Celia looked at me. She appeared to neither pity me nor feel uncomfortable for all that sheโd had growing up that I didnโt have. โAll the more reason for me to admire you the way I do,โ she said. โEverything you have you went out and got for yourself.โ Celia leaned her glass into mine and clinked. โTo you,โ she said. โFor being absolutely unstoppable.โ
I laughed and then drank with her. โCome,โ I said, leading her out of the kitchen and into the living room. I put my drink down on the hairpin-leg coffee table and walked over to the record player. I pulled out Billie Holidayโs Lady in Satin from the bottom of the stack. Don hated Billie Holiday. But Don wasnโt there.
โDo you know her real name is Eleanora Fagan?โ I said to Celia. โBillie Holiday is just so much prettier.โ
I sat down on one of our blue tufted sofas. Celia sat on the one opposite me. She folded her legs underneath her, her spare hand on her feet.
โWhatโs yours?โ she asked. โIs it really Evelyn Hugo?โ
I grabbed my wineglass and confessed the truth. โHerrera. Evelyn Herrera.โ
Celia didnโt react really. She didnโt say, โSo you are Latin.โ Or โI knew you were faking it,โ as I feared she might be thinking. She didnโt say that it explained why my skin was darker than hers or Donโs. In fact, she said nothing at all until she said, โThatโs beautiful.โ
โAnd yours?โ I asked. I stood up and moved over to the couch where she was sitting, to close the gap between us. โCelia St. James . . .โ
โJamison.โ
โWhat?โ
โCecelia Jamison. Thatโs my real name.โ
โThatโs a great name. Why did they change it?โ
โI changed it.โ
โWhy?โ
โBecause it sounds like a girl who might live next door to you. And Iโve always wanted to be the kind of girl you feel lucky just to lay your eyes on.โ She tilted her head back and finished her wine. โLike you.โ
โOh, stop.โ
โYou stop. You know damn well what you are. How you affect the people around you. Iโd kill for a chest like that and full lips like yours. You make people think of undressing you just by showing up in a room fully clothed.โ
I felt flushed hearing her talk about me like that. Having her talk about the way men saw me. Iโd never heard a woman talk about me that way before.
Celia took m
y glass out of my hand. She threw the wine back into her own throat. โWe need more,โ she said, waving the glass in the air.
I smiled and took both glasses into the kitchen. Celia followed me. She leaned against my Formica counter as I poured.
โThe first time I saw Father and Daughter, do you know what I thought?โ she said. Billie Holiday was now faintly playing in the background.
โWhat?โ I said, handing her her glass. She took it and put it down for a moment, then hopped up onto the counter and picked it up. She was wearing dark blue capri pants and a white sleeveless turtleneck.
โI thought you were the most gorgeous woman who had ever been created and we should all stop trying.โ She inhaled half the contents of her glass.
โNo, you did not,โ I said.
โYes, I did.โ
I took a sip of my wine. โIt makes no sense,โ I told her. โYou admiring me like youโre any different. Youโre a knockout, plain and simple. With your big blue eyes and your hourglass figure . . . I think together we really give the guys a wild sight.โ
Celia smiled. โThank you.โ
I finished my glass and put it down on the counter. Celia took it as a challenge to do the same with hers. She wiped her mouth with her fingertips when she was done. I poured us more.
โHow did you learn all the underhanded, sneaky stuff you know?โ Celia asked.