Celia looked at me. โItโs not that bad.โ
โItโs not good,โ I said.
โNo, itโs not.โ
โThank you. You both are a pair of aces.โ
Celia and I had finished shooting Little Women the week before. The two of us, along with Harry and Gwendolyn, had gone out for celebratory steaks and cocktails at Musso & Frank the day after we finished.
Harry had given Celia and me the good news that Ari thought we were both shoo-ins for nominations.
Every night after shooting, Celia and I would stay late in my trailer and rehearse our scenes. Celia was Method. She tried to โbecomeโ her character. That wasnโt really my speed. But she did teach me how to find moments of emotional truth in false circumstances.
It was a strange time in Hollywood. There seemed to be two tracks running parallel to each other at the same time back then.
There was the studio game, with studio actors and studio dynasties. And then there was the New Hollywood making its way into the hearts of audiences, Method actors in gritty movies with antiheroes and untidy endings.
It wasnโt until those evenings with Celia, the two of us sharing a pack of cigarettes and a bottle of wine for dinner, that I even started paying attention to the new stuff.
But whatever influence she had on me was a good one, because Ari Sullivan thought I could win an Oscar. And that made me like Celia all the more.
Our weekly outings to hot spots like Rodeo Drive werenโt even feeling like a favor anymore. I did it happily, attracting attention for her simply because I enjoyed her company.
So as I sat there in Harryโs office, pretending to be pissed at both of them for not being very helpful, I knew I was with my two favorite people.
โWhat does Don say about it?โ Celia asked.
โIโm sure heโs going all around the lot trying to find me.โ
Harry looked at me pointedly. He knew what might happen if Don read it in a bad mood. โCelia, are you shooting today?โ he asked.
She shook her head. โThe Pride of Belgium doesnโt start until next week. I just have some wardrobe fittings later, after lunch.โ
โIโll move your wardrobe fittings. Why donโt you and Evelyn go out shopping? We can call over to Photoplay, let them know youโll be on Robertson.โ
โAnd be seen out around town with single gal Celia St. James?โ I said. โThat sounds like the perfect example of what I shouldnโt do.โ
My mind kept racing through the contents of that stupid article. She canโt be bothered to be kind to the help.
โThat little rat,โ I said when I figured it out. I hit my fist on the arm of the chair.
โWhat are you talking about?โ Harry said.
โMy damn maid.โ
โYou think your maid talked to Sub Rosa?โ
โIโm positive my maid talked to Sub Rosa.โ
โAll right, well, sheโs fired,โ Harry says. โI can have Betsy go over there today and let her go. Sheโll be gone by the time you get home.โ
I thought about my options.
The last thing I needed was America not wanting to see my movies because I wouldnโt give Don a baby. I knew, of course, that most moviegoers would never say as much. They might not even realize they thought as much. But they would read something like this, and the next time one of my pictures came out, theyโd think to themselves that there was something about me they never liked, they just couldnโt put their finger on it.
People donโt find it very sympathetic or endearing, a woman who puts herself first. Nor do people respect a man who canโt keep his wife in line. So it didnโt look good for Don, either.
โI need to talk to Don,โ I said, standing up. โHarry, can you have Dr. Lopani ring my house this evening? Sometime around six?โ