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Chapter no 12

From Blood and Ash

Early afternoon, the following day, I sat in the airy, sun-drenched atrium with Tawny and not one but two Ladies in Wait, wondering how Iโ€™d ended up in this situation.

My trips outside my chambers were always well timed, especially when I came to the atrium, so no one but me would be in the room. When I arrived some thirty minutes ago, it was empty as usual.

That had changed within minutes of sitting down and picking at the tiny sandwiches Tawny had confiscated from another room. Loren and Dafina had arrived, and while I sat as Iโ€™d been groomed to doโ€”hands clasped lightly in my lap, ankles crossed, and feet tucked behind the ivory hem of my gownโ€”I shouldnโ€™t be in the room.

Not while the Ladies in Wait were present since theyโ€™d cozied up to the table Tawny and I had sat at. The situation could easily be construed as me interacting with them, which was one of the many things expressly forbidden by the Priests and Priestesses. Interaction was, in their words, too familiar.

I wasnโ€™t interacting, though. I imagined I was the picture of well-bred serenity. Or I could easily be mistaken for one of the statues of the veiled Maidens. I may appear calm on the outside, but internally, I was nothing more than an exhausted, frazzled ball of nerves. Some of it had to do with the lack of any restful sleep the night priorโ€”well, to be honest, for the last several days. It was also partly due to the fact that I knew I was going to be blamed for Dafinaโ€™s and Lorenโ€™s presence. I didnโ€™t even know if I was allowed to be in the atrium. It had never been an issue before, and no one had ever spoken to me about it. However, no one other than a stray servant or guard had ever shown up in the atrium while Iโ€™d been here before. They werenโ€™t the only reasons I was a mess of anxious, restless energy, though.

The primary cause stood catty-corner from where I sat, hand braced on the hilt of his sword, amber-colored eyes constantly alert.

Hawke.

It was strange to glance over and see him standing there. And it wasnโ€™t just because it was usually Rylan who watched over these afternoon brunches Tawny and I sometimes took in the atrium. It was how different it was with Hawke being here. Normally, Rylan had stared out into the garden or spent the majority of the time speaking with one of the other Royal Guards who were nearby as he lingered just inside the entrance. Not Hawke. He found the one area in the room where he had a view of the entire brightly lit space and the gardens outside the atrium.

Luckily, the windows didnโ€™t face the roses.

Unluckily, I often found myself staring at the fountain of the veiled Maiden.

In just one day, it had become almost painfully evident how lax Rylan had gotten in terms of security. Granted, there hadnโ€™t been an attempt before, but heย hadย softened. I hated even acknowledging that. It felt like a betrayal to do so, but that wasnโ€™t the only thing that made this brunch so very different from the ones before.

Another thing that made it so different was the appearance of the two Ladies in Wait. I suspected that this was the first time theyโ€™d even been in the atrium since theyโ€™d arrived at Castle Teerman after their Rites.

Dafina, a second daughter of a rich merchant, fluttered a silk, lilac- hued folding fan as if she were attempting to end the life of an insect only she could see. While late-morning sun poured in through the windows, the atrium was still cool, and I doubted Dafina had grown overheated between eating cucumber sandwiches and sipping tea.

Beside her, Loren, the second daughter of a successful trader, had all but given up on sewing the tiny crystals onto her mask that was to be worn during the upcoming Rite, and had fully committed herself to watching every move the dark-haired Royal Guard made. I was confident she knew just how many breaths Hawke took in a minute.

Deep down, I knew why I hadnโ€™t risen and left the room like I was supposed to, like I knew Tawny waited for me to do. I understood why I was so willing to risk censure for simply sitting and minding my own business.

I wasย enthralledย by the antics of the two Ladies in Wait.

Loren had already done several things to catch Hawkeโ€™s attention. Sheโ€™d dropped her pouch of crystalsโ€”which Hawke had gallantly assisted

her in retrievingโ€”while she pretended to be engrossed with a blue-winged bird hopping along the branches of a tree close to the windows. That had provoked Dafina to feign a faint, due to what, I had no idea. Somehow, the neckline of her blue gown had slipped so far, I wondered how she managed not to fall out of it.

