IT WAS ALL VERY CHILDISH. WHY ON EARTH SHOULDย EDward have to leave for Jacob to come over? Werenโt we past this kind of immaturity?
โItโs not that I feel any personal antagonism toward him, Bella, itโs just easier for both of us,โ Edward told me at the door. โI wonโt be far away. Youโll be safe.โ
โIโm not worried aboutย that.โ
He smiled, and then a sly look came into his eye. He pulled me close, burying his face in my hair. I could feel his cool breath saturate the strands as he exhaled; it raised goose bumps on my neck.
โIโll be right back,โ he said, and then he laughed aloud as if Iโd just told a good joke.
โWhatโs so funny?โ
But Edward just grinned and loped off toward the trees without answering.
Grumbling to myself, I went to clean up the kitchen. Before I even had the sink full of water, the doorbell rang. It was hard to get used to how much faster Jacob wasย withoutย his car. How everyone seemed to be so much faster than me. . . .
โCome in, Jake!โ I shouted.
I was concentrating on piling the dishes into the bubbly water, and Iโd forgotten that Jacob moved like a ghost these days. So it made me jump when his voice was suddenly there behind me.
โShould you really leave your door unlocked like that? Oh, sorry.โ Iโd slopped myself with the dishwater when heโd startled me.
โIโm not worried about anyone who would be deterred by a locked door,โ I said while I wiped the front of my shirt with a dishtowel.
โGood point,โ he agreed.
I turned to look at him, eyeing him critically. โIs it really so impossible to wear clothes, Jacob?โ I asked. Once again, Jacob was bare-chested, wearing nothing but a pair of old cut-off jeans. Secretly, I wondered if he was just so proud of his new muscles that he couldnโt stand to cover them up. I had to admit, they were impressive โ but Iโd never thought of him as vain. โI mean, I know you donโt get cold anymore, but still.โ
He ran a hand through his wet hair; it was falling in his eyes. โItโs just easier,โ he explained.
โWhatโs easier?โ
He smiled condescendingly. โItโs enough of a pain to carry the shorts around with me, let alone a complete outfit. What do I look like, a pack mule?โ
I frowned. โWhat are you talking about, Jacob?โ
His expression was superior, like I was missing something obvious. โMy clothes donโt just pop in and out of existence when I change โ I have to carry them with me while I run. Pardon me for keeping my burden light.โ
I changed color. โI guess I didnโt think about that,โ I muttered.
He laughed and pointed to a black leather cord, thin as a strand of yarn, that was wound three times below his left calf like an anklet. I hadnโt noticed before that his feet were bare, too. โThatโs more than just a fashion statement โ it sucks to carry jeans in your mouth.โ
I didnโt know what to say to that.
He grinned. โDoes my being half-naked bother you?โ โNo.โ
Jacob laughed again, and I turned my back on him to focus on the dishes. I hoped he realized my blush was left over from embarrassment at my own stupidity, and had nothing to do with his question.
โWell, I suppose I should get to work.โ He sighed. โI wouldnโt want to give him an excuse to say Iโm slacking on my side.โ
โJacob, itโs not your job โโ
He raised a hand to cut me off. โIโm working on a volunteer basis here.
Now, where is the intruderโs scent the worst?โ โMy bedroom, I think.โ
His eyes narrowed. He didnโt like that any more than Edward had. โIโll just be a minute.โ
I methodically scrubbed the plate I was holding. The only sound was the brushโs plastic bristles scraping round and round on the ceramic. I listened for something from above, a creak of the floorboard, the click of a door. There was nothing. I realized Iโd been cleaning the same plate far longer than necessary, and I tried to pay attention to what I was doing.
โWhew!โ Jacob said, inches behind me, scaring me again. โYeesh, Jake, cut that out!โ
โSorry. Here โโ Jacob took the towel and mopped up my new spill. โIโll make it up to you. You wash, Iโll rinse and dry.โ
โFine.โ I gave him the plate.
โWell, the scent was easy enough to catch. By the way, your room reeks.โ
โIโll buy some air freshener.โ He laughed.
I washed and he dried in companionable silence for a few minutes. โCan I ask you something?โ
I handed him another plate. โThat depends on what you want to know.โ
โIโm not trying to be a jerk or anything โ Iโm honestly curious,โ Jacob assured me.
