โTHATโS IT. IโM quitting school and becoming a stripper.โ A fuming Amara slumps beside me.
Itโs a rare occasion that Connecticut gives us nice weather, so Iโm taking full advantage by sitting outside by the statue of Sir Davis Dalton. The spray painted devil horns and super-glued pitchfork are long gone, though red stains linger on some parts.
Iโm guessing Amaraโs meeting didnโt go well. โI thought you said you didnโt have the core strength for that.โ
Sampson slides onto the bench beside me. โI wouldnโt mind a private show from you, Amara. No core strength required.โ
Amara scoffs. โLike you could afford me, Sampson.โ She abruptly stands. โIโll meet you at home, Sum, far away from the scum of the earth.โ
I watch her retreat, and when I turn back to Sampson he grins. โI think she likes me.โ
โWhat do you want?โ
He eyes me. โSomeoneโs snappy today.โ
โMake one period comment and say goodbye to your hand.โ
He waves his fingers in front of my face. โYouโd be depriving many girls of this magic.โ
โOr saving them from misery,โ I mutter.
Sampson stares at me with a curious look. โHow are things with your application?โ
โYouโre looking at a potential Stanford grad student,โ I mutter.
Last week, my social media was full of students celebrating their acceptance to Dalton. I havenโt received anything, and when I talked to Langston, she said co-op applications take longer. If patience is a virtue, itโs not one I possess.
โLook at the bright side, you could be in sunny California instead of Connecticut,โ he says.
Hopelessness clings to me. โMy entire life is here. Every professor Iโve spent time getting to know, all my friends.โ I pause to hold the emotion clogging my throat. โAiden.โ
โAnd me.โ He smiles, failing to scatter the dark cloud looming over my head. โBut Aiden is going to be in Canada. You wouldnโt be in the same place regardless.โ
โExcept now I could end up on the West Coast instead of a few hours away.โ
โYouโre going to get into Dalton, and if by some fluke you donโt, Iโll transfer to Stanford Law to keep you company.โ
My heart feels like itโs no longer inside my chest. โYouโd do that for me?โ
โSay the word, Sparkle.โ
A laugh bursts out of me. We first used that nickname in third grade after watching My Little Pony. I was Sparkle, and Sampson was Dash. โKnowing you, you would get accepted the moment you applied. But I didnโt spend my entire life hearing you talk about a Dalton Law degree for you to not get one.โ
When someone calls my name, we turn to Cole Carter sprinting toward us. He slumps against the statue to catch his breath. โYou are going to freak! I just saw Donny Rai.โ
Seeing Cole exhibiting this much emotion is rare. Heโs usually holed up in his basement with his eyes glued to a screen.
โYeah, he goes here, buddy,โ says Sampson.
Cole shakes his head. โHe was at the new diner, Lolaโs, in West Hartford this morning.โ
โHow is that news?โ
โHe was with Langston.โ He says it like itโs a huge reveal. I glance at Sampson to make sure Iโm not the only one witnessing Coleโs mental decline.
โSheโs his advisor. Theyโre probably discussing coursework,โ I say. โSure. If the work required his tongue to be down her throat.โ
I choke on my spit. โByย tongue down her throat, do you mean kissing her?โ I ask, my voice hoarse as Sampson pats my back.
โWe both know youโre not inexperienced, Summer.โ He throws me a deadpan look, but the embarrassment doesnโt even register over the revelation. โYes, they were kissing.โ
โArenโt there policies against that?โ I ask.
โDalton banned professor-student relationships. Thatโs why I stick to the TAs,โ says Cole. We stare at him, but he only shrugs. โSo, I guess this means sheโs been giving him special treatment.โ
Suddenly, everything starts to make sense. โHeโs trying to get the co-op. Thatโs why he made it so difficult for me to finish my application. Both of them did.โ
โAnd Shannon Lee is at Princeton now, so he doesnโt need to worry about her,โ adds Tyler.
A trickle of contempt leaks into my bones. โSo his only other competition is me.โ
โIf you need proof, I took a picture.โ Cole pulls out his phone to show us. Theyโre fully making out, and although the picture is grainy itโs clear whatโs going on. โWhat are you going to do?โ
My head feels heavy with indecision. Reporting this to the dean needs to be anonymous. But I canโt afford to be involved in this mess so close to when grad school decisions come out.