I couldnโ€™t fall out of my dress if it was on fire.

My gown was all flowing sleeves, tiny beads, and a bodice that nearly reached my neck. The material was far too thin and delicate for me to sheathe the dagger to my thigh. As soon as I could change into something else, the blade would be back where it belonged.

Ever the gentleman, Hawke had escorted Dafina to the chaise and had brought her a glass of mint water. Not to be outdone, Loren then swooned from a sudden, inexplicable headache that sheโ€™d quickly recovered from once Hawke had brandished a smile, the one that showed the dimple in his right cheek.

Thereโ€™d been no headache, just as thereโ€™d been no faint. Iโ€™d opened up my senses out of curiosity and felt no pain or anguish from either of them other than a thread of sadness. I thought that it might be due to Malessaโ€™s death, even though neither spoke of her.

โ€œYou know what I heard?โ€ Dafina snapped her fan as she dragged her teeth over her lower lip, glancing toward Hawke. โ€œSomeone,โ€โ€”she drew out the word and then lowered her voiceโ€”โ€œhas been a rather frequent visitor of one of thoseโ€ฆโ€ Her gaze flicked to me. โ€œOne of those dens in the city.โ€

โ€œDens?โ€ Tawny asked, giving up pretending that they werenโ€™t there. Not that I could blame her. She was friends with them, and while the Ladies in Wait were well aware that they probably shouldnโ€™t be sitting with me, Tawny appeared just as entertained as I was by their antics.

Dafina sent her a meaningful look. โ€œYou know the kind, where men and women often go to play cards andย otherย games.โ€

Tawnyโ€™s brows lifted. โ€œYouโ€™re talking about the Red Pearl?โ€

โ€œI was trying to be discreet.โ€ Dafina sighed, her glance darting pointedly in my direction. โ€œBut, yes.โ€

I almost laughed at Dafinaโ€™s attempt to shield me from the knowledge of such a place. I wondered what sheโ€™d do if she knew Iโ€™d been there.

โ€œAnd what have you heard he does at such a place?โ€ Tawny nudged me with her foot under the table. โ€œI imagine heโ€™s there to play cards, right?

Or do youโ€ฆ?โ€ Pressing a hand to her chest, she slumped in her chair and sighed. A curl slipped free from the elaborate twist that was tryingโ€”and failingโ€”to contain her hair. โ€œOr do you think he engages in other, more illicitโ€ฆgames?โ€

Tawny knew exactly what Hawke did at the Red Pearl. I wanted to kick herโ€ฆlike a Maiden, of course.

โ€œIโ€™m sure playing cards is all he does.โ€ Loren arched a brow as she pressed her yellow and red fan against the deep blue of her dress. The contrast of the fan and gown wasโ€ฆatrocious and also interesting. My gaze dipped to her mask. Crystals of every color were already sewn into the material. I was sure it would look like a rainbow had vomited all over her face once she finished. โ€œIf that is all he does, then that would be aโ€ฆ disappointment.โ€

โ€œI imagine he does what everyone does when they go there,โ€ Tawny said, humor dripping like syrup from her words. โ€œFinds someone to spendโ€ฆquality time with.โ€ Her mischievous gaze slid to mine.

I was going to replace the sugars Tawny loved to dump into her coffee with coarse salt.

She knew I wouldnโ€™t chime in, that I couldnโ€™t. I wasnโ€™t allowed to speak to the Ladies, and I still hadnโ€™t spoken to Hawke or around him. And other than Hawke asking if I wished to do anything after supper last night, to which I had shaken my head no, he hadnโ€™t spoken to me either.

Like before, I wasnโ€™t sure if I was relieved or disappointed.

โ€œYou shouldnโ€™t suggest such things in current company,โ€ Dafina suggested.

Tawny choked on her tea, and behind the veil, my eyes rolled.

