โIย take back what I said about the malfunctioning robot,โ Xavier said.
โI donโt want to insult robots.โ
I dropped my arms and glared at him. โIf I had a better teacher, Iโd be
doingย better.โ
We were on the villaโs terrace, where heated lamps warded off the late- night chill and portable speakers played a medley of local and international music. Xavier had insisted the outdoors would help me โrelax,โ but so far, I was embarrassed, frustrated, and no closer to improving my dance skills than when we started my lessons an hour earlier.
โYou have to loosen up.โ Xavier brushed off my indictment of his teaching abilities. โDancing is about movement. You canโt move properly if youโre imitating a petrified piece of wood.โ
โIโm loosened up.โ A defensive note crept into my voice. โAlso, might I remind you I could be sleeping right now instead of enduring your insults?โ
I should walk away because there was nothing worse than trying my best and failing, but the competitor in me refused to give up.
I was Sloane Kensington. I didnโt fail, and I didnโt quit. (The only reason Iโd stopped my childhood ballet lessons was because I outgrew my age group. Also, I was pretty sure Iโd given Madame Olga an ulcer when she retired).
โYet youโre here.โ Xavier placed his hands on my hips.
I stiffened, every muscle turning rigid at the warmth seeping through my dress.
โSee what I mean about petrified wood?โ He shook his head. โPretend youโre back at the spa. Youโre getting a massage, your muscles are looseโฆ now move your hips like this. No, the other way.โ His touch seared my skin and distracted me from his instructions. He probably had a fever from walking around shirtless all the time. He should really get that checked out. โMove them in a circle, Luna, not a square.โ
โItย isย a circle.โ
โNo offense, but you might need to brush up on your geometry.โ Xavierโs grip tightened, stilling my movements. โWhat are you thinking about?โ
โMoving my hips in a circle.โ
โThatโs your problem,โ he said. โYou shouldnโt be thinking about that.โ โYou just saidโโ
โYou have toย feelย the movement. The more you think, the less natural it looks.โ
My teeth ground together in frustration. โIโm sorry, but I like thinking.
Itโs something I try to do on a daily basis.โ
โThat explains a lot.โ Xavier released me and stepped back.
A cool wave of relief coasted through my chest, followed by an alarming pinch ofโฆdisappointment? No, that couldnโt be right.
I waited for him to continue the lesson, but he simply studied me with that deep, dark gaze.
Tousled black hair fell carelessly over one eye, shielding his thoughts as the silence stretched into uncomfortable territory. There was a pensiveness to him that I rarely saw, and it molded his features into a devastating portrait Michelangelo himself wouldโve been proud of.
The dramatic slant of his cheekbones, the thick dark brows, the sculpted mouth that seemed infinitely more inviting when it wasnโt wearing a provocative smileโฆhis face dared me to look away, and I couldnโt.
Electric awareness dripped into the air and snuffed out the oxygen.
Xavier and I had been alone many times before, but this was the first time I recognized the danger in him. Beneath the layers of indolent self- possession, there was a man who could set my world aflame if he wanted.
God, what is wrong with me?ย Iโd gone years without reacting to his presence in any discernible way (unless irritation counted), but ever since we arrived in Spain, my shields had slipped. Maybe it was the brief glimpses into a realer, more vulnerable side of Xavierโthe side that wasnโt all about drinking and sleepingโor maybe our spa day had rewired my brain.
Whatever it was, I didnโt like it.
Self-preservation punctured my awareness right as he spoke again. โLetโs get a drink.โ
He turned and walked toward the bar cart nestled in the corner.
The remaining static fizzled into nothing as I tried to keep up with the whiplash. โWhat about the lessons?โ
โWeโll resume after the break.โ Xavier grabbed two glasses and started mixing drinks right there in the middle of the terrace.
My eyebrows skyrocketed. Iโd never seen him make cocktails before, but he moved with the fluid grace of a seasoned bartender.
โSo much for not getting wasted,โ I groused when he handed me an admittedly delicious-looking pale orange drink.
โItโs one drink. You wonโt get wasted unless you have the tolerance of a five-year-old.โ Xavierโs mouth tilted at the corner. โSalud.โ
I kept my eyes on his as I took a small sip. Fuck, that was good. โDid you make this up on the spot?โ
I didnโt recognize the taste, and yesterdayโs party had cleared out half the bar, leaving only a handful of ingredients for him to work with.
โYou make do with what you have.โ A roll of his shoulders, followed by a teasing smile. โIโm naming it the Sloane. Bitter at first but with a sweet aftertaste. Just like someone I know.โ
โYou donโt know how I taste.โ
His smile took on a decidedly more wicked slant. โNot yet.โ
My body reacted, instantly and viscerally, like heโd flipped theย on
switch in a long-untouched room.
My breasts tightened as heat flickered between my thighs, turning my body warm and languid. Less-than-innocent images flashed through my mind before I wrestled them into a box and slammed the lid shut.
No. Absolutely not.
I could not be having this reaction to Xavier, of all people. This was what I got for ending my sex-only situationship with Mark. If Iโd slept with him before I left, I wouldnโt be so wound up.
โHowโs delusion treating you?โ I asked, striving for indifference even as I strangled my glass.