I drop my head in my hands. โI donโt know.โ Sampson stands. โI have a plan.โ
I peek up at him through my fingers. โA plan?โ
AIDEN IS ASLEEP.
In the silence of the room, itโs easy to hear his soft breaths and the faint sound of music playing somewhere in the house. Iโm assuming itโs Kianโs since he just bought a new vinyl for his record player. He made it a point to tell me it was his way to block out noises coming from Aidenโs room.
My eyes catch on my glowing phone screen sitting on the nightstand, but the heavy arm over my stomach bars me from reaching for it. After dinner, Aiden dragged me upstairs, and we celebrated his game-winning goal before he fell asleep.
It was Daltonโs second game against Yale tonight, and we had the home- ice advantage. Amara came with me, though she spent most of the game taunting the Yale students. It ended with her chucking a fry at a frat guy and him simmering in anger.
Now, hoping Aiden is as exhausted as usual after a big game, I carefully lift his arm and scoot away. When he doesnโt stir, I roll off the bed and snatch my phone to send a quick text.
I shuffle around for my clothes, but theyโre strewn across the room. Giving up on the futile search, I pull out my overnight bag stashed in Aidenโs closet.
With the time ticking, I get dressed and creep toward the door. The floorboards creak under my weight, sending my heart shooting out of my chest. I watch Aiden to make sure he hasnโt been awakened by the ruckus, but his even breaths fill the room without disruption.
Easing open the door without the loud creaks waking the entire house is a difficult task, but I manage it. The house is devoid of light, so I pull out my phone flashlight as a guide. I relax as I reach for the front door.
โWhere are you going?โ
I jump. My phone slips from my grasp and slides across the floor to land by Eliโs feet. The flashlight illuminates his face.
I clap a hand over my erratic heart. โHoly shit! You scared me.โ โSorry.โ He holds my phone. โWhy are you sneaking around?โ โIโm not. I was just going forโฆa walk.โ
He raises a brow in suspicion. โAt two in the morning? Why are you dressed like that?โ
โThis is how I always dress.โ
โSummer, youโre wearing gloves and a beanie. In all black.โ
I forgot I stole the toque from Aidenโs dresser. I should have put it on outside. โYou mean my toque?โ
His eyes narrow. โDonโt try to distract me with your Canadian words.
Why are you sneaking out?โ
โWhat about you? Is there a reason youโre awake right now?โ He rubs his neck. โThis isnโt about me. Whereโs Aiden?โ
โAsleep.โ When his suspicion doesnโt ebb, I sigh. โI have to do something, and I canโt tell Aiden, or heโll try to fix it himself.โ
โWhat do you have to do?โ โI canโt tell you either.โ
โYouโre not leaving the house in the middle of the night without telling anyone where youโre going.โ
I stare at the time on my phone, seeing the texts from Amara and Sampson light my screen. โI swear Iโll tell you later. I really have to go.โ
I turn to the door, but Eli slaps a palm over it. Just to try my luck, I pull on the handle, though itโs no use because the six-foot-four defensemanโs pinky is stronger than my entire body. I let go of the door, feeling like a toddler whoโs barred from playing outside. Eliโs impatient look tells me heโs seconds away from waking Aiden to tell him his girlfriend is sneaking out in the dead of night.
โFirst, you have to promise not to tell Aiden.โ โI canโt do that,โ he says.
Sometimes, his honesty is seriously annoying. The heart of gold under all that muscle makes it impossible for him to lie. I thought giving him my most doe-eyed look would make him bend his rules a little, but I should know better.
โFine. My advisor is hooking up with Donny Rai, and heโs rigging acceptances with her help.โ
A look of disbelief clouds his features. โDid you tell the dean?โ
โThe dean is on sabbatical. Heโs gone until the end of the month, but weโre exposing the truth from Langstonโs computer.โ
โLet me guess, youโre sneaking into her office to do that?โ โAllegedly.โ
Concern weighs heavily on his features. โYou realize thatโs breaking and entering, right? You could get expelled.โ
โSheโs put me through hell, Eli. Not only me but so many other great students. She never had any intention of letting us succeed.โ
Students fought to be mentored by her. Finding out that she put her selfish needs above aspiring sports psychologists makes my blood boil. I trusted her, and she stomped on my lifeโs work.