โ€œI imagine if Miss Willa were alive today, she wouldโ€™ve snared him in her web,โ€ Loren said, and my interest was piqued. Was she talking aboutย theย Willa Colyns? โ€œAnd then wrote about him in her diary.โ€

She was.

Miss Willa Colyns was a woman whoโ€™d lived in Masadonia some two hundred years ago. Sheโ€™d apparently had a veryโ€ฆactive love life. Miss Colyns had detailed her rather scandalous affairs quite explicitly in her journal, and it had been filed away in the city Atheneum as some sort of historical account. I made a mental note to ask Tawny to retrieve that journal for me.

โ€œI heard that she only wrote about her most skilledโ€ฆpartners,โ€ Dafina whispered with a giggle. โ€œSo, if he made it onto those pages, you know what that means.โ€

Iย didย know what that meant. Because ofย him.

My gaze drifted to where Hawke stood. The black breeches and tunic molded to his body like a second skin, and I couldnโ€™t blame Dafina or Loren for how their gazes seemed to find their way back to him every couple of minutes. He was tall, with lean muscle, and the sheathed sword at his waist, along with the one at his side, said he was prepared for more than just fainting ladies. The white mantle of the Royal Guard was a new addition, draped over the back of his shoulders.

But he also filled the air with a certain type of unquantifiable tension, as if the room were electrified. Anyone around him had to be aware of that.

My gaze drifted over his chest, and the memory of how hard it had felt, even without the armor, sent heat creeping into my cheeks. A newly familiar heaviness settled in my chest, making the silk of my dress feel coarse against my suddenly sensitive and flushed skin.

Maybe one of those stupid fans would be useful.

Swallowing a groan, I wanted to smack myself in the face. But since that wasnโ€™t exactly an option, I took a sip of my tea, trying to ease the inexplicable dryness in my throat, and focused on Dafina and Loren once more. They were talking about the Rite, their excitement a heady hum. The celebration was just a week away, on the night of the Harvest Moon.

Their excitement was infectious. With it being my first Rite, I would be there, masked and not in white. Most would have no idea that I was the Maiden. Well, the two guards who were sure to be with me at all times would probably give me away to those paying attention. Still, a thrill of anticipation-laced uncertainty curled its way through me as my gaze slowly ticked its way back to Hawke.

My stomach tumbled.

If he saw me in the mask, would he know I was the one whoโ€™d been in the room with him? Would that even matter? By the time of the Rite, he would have to know I was one and the same, wouldnโ€™t he? If he hadnโ€™t realized it already.

He stood with feet shoulder-width apart, his gaze on our little group. The sunlight almost seemed drawn to him, caressing his cheekbones and

brow like a lover. His profile was flawless, the line of his jaw as chiseled as the statues that adorned the garden and the castle foyer.

โ€œYou know that it has to mean that heโ€™s near,โ€ Loren was saying. โ€œPrince Casteel.โ€

My head snapped in her direction in shock. I had no idea what she was talking about or how the subject had come up, but I couldnโ€™t believe she had actually spoken his name aloud. My lips parted. No one other than the Descenters would dare utter his actual name, and I doubted that any of them would even speak it in the castle. It was treasonous to call him a prince. He was the Dark One.

Dafina was frowning. โ€œBecause of theโ€ฆโ€ She glanced at me, her brows knitted. โ€œBecause of the attack?โ€

It was only then that I realized they mustโ€™ve been talking about the attempted kidnapping while Iโ€™d beenโ€ฆ

Well, while Iโ€™d been doing exactly what they had been doing earlierโ€” staring and thinking about Hawke.

โ€œBesides that.โ€ Loren returned to threading a blood-red crystal to her mask. โ€œI overheard Britta saying so this morning.โ€

โ€œThe maid?โ€ Dafina huffed.

โ€œYes, the maid.โ€ The dark-haired Lady in Wait lifted her chin. โ€œThey know everything.โ€

Dafina laughed. โ€œEverything?โ€

She nodded as she lowered her voice. โ€œPeople speak aboutย anythingย in front of them. No matter how intimate or private. Itโ€™s almost like they are ghosts in a room. There is nothing they donโ€™t overhear.โ€

Loren had a point. Iโ€™d seen it myself with the Duchess and the Duke. โ€œWhat did Britta say?โ€ Tawny placed her cup on the table.