โQuite well.โ Xavierโs eyes gleamed like he could reach inside me and pick out every filthy, inappropriate thought. He leaned against the wall, seemingly unaware of the havoc heโd just wreaked. โSince weโre still on break, letโs try something else. Truth or dare. You choose.โ
โTruth or dare? What are we, twelve?โ
โItโs a timeless game.โ He arched one brow. โUnless youโre scared.โ
Fuck it. Playing the stupid game was better than humiliating myself dancing again. โTruth.โ
โIf you could be anything other than a publicist, what would you be?โ
I blinked. It wasnโt a question Iโd expected, nor was it one Iโd given much thought to before. โNothing. I love my job.โ
And I did. Despite the frustrations, the breakneck pace, and the clients who made me want to tear my hair out sometimes, I thrived under pressure. There was no downtime for reflection. There were only problems I could solve and solutions I could implement.
People could call me a bitch or an ice queen, but there was one unshakeable, undeniable truthโI was the best at what I did. Hands down. That was why CEOs, celebrities, and socialites paid me the big bucks. They didnโt all like me personally, but they respected me and they needed me.
So you like to be needed.
Xavierโs observation floated to the surface before I brushed it aside. So what?ย Everyoneย liked to be needed. Those who said they didnโt were lying.
โNothing? Thereโs not a single career you would consider outside PR?โ He looked unconvinced. โI call bullshit.โ
โMaybe Iโd be a surgeon,โ I allowed. It was another high-pressure, fast- paced career. I had steady hands and I wasnโt squeamish about blood. Commanding an operating room and saving lives could be exciting.
Xavierโs mouth quirked. โUnsurprising.โ
โIโll take that as a compliment.โ I finished my drink. โYour turn. Truth or dare.โ
โTruth.โ
Interesting. I wouldโve pegged him as a dare guy.
โSimilar question,โ I said. โIf you had to choose anย actualย career, what would you choose?โ I was genuinely curious. Xavier had never expressed an ambition for any type of job. What made someone like him tick?
He languished in the shadow of the villa, untouched by the moon or terrace lights, but his eyes sparked at my question.
โOne Iโm good at,โ he said. โLike?โ
A cloud passed over his expression before his smile reappeared. โLike teaching you how to dance. I think weโve taken a long enough break.โ He
pushed off the wall and poured two shots of whiskey. โOne more for courage.ย Salud.โ
His hand brushed mine as he handed me my shot, and a tiny jolt zipped down my spine.
The whiskey burned smooth enough to dampen any concerns over my bodyโs strange reactions tonight. โYou didnโt answer my question truthfully,โ I said.
Warmth buzzed over my skin and pooled in my veins. I held my liquor pretty well, but the drinks wereย strong, and I didnโt resist the intoxication as fiercely as I normally did.
It felt good to let my control slip. Just a little bit.
โI wasnโt lying when I said I would choose a career Iโd be good at.โ A smile still played at the corners of his mouth, but his eyes contained a soft warning. โI even gave you an example.โ
โSemantics. You donโt play fair.โ
โI never do.โ He came around behind me. His hands found my hips, and my breaths slowed beneath the weight of renewed static. โLetโs try this again.โ
The music changed to something sultrier, easier to follow. Maybe it was the new rhythm. Maybe it was the alcohol. Or maybe it was my attempt to focus on anythingย exceptย Xavier that loosened my inhibitions.
Whatever it was, it worked. I didnโt hyperfocus on moving exactly the way I should, and the ironic result was that my movements flowed so much more easily.
I wouldnโt win competitions anytime soon, but I no longer resembled a malfunctioning robot, as someone had so rudely pointed out earlier.
โMuch better.โ Xavierโs murmur grazed the nape of my neck, eliciting an involuntary shiver of pleasure. โThere might be hope for you yet.โ
The seeds of a witty reply died on my tongue when he lowered his head so his face came next to mine. A delicious earthy scent seeped into my
senses, heightening taste, smell, and touch until my mouth watered and I could feel every beat of his heart against my back.
I turned my head a fraction of an inch, just enough to meet his eyes. I wished I hadnโt.
Xavierโs gaze smoldered like a lit match in the dark, scorching every inch of skin and any semblance of distance between us.
Beads of sweat dripped between my breasts. It was an inferno out here, but he was so close, and my head was so light, that if I justโฆ
My lips parted.
His eyes darkened, andโ
โLuca!โ A girlish squeal from the neighboring villa tore between us. โThatโs my favorite bag!โ
There was an indecipherable reply, followed by a riot of laughter and thenโฆsilence. But it was too late.
The interruption snapped me out of whatever trance Xavierโs drinks/unholy magic/suspiciously glorious cologne put me under.
I jerked away from him, the loss of body warmth as sobering as the bowl of ice water Iโd thrown on him mere days ago.
What was Iย doing?
He was my client, and Iโd almostโฆheโd almostโฆ
Xavier stared at me, his expression unreadable. If it werenโt for the heavy rise and fall of his chest, I wouldโve thought him unmoved by what just happenedโor didnโt happen.
My heart crashed against my ribcage, but I lifted my chin, broke eye contact, and forced myself to walk calmly into the villa without another word.
He didnโt stop me, and as I closed my bedroom door behind me and slumped to the floor, I hated how a tiny part of me wished he had.