THAT MOMENT MUST have been so fun for Parker.
She broke me. She really did.
All that effort Iโd made to be there and withstand it all and stay until the end?
Annihilated.
I charged past my still-motionless dad, through the still-gaping crowd, and pushed my way toward the exit, feeling weirdly like I was underwater and hoping desperately that there might be more air outside than in.
But nope.
Outside was just as airless.
I felt woozy. I stopped just past the entrance and pressed my palms and forehead against the brick wall, trying to pull it together.
Easier imagined than done.
Before Iโd stabilized, I heard a voice. And sure, I wasnโt great at voices, but it didnโt take me long to figure out who it was.
โThere you are! Itโs not over is it? I was just parking, but your dad should already be in there. Did he find you? Iโm so glad I double-checked after we got Parkerโs email,โ she was saying. โWe almost missed this entire thing!โ
I lifted my head away from the brick wall and turned around.
I looked straight at Lucindaโs scrambled face, still breathing hard. โWhat,โ I asked, โdid you double-check?โ
Lucinda took a step closer. โThe show tonight,โ she said. โParker thought it was canceled.โ
In that moment, my dad showed up behind Lucinda. And Parker behind him.
I took in the scene. Lucinda, very slow on the uptake about what was going down; my dad, looking crushed, upside-down bouquet still forgotten in his good hand; and Parker, standing behind them both, her face the very definition of smug.
โParker emailed you,โ I said then, โto say that the art show was canceled?โ
Lucinda nodded. โWe almost didnโt come. Good thing Iโโ โThe show was never canceled,โ I said.
โWe know that now,โ Lucinda said. โThank goodness I thought to call the gallery.โ
But she was missing my point. โParker lied to you.โ โNo, no,โ Lucinda said. โIโm sure sheโโ
โShe lied to you,โ I said, โbecause she wanted you to stand me up.โ
Lucindaโs utter incomprehension at this idea made me want to light myself on fire. She shook her head. โI think she justโโ
But I couldnโt bear to listen to her try to explain.
I cut her off. โShe lied to you because she always lies to you. She lied to you because she wants us to hate each other. She lied to you because itโs fun for her! Because she delights in messing with people! Becauseย you let her!ย You never question her. You never challenge her. You never use any kind of critical thinking. Even when her facts donโt add up! Even when nothing makes any sense! Sheโs making up a story of this familyโand itโs not even a good one! But you just believe itโevery damn time.โ
โI know youโre upset,โ Lucinda said. โBut letโs not slander Parker. She really thought it was canceled. If I hadnโt texted her to set her straight, sheโd have missed it, too.โ
โYou always believe herโno questions asked! And you never, ever believe me. Even whenโasย alwaysโIโm telling you the truth.โ
Lucinda and my dad looked at each other, like,ย Here we go again.
Sure. Had I said this to them a thousand times? Yes.
I had yelled it to them as an angry teenager. I had sobbed it to them in a school parking lot. I had written it to them in countless careful, logical, please-believe-me letters.
Had it ever worked? Never. Not once.
Talk about confirmation bias! They had decided decades ago who Parker and I both wereโand those decisions had hardened into stone by now. But I didnโt care.
Here we went again. โIf Parker said I stole your grandmotherโs ruby hat pin out of your jewelry box, you believed her. Even though it was Parker who stole it and took it to a pawnshop downtown and used the money to buy tickets to a concert she wasnโt even allowed to go to! She had to sneak out! But she told you it was me, so it was me. I got grounded for stealing, and she took my boyfriend to a concert!โ
Lucinda tried to make her voice soothing, like you would with a dog. โSweetheart, that was all so long agoโโ
โWas it? Is it? Itโs still going on! Right now! This, right here, is Parker telling you I crashed your carโand you believing her. This is Parker telling you the stolen math exam answers in our room were mineโand you believing her. This is Parkerโbullying the hell out of poor, kindhearted Augusta Ross so viciously and so toxically that the girlย ate a whole bottle of Tylenolย and then telling the school administrators that it was meโand you, all of you, believing her!โ
I could hear my voice go off the rails. Starting to sound like Janis Joplin. Louder and screechierโas if volume or desperation or hysteria could get through to them.
Though it certainly never had before.
A new crowd of people was starting to gather around us. Lucinda glanced around at them uncomfortably. She lowered her voice. โSadie, letโs all just try to move on.โ
Which made me want to bang my head against that brick wall. What did any of them think I was trying to do?
โWhen did you text her?โ I demanded of Lucinda then. โWhat?โ
โWhen did you text Parker to let her know that the show was happening after all?โ
Lucinda looked over at Parker, like Parker might hint at how to answer. โWhen!โ I shouted.
โAbout ten minutes ago,โ Lucinda said.
I nodded. โGuess when Parker got here? An hour ago. Sheโs been taunting me at my own art exhibition forย over an hour.ย And guess what she
said right as she walked in? She said, โGuess they stood you up.โโ Lucinda stared at me, taking that in.