Lorenโ€™s dark eyes flicked to me and then moved back to Tawny. โ€œShe said that Prince Casteel had been spotted in Three Rivers. That it was he who started the fire that took Duke Evertonโ€™s life.โ€

โ€œHow could anyone claim that?โ€ Tawny demanded. โ€œNo one who has ever seen the Dark One will speak of what he looks like or has lived long enough to give any description of him.โ€

โ€œI donโ€™t know about that,โ€ argued Dafina. โ€œI heard from Ramsey that he is bald and has pointy ears, and is pale, just likeโ€ฆyou know what.โ€

I resisted the urge to snort. Atlantians looked just like us.

โ€œRamsey? One of His Graceโ€™s stewards?โ€ Tawny arched a brow. โ€œI shouldโ€™ve stated, how could anyoneย credibleย claim that?โ€

โ€œBritta claims that the few whoโ€™ve seen Prince Casteel say heโ€™s actually quite handsome,โ€ Loren added.

โ€œOh, really?โ€ mused Dafina.

Loren nodded as she knotted the crystal to her mask. โ€œShe said that was how he gained access to Goldcrest Manor.โ€ Her voice dropped. โ€œThat Duchess Everton developed a relationship of a physical nature with him without realizing who he was, and that was how he was able to move freely through the manor.โ€

Britta sure talked a lot, didnโ€™t she?

โ€œNearly all of what she says turns out to be true.โ€ Loren shrugged as she worked an emerald-green crystal beside the red. โ€œSo, she could be right about Prince Casteel.โ€

โ€œYou should really stop saying that name,โ€ Tawny advised. โ€œIf someone overhears you, youโ€™ll be sent to the Temples faster than you can say โ€™I knew better.โ€™โ€

Lorenโ€™s laugh was light. โ€œIโ€™m not worried. Iโ€™m not foolish enough to say such things where I can be overheard, and I doubt anyone present will say anything.โ€ Her gaze flicked to me, brief but knowing. She knew I couldnโ€™t say a word because Iโ€™d have to explain how I was even a part of the conversation.

Which, for the record, I wasnโ€™t. I was just sitting here.

โ€œWhatโ€ฆwhat if he was actually here?โ€ Loren gave a delicate shudder. โ€œIn the city now? What if that was how he gained access to Castle Teerman?โ€ Her eyes lit up. โ€œBefriended someone here or perhaps even poor Malessa.โ€

โ€œYou donโ€™t sound all that concerned by the prospect.โ€ Tawny picked up her cup. โ€œTo be blunt, you sound excited.โ€

โ€œExcited? No. Intrigued? Possibly.โ€ She lowered the mask to her lap, sighing. โ€œSome days are just so dreadfully dull.โ€

The shock of her statement caused me to forget who I was and where I was. All that I managed to do was keep my voice low when I spoke. โ€œSo, a good old rebellion may liven things up for you? Dead men and women and children are a source of entertainment?โ€

Surprise flickered across both her and Dafinaโ€™s faces. It was probably the first time either had ever heard me speak.

Loren swallowed. โ€œI suppose Iโ€ฆI mightโ€™ve misspoken, Maiden. I apologize.โ€

I said nothing.

โ€œPlease ignore Loren,โ€ pleaded Dafina. โ€œSometimes, she speaks without any thought and means nothing by it.โ€

Loren nodded emphatically, but I didnโ€™t doubt that sheโ€™d meant exactly what she said. A rebellion would break up the monotony of her day, and she hadnโ€™t thought of the lives affected or lost because she simply hadnโ€™t cared to.

It happened then, once more without any warning, causing my body to jerk forward and my spine to stiffen. My gift reached out on its own, and before I even realized it was happening, that invisible link formed between Loren and me. A sensation came through the connection, a mixture that reminded me of fresh air on a warm day and then something acrid like bitter melon. I focused on the sensations as my heart thumped against my ribs. They felt likeโ€ฆexcitement and fear as Loren stared at me as if she wished to say something additional.

