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Chapter no 41

From Blood and Ash

After quickly drying off and changing into clean, dry clothing, I did everything in my power to forget that the brief conversation in the bathing chamber with Kieran had happened.

The breeches were a little tight, causing me to wonder if theyย hadย belonged to a child, but they were clean and soft, and I wasnโ€™t complaining. The long-sleeve tunic was made of heavy wool and reached my knees. The slits in the sides ended at the hips and wouldโ€™ve made for easy access to my dagger.

But I hadnโ€™t seen my dagger since the stables, and based on what Iโ€™d done with the last oneโ€ฆ

I winced.

I doubted Iโ€™d have access to one anytime soon, which made escaping difficult. I needed a weapon, any weapon, but what I wanted was the dagger Vikter had given me.

I added that to my plan that wasnโ€™t quite a plan. At least, not yet.

Kieran left shortly after I came out of the bathing chamber, locking the door behind him. I doubted he went very far. Was probably standing outside the door.

I started to braid my still-drying hair, but remembered the mark on my neck and let the strands hang loose. I then roamed the room aimlessly. There was no avenue of escape. I couldnโ€™t even fit through the window. Was I going to be kept here until whenever timeย heย deemed fit for me to leave?

Sighing, I plopped down on the bed. It was soft, so much thicker than the straw mat in the cell. I lay down, facing the door as I curled on my side.

What would happen when he returned for me? Would his seeming acceptance of my attempted murder change? Everything heโ€™d said about the Ascended may very well be true, but he was still the Dark One, and he was just as dangerous. Heโ€™d said so himself.

There was a lot of blood on his hands.

With how thinly my nerves were stretched, I didnโ€™t think I would doze off again, but that was exactly what happened. It had to beโ€ฆit had to be the still-tender bite and its effect. Because one moment, I was alert, staring at the closed door. The next, I was out, slipping into a deep sleep where I did not dream. I wasnโ€™t sure what woke me at first. It wasnโ€™t my name being called. It wasnโ€™t words at all.

It was a faint touch on my cheek and then on the side of my neck, just above the bite. My eyes fluttered open. The room was dim except for the sconces and the single oil lamp on the nightstand, but I still saw him.

He sat on the edge of the bed, and there was a dipping motion in my chest at the first sight of him, like always happened. I imagined it always would, no matter what I knew about him.

At least, heโ€™d found a shirt.

And had bathed somewhere, because his hair was damp, curling against his temples and ears.

Dressed in all-black, he cut an imposing, striking figure, and I no longer saw his attire that of the uniform of a guard. I saw the Dark One. I glanced down at the sleeve of the dark tunic I wore and then to my curled leg, where I expected to see the black breeches. Instead, I saw a threaded quilt draped over my legs. Unsettled, I lifted my gaze to his.

He didnโ€™t say anything. Neither did I. Not for a long time. His fingers remained on my throat, above the mark. After what felt like an eternity, he removed his hand and asked, โ€œHow are you feeling?โ€

I laughed. I couldnโ€™t help it. A giggle burst free.

His head cocked to the side as a half-grin appeared. โ€œWhat?โ€

โ€œI canโ€™t believe youโ€™re asking me if Iโ€™m okay when I stabbed you in the heart.โ€

โ€œDo you think you should be asking me that question?โ€ Yes? No? Maybe?

The grin deepened. โ€œIโ€™m relieved to hear that you care. Iโ€™m perfectly fine.โ€

โ€œI donโ€™t care,โ€ I muttered, sitting up. โ€œLies,โ€ he murmured.

He was right, of course, because without realizing what I was doing, I reached out with my senses to see if he was in physical pain. He wasnโ€™t. What Iโ€™d done earlier had worn off. I knew this because I felt the anguish

that always brewed just below the surface. There was something else there, though. Iโ€™d felt it before. Confusion or conflict.

โ€œYou didnโ€™t answer my question.โ€

โ€œIโ€™m fine.โ€ Pulling my gift back, I looked down at the quilt. It was a faint yellow and old. I wondered who it belonged to.