โSheย engineeredย this. She created it. She saw you trying to be nice to me, and she torpedoed us all. Again.โ
But Lucinda was shaking her head. โSweetheart, Iโโ โYou never believe me,โ I said. โBut itโs the truth.โ
Just as I said it, a woman stepped out of the crowd and walked up to us all, standing there. โHello,โ she said, in a chipper voice.
It was so odd that she would approach us right then, mid-fight. I mean,
Come on, lady. Read the room.
But she clearly wasnโt put off by the family squabble. She just plowed right on ahead.
She stuck out her hand to shake Lucindaโs and then did the same thing to my dad, and then she said, โMr. and Mrs. Montgomery, you probably donโt remember meโฆโ
My dad and Lucinda shook their heads to confirm. โBut my name,โ the lady went on, โis Augusta Ross.โ
Okay, we may not have remembered the personโbut absolutely no one in our family couldย everย have forgotten that name.
Lucinda dropped her purse at the sound of it, and Augusta politely picked it up for her.
โAugusta Ross?โ Lucinda confirmed.
โItโs so lucky I ran into you,โ Augusta went on with determined brightness. โIโve been wanting to reach out.โ
โWhy,โ Lucinda asked, โwould you want to do that?โ
โAnd itโs so lucky that I arrived just when I did, donโt you think? Here I was, coming to see the art show of my dear old friend Sadie, and what should I hear as I walk up to the building but Sadie herself, shouting my name.โ
Nobody knew what to say to that. Not even me.
I was still wrapping my head around it. Augusta Ross was here?ย The
Augusta Ross?
โJust to bring you up to speed,โ Augusta said, her voice still aggressively bright. โAfter my suicide attempt all those years ago, my parents moved us across the country. As you can imagine, they cut off all contact with people weโd known back here. Life was hard enough for a
while, and I just did my best to put it all behind me. Blah-blah-blahโI grew up, went to Stanford for art history, got offered a fantastic job with Rice University, and wound up moving back here last summer. Over my parentsโ objections, of course.โ
Safe to say, nobody in my sad little family had any idea where all this was heading.
โAnyway,โ Augusta went on, all chatty, โafter I moved back, I started bumping into old classmates and hearing the craziest stories about that whole me-getting-bullied-to-the-brink-of-suicide thing. The craziest of all wasโand I just keep feeling like this canโt be trueโthat Sadie was the one who got blamed for the bullying. Thatโs not right, is it?โ
I glanced at Parker. The smugness had most definitely faded from her vibe.
โWellโฆโ Lucinda said, glancing at my dad. โThe school takes a zero- tolerance stance on bullyingโฆโ
โAs they should,โ Augusta said. โButย Sadie,ย as I believe she was just telling you, is not the person who bullied me.โ
We all just stared at Augusta in mute astonishment.
โThe person who bullied me,โ Augusta went on, โwas Parker.โ
โParker!โ Lucinda said, as if Augusta had just said โTaylor Swift.โ
โOh, yeah,โ Augusta went on. โThat whole year. She left notes in my locker. She picked on my clothes. She told me I was ugly, and no one would ever love me, and I should just give up. Daily. Hourly, sometimes.ย Hooooo- boyโshe was vicious.โ
Lucinda took a stunned step back.
โSadie was always super nice,โ Augusta said, nodding at me approvingly. โIn fact, sheโs still nice.โ
Then Augusta walked closer to me and handed over a little bundle. โHereโs your dress back,โ she said.
I looked down. โMy dress?โ
โYour ruffle dress,โ she said, just as I saw the polka-dot fabric. I put it together. โYouโre the coffee girl? That was you?โ
โYou didnโt recognize me that day,โ Augusta said. โIโve changed a lot.โ Hadnโt we all?
โButย Iย recognizedย you,โ she went on. โI was just coming over to say hi when Parker knocked me down. And then you were helping me up and
giving me your dress. Sweet as ever. I thought about saying something then, but I was so late. I googled you later to find a way to bring your dress back, and I saw the notice about the art show.โ
โDid you make it to the airport?โ I asked.
Augusta nodded and held up a sparkly engagement ring. โI did.โ Then she turned back to my dad and Lucinda. โI was going to write you a letter to set things straight. And I really just came here tonight to say hi to Sadie and support her show. But then I wound up eavesdropping โฆ and I couldnโt resist jumping in.โ
Augusta turned back to me. โParker framed you for it, huh?โ I nodded. โThey kicked me out of school.โ
โIโm so sorry,โ Augusta said. โI had no idea. After we left, my parents shielded me from every single thing related to this place.โ
โUnderstandably,โ I said.
โAnyway,โ Augusta said, turning back with false brightness to the slack-jawed pair of my father and Lucinda. โI couldnโt help but overhear Sadie saying that you never believe her. But hereโs a little pro tip from somebody who knows both of your daughters pretty well. If you have a choice between Parker and Sadie? Pick Sadieโevery time.โ