But that couldnโ€™t be what I was picking up on from Loren. It didnโ€™t make any sense. Those emotions had to be coming from me, and somehow, influencing my gift.

Dafina grabbed her friendโ€™s arm. โ€œCome, we should be on our way.โ€

Not given much choice, Loren was hauled out of her seat and quickly escorted out of the room with Dafina whispering in her ear.

โ€œI think you scared them,โ€ Tawny said.

Lifting a trembling hand, I took a quick sip of the sweet lemon drink. I had no idea what had just happened.

โ€œPoppy.โ€ Tawny touched my arm lightly. โ€œAre you okay?โ€

I nodded as I carefully placed the cup down. โ€œYes, Iโ€™m justโ€ฆโ€ How could I explain it? Tawny didnโ€™t know about the gift, but even if she did, I wasnโ€™t sure I could have put it into words, or be sure that anything had actually happened.

I looked over at her and opened my senses. Like at first with Dafina and Loren, all I felt was a twinge of sorrow. No deep pain or anything I shouldnโ€™t be feeling.

My heart slowed, and my body relaxed. I sat back, wondering if it was just stress causing my gift to behave so oddly.

Tawny stared at me, concern creeping into her expression.

โ€œIโ€™m okay,โ€ I told her, still keeping my voice low. โ€œI just canโ€™t believe what Loren said.โ€

โ€œNeither can I, but sheโ€™s always beenโ€ฆamused by the most morbid things. Like Dafina said, she means nothing by it.โ€

I nodded, thinking that whether or not she meant anything by it didnโ€™t exactly matter. I took another sip of the drink, relieved to find that my hand wasnโ€™t trembling. Feeling measurably more normal, I chalked up the weirdness to stress and lack of sleep. My thoughts returned to the Dark One. He could be behind the attacks and might very well be after me, but none of that meant he was actually within the city. However, if he wereโ€ฆ

Unease trickled through me as I thought about Goldcrest Manor. It wasnโ€™t impossible for something like that to happen here, especially considering an Atlantian and a Descenter had already infiltrated the castle grounds.

โ€œWhat are you going to do?โ€ Tawny whispered.

โ€œAbout the Dark One possibly being in the city?โ€ I replied, confused. โ€œWhat? No.โ€ She squeezed my arm. โ€œAbout him.โ€

โ€œHim?โ€ I glanced at Hawke.

โ€œYes. Him.โ€ Sighing, she let go of my arm. โ€œUnless thereโ€™s another guy youโ€™ve made out with while your identity was concealed.โ€

โ€œYes. There are many. They have an actual club,โ€ I replied dryly, and she rolled her eyes. โ€œThereโ€™s nothing for me to do.โ€

โ€œHave you even spoken to him?โ€ She tapped her chin, glancing at him. โ€œNo.โ€

She tilted her head. โ€œYou do realize you will have to actually speak in front of him at some point.โ€

โ€œIโ€™m speaking right now,โ€ I pointed out, even though I knew that wasnโ€™t what sheโ€™d meant.

Her eyes narrowed. โ€œYouโ€™re whispering, Poppy.ย Iย can barely hear you.โ€

โ€œYou can hear me just fine,โ€ I told her.

She looked as if she wanted to kick me under the table again. โ€œI have no idea how you havenโ€™t confronted him yet. I understand the risks

involved, but I would have to know if he recognized me. And if he did, why hasnโ€™t he said anything?โ€

โ€œItโ€™s not like I donโ€™t want to know.โ€ I glanced at Hawke. โ€œBut thereโ€™sโ€ฆโ€

I stiffened as Hawkeโ€™s gaze connected with mine and held. He was looking straight at me, and even though I knew he couldnโ€™t see my eyes, it still felt like he could. There was no way he could hear Tawny and me, not from where he stood and with as quietly as I was speaking, but his stare was piercing as if he could see not only through me, but into me.