โFine. Go ahead.โ
He paused for half a second. โWhatโs it like โ having a vampire for a boyfriend?โ
I rolled my eyes. โItโs the best.โ
โIโm serious. The idea doesnโt bother you โ it never creeps you out?โ โNever.โ
He was silent as he reached for the bowl in my hands. I peeked up at his face โ he was frowning, his lower lip jutting out.
โAnything else?โ I asked.
He wrinkled his nose again. โWell . . . I was wondering . . . do you . . . yโknow,ย kissย him?โ
I laughed. โYes.โ
He shuddered. โUgh.โ
โTo each her own,โ I murmured.
โYou donโt worry about the fangs?โ
I smacked his arm, splashing him with dishwater. โShut up, Jacob! You know he doesnโt have fangs!โ
โClose enough,โ he muttered.
I gritted my teeth and scrubbed a boning knife with more force than necessary.
โCan I ask another one?โ he asked softly when I passed the knife to him. โJust curious, again.โ
โFine,โ I snapped.
He turned the knife over and over in his hands under the stream of water. When he spoke, it was only a whisper. โYou said a few weeks. . . . When, exactly . . . ?โ He couldnโt finish.
โGraduation,โ I whispered back, watching his face warily. Would this set him off again?
โSo soon,โ he breathed, his eyes closing. It didnโt sound like a question. It sounded like a lament. The muscles in his arms tightened and his shoulders were stiff.
โOW!โ he shouted; it had gotten so still in the room that I jumped a foot in the air at his outburst.
His right hand had curled into a tense fist around the blade of the knife
โ he unclenched his hand and the knife clattered onto the counter. Across his palm was a long, deep gash. The blood streamed down his fingers and dripped on the floor.
โDamn it! Ouch!โ he complained.
My head spun and my stomach rolled. I clung to the countertop with one hand, took a deep breath through my mouth, and forced myself to get a grip so that I could take care of him.
โOh, no, Jacob! Oh, crap! Here, wrap this around it!โ I shoved the dish towel at him, reaching for his hand. He shrugged away from me.
โItโs nothing, Bella, donโt worry about it.โ
The room started to shimmer a little around the edges.
I took another deep breath. โDonโt worry?! You sliced your hand open!โ
He ignored the dish towel I pushed at him. He put his hand under the faucet and let the water wash over the wound. The water ran red. My head whirled.
โBella,โ he said.
I looked away from the wound, up to his face. He was frowning, but his expression was calm.
โWhat?โ
โYou look like youโre going to pass out, and youโre biting your lip off.
Stop it. Relax. Breathe. Iโm fine.โ
I inhaled through my mouth and removed my teeth from my lower lip. โDonโt be brave.โ
He rolled his eyes.
โLetโs go. Iโll drive you to the ER.โ I was pretty sure I would be okay to drive. The walls were holding steady now, at least.
โNot necessary.โ Jake turned off the water and took the towel from my hand. He twisted it loosely around his palm.
โWait,โ I protested. โLet me look at it.โ I clutched the counter more firmly, to hold myself upright if the wound made me woozy again.
โDo you have a medical degree that you never told me about?โ
โJust give me the chance to decide whether or not Iโm going to throw a fit over taking you to the hospital.โ
He made a face of mock horror. โPlease, not a fit!โ
โIf you donโt let me see your hand, a fit is guaranteed.โ He inhaled deeply, and then let out a gusty sigh. โFine.โ
He unwound the towel and, when I reached out to take the cloth, he laid his hand in mine.
It took me a few seconds. I even flipped his hand over, though I was sure heโd cut his palm. I turned his hand back up, finally realizing that the angry pink, puckered line was all that was left of his wound.
โBut . . . you were bleeding . . . so much.โ
He pulled his hand back, his eyes steady and somber on mine. โI heal fast.โ
โIโll say,โ I mouthed.
Iโd seen the long gash clearly, seen the blood that flowed into the sink. The rust-and-salt smell of it had almost pulled me under. It should have needed stitches. It should have taken days to scab over and then weeks to fade into the shiny pink scar that marked his skin now.
