FOR THE FIRST time in a long time, someoneโs proud of me, and I donโt know how to act.
Dr. Mรผller hands my paper back. โThis is great work, Summer. If you complete these tests and get some literature to back this up, they will beg you to join the co-op.โ
I sigh with relief. Itโs been stressful trying to get my paper structured, and knowing Iโve finally nailed it means Iโm one step closer to achieving my goal. Dr. Langstonโs emails have given me only negative feedback. I stopped by to see her today, but Dr. Mรผller, one of my favorite psychology professors, stopped me to chat.
โWould it be too much if I ran my final draft by you too?โ
โNot at all, email or stop by my office. Iโll be happy to help. But shouldnโt you be running this by Laura? Sheโs ultimately the one to sign off on your project, not me.โ
For this program, you canโt submit an application unless itโs given approval from your advisor. So, I couldnโt go behind Langstonโs back and toss my name in the hat if she hated it. โI know. I just want to have more than one opinion.โ
Mรผller agrees, and I ask him a few more questions, enjoying not feeling patronized, before I head out. Langston being the chair and on the admissions board doesnโt give me an advantage. The only reason she can do both is because sheโs proved countless times that she is unbiased. I have a few more weeks until my application is due, so I’m looking at every possible angle to guarantee acceptance.
Donny made me nervous with his talk about the low percentage for acceptance each year and how my life will look worse than a pile-up on the I-95 if I donโt get in. Heโs clearly great at pep talks.
My phone pings with a text from another one of my headaches.
Aiden
Aiden: I found handcuffs in your room.
Aiden: *sent an image*
I halt in the middle of the sidewalk when I see the picture of him smiling wide, standing in my room, holding a pair of fuzzy pink handcuffs. The mischievous glint in his eyes tells me he thinks theyโre for something nefarious, not just last yearโs Halloween costume.
A passerby knocks into me, snapping me out of my daze.
Summer: Why are you in my room?
Aiden: Practice ended early. Amara let me in before she left.
Summer: Donโt touch my stuff, and definitely donโt look in any more drawers.
Aiden: Too late. Youโre kinkier than I thought, Preston.
Aiden: And your bed is super comfy. Iโm exhausted, I think Iโll take a nap.
Aiden: Naked.
God, he is irritating. I make a mental note to buy a lock for my drawer in case the captain of the hockey team decides to snoop and some bleach to wash my sheets. Shoving my phone back in my pocket, I ignore the twitch of pain in my healing ankle when I sprint to my dorm.
Inside, I try to catch my breath, but it gets caught somewhere in my chest when I see Aiden in the kitchen. His blue Under Armour long sleeve outlines the movement of his back muscles so perfectly, I hate it.
The dip in my stomach reminds me of my high school boyfriend. Ryan was a year older than me.
I met him at the rink, where I skated while waiting for my dad to finish volunteering. I was in a Ryan-induced coma for those three months. However, I hated when he came to my house, because he would spend his time talking to my dad. Pretty soon, I realized he wasnโt dating me for me, he was dating me for my dad. Weird, but understandable, I guess, for a kid who had his sights set on the NHL
I didnโt learn my lesson because my prom date was another hockey player. He was popular and hot, so I said yes, like any sane teenage girl. At the after-party, we found ourselves in a hotel, and I prepared to lose my virginity that night. But the words that came out of his mouth had dried me up like a desert. โI canโt believe Iโm fucking Lukas Prestonโs daughter.โ It was so revolting I grabbed my dress and got the hell out of there.
So, itโs safe to say hockey players have been off my radar. Completely.
But as Aiden Crawford stands in my kitchen with his killer smile and shining green eyes, I feel tempted to break that oath. I drop my keys on the counter as I watch him place a pot in the drying rack. The scene is so domestic I have the urge to pinch myself.
โThat was fast,โ he says, drying his hands with the dish towel.
My attention catches on the steaming cup on the counter. โWhatโs that?โ โFor you.โ
I peer into it. โYouโฆmade me tea?โ
โYou said you drink it twice a day more if youโre dealing with me, and I was already here.โ He shrugs, and the air of nonchalance throws me off. โDidnโt know which one you liked, but I didnโt open this.โ He lifts the green tin, and my heart stutters.
I lunge to snatch it from him and stash it back in the drawer. โDonโt touch that.โ
He stands frozen. โYou good?โ โFine.โ
โFine?โ he asks, incredulous. โYou practically mauled me.โ
Aiden waits for an explanation, and my shoulders tense. โMy dad bought me this from a shop in Chicago when he traveled for work. Itโs my favorite, and this is the last one I have.โ
To escape the soft look in his eyes and his sympathetic nod, I bring the cup to my lips and take a sip. Itโs a miracle how I hold in the noise that wants to escape when the taste hits my tongue. The strong cinnamon flavor and the overuse of honey coat my tongue in a bitter formula. But for some reason, probably because he looked so sweet providing the simple act of service, I canโt bring myself to say anything.
He made me tea.
Forest green eyes watch me. โGood?โ โItโsโฆitโsโyeah. Itโs good.โ
His eyes flicker, and the curve of his smile does something swirly to my chest before it starts to burn. Though that might be the spoonful of cinnamon I just ingested. With an itchy throat, I put the cup down. โI’m going to change. Iโll be right back.โ
Iโve just slipped on a sweatshirt when a curse pulls me from my room. Aidenโs standing at the counter, my cup in hand and a look of disbelief on his face. โThis is disgusting.โ With a sour face, he places the cup in the
sink. โItโs a good thing I already ordered you an actual drink and some food.โ
โYou didnโt have to do that. It wasnโt that bad.โ
โSummer, it was so bad that you were beingย niceย to me. That tells me everything I need to know.โ
โHey! I can be nice.โ His barbed look irks me. โThe only reason youโre here is because I was being nice by giving you a chance.โ
โYeah, after I begged you.โ โThatโs what you call begging?โ
His smirks, all too intrigued. โWanna teach me? Maybe with those handcuffsโฆโ
โThey are not what you think theyโre for.โ
He nods with a suppressed smile. When his phone dings, he pulls it out. โFoodโs here.โ
When weโve eaten, I hand him the assessments. The sooner he gets this done the sooner I can write my analysis.