I tried to brush off the sensation, but the longer he held my gaze, the more the feeling increased. It had to be his eyes and their color. Such a strange, stunning golden hue. One could imagine all sorts of things while staring into those eyes.

He broke eye contact, pivoting toward the entryway. My breath left me in a ragged exhale, my heart hammering as if I were running across the Rise once more.

โ€œThat wasโ€ฆintense,โ€ Tawny murmured.

I blinked, giving a shake of my head as I turned to her. โ€œWhat?โ€ โ€œThat.โ€ Her brows were lifted. โ€œYou and Hawke staring one another

down. And no, I canโ€™t see your eyes, but I knew you two were engaged in a rather heated one on one there.โ€

I could feel warmth creep into my cheeks. โ€œHeโ€™s just doing his job, and Iโ€ฆI just lost track of what I was saying.โ€

Tawny lifted her brow. โ€œIs that so?โ€

โ€œOf course.โ€ I smoothed my hands over the lap of my dress. โ€œSo, he was just making sure youโ€™re still alive andโ€”โ€

โ€œBreathing?โ€ Hawke suggested, startling both of us. He stood a mere foot from where we sat, having moved with the stealth of a trained guard and the quiet of a ghost. โ€œSince I am responsible for keeping her alive, making sure sheโ€™s breathing would be a priority.โ€

My shoulders stiffened. How much had he overheard?

Tawny made a poor attempt to smother her giggle with a napkin. โ€œIโ€™m relieved to hear that.โ€

โ€œIf not, Iโ€™d be remiss in my duty, would I not?โ€

โ€œAh, yes, your duty.โ€ She lowered her napkin. โ€œBetween protecting Poppy with your life and limb and gathering spilled crystals, youโ€™re very busy.โ€

โ€œDonโ€™t forget assisting weak Ladies in Wait to the nearest chair before they faint,โ€ he suggested. Those strange, mesmerizing eyes glinted with a hint of mischief, and I wasโ€ฆas transfixed with him as Iโ€™d been with the Ladies in Wait. This was the Hawke Iโ€™d met in the Red Pearl. A well of pain hidden behind a teasing and charming personality. โ€œI am a man of many talents.โ€

โ€œIโ€™m sure you are,โ€ Tawny replied with a grin while I fought the urge to reach out with my senses.

His gaze flicked to her, and the dimple in his right cheek appeared. โ€œYour faith in my skills warms my heart,โ€ he said, glancing at me. โ€œPoppy?โ€

My eyes widened behind the veil as I clamped my mouth shut.

Tawny sighed. โ€œItโ€™s her nickname. Only her friends call her that. And her brother.โ€

โ€œAh, the one who lives in the capital?โ€ he questioned, still looking at

me.

I nodded.

โ€œPoppy,โ€ he repeated in a way that made it sound as if my name was

wrapped in chocolate and would roll off his tongue. โ€œI like it.โ€

I gave him a tight smile to match how the muscles in my lower stomach suddenly felt.

โ€œIs there a threat of stray crystals we need to be aware of, or is there something you need, Hawke?โ€ Tawny asked.

โ€œThere are many things Iโ€™m in need of,โ€ he replied as his gaze slid back to me. Tawny tipped forward as if she couldnโ€™t wait to hear what those things were. โ€œBut weโ€™ll need to discuss that later. Youโ€™ve been summoned by the Duke, Penellaphe. Iโ€™m to escort you to him at once.โ€

Tawny grew so very still I wasnโ€™t sure if she took another breath. Ice drenched my insides. Summoned by the Duke so quickly after yesterday? I knew it wasnโ€™t for idle conversation. Did Lord Mazeen make good on his threat and go to the Duke? Or was it because of how Iโ€™d stared back at the Duke and smiled when I was unveiled? Had he found out that I had stabbed the man who attempted to kidnap me? While most would celebrate that Iโ€™d been able to thwart the abduction, Duke Teerman would focus solely on the fact that Iโ€™d been carrying a dagger. Could someone have seen me in here and already reported back to him? Had he found out about the Red Pearl? My stomach dropped as I stared up at Hawke. Had he said something?