He pins me with a sympathetic look, and when I turn, he stops me. โLet me grab a hoodie. Iโm coming with you.โ
Before I can protest, heโs gone. Only to reappear in a black toque and a hoodie to match mine. I frantically shake my head. โNo. Nope, sorry. You canโt.โ
โAiden would want me to.โ โEliโโ
โItโs either this or I tell him.โ
He looks at me as if Iโm the one whoโs being dramatic.
My nerves itch at me the entire ride to campus. When we arrive, two figures stand by the building watching our approach.
โThis isnโt really a plus one event, Summer.โ Sampson looks annoyed, and Amaraโs blush grows when she sees Eli.
โHe caught me on the way out. It was either him or Aiden.โ Eli waves with an easy smile. โHey, guys.โ
Amara greets him and Iโve never seen Sampson look this vexed. He slows to match my stride. โYour overprotective boyfriend would have been preferred,โ he mutters and stops in front of us. โThere are cameras on the north side of the building. This is the only entrance without any. If weโre quiet, weโll be fine.โ
โTwo huge hockey players are anything but inconspicuous,โ Amara says, eyeing the building.
โGood to know youโre thinking about my physique, Evans.โ โOnly in my nightmares.โ
I break up their stare down before they bicker the entire night. โDo we have a key?โ I shuffle through my coin purse and pull out my student ID. โIf not we can try jamming this in there.โ
Amara shakes her head. โThat wonโt work, itโs electronic. Weโll have to break it.โ She slides a mini crowbar from her sleeve.
We all take a step back.
โWe are not using weapons.โ Sampson snatches her crowbar. โUnlike you three, I came prepared.โ He waves an access badge.
โWhere did you get that?โ
โSome post-doc student. She worked for admin.โ An administrative badge wonโt alert the school systems like a student badge would.
โShe just gave it to you?โ asks Amara. โNo one is immune to my charm.โ
โI must be an anomaly then.โ โOr in denial.โ
The scanner flashes green, ending their back and forth. โIโll get into her computer,โ Amara whispers. โYou guys search for Donnyโs file to see if thereโs anything in there we can use.โ
Eli stands by the door. โIโll watch for security. You guys get what you need.โ
I stop him with a hand on his shoulder. โYou can still bail, Eli.โ โNot a chance.โ He disappears down the hall.
When I think back to my therapist’s words, I realize she was right. I was missing out on having caring friends. The foreign feeling settles into the
warmth of my stomach.
When weโre inside Langstonโs office, Amara goes straight for her computer. Itโs only a few minutes later that she beckons us over. โI got it,โ Amara whispers.
We huddle around the computer, as she navigates to her email. The plan is to write an email from Langstonโs account to all the undergrads, and one to Dean Hutchins. Amara attaches the picture Cole supplied to both emails and sets it to send out on Monday morning.
She populates a new document and types out another paragraph. โWho is this for?โ I ask.
โDaltonโs gossip page.โ She smiles. โItโll go live when the email is sent out. Just in case the school tries to hide this.โ
Sampson looks impressed, and when Amara sees his expression she rolls her eyes. But I donโt miss her blush.
When she powers down the computer a cool feeling of vindication drips into my system.
We sneak out of Langstonโs office, and Eli signals for us to duck when flashlights pierce through the windows. My breath gets stuck in my throat until the security guard passes by the building. We scurry to the alley we parked in and trickle off in silence.
At three a.m. Eli and I sneak back into the house. I engulf him in a grateful hug before I head upstairs. Slipping under the covers, I curl up with Aiden, who unconsciously pulls me closer. He looks so peaceful, Iโm glad I didnโt burden him with this risky plan.
Aiden tends to carry everyoneโs problems. As much as I love him for being a protector, I never want to be another person he risks everything for. Heโs already done enough by taking on his entire teamโs punishment for the trash fiasco. Once this is all sorted, heโll be the first person I confide in.
In the meantime, I just need to swallow the doomed feeling trying to crawl out of my throat.