โ€œKieran said you dozed off in the bath.โ€

โ€œDid he tell you that he came into the bathing chamber?โ€ โ€œYes.โ€

Surprised, my gaze shot to his.

โ€œI trust Kieran,โ€ he said. โ€œYouโ€™ve been asleep for several hours.โ€ โ€œIs that not normal?โ€

โ€œItโ€™s not abnormal. I guess Iโ€™mโ€ฆโ€ He frowned as if something had just occurred to him. โ€œI guess Iโ€™m feeling guilty for biting you.โ€

โ€œYou guess?โ€ My brows lifted.

He appeared to mull that over and then nodded. โ€œI believe so.โ€ โ€œYou should feel guilt!โ€

โ€œEven though you stabbed me and left me to die?โ€

I snapped my mouth shut as my stomach churned with nausea. โ€œYou didnโ€™t die. Obviously.โ€

โ€œObviously.โ€ There was a teasing glint to his eyes. โ€œI was barely winded.โ€

โ€œCongratulations,โ€ I muttered, rolling my eyes. He chuckled.

Annoyed, I shoved the quilt off my legs and scooted to the other side of the bed. โ€œWhy are you here? To take me back to the cell?โ€

โ€œI should. If anyone other than Kieran knew you had stabbed me, I would be expected to.โ€

I stood. โ€œThen why donโ€™t you?โ€ โ€œI donโ€™t want to.โ€

I stared at him, hands opening and closing at my sides while he remained seated on the bed. โ€œSo, what now? How is this going to work, Yourย Highness?โ€ Satisfaction surged when I caught the way his jaw tightened. โ€œYouโ€™ll keep me locked up in a room until youโ€™re ready for us to leave?โ€

โ€œDo you not like this room?โ€

โ€œItโ€™s far better than a dirty cell, but itโ€™s still a prison. A cage, no matter how nice the accommodations are.โ€

He was quiet for a moment. โ€œYou would know, wouldnโ€™t you? After all, youโ€™ve been imprisoned since you were a child. Caged and veiled.โ€

There was no denying that. Iโ€™d been kept in both comfortable cages and bare ones. The reasons were different, but the end result was the same. Folding my arms, I looked at the small window, to the night sky beyond.

โ€œI came here to escort you to dinner.โ€

โ€œEscort me to dinner?โ€ Disbelief widened my eyes as I focused on him once more.

โ€œI feel like thereโ€™s an echo in this room, but yes, I imagine youโ€™re hungry,โ€ he said, and my stomach took that exact moment to confirm that was true. โ€œAnd weโ€™ll discuss what will happen next when we have some food in our stomachs.โ€

โ€œNo.โ€

His brows lifted. โ€œNo?โ€

I knew I was being difficult over something not worth it. Just like I had been with Kieran. But I was not going to be at anyoneโ€™s beck and call. I wasnโ€™t the Maiden any longer. And things were not okay between us just because we had a temporary loss of rationale in the woods. Heโ€™d betrayed me. Iโ€™d tried to kill him. He still planned to use me to free his brother. We were enemies, no matter the truths.

No matter that I loved him.

โ€œYou have to be hungry,โ€ he said, pausing as he stretched out on his side, supporting his cheek with his fist. He couldnโ€™t look more comfortable if he tried.

Or more alluring.

I shook my head. โ€œI am hungry.โ€

He sighed. โ€œThen whatโ€™s the problem, Princess?โ€

โ€œI donโ€™t want to eat with you,โ€ I told him. โ€œThatโ€™s the problem.โ€

โ€œWell, itโ€™s a problem youโ€™re going to have to get over because itโ€™s your only option.โ€

โ€œSee, thatโ€™s where youโ€™re wrong. I have options.โ€ I turned from him. โ€œIโ€™d rather starve than eat with you,ย Your Highnessโ€”โ€ I squeaked, almost coming out of my skin when he suddenly stood in front of me, moving so fast and so quietly I nearly missed it. โ€œGods,โ€ I muttered, pressing my hand to my pounding heart.