Gods, the options were truly limitless, and none of them were good.

Stomach churning as if Iโ€™d swallowed spoiled milk, I managed to plaster a smile on my face as I rose from the chair.

โ€œIโ€™ll await you in your chambers,โ€ Tawny said, and I nodded.

Hawke waited until I was past him before falling in step slightly behind me, a position that allowed him to react to threats from the front and back. I led us out into the hall, where shimmering white and gold tapestries hung from the walls, and servants in maroon gowns and tunics scurried, carrying out various tasks that kept the large household running.

He didnโ€™t lead me toward the banquet hall. He aimed for the staircase, and my stomach sank even further.

We crossed the foyer and had neared the foot of the wide stairs before he asked, โ€œAre you all right?โ€

I nodded.

โ€œBoth you and your maid seemed disturbed by the summons.โ€

โ€œTawny is not a maid,โ€ I blurted out and then immediately cursed up a storm in my mind. It was silly to have tried not to speak, but it wouldโ€™ve been better for it to have occurred when we werenโ€™t in the foyer, surrounded by any number of people.

And I wouldโ€™ve liked to have lasted at least an entire day. I braced myself as I snuck a peek at him.

He stared, expression utterly unreadable. If he recognized my voice, he showed no sign whatsoever.

That strange mixture of disappointment and relief hit me once more as I stared straight ahead. Did he seriously not know it had been me in that room? Then again, should I be surprised? Heโ€™d believed that Iโ€™d been Britta at first and had no problem continuing on when he realized I wasnโ€™t her.

Who knew how many random women heโ€ฆ

โ€œIs she not?โ€ he queried. โ€œShe may be a Lady in Wait, but I was advised that she was duty-bound to be your ladiesโ€™ maid. Your companion.โ€ โ€œShe is, but sheโ€™s notโ€ฆโ€ I glanced over at him as the stone staircase curved. One hand rested on the hilt of the sword at his waist. โ€œSheโ€™sโ€ฆโ€ She was duty-bound to be my companion. โ€œIt doesnโ€™t matter. Nothing is wrong.โ€ He looked over at me thenโ€”well, he looked down at me, even though

I was a step higher than he was. He was still taller, which seemed unfair. One dark brow rose, his gaze questioning.

โ€œWhat?โ€ I asked, heart seizing as I lifted my foot but not high enough. I tripped. Hawke reacted fast, curving his hand above my elbow, steadying me. Embarrassment flooded my system as I muttered, โ€œThank you.โ€

โ€œNo insincere thanks are required or needed. It is my duty to keep you safe.โ€ He paused. โ€œEven from treacherous staircases.โ€

I took a deep, even breath. โ€œMy gratitude was not insincere.โ€ โ€œMy apologies then.โ€

I didnโ€™t have to look at him to know he was grinning, and Iโ€™d bet that stupid dimple was gracing the world with its presence. He fell quiet then, and we reached the third-floor landing in silence. One hall led to the old wingโ€”to my chambers and many of the household staff. To the left was the newer wing. Stomach full of tiny lead balls, I turned left. My mind was now so fixated on what awaited me that I wasnโ€™t all that focused on Hawkeโ€™s apparent lack of recognition or what it meant if he did realize it was me and just wasnโ€™t saying anything.

Hawke reached the wide, wooden doors at the end of the hall, his arm brushing my shoulder as he opened one side. He waited until I had entered the narrow spiral staircase. Sunlight poured in through the numerous oval- shaped windows. โ€œWatch your step. You trip and fall here, youโ€™re likely to take me out on your way down.โ€

I huffed. โ€œI wonโ€™t trip.โ€ โ€œBut you just did.โ€ โ€œThat was a rarity.โ€

โ€œWell, then, I feel honored that I bore witness to it.โ€

I was glad he couldnโ€™t see my face then, and not out of fear of recognition, but because I was sure my eyes were so wide they took up my entire upper face. He was speaking to me in a way no other guard didโ€” besides Vikter. Not even Rylan had been soโ€ฆfamiliar. It was as if we had known each other for years instead of hoursโ€ฆor days. Whatever. The comfortable way he was talking to me was disconcerting.