He screwed his mouth up into half a smile and thumped his fist once against his chest. โWerewolf, remember?โ
His eyes held mine for an immeasurable moment.
โRight,โ I finally said.
He laughed at my expression. โI told you this. You saw Paulโs scar.โ
I shook my head to clear it. โItโs a little different, seeing the action sequence firsthand.โ
I kneeled down and dug the bleach out of the cabinet under the sink. Then I poured some on a dusting rag and started scrubbing the floor. The burning scent of the bleach cleared the last of the dizziness from my head.
โLet me clean up,โ Jacob said.
โI got this. Throw that towel in the wash, will you?โ
When I was sure the floor smelled of nothing but bleach, I got up and rinsed the right side of the sink with bleach, too. Then I went to the laundry closet beside the pantry, and poured a cupful into the washing machine before starting it. Jacob watched me with a disapproving look on his face.
โDo you have obsessive-compulsive disorder?โ he asked when I was done.
Huh. Maybe. But at least I had a good excuse this time. โWeโre a bit sensitive to blood around here. Iโm sure you can understand that.โ
โOh.โ He wrinkled his nose again.
โWhy not make it as easy as possible for him? What heโs doing is hard enough.โ
โSure, sure. Why not?โ
I pulled the plug, and let the dirty water drain from the sink. โCan I ask you something, Bella?โ
I sighed.
โWhatโs it like โ having a werewolf for a best friend?โ The question caught me off guard. I laughed out loud.
โDoes it creep you out?โ he pressed before I could answer.
โNo. When the werewolf is being nice,โ I qualified, โitโs the best.โ
He grinned widely, his teeth bright against his russet skin. โThanks, Bella,โ he said, and then he grabbed my hand and wrenched me into one of his bone-crushing hugs.
Before I had time to react, he dropped his arms and stepped away.
โUgh,โ he said, his nose wrinkling. โYour hair stinks worse than your room.โ
โSorry,โ I muttered. I suddenly understood what Edward had been laughing about earlier, after breathing on me.
โOne of the many hazards of socializing with vampires,โ Jacob said, shrugging. โIt makes you smell bad. A minor hazard, comparatively.โ
I glared at him. โI only smell bad to you, Jake.โ He grinned. โSee you around, Bells.โ
โAre you leaving?โ
โHeโs waiting for me to go. I can hear him outside.โ โOh.โ
โIโll go out the back,โ he said, and then he paused. โHold up a sec โ hey, do you think you can come to La Push tonight? Weโre having a bonfire party. Emily will be there, and you could meet Kim . . . And I know Quil wants to see you, too. Heโs pretty peeved that you found out before he did.โ I grinned at that. I could just imagine how that would have irked Quil
โ Jacobโs little human gal pal down with the werewolves while he was still clueless. And then I sighed. โYeah, Jake, I donโt know about that. See, itโs a little tense right now โ
โCโmon, you think somebodyโs going to get past all โ all six of us?โ There was a strange pause as he stuttered over the end of his question.
I wondered if he had trouble saying the wordย werewolfย aloud, the way I often had difficulty withย vampire.
His big dark eyes were full of unashamed pleading. โIโll ask,โ I said doubtfully.
He made a noise in the back of his throat. โIs he your warden, now, too? You know, I saw this story on the news last week about controlling, abusive teenage relationships and โโ
โOkay!โ I cut him off, and then shoved his arm. โTime for the werewolf to get out!โ
He grinned. โBye, Bells. Be sure you askย permission.โ
He ducked out the back door before I could find something to throw at him. I growled incoherently at the empty room.
Seconds after he was gone, Edward walked slowly into the kitchen, raindrops glistening like diamonds set into the bronze of his hair. His eyes were wary.
โDid you two get into a fight?โ he asked.
โEdward!โ I sang, throwing myself at him.
โHi, there.โ He laughed and wrapped his arms around me. โAre you trying to distract me? Itโs working.โ
โNo, I didnโt fight with Jacob. Much. Why?โ
โI was just wondering why you stabbed him. Not that I object.โ With his chin, he gestured to the knife on the counter.
โDang! I thought I got everything.โ
I pulled away from him and ran to put the knife in the sink before I doused it with bleach.