โ€œThatโ€™s where youโ€™re wrong, Princess.โ€ His eyes glowed a fiery amber as he glared down at me. โ€œYou donโ€™t have options when it comes to your

own well-being and your own foolish stubbornness.โ€ โ€œExcuse me?โ€

โ€œI wonโ€™t let you weaken or starve yourself because youโ€™re mad. And I do get it. I get why youโ€™re upset. Why you want to fight me on everything, every step of the way.โ€ He took that step toward me, and my spine locked up as I refused to back away. His eyes burned brighter. โ€œI want you to, Princess. I enjoy it.โ€

โ€œYouโ€™re twisted.โ€

โ€œNever said I wasnโ€™t,โ€ he retorted. โ€œSo, fight me. Argue with me. See if you can actually injure me next time. I dare you.โ€

My eyes widened as I lowered my arms. โ€œYouโ€™reโ€ฆthereโ€™s something wrong with you.โ€

โ€œThat may be true, but what is also true, is the fact that I will not let you put yourself in unnecessary danger.โ€

โ€œMaybe youโ€™ve forgotten, but I can handle myself,โ€ I shot back.

โ€œI havenโ€™t forgotten. I wonโ€™t ever prevent you from lifting a sword to protect your life or those you care about,โ€ he said. โ€œBut I wonโ€™t let you shove that sword through your own heart to prove a point.โ€

Part of me was awedโ€”still shocked that he wouldnโ€™t stop me from fighting. The other half was infuriated that he thought he could control any part of me. As a whole, I let out a small shriek of frustration. โ€œOf course, you wonโ€™t! What good am I to you dead? I imagine you still plan to use me to free your brother.โ€

A muscle along his jaw flexed. โ€œYou are nothing to me if youโ€™re dead.โ€

I sucked in a sharp, stinging breath that scorched my lungs. What in the world had I expected him to say? That he wouldnโ€™t want me dead because he cared? I knew better.

Iย hadย to know better.

โ€œCome. The food will grow cold.โ€ Without waiting for my response, he grabbed my hand. He started walking, but I dug in my heels. His head cranked toward me, the grip on my hand firm but not painful. โ€œDonโ€™t fight me on this, Poppy. You need to eat, and my people need to see that you have my protection if you have any hope of not finding yourself spending your days locked in a room.โ€

Every part of my being demanded that I do just what he claimed he enjoyed. It wanted me to fight him every step of the way, but common sense prevailed. Barely. I was hungry, and I needed to be at my strongest if I

planned to escape. Plus, I needed his people to see that I was off-limits. If eating dinner with him like we were the closest friends would provide that, then I needed to deal.

So that was what I did.

I let him lead me out of the room, and I wasnโ€™t even surprised when I found Kieran waiting for us. Based on the hint of amusement in his features, he must have heard at least half of our argument.

Kieran opened his mouth. โ€œDonโ€™t test me,โ€ย heย warned.

Chuckling under his breath, Kieran said nothing as he fell into step behind us. We took the same stairs weโ€™d sped down hours earlier, and I tried not to think about my mad dash in the woods. What had happened when he caught me.

But a heatwave hit my veins nonetheless.

He glanced down at me, a questioning look in his gaze that I ignored while praying he couldnโ€™t sense where my thoughts had gone.

As soon as we entered the common area, Kieran slowed his pace so he walked directly behind me. I knew that was no unconscious act. Descenters lined the walls, their faces pale as they whispered to one another, their eyes following us. I recognized some of them whoโ€™d stood in audience outside the cell. I saw Magda. There was no pity in her eyes now. Justโ€ฆ speculation.

I lifted my chin and straightened my spine. The Ascended might very well be evil incarnate, and an untold number of people in Solis may be complicit, but what they did to me proved that they were no better.

We rounded the corner, and my gaze liftedโ€”

โ€œOh, my gods,โ€ I whispered, I stumbled back as my free hand flew to my mouth. I bumped into Kieran.

His hand landed on my shoulder, steadying me as I stared at the walls of the hall. I couldnโ€™t move. I could barely breathe as horror choked me.