He eased past me, reaching the entryway to the fourth floor. โ€œIโ€™ve seen you before, you know.โ€

My breath hitched, and only by the grace of the gods did I not trip again.

โ€œIโ€™ve seen you on the lower balconies.โ€ Holding open the door, he gestured for me to enter. โ€œWatching me train.โ€

Heat blasted my cheeks. That had not been what Iโ€™d expected him to say. โ€œI wasnโ€™t watching you. I wasโ€”โ€

โ€œTaking in the fresh air? Waiting for your ladyโ€™s maid, who is not a maid?โ€ Hawke caught my arm as I walked past him, stopping me. He lowered his head until his lips were mere inches from my veil-covered ear and whispered, โ€œPerhaps I was mistaken, and it wasnโ€™t you.โ€

Surrounded by the earthy, woodsy scent of him, my breath caught. We were nowhere near as close as we were the night of the Red Pearl, but if I tilted my head to the left just a few inches, his mouth would touch mine. The curling motion inside me returned, settling even lower in my stomach this time. โ€œYou are mistaken.โ€

He let go of my arm, and when I looked up, I saw that the corner of his lips was tipped up. My heart was doing funny, strange things in my chest as I stepped into the airy hall, my pulse thrumming.

Two Royal Guards were stationed outside the private quarters of the Duke and Duchess. There were several rooms on this floor used for greeting various members of the house and Court. Both had their own spaces and suites that connected to bedchambers, but based on where the Royal Guards stood, I knew the Duke was in the main suite.

Unease returned, slithering through my veins. For a brief moment, Iโ€™d forgotten about why I couldโ€™ve been summoned.

โ€œPenellaphe?โ€ Hawke said from behind me.

Only then did I realize two things. One, Iโ€™d come to a complete standstill in the hall, and I was sure that seemed odd to him. And secondly, he had called me by my name twice now instead ofย Maiden. He wasnโ€™t Vikter. He wasnโ€™t Tawny. Both of whom only called me by my name when we were alone.

I knew I should correct his use of my given name, but I couldnโ€™t. I didnโ€™t want to, and that frightened me as much as what awaited me in the Dukeโ€™s office.

Taking a deep breath, I clasped my hands together as I straightened my shoulders and started forward.

The Royal Guards avoided eye contact as they bowed upon our approach. The dark-skinned one stepped aside, his hand on the door. He started to open it.

For some reason, I looked back at Hawke. Why, I had no idea. โ€œIโ€™ll wait for you here,โ€ he assured.

I nodded and then faced forward again, forcing one foot in front of the other, telling myself that I was getting worked up over nothing.

Stepping into the suite, the first thing I noticed was that the curtains had been drawn. The soft glow of several oil lamps seemed to be absorbed by the dark wood paneling and the furniture fashioned from mahogany and crimson-hued velvet. My gaze fell to the large desk and then the credenza behind it, where several crystal bottles of various sizes were full of amber liquor.

Then I saw him.

The Duke sat on the settee, one booted foot resting on the table before him, and a glass of liquor in his hand. Chills swept through me as he looked over at me with eyes so dark, the pupil was almost indistinguishable.

It made me think that when next I saw Ian, his eyes would no longer be green like mine. Theyโ€™d be like the Dukeโ€™s. Pitch-black. Bottomless. But would they be as chilling?

I suddenly realized that the Duke wasnโ€™t alone.

Across from him was Lord Mazeen, seated in an arrogant sprawl. He held no drink in his hands, but his fingers tapped idly on his bent knee. There was a smirk on his well-formed lips, and every instinct in me screamed that I needed to run because there was no fighting what was coming.

The door clicked shut behind me, causing me to jump a little. I hated the response, hoping that the Duke hadnโ€™t seen it, and knowing that he had when I saw him smile.

Teerman rose from the settee in one fluid, boneless movement. โ€œPenellaphe, I am so incredibly disappointed in you.โ€

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