โAre you done?โ My impatience seeps into my tone. โAlmost. I wanna make sure I do it right.โ
โItโs really not that difficult.โ
A short beat passes before he sighs and his warm hand stops the anxious movements of my bouncing leg. โSummer, whatโs going on?โ
โWhat do you mean?โ The exasperated look I give him makes him take a long look at me.
โIย meanย youโre irritable and have this faraway look like youโre stressing over a million things.โ
โItโs nothing. Can we just get this done?โ He sits back and crosses his arms. โNo.โ
โNo?โ Did he not know how close I was to strangling someone? โThis is not a good time to test me, Crawford.โ
I clench my jaw as his gaze drags over my face in a slow assessment. โTell me whatโs wrong.โ
โYou know youโre notย myย captain, right? That whole demanding thing wonโt work on me.โ
He leans in, eating up my personal space. โWonโt it?โ
The challenge in his eyes is clear, but I oblige. โLangston said my intro needs work, so Iโm re-doing the entire thing, along with the methods section, because Donny thinks itโs missing something.โ
โYouโre just as smart as Donny. Smarter. Why does his opinion matter?โ
Aidenโs dislike for Donny isnโt something he bothers to hide. And as much as I may feel the same, Iโve become so accustomed to Donnyโs feedback, that I canโt imagine making a move without it. โBecause he knows what heโs doing. Besides, there are only three of us eligible for co-op
โDonny, Shannon, and me. Iโm his competitor, yet heโs still willing to help. I have to be grateful for that.โ
Aiden doesnโt comment, only shakes his head. โOkay, let me help you, too. You still have a few weeks, and I can read over your paper.โ
I stare blankly. โNo offense, but what do you know about psychology papers?โ
โNothing, considering Iโm an Econ major, but sometimes an extra pair of eyes can help.โ
His earnest look kindles a warmth in my stomach. โThat is really nice of you.โ
โDonโt be fooled, Iโve been told Iโm an asshole.โ
โWHOโS SHE?โ AIDEN asks.
He pestered me into taking a break, so I put on a my favorite Turkish drama to spite him. Turns out he loves it.
โThatโs his ex-girlfriend. She doesnโt know about the fake engagement,โ I explain.
โShit, sheโs going to see the contract.โ Aiden nudges me in excitement.
The suspenseful music builds, and we wait for the big reveal. Weโre sitting on the edge of the couch, the sides of our legs pressed together. Then the credits roll.
โSeriously?โ Aiden groans. โThatโs how they get you.โ
Heโs collecting our empty containers when he chuckles. โIโm starting to get your whole stay inside and not have a life thing. Itโs kind of fun.โ
I scoff. โI have a life, asshole. In fact, I met up with someone last week,โ I lie. Well, not entirely. Connor sat with me in the cafeteria. Itโs the closest thing to a date Iโve had all year. Pathetic, I know.
โWho?โ
โConnor Atwood.โ
He makes a noise in his throat. โWhat can you possibly have in common with Atwood?โ
โYou know him?โ Of course he did. They were both athletes, and the captains of their team.
โYeah. The dudeโs at every party, and heโs been with his fair share of girls. Now, apparently one of them is you.โ
I immediately backtrack. โI havenโtย beenย with him. We just studied together.โ
He cocks his head. โThatโs your type, huh? Football players.โ
โPlayer. Singular. But, no, Iโm still figuring out what my type is.โ
โYou keep working on that,โ he says. โIโm going to take off. Iโll see you Thursday at the pool.โ
I hide the satisfied smile that tries to break free. I wasnโt sure if my paper was helping him, but Aiden started taking a day off and swimming for one workout. It feels like a big accomplishment.
I stand too. โWait, I’ll walk you out. I just have to change.โ
โFor what?โ he asks, but Iโm already in my room changing into a random pair of leggings and a sports bra. I walk out with my sneakers in hand, slipping them on by the door.
โWhere are you going?โ
โFor a run,โ I say, gesturing for him to exit. โNow?โ
โI didnโt have time this morning.โ I lock the door behind us, then check for my pepper spray and keychain alarm as Aiden stares at me.
โYou shouldnโt be running alone this late.โ
I almost laugh, but his expression is so serious I hold it. โThanks for the concern, but I can handle it.โ
Heโs quiet the whole way down, until Iโm turning onto my usual path. โWalk me to my car?โ
โScared?โ I follow him into the parking lot.
He appears deep in thought. โSomething like that.โ
โDonโt worry, Crawford. I wonโt let the boogeyman get you.โ
When we reach his car, Aiden tosses his bag in the back seat, and locks the doors.
I stare at him. โWhat are you doing?โ
He stretches his legs and moves his head from side to side. โRunning.โ
โYou just had practice.โ He walks past me. โAiden, Iโm not running with you.โ
โDonโt. Iโm just running the path over there,โ he calls over his shoulder. โThatโs my path!โ
โWhat a coincidence.โ
I stare at his back. โYou said you were exhausted.โ โDid I? I feel great.โ
Before I can protest again, he takes off, and reluctantly, I go after him.