Now I understood the pale faces in the common area. Bodies lined the walls, arms outstretched, and spikes of bloodstone nailed through their hands. Some had received a reddish-brown stake through the center of their chests, others through the head. Some of them were mortal. Some were Atlantian. A half a dozen of them on either side. I saw Rolf and the man I had rendered unconscious, and I sawโ€ฆ

I saw Mr. Tulis.

My knees weakened as I stared up at him. He was dead, face a ghastly gray color. He was mortal, but a stake protruded from his still chest nonetheless.

All heโ€™d wanted was to save his last child. Heโ€™d been given an opportunity to do so. Heโ€™d escaped, and nowโ€ฆnow he was here.

Not all of them were dead. One still breathed.

Jericho.

I locked down my senses before I could reach out and see what kind of pain he was in. His shaggy head hung as his chest rose in ragged, uneven breaths. Bloodstone pierced his palms, but the final fatal spike was thrust through his throat. Crimson colored the front of his bare chest, his pants, and pooled on the floor below him.

โ€œI promised you theyโ€™d pay for what they did.โ€ย Heย didnโ€™t sound or look smug. He didnโ€™t sound proud. โ€œAnd now the others know what will happen if they disobey me and seek to harm you.โ€

Bile crept up my throat. โ€œHeโ€™sโ€ฆheโ€™s still alive,โ€ I whispered, staring up at the wolven.

โ€œOnly until I am ready to end his life,โ€ he commented, dropping my hand. He strode forward without another look back. Two men opened the large wooden doors to the Great Room, and he entered, stalking toward the center table where several covered dishes waited.

I thought I might be sick.

Kieranโ€™s hand squeezed my shoulder. โ€œThey deserved no less.โ€ Had they?

Even Mr. Tulis, whoโ€™d most likely delivered the fatal blow to me. โ€œGo.โ€ He urged with his hand. Somehow, I got my feet moving as I

walked past the bodies pinned to the wall like butterflies.

In a daze, I didnโ€™t realize that I was seated to the right of him at the table, typically a place of honor. Kieran took the chair next to me. Numbly, I sat there as servants unveiled the platters of food while the rest of his entourage followed suit, seating themselves at the table. I recognized Delano and Naill, oddly relieved to see that they were okay. They had defended me, and I didnโ€™t want to think about the reasons behind it.

Laid out before us was a feast. Stewed beef. Roasted duck. Cold meats and cheese. Baked potatoes. All of it smelled wonderful.

But my stomach churned as I sat there, unable to move. Kieran offered me some of the beef, and I mustโ€™ve agreed because it ended up on my plate. Then came the duck and potato.ย Heย was the one who broke off a hunk of cheese and placed it on my plate as he reached for his glass, seeming to remember that it was one of my weaknesses.

I stared down at my plate. I didnโ€™t see the food. I saw the bodies outside the room as conversation was slow to start but soon picked up and became a steady hum. Glasses and plates clinked. Laughter sounded.

And there were bodies nailed to the walls outside the Great Room. โ€œPoppy.โ€

Blinking, I looked up at him. His golden eyes had cooled, but his jaw was hard enough to cut glass.

โ€œEat,โ€ he ordered in a low voice.

I reached for a fork, picking it up and spearing a piece of meat. I took a bite, chewing slowly. It tasted as good as it smelled, but it settled too heavily in my stomach. I scooped up some of the potatoes.

A few moments passed, and he said, โ€œYou donโ€™t agree with what I did to them?โ€

I looked over at him, unsure of how to even answer the questionโ€”if it was even a question at all.

He sat back, glass in hand. โ€œOr are you so shocked, youโ€™re actually speechless?โ€

Swallowing the last bit of food, I slowly placed the fork on the table. โ€œI wasnโ€™t expecting that.โ€

โ€œCanโ€™t imagine you were.โ€ He smirked as he lifted the glass to his lips. โ€œHowโ€ฆhow long will you leave them there?โ€

โ€œUntil I feel like it.โ€

My chest twisted. โ€œAnd Jericho?โ€

โ€œUntil I know for sure no one will dare to lift a hand against you again.โ€

Becoming aware that several of the men around us had stopped talking and were listening, I chose my next words carefully. โ€œI donโ€™t know your people very well, but I would think that they have learned a lesson.โ€

