Eleanor pushed her curls out of her face one by one, like she was gathering her wits by hand. โI have to go,โ she said.
She was making more sense now, and more eye contact, but Park still felt like someone had turned the world upside down and was shaking it.
โYou could talk to your mom tomorrow,โ he said. โEverything might look different in the morning.โ
โYou saw what he wrote on my books,โ she said evenly. โWould you want me to stay there?โ
โI โฆ I just donโt want you to leave,โ he said. โWhere would you go? To your dadโs house?โ
โNo, he doesnโt want me.โ โBut if you explained โฆโ โHe doesnโtย wantย me.โ โThen โฆ where?โ
โI donโt know.โ She took a deep breath and squared her shoulders. โMy uncle said I could spend the summer with him. Maybe heโll let me come up to St Paul early.โ
โSt Paul, Minnesota.โ She nodded.
โBut โฆโ Park looked in Eleanorโs eyes, and her hands fell to the table. โI know,โ she sobbed, slumping forward. โI know โฆโ
There was no room to sit at the table next to her, so he dropped to his knees and pulled her onto the dusty linoleum floor.
Eleanor
โWhen are you leaving?โ he asked. He pushed her hair out of her face and held it behind her head.
โTonight,โ she said, โI canโt go home.โ
โHow are you going to get there? Have you called your uncle?โ โNo. I donโt know. I thought Iโd take the bus.โ
She was going to hitchhike.
She figured she could walk as far as the Interstate, then sheโd stick out her thumb for station wagons and minivans. Family cars. If she hadnโt been raped or murdered โ or sold into white slavery โ by Des Moines, sheโd call her uncle collect. Heโd come to get her, even if it was just to bring her home.
โYou canโt take the bus by yourself,โ Park said. โI donโt have a better plan.โ
โIโll drive you,โ he said. โTo the bus station?โ โTo Minnesota.โ
โPark, no, your parents will never let you.โ โSo I wonโt ask.โ
โBut your dad will kill you.โ โNo,โ he said, โheโll ground me.โ โFor life.โ
โDo you think I even care about that right now?โ He held her face in his hands. โDo you think I care about anything but you?โ