โI didnโt stab him,โ I explained as I worked. โHe forgot he had a knife in his hand.โ
Edward chuckled. โThatโs not nearly as fun as the way I imagined it.โ โBe nice.โ
He took a big envelope from his jacket pocket and tossed it on the counter. โI got your mail.โ
โAnything good?โ โIย think so.โ
My eyes narrowed suspiciously at his tone. I went to investigate.
Heโd folded the legal-sized envelope in half. I smoothed it open, surprised at the weight of the expensive paper, and read the return address.
โDartmouth? Is this a joke?โ
โIโm sure itโs an acceptance. It looks exactly like mine.โ โGood grief, Edward โ what did youย do?โ
โI sent in your application, thatโs all.โ
โI may not be Dartmouth material, but Iโm not stupid enough to believeย that.โ
โDartmouth seems to think that youโre Dartmouth material.โ
I took a deep breath and counted slowly to ten. โThatโs very generous of them,โ I finally said. โHowever, accepted or not, there is still the minor matter of tuition. I canโt afford it, and Iโm not letting you throw away enough money to buy yourself another sports car just so that I can pretend to go to Dartmouth next year.โ
โI donโt need another sports car. And you donโt have to pretend anything,โ he murmured. โOne year of college wouldnโt kill you. Maybe youโd even like it. Just think about it, Bella. Imagine how excited Charlie and Renรฉe would be. โ
His velvet voice painted the picture in my head before I could block it. Of course Charlie would explode with pride โ no one in the town of Forks would be able to escape the fallout from his excitement. And Renรฉe would
be hysterical with joy at my triumph โ though sheโd swear she wasnโt at all surprised. . . .
I tried to shake the image out of my head. โEdward. Iโm worried about living through graduation, let alone this summer or next fall.โ
His arms wrapped around me again. โNo one is going to hurt you. You have all the time in the world.โ
I sighed. โIโm mailing the contents of my bank account to Alaska tomorrow. Itโs all the alibi I need. Itโs far enough away that Charlie wonโt expect a visit until Christmas at the earliest. And Iโm sure Iโll think of some excuse by then. You know,โ I teased halfheartedly, โthis whole secrecy and deception thing is kind of a pain.โ
Edwardโs expression hardened. โIt gets easier. After a few decades, everyone you know is dead. Problem solved.โ
I flinched.
โSorry, that was harsh.โ
I stared down at the big white envelope, not seeing it. โBut still true.โ โIf I get this resolved, whatever it is weโre dealing with, will you
pleaseย considerย waiting?โ โNope.โ
โAlways so stubborn.โ โYep.โ
The washing machine thumped and stuttered to a halt.
โStupid piece of junk,โ I muttered as I pulled away from him. I moved the one small towel that had unbalanced the otherwise empty machine, and started it again.
โThis reminds me,โ I said. โCould you ask Alice what she did with my stuff when she cleaned my room? I canโt find it anywhere.โ
He looked at me with confused eyes. โAlice cleaned your room?โ
โYeah, I guess thatโs what she was doing. When she came to get my pajamas and pillow and stuff to hold me hostage.โ I glowered at him briefly. โShe picked up everything that was lying around, my shirts, my socks, and I donโt know where she put them.โ
Edward continued to look confused for one short moment, and then, abruptly, he was rigid.
โWhen did you notice your things were missing?โ โWhen I got back from the fake slumber party. Why?โ
โI donโt think Alice took anything. Not your clothes, or your pillow. The things that were taken, these were things youโd worn . . . and touched .
. . and slept on?โ
โYes. What is it, Edward?โ
His expression was strained. โThings with your scent.โ โOh!โ
We stared into each others eyes for a long moment. โMy visitor,โ I muttered.
โHe was gathering traces . . . evidence. To prove that heโd found you?โ โWhy?โ I whispered.
โI donโt know. But, Bella, I swear Iย willย find out. I will.โ
โI know you will,โ I said, laying my head against his chest. Leaning there, I felt his phone vibrate in his pocket.
He pulled out his phone and glanced at the number. โJust the person I need to talk to,โ he murmured, and then he flipped it open. โCarlisle, I โโ He broke off and listened, his face taut with concentration for a few minutes. โIโll check it out. Listen . . .โ
He explained about my missing things, but from the side I was hearing, it sounded like Carlisle had no insights for us.