He took a drink. โ€œWhat I did disturbs you.โ€

I knew that wasnโ€™t a question. My gaze shifted back to my plate. Did it disturb me? Yes. I think it would unsettle most. Or at least, I hoped so. The

blatancy of the kind of violence he was capable of was shocking if not entirely surprising, further separating him from the guard I knew as Hawke. โ€œEat,โ€ he said again, lowering his cup. โ€œI know you need to eat more

than that.โ€

I bit back the urge to tell him I was capable of determining how much food I needed to consume. Instead, I opened my senses to him. The anguish there was different, tastingโ€ฆtangy and almost bitter. The urge to reach out to him hit hard, causing me to curl one hand in my lap. Had what happened between us caused this? Was it what heโ€™d done to his own supporters? It could possibly be both. I reached for my drink, closing my eyes, and when I reopened them, I found him watching me through thick lashes.

I could tell him that it did bother me. I could say nothing at all. I imagined that perhaps he expected one of those two things from me. But I told him the truth. Not because I felt like I owed it to him, but because I owed it to myself.

โ€œWhen I saw them, it horrified me. That was shocking, especially Mr. Tulis. What you did was surprising, but what disturbs me the most is that I

โ€”โ€ I drew in a deep breath. โ€œI donโ€™t feel all that bad.โ€ Those heavy lids lifted, and his stare was piercing.

โ€œThose people laughed when Jericho talked about cutting my hand off. Cheered when I bled and screamed and offered other options for pieces for Jericho to carve and keep,โ€ I said, and the silence around us was almost unbearable. โ€œIโ€™d never even met most of them before, and they were happy to see me ripped apart. So, I donโ€™t feel sympathy.โ€

โ€œThey donโ€™t deserve it,โ€ he stated quietly. โ€œAgreed,โ€ Kieran murmured.

I lifted my chin. โ€œBut theyโ€™re still mortalโ€”or Atlantian. They still deserve dignity in death.โ€

โ€œThey didnโ€™t believe you deserved any dignity,โ€ he stated. โ€œThey were wrong, but that doesnโ€™t make this right,โ€ I said.

His gaze drifted over my face. The muscle had stopped ticking. โ€œEat,โ€ he repeated.

โ€œYouโ€™re obsessed with ensuring that I eat,โ€ I told him.

One side of his lips kicked up. โ€œEat, and Iโ€™ll tell you our plans.โ€

That got several other peopleโ€™s attention. Hoping my stomach didnโ€™t revolt, I started eating instead of picking at my food. I didnโ€™t dare look at

Kieran, because if I did, I would be looking outside the Great Room to the hall.

โ€œWeโ€™re leaving in the morning,โ€ he stated, and I almost choked on the chunk of cheese Iโ€™d taken a bite of. None of those around me seemed at all surprised.

โ€œTomorrow?โ€ I squeaked, torn between panic and hope. I would have a better chance of escaping out on the road than I would here.

He nodded. โ€œAs I said, weโ€™ll be going home.โ€

I took a healthy drink from my glass. โ€œBut Atlantia is not my home.โ€ โ€œBut it is. At least, partly.โ€

โ€œWhat does that mean?โ€ Across from me, Delano spoke for the first time.

โ€œIt means itโ€™s something I shouldโ€™ve figured out sooner. So many things now make sense when they didnโ€™t before. Why they made you the Maiden, how you survived a Craven attack. Your gifts,โ€ he said, lowering his voice on the last part so only I and those immediately around us could hear him. โ€œYouโ€™re not mortal, Poppy. At least, not completely.โ€

I opened my mouth and then closed it, not quite sure I heard him correctly. For a moment, I thought something was lodged in my throat. I took a drink, but the sensation was still there.

Delanoโ€™s jewel blue eyes sharpened. โ€œAre you suggesting that sheโ€™sโ€ฆโ€ โ€œPart Atlantian?โ€ he finished for him. โ€œYes.โ€

My hand trembled, sloshing liquid onto my fingers. โ€œThatโ€™s impossible,โ€ I whispered.

