnโt have done a single thing because Dominic Davenport always looks out for number one. How many times did I cover your ass when we were younger? Dozens. How many times did I ask for your help?ย One.โ
Flames of frustration licked at my guilt. โThereโs a difference between lying about underage drinking and fuckingย arson!โ
โYou want me to believe you give a shit about the law?โ His anger bounced off the marble with teeth-rattling volume. โDonโt tell me you havenโt done shady shit since I last saw you. Youโll do it to enrich yourself, but you wonโt do it to help anyone else.โ Animosity blazed through his eyes. โIt wasnโt about the alibi. It was about loyalty. You didnโt even try to stay. You saw how my trouble threatened your precious get-rich plan, and you turned your back on the only family you ever had.โ
The buzz returned with a vengeance. It was deafening, a cacophony of noise I couldnโt block out no matter how hard I tried.
โIt seems to be a recurring pattern.โ Romanโs expression smoothed with his kill shot. โWhereโs your wife, Dom? Did she get sick of your shit and finally leave?โ
The tight, hard knot thatโd been building inside me since the night I came home and found Alessandra gone finally exploded.
A snarl ripped through the air as I charged forward. Fist met bone, eliciting a sharp hiss. Roman was caught off guard only for a second before he tossed his dagger to the side and returned my hit with so much force it knocked the breath out of my lungs.
A vase shattered on the ground as we attacked each other the way only brothers could, with hostility more potent because of our shared past. I didnโt go for my gun; he didnโt reach for his blade. Our confrontation had been fifteen years in the making, and we werenโt letting weapons soften our blows.
This was fucking personal.
Sweat and fury soaked the air. Skin split, pushing rivulets of blood down our faces. My vision flashed black, and the taste of copper filled my mouth. Somewhere, bone crunched.
It wasnโt the first time Roman and I had physically fought. As teenagers, we were quick to anger, and we often tussled our way to cuts and bruises. However, the years had ramped up our capacity for brutality, and we mightโve both died that night had we not clung so fiercely to our reasons for living.
Alessandra for me, something unknown for Roman that he would never share.
Finally, at some point between the grunts and blows, our energy depleted. We sank onto the floor, bruised and exhausted, our chests heaving from the aftermath of the storm.
โFuck.โ I spat out a mouthful of blood. It stained the edge of the twenty- thousand-dollar rug Iโd bought in Turkey, but that was the good thing about being rich. Everything was replaceable.ย Almost everything.ย โYouโre not a scrawny little shit anymore.โ
โAnd you finally learned how to fight without cheating.โ โFighting smarter instead of harder isnโt cheating.โ
Roman snorted. Deep purple blotches were already forming on his face, and dried blood painted rusty streaks across his skin. One eye was swollen half shut.
I bet I didnโt look any better. Every inch of my body screamed with agony now that my adrenaline had crashed, and I was pretty sure Iโd fractured a bone or two. However, while Iโd taken a physical beating, the painful buzz in my head was gone. Our fight had expelled whatever had been festering inside me since I left Ohio, and that was worth every black eye and fracture.
Roman leaned his head back against the wall, his expression drained of anger. โDo you ever regret it?โ
I didnโt have to ask what he was referring to. โAll the damn time.โ
Our breaths slowed to normal in the silence. It wasnโt a comfortable quiet, but it wasnโt destructive either. It just was.
โI tried looking for you,โ I said. โAfter college. Multiple times. You were a ghost.โ
โThereโs a reason for that.โ His reply carried hints of warning and tiredness.
A long-buried protective instinct flared to life. Despite our tumultuous history, he was still my younger brother. I didnโt have the resources to protect either of us back then, but I did now. โWhat have you gotten yourself into, Rome?โ
โDonโt ask questions you donโt want the answers to. Itโs better that way
โfor both of us.โ
โAt least tell me you didnโt have anything to do with Wellgrewโs death.โ
Orion Bank had been in chaos since his untimely demise. The new head of the bank was an idiot who seemed like he wasย tryingย to run the institution into the ground, and Wellgrewโs death had been ruled an accident despite people whispering otherwise.
โDonโt worry about him.โ This time, Romanโs warning came through loud and clear. โHeโs dead. Thatโs it. Itโs over.โ
I wiped a hand over my face. My palm came away bloody.
I wasnโt a boy struggling to survive in Ohio anymore, but maybe, beneath the money and power, I was still a coward. Because despite the alarm bells that rang with every word out of Romanโs mouth, I chose to ignore them.
Weโd reached a temporary truce, and though Iโd never admit it, it felt good to be around family againโenough so that I didnโt dare peel back the mask and see what my brother had become.