โMaybe Iโll go . . . ,โ Edward said, trailing off as his eyes drifted toward me. โMaybe not. Donโt let Emmett go alone, you know how he gets. At least ask Alice keep an eye on things. Weโll figure this out later.โ
He snapped the phone shut. โWhereโs the paper?โ he asked me. โUm, Iโm not sure. Why?โ
โI need to see something. Did Charlie already throw it out?โ โMaybe. โ
Edward disappeared.
He was back in half a second, new diamonds in his hair, a wet newspaper in his hands. He spread it out on the table, his eyes scanning quickly across the headlines. He leaned in, intent on something he was reading, one finger tracing passages that interested him most.
โCarlisleโs right . . . yes very sloppy. Young and crazed? Or a death
wish?โ he muttered to himself.
I went to peek over his shoulder.
The headline of theย Seattle Timesย read: โMurder Epidemic Continues
โ Police Have No New Leads.โ
It was almost the same story Charlie had been complaining about a few weeks ago โ the big-city violence that was pushing Seattle up the national murder hot-spot list. It wasnโt exactly the same story, though. The numbers were a lot higher.
โItโs getting worse,โ I murmured.
He frowned. โAltogether out of control. This canโt be the work of justย oneย newborn vampire. Whatโs going on? Itโs as if theyโve never heard of the Volturi. Which is possible, I guess. No one has explained the rules to them .
. . so who is creating them, then?โ
โThe Volturi?โ I repeated, shuddering.
โThis is exactly the kind of thing they routinely wipe out โ immortals who threaten to expose us. They just cleaned up a mess like this a few years ago in Atlanta, and it hadnโt gotten nearly this bad. They will intervene soon, very soon, unless we can find some way to calm the situation. Iโd really rather they didnโt come to Seattle just now. As long as theyโre this close . . . they might decide to check on you.โ
I shuddered again. โWhat can we do?โ
โWe need to know more before we can decide that. Perhaps if we can talk to these young ones, explain the rules, it can be resolved peacefully.โ He frowned, like he didnโt think the chances of that were good. โWeโll wait until Alice has an idea of whatโs going on. We donโt want to step in until
itโs absolutely necessary. After all, itโs not our responsibility. But itโs good we have Jasper,โ he added, almost to himself. โIf we are dealing with newborns, heโll be helpful.โ
โJasper? Why?โ
Edward smiled darkly. โJasper is sort of an expert on young vampires.โ โWhat do you mean, an expert?โ
โYouโll have to ask him โ the story is involved.โ โWhat a mess,โ I mumbled.
โIt does feel that way, doesnโt it? Like itโs coming at us from all sides these days.โ He sighed. โDo you ever think that your life might be easier if you werenโt in love with me?โ
โMaybe. It wouldnโt be much of a life, though.โ
โFor me,โ he amended quietly. โAnd now, I suppose,โ he continued with a wry smile, โyou have something you want to ask me?โ
I stared at him blankly. โI do?โ
โOr maybe not.โ He grinned. โI was rather under the impression that youโd promised to ask my permission to go to some kind of werewolf soirรฉe tonight.โ
โEavesdropping again?โ
He grinned. โJust a bit, at the very end.โ
โWell, I wasnโt going to ask you anyway. I figured you had enough to stress about.โ
He put his hand under my chin, and held my face so that he could read my eyes. โWould you like to go?โ
โItโs no big thing. Donโt worry about it.โ
โYou donโt have to ask my permission, Bella. Iโm not your father โ thank heaven forย that. Perhaps you should ask Charlie, though.โ
โBut you know Charlie will say yes.โ
โI do have a bit more insight into his probable answer than most people would, itโs true.โ
I just stared at him, trying to understand what he wanted, and trying to put out of my mind the yearning I felt to go to La Push so that I wouldnโt be swayed by my own wishes. It was stupid to want to go hang out with a bunch of big idiot wolf-boys right now when there was so much that was frightening and unexplained going on. Of course, that wasย exactlyย why I wanted to go. I wanted to escape the death threats, for just a few hours . . . to be the less-mature, more-reckless Bella who could laugh it off with Jacob, if only briefly. But that didnโt matter.