โ€œAre you sure?โ€ Delano asked him, and when I looked at him, I could see the shock in his eyes as his gaze moved over me, stopping and lingering on my neck.

โ€œOne hundred percent,โ€ he answered. โ€œHow?โ€ I demanded.

A faint smile played across his full lips. His gaze too lowered and stoppedโ€ฆon my throat.

On the bite that I realized was barely hidden under the strands of hair.

My blood. He knew afterโ€ฆtasting my blood?

Delanoโ€™s eyes went wide as he sat back, staring at me like it was the first time heโ€™d ever seen me. Forgetting about the Hall, I looked at Kieran. I saw none of that. He arched a brow at me. This wasnโ€™t news to him. โ€œItโ€™s rare, but it happens. A mortal crosses paths with an Atlantian. Nature takes

its course, and nine months later, a mortal child is born.โ€ Kieran paused and ran his thumb over the rim of his chalice. โ€œBut every so often, a child of both kingdoms is born. Mortal and Atlantian.โ€

โ€œNo. You have to be mistaken.โ€ I twisted in my seat. โ€œMy mother and father were mortalโ€”โ€

โ€œHow can you be sure?โ€ Hawke cut me offโ€”no, not Hawke.ย Casteel.

The Prince. โ€œYou thought I was mortal.โ€

My heart lurched against my chest. โ€œBut my brother, heโ€™s an Ascended now.โ€

โ€œThatโ€™s a good question,โ€ Delano tacked on.

โ€œOnly if weโ€™re working off the assumption that he is your full, blooded brother,โ€ he said, and I gasped.

โ€œOr that he even has Ascended,โ€ someone commented. The glass started to slip from my fingersโ€”

His reflexes were lightning-quick. He caught the glass before it could hit the table. Placing it down, he then covered my hand, lowering it to the table. โ€œYour brother is alive.โ€

My heart had stopped. โ€œHow can you be sure?โ€

โ€œIโ€™ve had eyes on him for months, Poppy. He hasnโ€™t been seen during the day, and I can only imagine that means he is an Ascended.โ€

Someone cursed and then spat on the floor. I closed my eyes. Partโ€ฆ part Atlantian? If that was why I was the Chosen and was the source of my abilities, then had the Duke and the Duchess known? The Queen? I opened my eyes. โ€œWhy would they keep me alive if they knew?โ€

His lips thinned. โ€œWhy do they keep my brother?โ€

I jolted, my entire body freezing. โ€œI canโ€™t do that. Right? I mean, I donโ€™t haveโ€ฆthe, uh, parts for it.โ€

โ€œParts?โ€ Kieran coughed. โ€œWhat have you been filling her head with?โ€ The Prince slid him a bland look. โ€œTeeth. I do believe she means these.โ€ Curling his upper lip, he ran this tongue over one fang, and my stomach dipped and twisted in a mixture of pleasure and unease. โ€œThey donโ€™t need that. They just need your blood for them to complete the

Ascension.โ€

If I wasnโ€™t sitting, I likely wouldโ€™ve fallen over. I wanted to refute his claim, but I couldnโ€™t come up with one good reason for why heโ€™d lie about this. There was nothing to gain from doing so. I bent slightly in my chair, wondering if it was possible that I was having a heart attack.

โ€œIโ€™m curious, Cas. Why must we go home?โ€ Kieran asked, and I swore his voice rose with purpose. โ€œWhen we will be going farther away from where your brother is held.โ€

โ€œIt is the only place we can go,โ€ he replied, those golden eyes remaining fixed on me. โ€œDid you know that an Atlantian can only marry if both halves are standing in the soil of their land? Itโ€™s the only way for them to become whole.โ€

My lips parted as a hush descended over the entire room. Still reeling from the whole half-Atlantian thing, I couldnโ€™t believe what I was hearing. That he was sayingโ€ฆ

That damn dimple appeared in his right cheek and then in his left. Casteel Daโ€™Neer, the Prince of Atlantia, smiled fully as he lifted our joined hands and said, โ€œWe go home to marry, myย Princess.โ€

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