โBella,โ Edward said. โI told you that I was going to be reasonable and trust your judgment. I meant that. If you trust the werewolves, then Iโm not going to worry about them.โ
โWow,โ I said, as I had last night.
โAnd Jacobโs right โ about one thing, anyway โ a pack of werewolves ought to be enough to protect even you for one evening.โ
โAre you sure?โ
โOf course. Only . . .โ I braced myself.
โI hope you wonโt mind taking a few precautions? Allowing me to drive you to the boundary line, for one. And then taking a cell phone, so that Iโll know when to pick you up?โ
โThat sounds . . . very reasonable.โ
โExcellent.โ
He smiled at me, and I could see no trace of apprehension in his jewel- like eyes.
To no oneโs surprise, Charlie had no problem at all with me going to La Push for a bonfire. Jacob crowed with undisguised exultation when I called to give him the news, and he seemed eager enough to embrace Edwardโs safety measures. He promised to meet us at the line between territories at six.
I had decided, after a short internal debate, that I would not sell my motorcycle. I would take it back to La Push where it belonged and, when I no longer needed it anymore . . . well, then, I would insist that Jacob profit from his work somehow. He could sell it or give it to a friend. It didnโt matter to me.
Tonight seemed like a good opportunity to return the bike to Jacobโs garage. As gloomy as I was feeling about things lately, every day seemed like a possible last chance. I didnโt have time to procrastinate any task, no matter how minor.
Edward only nodded when I explained what I wanted, but I thought I saw a flicker of consternation in his eyes, and I knew he was no happier about the idea of me on a motorcycle than Charlie was.
I followed him back to his house, to the garage where Iโd left the bike. It wasnโt until I pulled the truck in and got out that I realized the consternation might not be entirely about my safety this time.
Next to my little antique motorcycle, overshadowing it, was another vehicle. To call this other vehicle a motorcycle hardly seemed fair, since it didnโt seem to belong to the same family as my suddenly shabby-looking bike.
It was big and sleek and silver and โ even totally motionless โ it looked fast.
โWhat isย that?โ
โNothing,โ Edward murmured. โIt doesnโtย lookย like nothing.โ
Edwardโs expression was casual; he seemed determined to blow it off. โWell, I didnโt know if you were going to forgive your friend, or he you,
and I wondered if you would still want to ride your bike anyway. It sounded like it was something that you enjoyed. I thought I could go with you, if you wished.โ He shrugged.
I stared at the beautiful machine. Beside it, my bike looked like a broken tricycle. I felt a sudden wave of sadness when I realized that this was not a bad analogy for the way I probably looked next to Edward.
โI wouldnโt be able to keep up with you,โ I whispered.
Edward put his hand under my chin and pulled my face around so that he could see it straight on. With one finger, he tried to push the corner of my mouth up.
โIโd keep pace with you, Bella.โ โThat wouldnโt be much fun for you.โ
โOf course it would, if we were together.โ
I bit my lip and imagined it for a moment. โEdward, if you thought I was going too fast or losing control of the bike or something, what would you do?โ
He hesitated, obviously trying to find the right answer. I knew the truth: heโd find some way to save me before I crashed.
Then he smiled. It looked effortless, except for the tiny defensive tightening of his eyes.
โThis is something you do with Jacob. I see that now.โ
โItโs just that, well, I donโt slow him down so much, you know. I could try, I guess. โ
I eyed the silver motorcycle doubtfully.
โDonโt worry about it,โ Edward said, and then he laughed lightly. โI saw Jasper admiring it. Perhaps itโs time he discovered a new way to travel. After all, Alice has her Porsche now.โ
โEdward, I โโ
He interrupted me with a quick kiss. โI said not to worry. But would you do something for me?โ
โWhatever you need,โ I promised quickly.
He dropped my face and leaned over the far side of the big motorcycle, retrieving something he had stashed there.
He came back with one object that was black and shapeless, and another that was red and easily identifiable.
โPlease?โ he asked, flashing the crooked smile that always destroyed my resistance.
I took the red helmet, weighing it in my hands. โIโll look stupid.โ
โNo, youโll look smart. Smart enough not to get yourself hurt.โ He threw the black thing, whatever it was, over his arm and then took my face in his hands. โThere are things between my hands right now that I canโt live without. You could take care of them.โ
โOkay, fine. Whatโs that other thing?โ I asked suspiciously.
He laughed and shook out some kind of padded jacket. โItโs a riding jacket. I hear road rash is quite uncomfortable, not that I would know myself.โ
He held it out for me. With a deep sigh, I flipped my hair back and stuffed the helmet on my head. Then I shoved my arms through the sleeves of the jacket. He zipped me in, a smile playing around the corners of his lips, and took a step back.
I felt bulky.
โBe honest, how hideous do I look?โ
He took another step back and pursed his lips. โThat bad, huh?โ I muttered.
โNo, no, Bella. Actually . . .โ he seemed to be struggling for the right word. โYou look . . . sexy.โ
I laughed out loud. โRight.โ โVery sexy, really.โ
โYou are just saying that so that Iโll wear it,โ I said. โBut thatโs okay.
Youโre right, itโs smarter.โ
He wrapped his arms around me and pulled me against his chest. โYouโre silly. I suppose thatโs part of your charm. Though, Iโll admit it, this helmet does have its drawbacks.โ
And then he pulled the helmet off so that he could kiss me.
As Edward drove me toward La Push a little while later, I realized that this unprecedented situation felt oddly familiar. It took me a moment of thought to pinpoint the source of the dรฉjร vu.
โYou know what this reminds me of?โ I asked. โItโs just like when I was a kid and Renรฉe would pass me off to Charlie for the summer. I feel
like a seven-year-old.โ Edward laughed.
I didnโt mention it out loud, but the biggest difference between the two circumstances was that Renรฉe and Charlie had been on better terms.
About halfway to La Push, we rounded the corner and found Jacob leaning against the side of the red Volkswagen heโd built for himself out of scraps. Jacobโs carefully neutral expression dissolved into a smile when I waved from the front seat.
Edward parked the Volvo thirty yards away.
โCall me whenever youโre ready to come home,โ he said. โAnd Iโll be here.โ
โI wonโt be out late,โ I promised.
Edward pulled the bike and my new gear out of the trunk of his car โ Iโd been quite impressed that it had all fit. But it wasnโt so hard to manage when you were strong enough to juggle full-sized vans, let alone small motorcycles.
Jacob watched, making no move to approach, his smile gone and his dark eyes indecipherable.
I tucked the helmet under my arm and threw the jacket across the seat. โDo you have it all?โ Edward asked.
โNo problem,โ I assured him.
He sighed and leaned toward me. I turned my face up for a goodbye peck, but Edward took me by surprise, fastening his arms tightly around me and kissing me with as much enthusiasm as he had in the garage โ before long, I was gasping for air.
Edward laughed quietly at something, and then let me go. โGoodbye,โ he said. โI really do like the jacket.โ
As I turned away from him, I thought I saw a flash of something in his eyes that I wasnโt supposed to see. I couldnโt tell for sure what it was exactly. Worry, maybe. For a second I thought it was panic. But I was probably just making something out of nothing, as usual.
I could feel his eyes on my back as I pushed my bike toward the invisible vampire-werewolf treaty line to meet Jacob.
โWhatโs all that?โ Jacob called to me, his voice wary, scrutinizing the motorcycle with an enigmatic expression.
โI thought I should put this back where it belongs,โ I told him.
He pondered that for one short second, and then his wide smile stretched across his face.
I knew the exact point that I was in werewolf territory because Jacob shoved away from his car and loped quickly over to me, closing the distance in three long strides. He took the bike from me, balanced it on the kickstand, and grabbed me up in another vice-tight hug.
I heard the Volvoโs engine growl, and I struggled to get free. โCut it out, Jake!โ I gasped breathlessly.
He laughed and set me down. I turned to wave goodbye, but the silver car was already disappearing around the curve in the road.
โNice,โ I commented, allowing some acid to leak into my voice. His eyes widened in false innocence. โWhat?โ
โHeโs being pretty dang pleasant about this; you donโt need to push your luck.โ
He laughed again, louder than before โ he found what Iโd said very funny indeed. I tried to see the joke as he walked around the Rabbit to hold my door open for me.
โBella,โ he finally said โ still chuckling โ as he shut the door behind me, โyou canโt push what you donโt have.โ